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I
have been self employed as a transformational therapist
since the end of 1997. Prior to this I was Manager
of the Bio-Medical Mass Spectrometry Unit within the
Medical and Dental Schools of the University of Newcastle
Upon Tyne in the UK. During my 16 years there, I worked in
various capacities as a supporting Research Scientist
particularly within the Biological and Medical areas. I am
co-author to various scientific papers in the fields of
Child Health, Metabolic Medicine, Environmental Biology,
Plant Biology, Microbiology, Diabetes, Sample Analysis,
Mass Spectrometry and more. I also ran my own business at
the same time writing software for statistical and
graphical analysis of research data. You could say that at that time
I was characterized as being very rational, logical,
academic and ordered about my approach to life.
This approach was
somewhat blown away In early 1995 by a 'life changing
experience'. That is I spontaneously experienced accessing
and interacting directly with many Beings from the nature
spirit realm. For a full description of this experience Click
Here. This was the start of a spiritual awakening. For me
it confirmed the feelings of limitations that I had been
experiencing both in science and life in general.
Awakenings whether spiritual or otherwise basically kick
you up the backside. They let you know directly that
things are not as you or society in general thinks they
are. You can approach a spiritual awakening as a Divine Revelation
and go on a crusade, you can react to them as a mental
aberration to quickly dismiss or you can take them as an
intense realization or soul journey and change your life accordingly. For
myself, I reacted with wonder and also the question
"If these areas (the nature spirit realm) exist but
are foolishly dismissed or ridiculed or feared by both
science, contemporary religion and society in general
then!!! WHAT ELSE IS THERE???".
I wanted to know
everything directly. This was one of the reasons I entered
science, it was also why I found science so limited, dry
and un-empowering. If science was about exploring and
confirming what is and what works rather than what only
fits into the (severely limited) currently accepted
scientific model then we would be living in a very
different world indeed. So, my spiritual awakening was the start of
a continuous awakening, every week, every day, sometimes
every hour there is a new revelation and of course another
belief, knowing, realization or model would be shattered
in the process.
I came to
understand that we experience life through the filters and
blinkers of our beliefs, mindsets, conditioned reactions
and so on. Consciously or otherwise, these create
expectations and or preconceptions which then act as the
defining parameters for what we experience, and hence our
limits and boundaries. The more I could release myself
from what 'I think is', 'believe' or 'must be' or 'should
be' or 'is obvious' or 'common sense' then the more I have
a chance to experience something different and perhaps as
it really is? In other words this LETTING GO increases my
choices in what I can attract as possibilities and hence
what I am able to experience (manifest or create). It is
said that "seeing is believing", but in truth
your reality avoids presenting you with what you aren't
even willing to see openly.
This
increased flexibility to create, manifest and hence
experience is not through control but through release from
a limited range of choices which then provides greater
possibilities. So, how could I release myself from the
tight grip of beliefs, mindsets, conditioned reactions and
so on?
Trying to
change by mental focus and hard work is both difficult and
only works up to a point. So, for example I used to have a
stammer or speech block which took me six years to crack.
This change was planned and the plan was consciously
executed using will power and determination. However to
release myself from the more subtle but deeper emotional
blocks required that I get to the underlying causes and
deal with them at their point of origin which was in
another existence on a much higher energy realm. This took
me a further ten years to reach and resolve.
I used to
relate to my experiences and to those around me from a
rational or shall we say mental perspective for the most
part (as do most of us). This awakening was the start of
me learning to feel and to feel in new ways and to deeper
levels. The process of change and release from limitations
and traumas and so forth can only be done by feeling.
Nothing can be denied; anger, fear, despair are not to be
suppressed but deeply felt so that you can free yourself
from the underlying causes and learnt responses. Most
people here (on earth) are dead when it comes to feeling
themselves. This also includes most who think that they
are feeling as most feelings that people feel are
automatically generated responses to particular
circumstances and not true flowing (in the moment)
feelings. This is what I am getting to. I have been a
master of suppression and am now becoming a master of
Feeling / Being.
The
process to release myself from limits, traumas, faulty
conceptions, beliefs and so on required that I plumb the depths of
myself, but paradoxically I could only go as deep as my
current beliefs, expectations or preconceptions allowed.
To illustrate this with a simple
example when I first started I had a particular support
team in spirit (I use this term rather than guides as the
latter holds more limitations). I also use the term
"spirit" as accessing and working with Beings
from beyond need have no spiritual function whatsoever
(contrary to what many think or believe). This team was
composed of earth based beings, I had no angels as I held
negative preconceptions of them. When I released myself
from these preconceptions then the next spirit support
team included some angels. As (on other levels) I have
been / am an angel then this was an essential but small
step for me to start to be able to explore these parts of
myself.
This
process continued not only with regards those that I work
with but also with what I understood I had to work on to
release myself from my own limitations. As this journey
proceeded then, with the goal to search for and explore my
limits and to find means to move beyond them then I was
very quickly moved beyond information and paths on this
level. More and more my training came from beyond and not
here. This was partially to push my level of understanding
beyond the usual conceptions presented here. From the time
of the original opening up experience I only read about
six books over a six year period that had relevance to
what was happening to me. I realized later that had I read
more or had better contact with other
"spiritually" aware people then I would have
been very confused and disorientated as very little of
what I have experienced is either documented or would have
been accepted or understood elsewhere particularly and
paradoxically by so
called spiritual people.
For
example my support teams would change every six weeks or
so. This was not surprising as one of the directives each
team had was to look for the next team to facilitate the
next shift. During particularly intense periods teams
would only last a few days before moving on. This steady
change facilitated me to remain detached and helped me to
more easily let go of those that were instrumental in
giving me not only support and encouragement but also the
energy means to make these movements. Over a five year
period I worked with literally and consciously 10,000's of
different Being types from a huge range of environments,
realities and dimensions through progressively higher and
higher levels. Et's, Angels, Archangels, Star Beings,
Nature Spirits, Ascended Masters to name but a very few
were some of the earlier lower level ones.
Another
area that I could have become very confused with had I
bought into the negativity and misinformation presented
elsewhere is regards entity attachments. For a fair period
I spent days at a time releasing entity attachments,
sometimes up to a hundred in a day. This continued with
literally 1000's of attachments most of which were dealt
with by conscious communication and direct exploration of
the existences involved to identify the cause and resolve
them. This process was extremely hard, on the one hand
because I had very little support. That is, the best
facilitators that I knew for entity release would have
been confounded by both my approach, my somewhat inherent
understanding and trust of my own process as well as the
numbers involved and the complexities often required to
make a fully and honouring release. It was also
difficult dealing with beings that you have no conceptions
of from bizarre situations that you are only just
remembering. For example on one weekend I dealt with about
10 shape shifter entities from another planetary existence
simultaneously. As these types of Being are about ten
times stronger than attachments from a human embodied existence
they WERE NOT FUN, rather they were frightening,
disorientating, confusing and physically completely
shattering. Through these experiences I came to understand
that we each (by and large) have literally 1000's of
entity attachments from all our interactions and
existences on all levels. That these attachments moreover
are rarely expressed, that is for the most part you are
unaware of these attachments and experience no
interference from them - they do however exist. As my
intention was to resolve all my separations then SO IT WAS
and hence all my attachments from all levels have been
presented to me for me to resolve.
The same
happened for integration of soul parts and fragments. In
fact as time goes on then ALL THAT I AM is being
integrated and harmonized and made AS ONE. The term
integration is a poor one for this process, for lower
level soul fragment forms this seems to be what happens, but for the higher
pure soul forms I seem to be more in the form of binding
associations. So, I exist here but also parts of me also
exist elsewhere simultaneously. The part of me here it
seems (contrary to what is said elsewhere) is the driving
force behind this movement and is bringing by example and
sheer focus and determination ALL PARTS into harmony and
UNITY.
I also
found that most of what I was working on to start with was
from embodied existences and was karmic in nature. Within
about a year I was resolving traumas, restrictions and so
on from environments that had nothing to do with karma.
There are a huge number of energy environments with
different operating parameters and presented experiences.
The lower level embodied existences have the least
influence over your soul form. So, I worked back through
finer and higher existences until I got back to soul
culture levels. This took about 5 years of focus and sheer
determination, working on myself and making movements
everyday. However even at this level I still
felt some deep restrictions and was appalled to find that
much of my original limitation and trauma came from the
process of my soul birth. I have spent the last 18 months
dealing and shifting the soul incubation and birthing
traumas - very difficult indeed.
When I
say that this process is continuous then that is what I
mean. It is not something that I now have conscious
control of. When I first started I was consciously
spending on average six hours each day to direct,
actively and with immense focus everything I had to facilitate this
movement. After about six months this process was becoming
an unconscious part of my minute by minute, second by
second living experience. So, over another two to three
years the six hours dropped to one hour and for the last
two years I only have to "keep an eye" on this
process and then consciously interject if necessary.
This
process is also internal. It is (from one perspective)
about relating your feeling within to your reactions and
circumstances without. I have spent the last six years on
this internal process, spending much time consciously on
other energy levels resolving conflicts, negotiating
releases from traumas, attachments and limiting agreements
and so on and so on. Each step in this exploration and
movement has brought me increased freedom in my self
expression, relationships, perceptions and how I live my
life not only here but on all levels. It has also brought
me courage, joy, patience, much increased happiness,
fearlessness, wonder, acceptance and awe.
As most
of the internal shifting is now complete or happily
resolving automatically in the background then my wife
(who has experienced virtually the same as me) and I are
now beginning to re-earth ourselves to live and present
what we know here. That is we are bringing the inner
changes and new perspectives to manifest in the outer.
This is essential as although most of the inner limits and
barriers and so on have been shifted up to and including
higher soul forms, my body self in this reality is
constrained by the density and inertia present here. So,
manifesting new choices and presenting a movement beyond
limits requires a different type of perseverance and more
patience.
This
movement on this level has had me emigrating from the UK
to Brasil and presently living in Minas Gerais State
within Brasil. Where Cris and I have 25,000m2 of
tropical woodlands, waterfalls, cave, monkeys and more. We
have just finished building our home - a chalet and we are
now in the process of constructing other buildings for
people to come and experience what in the end will be a
magic, multidimensional, soul evolving and transforming
place of immense possibilities. Perhaps we will see you
there?
Clive
S Hetherington
To read
Cris's Journey Click Here.
We have a
separate web site covering our land, space and project.
Click here
to
have a look.
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© Clive Shane Hetherington & TrueSpirit Jan 2001 and on.
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