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    • Clive May 13, 2017 at 2:22 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasHi Rup, most of the people coming to this site / working with the focuses are from one culture which is badly written about in the Frank Herbert's 'Dune' books, key people (whom I call the MD'b twins) were set up and made to appear to have betrayed their culture (which they didn't). Basically some of the MD'b twins were auto duplicated and 're-programmined/adjusted/given plausible back stories' as part of making/having them 'WORK' for those that built for the EAAS system we are living within. Recently (about a week ago) we found that another set of people from an Asian culture had, had the same done to themselves. I.e. they have an equivalent 'shit pile' of management/suppression applied to themselves as part of having them also work to build the EAAS system. It's interesting 'you' as Rup 'Singh' are here and also a Harry Singh as well as a Cathy 'Shah', all three of you are part of that 'auto' kidnapped set of Asian's!!! Anyway we know about this set and more so it's back story now so they are 'on the radar' as having an equivalent shit pile to the MD'b twins . . . all of these people (in the original circumstances) were all dumped on an ice hell world within the original MV, i.e. as a complete piss take they were treated as 'betrayers' when in fact it was they that had been betrayed. Also, because I figured out the 'dumped' on ice hell worlds a long time ago they were rescued quite a while ago and they are also working as part of the wsw teams outside to help sort this entire mess out i.e. us in here and them out there!!!
    • tom May 11, 2017 at 3:10 pm on Exercise to Target your ‘Artificial/Fake Realities’ Managing/Sabotaging EFFORTSHi clive. These articles are completely blowing my reality view apart... what I've been dealing with the past 5 years since I turned 17 is extreme harassment and beratement from my ex spirit guides. I left their group, since then they've been destroying me Emotionally and spiritually. I look forward to getting out of this place so I can get back there and kick their false light asses back to wherever they came from...
    • Tommy May 5, 2017 at 11:22 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasI already wrote this in another comment there is something causing me to misinterpret the focusses im reading it differently then your wrote them there is something that is editing what im allowed to read understand or do when i try to do the focusses. There is a difference in what it says its like its very difficult for me to write this but a the focus i did 5 minutes ago is letting me read different things then two weeks ago. I did the new focus first after that i tried the second one below and i was able to read something entirely different as before. Or understand it better i guess. Dont know if this is helpfull.
    • Kelli April 24, 2017 at 9:47 pm on Examples of a Virtual Reality Environment Component Translation Accuracy & Consistency Through Time ‘Checkers’ ExperiencesI don't get a crabby feel but sometimes when I close my eyes I can see shadows of what seems to be mermaids swimming all around me.
    • Aaron Porter April 22, 2017 at 3:36 am on Would Copied Simulated People have Embedded Expectations of being able to fly: Can you Fly? Why Would ANYONE think they can FLY?I have the expectation that I can fly, but it's because I do all the time. I'm so used to being able to fly in other dimensions that being in this body here I find extremely debilitating. It's strange that when I'm in other dimensions the local residents of each dimension do not seem to have the capability to fly. They are almost always shocked when they see me flying about.
    • Radu April 21, 2017 at 3:42 pm on How many Different Human Memory ‘Recall’ Variations would Simulation Software have to Decide Between?I think the deja vu phenomenon is actually a memory reset that left a residue that we perceive. And I think everyone has had those moments like wtf I somehow already did this. Another odd thing I noticed is that your feelings are manipulated when sleeping so you wake up frightened or tensed or worried or on rare occasions happy for no apparent reason. And the reason is in the dreams you don't remember. On the few occasions I could recall parts of them I saw scenarios in which for instance my mom would say to me bad things that she wouldn't normally do and those would in turn anger me and I would ofc wake up feeling mad or whatever. I also noticed that the dream-scenarios like to determine the point at which you lose your temper or become frightened. So all these combined led me to the shocking conclusion that SOME of my FEELINGS are NOT MY OWN. Now, how fucked up is this? I mean most of our decisions in daily life is made upon how we feel. But we are induced certain feelings without having memory to the cause.
    • rudolfcabo April 13, 2017 at 11:28 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/Traumassim gave me some serious anxiety just thinking about doing focus 5. lasted about an hour and a half. it also kept me busy all morning with small irritating stuff. wouldn't let me post either!
    • Rup Singh April 11, 2017 at 8:11 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasI know your busy, i have had dreams of large volumes of beings/people stuck under the earth/layers. Have looked into this or come across this with regards your experiences. laying down just to relax and saw someone put hammers and tools into my stomach regions and pull out a sword. Was watching sort of flowing particles (the flow coinsided with the focal point in the eyes looked as if they were going into the eye, done by just looking into street lit room and seeing what patterns the mind picks out)at night in the dark and saw them organising and fell a sleep, in the morning some being picked some shiny thing out my head and said this will make a nice brain for his wife???wtf
    • Jean April 6, 2017 at 11:15 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasI did the focus statements twice yesterday and later in my sleep, I saw one grey-white figure (just head and torso) lean over me and then a few minutes later, I saw three figures (again just heads and torsos) lean over me to assess me. I think I have been marked? I also feel desperation from the matrix.
    • Clive April 4, 2017 at 2:11 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasHi Olivia (all regulars read this) anyone that in doing any paragraph and particularly any of the 'Optional' ones that can feel significant things happening / reactions to those / ANY specific paragraphs then PRINT THEM OUT and do those specific ones regularly. Everyone that is simulating someone that worked on the EAAS project (which will include many that are doing the exercises on this site here) will have a lot that relates to the 'Optional' VR paragraphs. Olivia, you might be simulating someone that scanned / edited peoples memories (read about or maybe watch Robin Williams 'Final Cut' movie: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0364343/?ref_=nm_flmg_act_31)!!!
    • Clive April 3, 2017 at 5:13 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasHi, Tommy, Melissa, Ouendy/N/Iris / other DollHouse people this focus will be the best for these specific 'DH/Imprinted with other peoples EXPERIENCES' issues as it's likely not been possible until this specific focus to be able to identify and isolate never mind then start to separate out the Doll House imprints of other peoples experiences 'SHIT'. So I'd recommend all DH people this focus regularly / as nudged as each DH person doing this will be helping to push these lines to resolve these issues ASAP!!!!
    • Olivia April 3, 2017 at 2:42 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasRead through this earlier, and then a couple more times before I did the exercise. Found it quite intense in terms of was "drawn in/sucked in" almost as if in a vacuum. The pressure changed, whole body went heavy, face and hands cold, lips and tongue as if sucking an ice lollie. I was in the middle of an egg shaped spac, felt as if I was spinning so fast. Then realised it wasn't me spinning, but lots of screens/images/movies (?) of my life/ves (?) spinning around me anti-clockwise. I couldn't stop them to get a clear image, so it looked like lots of colours and bits, as if fast forwarding or rewinding a film but extra quickly. Ears were ringing so loudly and eyes drawn deep to th back of my head. Then Something changed, a crack in the space, a change of pressure. Couldn't grasp it. Felt nauseaous, as if I had actually been spinning. Felt sedated too, which was kind of forced pleasantness, but not, because I couldn't move my body, but my mind was aware of what was going on. Like sleep paralysis but I didn't "mind" (?) huh? I can't stand that feeling. Took considerable effort to get out of it and move my body. Mouth still feels really cold, and I am feeling really anxious (in the background) but there is also excitement in there too. Left with internal tremor too. Thanks for everything.
    • Tommy April 3, 2017 at 2:11 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasFirst thing what happened two minutes after i started the focus room-mate came in. I feel a lot of stuff from others. Didn't manage to completely connect to what exactly happened notice i get a lot of associations fed ideas like ow it could be this or that. Like wait a minute Ehm likely all the crap of others that might be causing issues influencing my train of thoughts. Like its impossible to solve this just for one person but everything is interconnected. Lots of strange bodily sensations after finishing the focus. Its weird because every time i interact with someone my room-mates my parents my friends random people in the streets its like a part of me dives in them. That im being made to feel what they feel. I tried the last focus what causes stuff to be imprinted. Doesn't make it go away.
    • Clive April 3, 2017 at 10:43 am on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesHi Annabelle / everyone, we are still getting 'pockets' of restore and new 'managing' shit activating 'occasionally', although it's getting less and less. Today as I write this there is nothing 'independent' i.e. initiated by the simOS or MVOS to fuck up people. BUT there might be some activate tomorrow that we've not been able to pre-detect!!! So, in a general sense 'shit' effects are like to be 'managing / suppressing' effects still encoded into the scripts that re getting 'worried' about our progress. I.e. it'll be getting harder for scripted shit to stay hidden and particularly with the latest 'progress' (explained in the intro of exercise-9. Sorry, everyone I'm 'really/seriously' busy, no time to 'think about / answer' comments, just focused on stripping our fake reality down / make sure we can 'sort every last thing out' ASAP!!!
    • rudolfcabo April 2, 2017 at 12:16 am on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISE-5: Engaging with Implanted Music, Song Playing & Integrated Mood, Emotional, Inner State Influenceras vr focus #5 is the last one i worked with, i'm posting my latest experience here. after i did the sleep focus, sim stopped messing around with my sleep...it is however back at it again. last night my right forearm and left thigh felt cold and i could defenitely sense being worked on in those areas. i feel watched in my appt especially the kitchen and the balcony. i sense beings and can see gray shapes out of the corners of my eyes. while working on something in the kitchen, my lower back felt cold and again i could sense some prodding. went to my balcony and the pillow in my back felt cold and the probing continued. it was 80 degrees out and even in the winter when temperatures go down to the high 50's, my pillow never feels cold.....ever.
    • Nyssa March 27, 2017 at 8:49 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesI keep trying to understand what’s happening, why I’m in such pain, why its so unending and echoing within my body and life. When my pain from my recent physical injury has felt manageable/been medicated to a bearable level, I’ve kept trying the “IMPORTANT – Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiences & Symptomatic ‘Effects’ focus (plus other focuses), and the more I’ve done it, the more I’ve become aware that ALL of my script is ‘shit.’ After doing the focus many dozens of time, I began taking the timeline back, further and further, until ‘the beginning of all time or none-time’. I feel like I was originally hooked up to a trauma investigation research system, feelings of having to live out others’ trauma / scripted trauma for research purposes. A feeling of this horror continuing on and on and on for untold eons (feels like it is likely far longer than anyone could imagine), and of being (horribly) aware while being imprisoned thusly (although I sense numerous massive attempts made to blank and lobotomize me/others whom were subjected to this, and other attempts to block any ‘self’ or ‘real identity’ awareness). Realizations and trauma from having to live ‘Nyssa’ and ‘Chani(?)’ and other hellish scripts, and that my own trauma and own real self/identity were stuffed down/ “not allowed”. This feels like it’s playing out ‘here’ where I struggle with/ feel ‘not allowed’ to give feedback / share impressions that aren’t part of the research project ie part of these scripted experiences. There is a vast body of experiences I’ve had and impressions I’ve gotten from focuses that feel ‘impossible to communicate’ – I’ve had to target this feeling dead-on multiple times just to be able to write this comment about ‘not being able to express this’. Also, attempts to speak up about what the REAL me is REALLY experiencing, (ie, the REAL me that is experiencing the ‘having to experience the “Nyssa/others scripted experiences” ‘) feel silenced, muffled, not allowed, and have also been reacted against STRONGLY ‘in real life’ over the past couple years when I DID try to communicate a small piece of it; I’ve written about these previously. In other words, I feel like I can share the Nyssa/others scripted experiences that I’m going through here (which is extreme and inescapable), but not what I am REALLY going through behind the scenes (even more extreme and inescapable). Then, feelings that re “the MV Nyssa /others” scripted experiences, I feel like it plays out like an ‘MV sink hole’, where shit rolls more and more preferentially to me. I connect to attitudes of ‘she can handle it’, ‘she’s made for it’, ‘she’s agreed to do this’ (more like FORCED, imprisoned, and brainwashed, but their attitudes seem to ignore that ‘little’ fact), ‘she’s designed to handle trauma’, etc, so more and more of trauma rolls to me, like how a planet folds and bends the fabric of space, creating gravitational fields that pulls objects toward them. So I’m feeling multiple layers of extreme trauma: – that of being a massive gravitational field like a giant planet or a black hole, designed to suck out people’s trauma “because I’m designed for it” (those assholes); – that of being part of a trauma research system, waiting for another batch of scripted trauma to be ported to me for me to ‘experience’ and ‘research’ and ‘provide analysis of’ back to the research controller (more assholes); – and that of the real me, imprisoned under all of this. The real me whom is NOT my script – and is also AWARE that I am not my script(s) – but whose trauma shall-NOT-be-expressed because it’s not part of this shitty unending MV experiment analysis. So I feel “not allowed” to speak of it for fear of ‘brutal retaliation’, and thus I feel trauma from ‘being aware of the horrors I’m being subjected to while I’m experiencing them’, of being aware I can’t escape the shitty script that’s inflicting the horrors, and of not being permitted to access nor express nor permanently deal with any of my own personal trauma from any of this. (Finally accessing this trauma today uncovered a raw grief that cannot be described in words) ^ I suppose the bright spot in this is I was able to keep digging and digging, targeting these effects over many many sessions, going further and further back, to be able to write about this ‘effect’. So that’s progress! Note: for the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m back to ‘deconstructing’ and ‘processing data’ about what I’m experiencing. Which feels in part ‘bizarrely self-referential’ (ie processing data about my experiences of being used as a research tool that deconstructs scripted experiences and processes them into data), but also seems to point to a new level that’s finally beginning to be accessed.
    • Joey March 27, 2017 at 6:11 am on What Defines ‘ME’, HEALING EXERCISE-2 – A New, More ‘Passive’ Approach to Identifying ‘EVERYTHING’ Contributing to ‘YOU’Wow, very impressive. Im just done with 3 for, but i need to get my head free, so i writing this for now. First of all, these exercises remind me a lot of a te hnique called BSFF - Be set free fast, which helped me alot, awakened me, like 8,9 years ago. Where this technique is behind yours, is that it seems to just target emotions. Where it seems ahead of yours (i dont know, what comes in future exercises) is that it directly targets to delete, reprogram, release, harmonize, whatever is the problem and anchors this program, to be easily triggered anytime. If you dont know that, check it out, im pretty sure, you can merge both works very well.. Ok, now my real experiences. Im recognising, how some programs have been installed in my energetic system, to alternate my reality. I was like free from the matrix some years ago, using a "program" i call unconditional love. But i didnt really understand my status back then. Just, that i could jnfluence "reality" a lot. Then i was hijacked again. But the new soft and hardware was not deletable for me at that point. Im still not done. Its not like this is totally new info to me, but your system, your mask, your point of view, gives me a very easy to understand grip to handle this. I see a lot of robotic machines. Some part of me says, that were actually theyr creation, but we surpassed them by actually coming alive, now they try everything to control us.. In the part 3 times repeatable about external storages, i see like cables going to this storages. I got intuition, that when imalot around machines, i take on that energy and therefore are easier to be controlled/programmed. On the other side, i could take on more energy of the nature, which finally is also a machine, but way more complex... Alive. Im remebering some part of the emerald tablets of thoth, when he says, on higher dimensions, you have to use other ways of travel, otherwise the guardians catch. I cant qoute the specific words right now. My analogy, metaphor would be, from digital to analog, from machine to living being. So theres like a fight starting for my body energetic machine. Im reprogramming myself on a new language, they cant access. But they send alot at me. There comes the usual, "oh my god, this a huge work, i will finish it later"-program. I actually had it coming yesterday in a long meditation, becore i knew this site, and i had it coming a lot of times before, when i was making big advances in healing. But with your view on things, i can identify it and deal with it. But theres coming more and more at me, so i decide to distract them on theyr stuff. Im manipulating programs that keep other in check and stuff, just to keep them busy and off me.. I always keep offering a truce, they offer me to work with them, but it feels, that would decrease my freedom again, so i deny.. So right now im thinking alot about all this stuff, so im writing it down, to get it out of me, to be less digital and more analog, whe this keeps going.. Greetz
    • alexandre henri March 24, 2017 at 7:11 pm on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-5 – Target what Keeps Me Disengaged From & Manipulated by Trauma & Emotional & Psychological ‘Sore Points & Hurts’okay that was the second focus I made. SOOO HARD to focus! ??? I just don't know where my 'focus' was I feel like it lasted hours to read I still have like difficulties to connect is is like oh shit I don't know. I went to pee after reading it and also I am freezing and looking at the mirror with some like entity in my left eye saying 'I am still here' and then going outside feeling like asleep. I feel like something is processing in my head in background... and some pain in one spot behind the left ear.. well....
    • Rup Singh March 24, 2017 at 7:05 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesHi Clive I was reading your post with regards a comment you made about the christion tech and how there was a second crusade and i remembered a dream where i saw a lot of christian types getting there weapons ready any way i thought of this and i was then concerned that i had seen this. Any way i was thinking of this and i remembered a Swedish/Sweden film about Trolls and in the film there is mention of trolls not liking Christians so i was thinking this when something manifested in front of me and sniffed me and went away,so worried i manifested something that is going to target Christians i sort of imagined and hopefully it turned into scooby doo. Do you have any idea of the visuals because i do get film like scenes playing out. Also i seem to have very little control over the visuals. I was just laying in bed and i see some people dive into me and take something from my heart space. Then saw a visual of my head being taken off and someone pours something into my head. Much like a robot head. I remember reading you had similar problems with regards to movies playing as you were out and about.
    • alexandre henri March 24, 2017 at 2:36 am on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiencesokay. welcome to the matrix. I did this stuff this morning. stumble upon your website yesterday? two days ago? Just read the 'matrix 20pages evidence stuff' well. yesterday, I experimented the xkill phenomena. If you know linux, there is a command of that name that enable you to kill an app cliking on it. that is not supposed to happen in a public library!!! up to having to reboot! so many problem to get concentrated to read yesterday bits here and there of this material... this so smart very intelligent guy. Oh, and this book could help me! gosh not! too old!! oh man... well this morning, the same. I came in the public library primarily to dive in these infos. Maybe two, three hours after browsing everything I can manage to try focus on this; and having SO much difficulties, almost falling asleep.. a bit later so much pain in my ankle.... later so agitated my body wanted to go away... reading the 'big article' three time before realizing I was supposed to read the 'below' and not above this way.. Well the least is to say it is making question some things... I can say I am in individuation protocol, for 6 month now in brazil having worked intensivly with santo daime, leading me to enter other subtilities of the world... glitches? ufos? ghost? I experimented having been possessed by a ghost after having seen him in front of me before, feeling a weird intention to begin with, and then bim! possessed! up to realizing " come on this anxiety shit happening in my head I have processed this already!" making her go away... I have worked with preto velho in la barquinha (you may know), which helped me a lot, along with some remineralisation procedure (drlwilson...) recovering from so much deep shit. but wait... my last session with the preto velho I was about to commit suicide, and he made some stuff telling me to stay eyes closed and guess what - I managed to open them!!! SABOTAGING ?? and then inviting me for some deep work on some date - and guess what - I managed to come one day later - SABOTAGING ? - So to come back to this reading. how come when I try to read the links the connection fail? I am using a computer between ten others all working perfectly! Oh! and now I try the Dan Neiman stuff... vanished from the net? Synchronicities seem to happen.. and still so many shit to clean in me (or issues or whatever calling them; like lack of money, no sex life, lack of grounding ) still feeling strong connections with nature and 'animal helpers' (colibri, blue butterfly...) and what? can I trust them? my work with santo daime helped me a lot to clear negativity issues - using praying, cleaning my spirituality... to what extent? here we are now. I feel like diving in the unknown, like some hardcore pnl... I just hope now it will let pass this comment...
    • Annabelle March 23, 2017 at 7:30 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesManagement seems to have significantly increased in the last week. Many areas I was targeting to include myself, family member and even pet are 80% worse. For the last month, up to last week, there was an improvement that I was happy about. I wonder why this all got worse and feel confused like I am doing something wrong or maybe it never got better – and feel bad for my family member and pet as they would not know why this is happening. I feel now like I have to patch up holes that are leaking causing things to regress. I feel like I need to dig into this and figure out why this is failing. Button pushing by other people is quite bad and synchronistic /weird events have increased as follows: 1. Went into a small produce store to get a papaya for a special recipe I wanted to try – circled the produce section and could not find any. Proceeded to other portions of the store and then was nudged to go back to produce. I saw a basket that I missed the first time, with a sign that said “Papayas” and grabbed one. Once at the check-out, the lady picked it up and asked me “what is this?” I said it is a papaya – and then we looked at each other. It was not a papaya – it was a mango – and I know the difference between these foods I knew what was going on (flash re-played this all in my head) – I said “you have a basket that is labeled papayas that really has mangoes in them”. We walked back to produce and the produce manager said –“I have no idea how that could happen – we have not had papayas for along time and I don’t even know where the sign came from.” 2. Walked past a public snack area with global news blasting on a TV – the commenter said “This world situation is serious – this is not a simulation! People have to follow the rules” 3. Cognitive dissonance - Tried talking to a few people about their way of thinking about medical issues and they really became obstinate and hostile and said – “you can’t honestly believe that - where is your proof!” 4. Within one week 3 good friends became very ill – I felt weird (like this is not going to turn out well/timelines flying by) and one by one, a day and time popped in my head – they all passed exactly on that day and time. (And this has happened to me for decades – very creeped out being able to know when someone is going to pass. 5. A lady plows in front of me at the salad bar – I was irritated - but then – before getting mad - felt - this is not going to turn out well – she got distracted talking to a friend and dropped her phone in the salad dressing and her whole salad all over the floor 6. Took an alternate route home and just as I was driving over a set of railroad tracks, the red lights came on the gate started to come down. Forgot about this the next day and the exact same things happened 7. Increase in traumatic dreams about family members being abusive to me - causing me to wake with a distorted opinion of them
    • Clive March 23, 2017 at 3:21 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesAs you seem to have VR experiences you might find it interesting to try some of the VR exercises which are at the top down on this list here
    • rudolfcabo March 23, 2017 at 12:34 am on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiencesworked with focus 1 of exercise 8 and once in bed, i felt things landing on it and start to work on me. i thought:"sim, knock it off", and it went away. later that night i woke up and felt the same thing. again i told sim to knock it off and not to reengage after i fell asleep. did the sleep infiltration focus today to see if i could stop sim in it's tracks.
    • Nancy March 22, 2017 at 7:03 pm on Exercise to Target your ‘Artificial/Fake Realities’ Managing/Sabotaging EFFORTSArtificial/fake realities exercise: string urge to vomit at reading word FAKE. Throat constricted . Feeling FURY and seeing AI light cables connected to head and shoulder area. Dozens of the. Buzzing in upper body. Mid way through had to fight to stay focused on reading. Idea came to me that detoxing heavy metals, which I am doing now, is attracitng and facilitating AI manipulations. Saw neural lace or filigree AI neural wires in head and throughout neck and shoulders. I just re read what I write and feelings if hopelessness arise.
    • Jean March 22, 2017 at 5:36 am on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesThere seems to be more negative feedback in my daily life when I try to understand the focus statements, more distractions, more brain fog, more negative emotions. It was working really well for 1 week, then backlash, it seems. But I am more motivated to continue, because for one day it worked beautifully, I understood more of what I was doing intuitively. It felt like I could actually make my life better, better 'luck' coming my way.
    • rudolfcabo March 19, 2017 at 9:13 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & Patternssim made me very sleepy working with this focus. i almost trew in the towel a few times but prevailed. nothing visual yet but probably due to weak inner awareness.
    • Tommy March 17, 2017 at 7:20 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesIm pretty much unable to do the focusses properly i blank out distractions put off the whole 9 yards. I get angry unruly and i go into straight up asshole mode. What ever im connecting too im inadequate too properly deal with it remove it i am very immature i go bonkers the shouting in my head get louder i feel like the whole distant manipulation shit show gets worse and my body acts up lots of blocks. I was discribed as someone who has a jekyll and mister hyde traits. Well the focusses bring out hyde and well it isnt fun i turn very manipulative and vengefull i want everyone responsible to fucking bleed for what has been done to me. In that distant shitshow explaination distant shitshow is being possed by others and distant conversations that happen like im telepathic or something its bloody anoying i want to fight back and screw things up for others. Like telepathic warfare you are fucking around with my head cool two can play that game im very petty i just let everyone have a little slice of my madness. Possing me cool i can also do that i just go and sit in your energyfield.
    • Rose March 15, 2017 at 12:54 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesFor many days I have been dreaming very long, very detailed dreams, which have me wake up feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Some of them feel like long 'family sagas' type dramas, not 'my own family' as I know it here, but a mix of people I know and people I don't know and many storylines I don't recognise or feel related to. But also some that I do, like this morning's dream which had lots of 'archetypal (type) symbols' in it and a lot of 'women' stuff and women I 'know' in 'surprising' narratives. I did the "Influence, Infiltration of Sleep, Dreams, Sub Conscious, Symbolic, Archetype & Collective Conscious 'Managing' Influences", which then had me experience a large 'space' which felt 'very Jungian', full of 'archetypes and symbols' and a feelings of 'being in a collective unconsciousness space' in lots of different 'layers', that seemed to 'activate' at different times or circumstances. I felt very 'trapped in there' and it all felt like something that had been 'forced upon me'. And I started seeing and remembering 'states' I have been in earlier in this life (many years ago), and which all led to destroying my life and breaking me down. In one of those phases I was in very extreme and strange things, which I (back then) wondered if was the so called 'lower astral planes', many new age people talked about. While also experiencing myself as having 'dissolved as a person', and having 'drowned in the collective unconscious'. And I saw and felt myself back then I during the meditation where I experienced 'loosing my body and becoming like a 'pillar of light' from the heart level and up', while being completely flooded in ultra extreme fears, which lasted for the next 15 years or so. Same as the feeling of being 'non physical' and 'unable to relate to the physical', which is very difficult when you 'live' (as a simulated being) in a (simulated) 'physical reality'. And I thought more abut Jung and his concepts of 'Anima and Animus', 'the masculine in women' and 'the feminine in men', which his whole 'depth psychology' was built around, together with the 'collective unconscious' and the 'archetypes' concepts. I used to read lots of mainly pretty 'feminist' woman Jungian writers as a teenager and young (when the time was also very 'feminist'). And used to feel, also before I began having extreme 'experiences' that it was 'the only language I could relate to' (archetypes and symbols) and 'the only language that could 'see me''. And later when I lived in kundalini extremes and everything was 'symbolic' and I felt I was living in a 'symbol soup' and every tiny detail of everything was 'synchronistic', it was 'all there was'. And I wondered if the 'Jungian psychology' had been made 'here' (in the simulation) to 'catch' people (like myself) who never felt the common ways of calling certain personality traits for 'masculine' and 'feminine' were OK or real, and never accepted that to be 'true'. Maybe people who could feel or sense 'something from their original state as not yet split up into male and female parts' for example. Or missing the other half of them, and lots of their traits and ways of functioning, which had suddenly been 'lost' or ripped away, out of reach or 'forbidden'. Or who were very intent on unravelling everything that had caused all the imbalances' and to rebalance it again, which I was obsessed with for a large part of my life, experiencing all the 'gender stereotypes' and inequality shit as more and more extreme. Even though I have been exposed to way less of it, than most other people probably. Both in my upbringing, my parents, my 'culture' (here and now), my relationships etc. So not (so) much has been done to try to make me into a 'perfect woman' (I did that focus too), also not in the past lives I know of. In which I have been very 'untypical for my time' in different times and cultures, and especially for the 'gender roles'. And have been 'very independent and strong' etc and done 'male' things, like fighting in battles and writing books about gender inequality in times where that was considered to be 'obscene' and 'extreme' and thing like that. And where I was broken down or killed for it, and /or had broken out of forced upon me 'perfect women' roles, I couldn't accept (getting divorced at a time when that was also considered to be very extreme and 'bad'). And when being in the 'collective unconsciousness' space today, I then felt that to be the 'punishment' and 'prison' and 'containment' (VR?) I had been trapped within, because attempts to make me into a complying or submissive or 'perfect' woman, would not have worked. When I then did the "Targeting ALL Scripted 'Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing' Experiences & Symptomatic 'Effects'" focus (while 'reminding myself of lots of related things, from the last days and today), I got extreme pressures on my head and brain and feelings of very strong 'containments'. It all felt very strongly 'against women' and against things like (so- called) 'female intuition', 'all 'independent' or 'strong' personality traits in women', and as myself 'as woman'. The feelings of being 'imprisoned' and 'suppressed' and 'contained' got extremely strong and crushing. And felt as if my whole being is 'contained like that', also now where a lot of the 'kundalini' and far out 'psychedelic' shit I spent so many years in, is gone or isn't like that any longer (even though some other parts of it is still there and very bad still, pains and other shit). It got almost impossible to think or write the moment I started writing this comment (some hours later), and I got the same extreme pressures on and in the head and pains around the head (in a way I am not used to, so it must be something 'new' this hits), vision distortions and very strong burning pains in the spine and neck (I am very used to that, and it is directly connected with the kundalini and the symbol soup and drowning in the collective). I know quite a few men, who had also had extreme kundalini and other similar things, and had their lives destroyed to various extend, all of whom are pretty 'feminist' too, and into things around 'balance between masculine and feminine' (and men and women), also as something 'spiritual', and who have been doing things like 'searching for 'goddess archetypes' (of the powerful kind) that/'who' could help them/they could 'integrate'' and things like that. So they are probably trapped in the same kind of containment/prison, directed at 'men'. And the same 'collective unconsciousness prison', making them 'search for the integration of the opposite polarity', while 'drowning' and be seriously messed up as 'individuals'. None of them are 'perfect men' or find the gender stereotypes for either gender OK, and would not have bought into strong attempts to make them into/do that. I can still see and feel the 'Jungian/archetype/collective unconsciousness' space around me. It looks 'very large', but is definitely 'limited', like some kind of 'room', with 'strong walls'. It 'looks' and feels very much like a VR now. A 'space' you can get trapped in or drown in 'searching forever', like you can in psychologies or symbol based 'therapies' like that, like 'dream analysis' and 'Animus/Anima' things. Which never really provide any tools to actually get out of those 'issues', only endless 'recognition' (recognising the archetypes and symbols in yourself, your life, in endless combinations), like a labyrinth you will never get out of, at least not after your personality and consciousness has been 'flooded' and the (necessary) boundaries guarding your 'mental health' have been dissolved. I feel it as if 'part of me' (or 'all'?) has been in something like this for 'millions of years'. Maybe it was easy to convince people already used to (well functioning) 'shared space' technology and functions to 'enter' spaces like this, if you are used to operating in 'shared consciousness', then 'shared unconsciousness will seem the obvious 'next step to explore' (even though it is artificial and not natural or real, it will feel that way and if you should realise that (or that you have become trapped), it is too late anyway).
    • Barbara Watrous March 14, 2017 at 9:01 am on Problems Presenting Deeper Subtle Spiritual & Healing Insights & ExperiencesClive, I have been working on my issues for 35 years now; in past life and in dialogue with various parts of myself. I had learned to hear (channel?) and work with what I have believed was the "higher levels" of myself and I experienced a lot of healing. However, I have never been able to resolve the issue of subsisting at near poverty level most of my life. And recently, however, I had a massive and very debilitating illness hit and for 3 years, I have never been able to find out the cause of it. After nearly going off the deep end mentally, I began a very slow healing process but had given up on all the techniques I used to use as they didn't work at all when this illness hit. Just last night, I 'looked up' and said, Okay, I intend to find out the real cause of this illness and also why I have never been able to heal this poverty !! And this evening, I found your web site. It is such a relief to me to find that things I had begun to suspect (that there was something profoundly wrong somewhere in my life/conscousness) have been clarified by someone as being valid and real. I didn't have the information you have at all though, as I was "taught" and had bought the beliefs of being on a "spiritual path." I have been reading along with what you have written and find that, for me, it fits fine with what I feel about what has happened -- namely, that it was something I hadn't been informed about and was going to come from an entirely new perspective. Thank you so much for everything you have done for yourself and then passed along here so others could benefit from it. Far from thinking you are crazy, I am profoundly grateful to you.
    • Annabelle March 13, 2017 at 9:51 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesI mentioned this before - but my vision has significantly /suddenly deteriorated (after 2 sessions of laser surgery, for mono vision, and 20 years of consistent vision). My eyes were burning and my eye lids started peeling. Finally gave up and went to an ophthalmologist who said I need glasses - not helpful – they did however say your right eye is very dry – let’s fix the tear duct. I then went to an Optometrist who actually took the time to explain that my vision had flipped from a reading left eye to full extreme distance zoom in my left eye, and a weak right eye, and no reading capability in any eye. I asked how that could be – how can my eyes just switch? “Well – it can happen”. The only solution was a reading contact now in my weaker right eye. I was concerned as my eyes are too dry for contacts – well guess what – the other doctor had coincidentally fixed that. It has now taken me a week to adjust thru the nausea and dizziness, but my vision now is awesome. I was nudged to do the Visual Implant exercise #1 and found myself distracted by high tech vision implants and not getting anything. I then moved to this new exercise and realized how I really feel, about my vision, is disturbed /angry/confused that they would change my vision overnight without my consent, without warning and a reason and what this is for? This caused me significant wasted time searching for solutions, dietary possibilities, etc. with no help. I wondered how any other animal could even survive if this had happened to them. “Scripted trauma” – I connect to interactions with people where they don’t proactively tell me/ or talk to me at all about how they feel (but somehow expect me to understand and react accordingly). I can tell something is wrong (I can feel it a mile away), that they are hurt, upset, scared, unhappy, and I jump thru hoops trying to diagnose them. I assume what they need at times and this causes me to feel anxious and even more depressed. “Support me to remain unresponsive” – I actually feel I am the opposite and I feel responsible for everything that happens everywhere. I am completely overwhelmed by others’ feelings, such as a woman getting yelled at by her husband in a restaurant - or a child not being helped in public. I think of how I can help and put things in place in society to fix all of this. At times this is unbearable and I find myself, most recently, trying to distance myself from these feelings of trying to fix everything. If only I could get a job in the government, if only I could help all of the college students, if only I could help people grow their own food…… Sabotaging effects while working on portion 1 (and other exercises) – I won’t even mention the fact that my phone died and I had to buy a new phone! In addition - the exercise is very long/ enticing and I find myself jumping around wanting to see all of the sections instead of focusing on a specific portion. Another sabotaging aspect it that for some reason I have been hearing sound bites, from the 60’s/70’s, around town, and this has been transporting me back to my childhood to an age I want to return to (I am literally in a trance and numb for about a minute) – I feel so homesick and sad that it is hard to pull myself out of…………….
    • Megan March 13, 2017 at 8:51 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesReflecting on the last two weeks, I get the feeling that nobody really pays attention when I talk to them or when I am trying to say something they think I am giving them attitude or trying to talk over them when I am not. I remember how anxious and distrusting I can be with people, especially people I work with. A coworker has been making a few implications that make me feel defensive. I also realized the lack of connection or intimacy I have with others, especially people I know and get along with. Starting the first exercise, I feel a barrier of sorts relating to my lack of connection with people and I feel disconnected or dead inside. Before beginning the third paragraph I sense a feeling of reluctance to move forward not just with the exercise but with anything in life. Thoughts of a romantic fanfic I've read recently pop into my mind, and I remember back in my younger teenage years all the desperate and needy feelings I had regarding people and relationships and how hurt and humiliated I was to feel this way. Bearing that in mind, thoughts of the barrier I mentioned before pop back into my mind. I cry a little, thinking about how disconnected I am with others and the dead feeling I have relating to the issue.
    • rudolfcabo March 13, 2017 at 5:48 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiencesyesterday i worked with exercise 8 focuses and after retiring for the night i felt and saw a blue light hook up at the bottom of my spine, ride it up to my brain and did like a scan. i also saw green and brown data tapes moving through a hole in a wall plus some really weird stuff i can't even remember but clearly connected to the vr.
    • Olivia March 13, 2017 at 3:41 pm on Exercise to Target your ‘Artificial/Fake Realities’ Managing/Sabotaging EFFORTSI have been going through a huge amount of physical pain in my body. I had these throughout my pregnancy and I basically never slept more than 30 mins at a time. The pain is excruciating and shocking, it comes in quick and then it's gone, over and over and I never know when the next one is coming. Eventually I basically suffered from similar PTSD symptoms following the extremly painful birth of my daughter (I was not given any pain medication and my daughter presented back to back). Very recently I contracted a revolting flu virus and I had the most severe pain. I decided to ride it out, to tune in, and I often felt I was hallucinating, but I was conscious of what I was feeling. I felt as if I was tortured repeatedly as some form of experimentation. How long would I go before begging for release or praying to god?....I heard myself begging for the pain to stop, praying to god, catching myself "thinking WTF I didn't want to do that! That "prayer" feels "put in"". I seemed to be able to take a huge amount of pain, for significant periods of time, I also feel very easily able to "forgive" for this pain I'm repeatedly exposed to. Every few hours, I'm given some sort of "sedative" that stops me from fighting back or resisting, but doesn't completely take the pain away. After nearly 12 hours of focusing on the pain I reach over for pain killers (pain is so bad I know the standard stuff is not going to touch it) and I welcome the 60mg of codeine which provides significant relief but I know it also numbs me to what I'm feeling emotionally. It makes me feel malleable and sedated. I go through this for 2-3 days (can't remember, I really wasn't able to do anything else) and I get this sense that I was made to forget this pain. 3 or so weeks later, I watch Bourne Legacy, and in the scene where Tony Gilroy is beaten up, bandage on his head, vulnerable, asking if "this is a test" and "can I just stay here?" I start crying, sobbing silently feeling the pain, the despair, vulnerability, confusion etc.....and it reminds me of "my" (?) torture experience. I decide to tune into the feeling, and as I do I start crying. I can't get any more info though, thoughts of you "don't need to know, you're not allowed to know....." and suddenly my thoughts are pulled into thinking about my friends birthday. The crying stops, like a switch, and I thought "how weird, crying doesn't just "switch on and then off"". I could not get back into the trauma. Even now I'm forgetting what the point of me typing is...I have to scroll back to re read parts of this focus, which were clear at the time, but I can't remember so well now. Ah yes, the point was I felt my thinking physically change/move away from doing deep work. I made notes after doing this particular focus: I felt physically pulled (thoughts seem to "move" to the right) to thinking about glycolic face peels. I have to physically pull myself back to the focus. Then as I do an extreme sense of anxiety (even though I'm not anxious) and thoughts "this is wrong/you're wasting time". I ignore it and carry on with the focus, my back becomes painful, I start getting hungry and then become worried about a play date my daughter has, even though I'm not actually worried. Thanks so much for the updated exercises and your work. Hopefully this is not a distracting comment. I'm finding the "thoughts and feelings" management very intense, often frustrating, but I'm hopefully able to differentiate more and more between my own and managed ones better than when I started working with your focuses. Thanks again, for everything.
    • Clive March 12, 2017 at 2:16 pm on Exercise to Target your ‘Artificial/Fake Realities’ Managing/Sabotaging EFFORTSNEW: Exercise to Target your 'Artificial/Fake Realities' Managing/Sabotaging EFFORTS
    • Clive March 11, 2017 at 5:32 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesNew Exercise post: Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ Experiences
    • Nyssa March 6, 2017 at 8:02 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsI use Focus #1 and other focuses. I get a feeling of an edited memory and wanting to know what the real circumstance was and how to record and or access it and know what the edit was and why. As I move into the feeling, I sense a feeling of pressure and expansion between my eyes and hearing commands "you will believe this. You will follow the storyline, beliefs, memories you're given. You will not remember what really happened". A feeling of a person pressing on bridge of nose and back of neck "you will believe this! You will believe what I tell you!" And he sounds frustrated: "you will go where I tell you. Do what I say." He sounds aggravated like he's putting in more controls because I keep defying the commands and he's trying to make me fall in line. But everything he does to me just makes me smarter. But it feels like he finally gave me vr fake trauma and memories of family and love, and despite me knowing it's not real it somehow created a dilemma for me..?? .. feels perhaps he made it a baseline/cornerstone trauma like Bernard's "dead son" in Westworld,or Maeve's love for her "daughter", and it created inner conflict and confusion, and thus a weak point to insert controls ..? (I expereince this as a lever being jammed into a junction of 'inner conflict') In section re things sabotaging investigations of myself, my heart started to ache and hurt and I connected to trauma from my heart "not being mine"- that it's artificial and a replacement for some purpose. Lots of intense pain and tears. Later I had feelings of my body being made of plastic or other artificial material. The feel of it reminded of what Scarlett's Johansson looks like in her latest movie (Ghost in the Shell). Her reconstructed body and the theme of the movie trailer felt very resonant with me (quote from movie trailer: "they did not save your life; they stole it"). I sense progressively more intense management being applied to me .. as a test case to develop stronger and stronger management (feels like I was the best at resisting it so therefore the best to be used to test it), then more aggressively applied to control me (because I'd gotten so strong).. Then feels like I or a part of me was stolen and someone with a lot less scruples did horrific things to try to instill management at a unreachable unbreakable core level I try to explore this impression, but it's extremely difficult. Vague impressions of feeling opened up and the part of me that "is" me feels rewritten or altered ??? Feels like this may have been done to me before I went to westworld/eaas/some other project?? I feel a prisoner in my own paralyzed and 'taken over'/puppet body, like one of the paralyzed women in the Belle Chose episode of the Dollhouse series. The paralyzingly extreme management feels almost 100% effective. I spend time wanting to know ANYTHING I ever did that was of my own free will while in this extremely paralyzingly managed state. I try and try to remember, and feel like there 'is' something I did, that because of what I'd learned about the nature of reality, I'd somehow been able defy him at a fundamental level (like the designer of the Death Star built in a fundamental weakness at the core), but that I memory wiped myself so I couldn't remember (I cry a lot at this point ..). I spend time with other sensations and effects in my life: I feel isolated at a very very core deep level .. all alone (despite having loving family and friends). How I feel blindfolded, muted, deaf. Feeling my way through life with faint renderings of experiences, translated to a remote inner space like how digital tech can help the blind 'see' or the deaf 'hear' but it's not like normal senses work. A singular mission. Singular design. This singular orientation is the reason I'm here, is the mission I'm designed for. Feelings of "No reason to engage with anything outside the mission." Like being trapped in an vr world analogous to Neo plugging back into the matrix - if and when he went, why would he engage with anything non-mission-oriented there? It's all fake and the place was gamed. Trained to keep going when shit is applied to me .. because it will be. Batch after batch, to observe, record, research and understand how it works. But something of this memory feels edited or suppressed. Can't access it. I feel like my role as this 'paralyzed slave" was to specifically target the 'issues' of the person whom altered me /controlled me /sandboxed me / paralyzed me, and make sure the system prioritized his issues over anyone else . and perhaps to try to find root issues or other priorities. Feels like I had an inner laboratory /inner tech to explore how things work, test strategies and implement them. Feels like I could transmit them to my splits /others I was connected to, frozen in their own body prisons, for us to execute a coordinated approach to this infiltration. Tipping the balance / "hacking from within"..? My head and neck feel like they're on fire. I'm crushingly miserable. I'm trying hard to access my real memories, the ones edited or memory wiped, but I'm frustrated and stuck. Tried different focuses and I cry while my body shakes from extreme tension. Then tried "targeting scripted items that block access to scripted items", and sensed protective 'bubbles'. Finally, an impression that my 'friends' who extremely sandboxed me may have been working for this person, executing his directives..? That this may not have been the eaas project I infiltrated - that perhaps it was another project (ndi?) I was sent to?? I get feelings that this person could see/predict what was going to happen and crafted a long range vision that started far in the past / in the earliest work done? ..later I sense I somehow skewed the ndi standards .. Also a feeling I somehow was imprinted with the 'issues' of this person, along with other changes made to the system, so the system would apply them to 'me' and not 'him', for me to experience and 'sort out' on his behalf?? feelings of confusing convolutedness and bizarreness about the impact and ramifications of this 'here'. I go back to #1 of Focus 7, and at the final paragraph, "I fully and absolutely connect now to absolutely all sim software ‘script’ depositories, warehouses, deployment assessment engines and to absolutely all combinations of components protecting and defending absolutely anything of any of these", I use different variations on scripts and depositories, and substitute "ANYTHING" for "components" protecting any of this, and sense something that feels sophisticated yet archaic, a feeling of using a live 'animal or creature' to protect 'any of this', (the feel is like "a dragon guarding a secret lair"), which typical detection or methods can't work on. .. feelings of spells and witchcraft, of ancient technologies rooted in the past.
    • rudolfcabo March 5, 2017 at 9:50 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & Patternsafter working with focus 4 i felt some pressure in my head (right side), felt slightly weird with some dissociation for half an hour. two hours after working with this exercise i felt very happy, released from shit and a great sense of serenity. nothing weird happening!!!
    • rudolfcabo March 4, 2017 at 8:26 pm on Negative Issue Identifying HEALING EXERCISE-1: To Identify Everything that Defines or Contributes to my Issues & Moment by Moment Experiencesthis focus got somethings' attention. felt really weird for an hour or so. spaced out and dissociated from body on day one. pressure in my head originating on the right side and spreading + symptoms above on day 2. cheers
    • Annabelle March 2, 2017 at 7:23 pm on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-5 – Target what Keeps Me Disengaged From & Manipulated by Trauma & Emotional & Psychological ‘Sore Points & Hurts’I had previously described a spinning sparking silver thing that would occasionally come by me, follow me, encase me, as well as try to influence me when doing exercises. Stumbled upon this random website that has a very accurate example of this thing….. https://schrodingersothercat.blogspot.com/2017/02/40-days-40-nights-meditation-challenge.html#comment-form
    • Clive March 2, 2017 at 7:14 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsWell, that's a good example of invisible 'management' in action Tommy!!!
    • Clive March 2, 2017 at 7:12 pm on Simulation Hypothesis Evidence 1: Why are New Age Spiritual Sayings Valid for Copied People Living in an Operational SimulationWell, it's very likely William of Occam didn't know his 'words' would be misrepresented as part of giving generically poor or remedial thinkers an excuse to not think about complicated things either!!!
    • Merl Draeon March 1, 2017 at 1:57 pm on Simulation Hypothesis Evidence 1: Why are New Age Spiritual Sayings Valid for Copied People Living in an Operational SimulationI didn't know William Shakespeare was part of the "New Age" movement.
    • Annabelle February 24, 2017 at 11:04 pm on Negative Issue Identifying HEALING EXERCISE-1: To Identify Everything that Defines or Contributes to my Issues & Moment by Moment ExperiencesThe feedback I am getting is a bit disjointed and does not always come to me immediately during an exercise. I feel a continued nudge to dig into the rituals of religions trying to control people. 1. Reverted back to feeling like I am invisible – but mainly to close family and friends. Complete strangers spot me out from across a parking lot and make an effort to say hi. 2. I connect to a fat, white, friendly looking clown holding 2 bouquets of balloons. As a child I remember seeing clowns at fairs offering balloons from bouquets, and I wondered how all of those children could just pull a string and get a balloon without the entire bunch letting loose or getting more tangled. The clown could also set down each bouquet on a hook and it would hold together. I think about the tangled wool balls that Clive describes in his progress report. 3. I am inside a lavish house with many rooms full of different VR environments in each room (jungle, palace, ocean, city, etc.). As I start to have fun exploring a room – a painter guy in a white jumpsuit enters the room, and starts to paint it / white wash it away. I am frustrated and move to the next room. The painter follows me and starts to white wash the next room. He is irritating me and I rush faster to get into the next room, and he paints faster as well – with an attitude of “sorry – but this is my job”. 4. Now I am in a house with a new family that has a lot of pets – but the most mutated animals that don’t exist in this world (half skunk/ half pig, half dog/half dinosaur, a walking puffer fish with 4 legs, and humans with heads at both ends of their body). I find this repulsive but am lucid enough to remind myself that this may be because I am used to the fact that these creatures do not exist in my current world. A voice tells me it is my job to feed these animals – which I try to do but they all try to bite me as I feed them (and I don’t understand why they are biting me if I am trying to help them) A large hand gives me 5 spherical balls, about 3 inches in diameter and told me to give them to the dinosaur/dog – I thought this was odd as it did not look like food. 5. While shopping in a warehouse food center, with a huge 30-foot celling, I am talking to a stranger about a few items. A bug drops down from the ceiling, and the bug now hovers exactly equidistance between the two of us. We look at each other and say “that is weird”. Almost at the same time we look into each other’s eyes and telepathically say “this could never happen in a real world”.
    • Clive February 22, 2017 at 12:42 pm on The Long, Long Physical Con: The DARK Reality of ‘EARTH’ Incarnations & the ‘Real’ Meaning of Your Human LifeHi Brittany "I think the answer may lie in the philosophies and-or even thinking through what the true reality may be. The answers are mixed in there with the con propaganda, it’s just a matter of collecting all information and making the best judgement by following your gut.", Yea? Well I'm a reincarnation of 'Plato / PD Ouspensky / Giordano Bruno' and others . . . so I've been collecting / studding / and making the best judgement for many 1000's of years and pretty much everything is a 'GROSS' misdirection AND you 'spectacularly' fail to mention the annoying seriously aggressive direct 'MANAGEMENT' of yourself / EVERYONE HERE / which is the primary means used to keep people stuck in blind alleys. Which is why that despite that the 'answers' are presented on many pages of this web site, the 'Matrix' pages for example present indisputable 'evidence' of ourselves living in a fake reality of a specific combination / at least they would be 'indisputable' if readers / everyone here weren't being completely 'MANAGED' to be unable to 'evaluate' anything correctly.
    • Tommy February 22, 2017 at 12:37 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsWhenever i try to do the focusses the words change asking myself if im even able to read them like you orginally wrote them while i write this im actualy thinking if what im reading on your site is even remotely the same like you orginally wrote it. Especially with the whole realisation im not reading with my phiysical eyes and i keep seeing the word slave what really pisses me off i i hav any masters i will make sure they will be sincerly messed up.
    • Clive February 22, 2017 at 12:21 pm on Deducible: Coincidences & Synchronicity’s as Evidence of a Technology Slow Down, of ‘Twin’s’ Living Parallel Lives & of many Humans being ‘Hermaphrodites’Hi Ellipsis re: "that the simulations of these simulations would still carry the “echoes” of the different species from the “original reality (it is a 'COPY' of”)" . . . Eh, yea I do actually state this on the 'home / front page' and that I compiled evidence of many people here as being originally crabs (subtle people interfaced to a crab form). We are simulating people whom spent time as 500-600 different 'common' animal species and 5000-6000 less common species, also (as already stated on some pages here) some people here are interfaced to physical robots / cyborgs and a few even as 'rocks and plants' (hence some people here are aware that 'some' and or that it's possible that a plant / tree and or rock could be 'conscious'.
    • Nyssa February 20, 2017 at 5:39 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsI feel like I've been plucked from the crowd and put into this nightmare narrative. I've been trying to connect to my original script and my alternate script to see why I keep being pulled into this narrative. I used different focuses this morning. Feels like the two are at loggerheads, permanently locked against each other, with a vr experience projected over it to hide the conflict..? I sense a 'little me' in the distance, that seems to have effects applied to it that affect me 'here'. I keep trying to escape this nightmare, one that just gets more and more bizarre but the 'escape' is presented to me as via "continuing to engage with the 'nightmare narrative' and the people I've written about", but because they can't see the anomaly that I discovered by creating my avatar, I feel they are lost in a narrative, so that doesn't seem like the path out. But I can't 'stop' engaging with this narrative. It's destroying me. It's not compatible with my life. The paradox is crushing me. It feels like changes are being made that continue to add to this crushing pressurizing conflict that locks me down. It feels the changes don't take into account the underlying circumstances that the anomaly suggests. Or maybe the changes are just revealing the "core still-unresolved lockdown".. I don't know. Regardless it's getting more pronounced /extreme these days. I sense 'giant hands' surrounding me, like a custom/handmade bespoke prison.. I'm shivering and my teeth are chattering as the tension and pressure continues to increase. I see scripts flowing by me, and around me, like ribbons. They don't feel like 'me' but they affect me somehow. I can't describe the experience properly. My ears and body feel under extreme 'REAL' pressure and these scripts feel like they divert attention from me / mesmerize those whom may try to see me and keep them not able to see. I feel like what I'm experiencing is not in the script, that it's a real thing affecting the real me. I feel like focuses target the scripts, not me. I feel a giant hand entering the back of my neck, like a manipulation being applied from outside the matrix via the interfacing perhaps? I keep trying to read focuses and my throat feels painfully constricted and the words are empty, like the focuses aren't being emitted as "intention bubbles" as I read them anymore, like the system reacted and shut me down, so they are just words on a page now. I take a short break then I try one more: #3 Who I Am I feel like I see cookie cutters in my inner third eye screen. I feel a template overlaid over me, like a sewing pattern. Much of paragraph 1 feels like a recipe, but at the word "multidimensional" I feel a kaleidoscope or bugs eye refraction type impression. At "retrospectively edited, altered" I feel like my script has 'become' me, ie, it's all that I can perceive of 'me' anymore. The phrase "... CORRECT CONTEXT in terms of the original experience" makes me feel there was a huge effort to make people believe the scripts, that originally people understood it was just a role to plug into and play, but a huge effort was made to disconnect them from the correct context so they'd forget their real bodies .. The phrase "..to prevent anyone from thinking about these and particularly enough such that they might figure out why ANY such changes to myself were made ..." suggests that someone wanted to use my/our real bodies for something or for their own purpose? 3 and 4, more paradox and hopelessness. These narratives are mutually exclusive and my family will get hurt if I can't extricate myself from the other.
    • Julie February 20, 2017 at 3:05 am on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISE-3: Engaging with Human Sensory & Memory Implant & Enhancements TechnologiesIt took me several attempts to even start remembering the experiences. I'm standing on huge rocks, feeling really small, and a massive tsunami wave is about to crash over me. Yet it doesn't and I realize it's just a projected image. I walked through it like in a videogame and I found myself in an infinite room full of computers, with scripts running on the screens in a programming language what seemed to be a mix of numbers and letters. I asked to be taken to the computer with all my scripts. I then saw all the suffering I went through during all of my lifetimes in a blink of an eye and how I'm surrounded by a web of wires making me do things, react to things, fell drawn to things/ people. I got really pissed off and told them that I am a free being and that I want to rewrite all of this BS. I sat in front of my computer and was able to read into the script of my currently troubled personal relationship - yet when I attempted to rewrite it, I was not able to even "conceive' any alternative script. The next moment I was in front of a candy-themed amusement part - I could hear people laughing and having a good time, but I stood right outside of it and everything around was grey, dead, a war zone. Suddenly a soldier appeared and started shooting at me - I felt intense fear and then I realized that I couldn't be killed so I grabbed the soldier and asked him to bring me to his boss. He took me in front of a huge throne upon which an Ascended Master look-alike guy is seated. I ask him who he is and why he is doing the shit that he's doing and he responds that he is Archangel Michael and he is just following the rules of the game. I'm not able to stay focused for longer than a few minutes. Memories of past lives flash in front of my eyes where I'm a sex slave, used by many men over the course of several lifetimes and made belief that it was my free choice to choose that for myself and that I enjoyed it. Feel a strong urge to watch porn with several men sharing a woman.
    • Ellipsis February 18, 2017 at 4:25 pm on Deducible: Coincidences & Synchronicity’s as Evidence of a Technology Slow Down, of ‘Twin’s’ Living Parallel Lives & of many Humans being ‘Hermaphrodites’Hi! This might be semi-offtopic and I have a slight tendency to be flighty as is without the strangeness that seems to cover this website...but I noticed something that seemed a bit peculiar and was curious about. In your article you wrote, "On then having a quick look around they will soon become aware that the anomalies that they have deduced will ABSOLUTELY be visible to the population of the simulation they are designing they will become aware that they ALREADY HAVE THESE IN THEIR OWN REALITY. ERGO/THEREFORE: They will be FORCED to conclude that they are ALREADY living in the same type of copied duplicated simulated reality!!!" Additionally you talked in this article (and in others IIRC) about how the designers specifically converting any and all simulated personalities into a strict male/female human form. What I'm curious is that if we follow the notion that of a simulated reality designer who simulates a population, that then advances and simulates a population (and so on and so forth) all while influenced by a programming/series of code that tries to direct the simulated population to staying as close to the "original population" that is being simulated as possible...then wouldn't other intelligent species have been included as well? If the reality "above" ours that is hosting the simulation is also in and of itself is a simulation adhering to a code, and that same reality featured a diversity of intelligent species (beyond a strict "human / homo sapien model"), then wouldn't the coding/programming for that reality lead them to involving more species (other than just humans) in our own? Or maybe it is simply be a case of some kind of "Phantom effect" of sorts - where the "true original reality" was such a reality where multiple species existed, but the programmers in that reality made it so that the "first simulated population" would be automatically converted to humans (After which any subsequent reality simulated by that one, and so on and so forth, would all feature only humans with the exception that the simulations of these simulations would still carry the "echoes" of the different species from the "true original reality") I don't know if I'm making any sense, but if I am able to at least get some of the notion I am trying to explain across I figured it'd an interesting question / food for thought. Either way thank you for writing / posting articles such as these. The topic(s) of reality/existence are of particular interest to me, and different perspectives like yours are always appreciated 🙂
    • Nancy February 15, 2017 at 7:01 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsEx. 7 Focus 4 (scripted roles, etc). A feeling of panic and "I must have a role, or who am I?" Great fear and body starts shaking like in electric shock. See myself again in recliner type chair and helmet and electrodes. They are trying to break me, like break down any sense of real self. I must have a role and I can't have a role are both being broadcast to me. I also re-read "noblesse oblige" several times and felt ashamed and self righteous. (In this life I have had feeling that I should be from aristocratic family and making decisions that affect the entire world. Like I am indeed more privileged and better and this is just how it is. Although my family is from small town and very middle class. I have also been somewhat obsessed with power lineages and families and feel like I was part of them but to do good, not to control.) When tuning in again I see myself in red environment and walking with grace and poise but like a mannequin. I have no choice but I have power. I still understand this is wrong, but am deadly afraid of giving up this role. Torture will result. When I read the part about ceremony, I saw myself in black mindlessly walking back and forth doing tasks. When tuning in to review the exercise, great confusion and fear arises. I feel afraid to let go of all the roles because I will just go into chaos and have no connection and be in a kind of hell. As I write this I realize this is false and a response to torture.