So, despite that I am definitely very, very aware of some extended experiences of the person I AM A SIMULATED DUPLICATE OF actually designing some very specific implants, BUT because these were so utterly bizarre while also happening many, many years, likely more than a decade before I was even aware of these possibilities then I’m very sure I’ve not mentioned any of these experiences in any of my writings before this . . . basically because, they were not only extremely bizarre, but they were completely out of context with respect to anything/everything I knew at that point in my life . . . never mind being completely ‘out of context’ with regards 99.999% of pretty much everyone else’s experiences too . . .
ANOMALOUS EXPERIENCE 3: Of ‘Seemingly’ Working with a Separate/Parallel Version of Myself to Design an External Sensory Awareness ‘Buffer/Filter’ Implant
So, the very first subtle body implant design effort that I became definitively conscious of as well as consistently aware of, was during a phase in my early to mid 20’s during which I was automatically becoming more and more ‘sensitive’ to absolutely ‘EVERYTHING’ of ‘MYSELF’ specifically because I was making a concerted effort to become more and more self aware and particularly of my internal states and ‘ALL’ inner sensations to such a degree that I was then more and more automatically/directly picking up other people’s internal states, feelings and anxieties etc, etc and particularly with respect to anyone/everyone that was in close ‘proximity’ to myself . . . which unfortunately had myself gradually but persistently becoming more and more disturbed by my more and more increasing sensitivity of EVERYONE/EVERYTHING AROUND MYSELF!!!
I describe my ‘increasing my awareness of myself/my internal states and sensations’ orientation/effort and the very rational reasons for myself initiating and holding to this line on this page here, which I’d recommend you read else you simply won’t have ‘context/understanding’ with regards how utterly/unbelievably ‘sensitive’ I actually am with respect to all manner and varieties of my own internal states/make up never mind ‘everything’ else, including awareness’s of all manner of ‘external’ oddities too!!!
It was during this phase when I started to became aware of ‘myself’ specifically (AS THE PERSON/FORM I AM A DUPLICATE/COPY OF HERE) engrossed in designing sensors as well as filters into it’s/my subtle energetic body!!! I tracked and was aware of these subtle body functioning altering implant design efforts going on ‘within myself’ very likely over an extended period of weeks and possibly months, such that during this time, as the design and testing/evaluation progressed I ended up finding myself having different levels or ‘modes’ of sensitivity towards others which I could then consciously DIRECTLY select and adjust:
- A normal functioning ‘picking’ up all external broadcasts/emissions mode . . .
- A highly filtered functioning mode where others/people in close proximity to myself’s internal states/feelings etc were actually blocked while also then being presented/represented in my upper internal visual field in the form of (I KID YOU NOT) VARIOUS ‘REPRESENTING’ ICONS (sad, depressed, manic, traumatized, happy, loving, etc. etc. ) . . . that then directly ‘VISUALLY’ represented the various internal states and feelings that the person I was interacting with/close to was ‘PRESENTING / FEELING / EXPERIENCING’ within themselves . . . and also . . .
- Dual Function Filter mode. This was specifically for people I was friends’ with and or very close to (my girlfriend for example) I could consciously disengage and leave disengaged the buffer and conversion filters (specifically related to their ‘broadcasts/feelings/internal states’ for very specific people) and hence be directly aware of and then impacted by friends’ and my girlfriend’s internal states, which in some instances had me (for example) waking up in the morning feeling very angry while also then being very confused as to ‘WHY’ when I’d had no dreams and wasn’t thinking about any circumstances to account for these . . . however, I’d quite often find that when my girlfriend awoke she’d then tell me she was feeling very ‘angry’ about situation or person ‘XYZ’ that she’d been dreaming of or thinking about!!!!!
Many Subtle Environment, Subtle ‘Body’ Focused Experiences will result in ‘Out of Context/Anomalous Experiences’ that are Incompatible with a Physical ‘ONLY’ Reality
I should perhaps mention that what I describe above was all happening while I was employed as a junior research associate contributing in many ways to medical research efforts within the Clinical Biochemistry & Metabolic Medicine Department of a University.
To be more specific, in writing and re-reading, editing and updating etc. etc. this original page likely a dozen+ times, this is facilitating myself to more and more coherently ‘resolve’ these experiences) such that despite being vague/distant I’m gradually becoming more and more aware of more and more coherent memories of being aware of this supposedly alternate version of myself working on specific aspects of myself while I’m in a research laboratory setting up tubes, reagents and everything else needed for an ‘assay/measurement of blood plasma’ as part of the ‘diabetes’ research that I was involved in.
As one of the ‘agendas’ of our fake reality seems to be to ‘disappear/depreciate’ all evidence of ourselves as subtle forms/beings then any/all subtle experiences which are ‘SPECIFICALLY’ very much focused on investigating attributes which are ‘SPECIFIC TO THE SUBTLE BODY’ will have to be ‘disguised’ by being converted/transformed into a ‘best fit’ physical human body equivalent as well as also being associated with some best fit ‘physical/human life experience’ that is equivalent to the original subtle environment focused ‘investigation/research’ experience too.
In this respect, for some very specific subtle body form focused experiences that are also SERIOUSLY DIFFERENT to any physical body equivalent whilst also being of circumstances that are focused on aspects of the subtle environment and or the functioning/structure of the subtle body form itself AND particularly with respect to experiences that went on for a long time such that they are then, very VERY SIGNIFICANT ‘EMBEDDED’ EXPERIENCES for the person/subtle being that was having these, then the conversion/presentation of these is going to have to be kept as hidden as possible whilst also being ‘experienced/relived/weaved’ into some physical activity over an equivalent time scale, which when compared to the original experience is ‘by and large’ a best fit/appropriate conversion with respect to the original experience!!!!
Again, it was also, only in writing/re-reading and rewriting this page many times while more and more deeply feeling into these specific ‘alternate/parallel’ subtle reality and subtle body focused experiences, that it very gradually become more and more obvious that my alternate/out of context with regards ‘physical’ reality experience was being generated/presented/rendered to myself very much in the very distant background as an internal to myself ‘only’ virtual reality type presentation/overlay!!!!
Research into Subtle Body Functioning & Adaptations Converted into Best Fit Physical Body ‘Diabetes’ Research!!!!
From a certain angle/perspective, what my ‘original form/the person I’m a duplicate of’ was actually working on ‘could’ be construed and or described as subtle body ‘research’, in that it is investigating itself, its own subtle bodies functioning in very ‘exacting’ detail. It is in fact, exceptionally focused on/engrossed in trying to figure out how to make alterations to itself and particularly of facets of itself that are (from its perspective) causing itself consistent problems/debilitations!!!
In this respect these specific subtle body ‘investigations’ then somewhat ‘obliquely’ match up with the ‘diabetes’ research efforts I was involved in during that phase of my life!!!
So, just to be very ‘explicit’ here, the personal research, investigations and adaptations carried out by the subtle person/being I’m a duplicate of that was investigating, working on and making changes to its own subtle body (to reduce negative effects/impacts on itself) are being ‘translated/converted/presented’ here into the efforts/experiences I had within a research job/post that had a specific emphasis on ‘diabetes’ that had me contributing to research focused on finding ways to reduce/limit the negative impacts of diabetes . . . coincidentally I wrote a very detailed page which is here specifically describing my diabetes work experience as well as of myself eventually figuring out the actual ‘symbolic’ nature of diabetes in that the physical presentation of symptoms within the rendered human form are ENTIRELY MADE UP, as they are actually ‘representing’ the subtle body’s internal states response/alterations to being impacted by circumstances that involve betrayal as well as severe and or repeated life disappointments and let downs (i.e. the subtle bodies response to these specific types of negative impacts).
In other words the specific university job/post/position that I got is a pretty fair although somewhat ‘desperate’ match with respect to my own subtle reality focused personal investigations of my own subtle body functioning and the adaptation and modification of aspects of the subtle bodies functioning of the person I am supposed to be a duplicate of here!!!
Yet again, it was only over 3/4/5 weeks in re-reading this page many times that I became aware of this ‘equivalent’ research experience, duplicated person conversion, never mind the time it took to write it out in a decent understandable form!!!!
Important Details & Characteristics of Your MATRIX Reality 2 Bodies Interfaced Together Hidden ‘Subtle’ Body Form ‘AND’ the Subtle Environment It ‘Originally’ Naturally Lived Within!!!!
In that it would be accurate to state that all ‘subtle’ beings are ALL AUTOMATICALLY DIRECTLY ‘EMPATHIC’ ALL OF THE TIME, to such an UTTERLY UNBELIEVABLE EXTENT, such that what any subtle form is thinking/feeling/focused on as well as of their ‘reactions and responses’ to ‘anything’ are pretty much ALWAYS AS WELL AS ‘AUTOMATICALLY’ BEING ‘GENERALLY’ BROADCAST INTO THE ENVIRONMENT IN ALL DIRECTIONS AROUND THEMSELVES . . . such that they/subtle beings then ALWAYS HAVE THE POTENTIAL OF BEING ‘PICKED UP & HENCE THEN ‘DETECTED/NOTICED’ BY OTHER SUBTLE BEINGS ‘ALL THE TIME’ . . . such that, anyone within our reality here that is simulating a duplicate of someone that spent most of their time not interfaced to any type of physical animal remote vehicle form whom also in then regularly interacting with other ‘people’ as subtle beings such that during these interactions, whenever any subtle being put their attention/their sensory ‘matrix’ on ANY OTHER then this ‘other’ would very, very likely absolutely AUTOMATICALLY ‘know/feel’ this and as such they’d ABSOLUTELY KNOW that this other subtle being/form/person had their ‘attention’ on themselves BECAUSE THEY’D ‘AUTOMATICALLY’ FEEL IT (and they’d even FEEL THIS OTHER PERSON’S ATTENTION even when their own ‘sensory attention’ was directed elsewhere) . . . coincidentally there has been research conclusively confirming that at least certain people are consistently aware of others looking at themselves EVEN WHEN THOSE LOOKING AT THEMSELVES ARE ACTUALLY LOCATED BEHIND THESE OTHERS THEY ARE ‘STILL’ SOMEHOW ABLE TO BE AWARE OF THESE OTHERS ‘LOOKING’ AT THEMSELVES (this is research done by Rupert Sheldrake (his page describing this research is here))!!!
Subtle beings generally automatically ’emit/transmit/broadcast’ their internal states in all directions/orientations (i.e. 360x360x360) ALL THE TIME while ‘generally’ also pretty much automatically being aware of and or taking in others ’emissions/transmissions/broadcasts’ FROM ALL DIRECTIONS ALL THE TIME too . . .
Coincidentally, for a subtle form whose entire body is ALL THE TIME in ALL DIRECTIONS always ‘EMITTING’ WHILE ALSO ALWAYS PICKING UP EVERYTHING FROM ALL DIRECTIONS because they DO NOT HAVE ANY RECOGNIZED ‘FRONT’ or ‘BACK’ then this means that ALL THE TIME they are ALWAYS omni-directionally sensitive!!!
Basically, subtle forms don’t have a front or back or sides, rather, every side/orientation of the subtle body form is always a ‘FRONT’!!!!
Now given the absolute management efforts to prevent anyone including myself from ‘explicitly’ describing the characteristics of and subtle environment circumstances as well as of WHOM WE ACTUALLY ARE as SUBTLE FORMS/BEINGS living within a none physical ‘energetic’ subtle space, then it is exceptionally unlikely that you’ve been allowed to translate the above descriptions of our subtle form and the subtle environmental it lives within into a decent/accurate as well as ‘conceptually’ solid view/image!!!
In this respect, then let me be way more ‘explicit’ with respect to making you aware of yet more variations of problems translating/converting incompatible but long term consistently experienced subtle environment & an androgynous subtle body form experiences into an exceptionally unrepresentative flat, 1 and occasionally 2 dimensional physical environment scale while also being saddled with an exceptionally sensory limited physical body that is also handicapped by being sexually divided into one of a two role/scale of expression/attributed limited ‘human’ body form . . . on the next page . . .