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    • Clive June 27, 2020 at 3:09 pm on The Duplication of Some Cities Will Present Anomalies Related to ‘Building Construction Resources’Another 'Duplicated' reality evidence post
    • Clive June 27, 2020 at 3:07 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationAny better now Shalin? My 'seriously piss-taking' super blips/shit effects windup's seem to have stopped, I'm back to my more 'normal' i.e. milder wind-ups which seem to be facilitating more stress tension i.e. 'stressed neck & locked jaw' associated 'release' effects!!!
    • Shalin June 25, 2020 at 4:22 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationWell, my comment wasn't intended to be taken as an outburst. I was simply asking what your thoughts were given the current piss taking situation. I get what you are saying however. And honestly, if you cant figure out a strategy that aligns with those above that helps them and us at the same time how can I when I haven't been able to function, think, work, visit friends or attend any social gatherings or carry out any normal activities for 5 years? I've been in a constant state of hell since April/2015. I am filled with so many shit effects of every kind from the list you described in your reply that my head is literally about to explode as is my abdomen. The knock on effects on every organ/physiological system due to everything that is trapped within me is staggering and has been so for 5 years now and as I've stated many times is *constant every nanosecond of the day/night*. If I could think and function I'd definitely help you but I'm lucky I get thru the day. I try the best I can given my circumstances. Yes, I have noticed you not posting the cabal related posts. I'm not certain why presenting them visibly would increase & amplify shit effects though. In any case, the posts regarding the cabal are mostly intended for your consumption and not the publics.
    • Clive June 25, 2020 at 3:24 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances Speculation"That would be me for whatever reason" . . . Well, the above sort of completely sums up your attitude doesn't it Shalin. Nope to a greater or lesser extent pretty much everyone here will be experiencing worse circumstances, relationships and or personal effects/impacts. Personally, just speaking for myself, I've been hit by effects that are at least 10 times worse than anything that I've experienced for at least 2 or 3 'decades' BUT your highly predictable outburst did help to remind me that many different experiments are specifically designed to be focused on some very specific 'attributes' . . . coincidentally our EAAS experiment version is focused on 'Anger, Rage, Hate & Suffering' . . . Although on checking notes I identified others focused on other specific 'attribute' sets. For example Shock, Horror, Terror Shame, Embarrassment, Loathing, Distraught, Self-depreciation, Self-hatred, Disgust, Contempt Disassociation, Depersonalization, Derealisation Despair, Depression, Despondency and Demoralisation Isolation, Separation, Loss, Grief, Keeping People Apart, Disengaged 'AND' there are experiments also focused on the polar opposites like happy, laughter, feeling content, fulfilled etc . . . . Hence, then let me give you some 'sensible' advice re 'negotiating' because in that I'm not an idiot I figured out how to get at least 'some' leeway years ago now. Firstly, you have to find out or figure out or maybe directly 'ask' THE UPPER SHITS THEMSELVES WHAT THEY ACTUALLY WANT, and particularly with respect to any current 'shit' phase!!! Once you've done this then you can then spend time very specifically thinking about things from their perspective (because from years of personal experience they don't give a shit about us). So, perhaps rather than waste time whingeing and whining on I've spent time figuring out how they can achieve the same while either reducing 'shit' levels and or suggest different ways of doing the same thing that would impact us less and or take less time while coincidentally achieving the same outcomes that the upper shit's want. Now, I've already not only spent time THINKING in the above ways BUT I've also actually written in great detail, specifying EXACTLY what the upper lots agenda is with respect to the current shit phase we find ourselves in. So, maybe you could get your shit attitude re orientated and do something useful like maybe try and figure out how they can achieve what they want IN SOME OTHER WAY!!! I'd be impressed if you can, because 'personally' so far, I cannot!!!! Do you realise that I keep deleting a lot of your comments content specifically re cabball etc. etc. specifically because having this actually written/presented VISIBLY in public here will actually cause shit efforts to increase and seriously amplify?????????
    • Shalin June 25, 2020 at 1:29 am on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances Speculation>however, I now suspect that it’s worse than this for our super FU EAAS >experiment version, because it now seems as if it’s using anything as an >excuse to make things worse for specific people!!!! That would be me for whatever reason. So bottom line: If anything is being used as an excuse/vehicle to make things worse for specific people what is the next step in your opinion?
    • Clive June 24, 2020 at 5:21 pm on The Long, Long Physical Con: The DARK Reality of ‘EARTH’ Incarnations & the ‘Real’ Meaning of Your Human LifeHi Megan, Mmmm you might find reading this comment here useful as I had a similar piss take and described the effort involved in resolving/healing it!!!
    • Megan June 24, 2020 at 1:19 am on The Long, Long Physical Con: The DARK Reality of ‘EARTH’ Incarnations & the ‘Real’ Meaning of Your Human LifeNetworking off Jessica’s comment regarding trauma between the physical body and the subtle body, compared to what Jessica shared, I have had rather ‘small’ injuries to my body that felt like more than what they were. For example, while shoving snow off the driveway, I had picked up a scoop a snow and twisted the wrong way (hell, I was doing the work incorrectly anyway,) and wound up hurting the small of my back (I believe I mentioned this in a comment now that I think about it.) I remember icing it and taking pain killers and laying flat on the floor and nothing helped. The thing is, for as minor as it was – even the pain – I remember feeling as if this pain affected more than my body. For the record, when it comes to physical pain, I have a high pain tolerance. But in this instance, I felt as if a second invisible body had been overlaid or permeated my physical body and it was shaking, and I remember wanting to cry because this hurt even felt emotional in a way, but nothing would happen. Another time was at work, I had spent over half of a ten hour shift hand stripping the ends off cables for an audio rack – an failing miserably with most if not each cable – that by the time I was done, my right arm was ached so badly, and like the incident mentioned above I felt as if there was a secondary body overlaid upon mine, and while I can usually deal with the physical ache, this ache felt emotional/subtle in a way and I wanted to cry. Also, quite a few weeks ago, when I was in bed just drifting and trying to fall asleep, I would feel this very subtle clicking sensation. It wasn’t something I physically heard, even though I think I heard something (the thought that came to mind was a distant gunshot.) It was small, but my whole body felt it to the point of jumping and I would feel funny afterwards. I have mentioned the video game Final Fantasy VII in comments here before, and just recently SquareEnix released the first part of the remake they are creating for the game. It is one of the biggest games they ever made, and a remake has been highly anticipated. I know I have a lot of emotions and stuff wrapped up on their world, and had no intentions of buying or playing the remake. Well, one day a few weeks ago, I wake up from a nap with the thought/idea of buying the remake, and guess what, I did. I don’t regret it, but playing through the game, it felt like much more than a video game. I felt as if the trauma of the characters and then some (I think there was even some of my own that came out and the game was just the medium being used to explore/trigger these traumas.) But there is/was an incident in the game that left me curious. So in the original game, there is a character named Zack Fair who is a soldier (one of the best and who had been the subject of horrific scientific experimentation for 4 years,) carrying the comatose protagonist of the game, Cloud Strife (who was subject to similar experimentation,) and is on the run from his previous employer, the ShinRa Electric Power Company (a huge corporation which utilizes the spiritual energy – i.e. souls - of the Planet to generate electricity and make everyones’ lives more comfortable.) Zack is pursued by an army and killed just before reaching his destination (Cloud is left alone, believing he is dead, but wakes up from his coma shortly before Zack dies and continues on alone.) The PSP game Crisis Core is the focus of Zack’s story, and no matter the outcome you lose regardless (you play this character right up to the point he dies.) Well, in the remake, thanks to the actions of the characters, history may have re-written itself and Zack may very well be alive. Playing through and watching this, I remember feeling discomfort and unhappiness but it was different. A part of me was upset for all the sacrifices that were made which were for nothing, but I also felt as if a deeper part of me had healed or corrected itself. It was as if Zack being alive (or potential of being alive) fixed something within me in/around my solar plexus area. I believe this game is a VR within the original MV, and I suspect that the main characters in the game are administrative avatars. I believe my original self played as Cloud often. He is one I focus on when I write fanfiction, especially his relationship with the antagonist, Sephiroth, which I always wanted to fix. I even wanted to dress as him once for Halloween. But thinking on these characters as potential VR avatars/administrators and the fanfiction written about them got me thinking about the comment Clive left about Tom finding shit related to myths and legends here, and it made me wonder if the FU fanfics weren’t also being overlaid/fed into those that would have used the avatars these characters represent on top of the shit from the game itself.
    • Shalin June 21, 2020 at 2:09 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!I too sense more SHIT being copied into me. However, I'm not being placed into any past traumas as part of explorations/investigations/release efforts. I do feel like I am one of those deliberately being maintained in my SHIT for whatever reason with more SHIT being copied into me which is worsening my baseline.
    • Anne June 16, 2020 at 1:52 pm on Are We Living Within a Duplicated Population Simulation that is Presenting Anomalies Due to ‘Missing’ PeopleHi Clive, Your focus on what is degrading the physical body has been a useful focus. It's been annoying me for some time that it's hard to even get the time to have a routine to keep fit and know what sort of exercise is useful and to avoid injuring the body. As it happens I've been in furlough the last several weeks and have been attempting to look after myself - and it's hard! I have now the time do exercise/walking but I realise that I need another 'expert' osteopath and exercise coach. I'm in my 40's and seeing the inexorable slide, and my feelings are that I can only do so much - feeling a bit hopeless. When/if I get back to work, it will be a shame to lose the momentum. Our working routines/living is mostly just sitting down and staring at a screen - 'the cave' is getting smaller and I had a weird dream that my body atrophied so much my legs were underdeveloped and all that mattered was my brain, but then that felt like it was going to mush as well. Your focus on depression and everything sabotaged was spot on. So I'm in lockdown/furlough and that sad fact is that without a job making me do something I'm at a bit of a loss. I feel like I've been an automaton. I have some small hobbies but the main thing has been procrastinating about really considering what I should be doing with myself - some kind of motivating goal. I just can't really go there without getting stressed and most of my life has been stuck because I can't stand the 'self inflicted' stress/anxiety around 'being the best possible version of myself'. I go round and round and have ha 'coaches' annoyed at me for being so stuck/stubborn. Reading your focuses has been hard the last few weeks, but gave the one above a go again today and wanted to feedback to you.
    • Clive June 14, 2020 at 2:27 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!If you send a 2nd comment the same (likely shortly after the first) it ends up in the SPAM, I've just found about 15 versions of your last long comment OSrock in the 'Spam' bin - all deleted now
    • Jessica Antunes June 14, 2020 at 1:33 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!I am in trouble to submit comments on this page, because when I post I don't receive any information about them being successfully submitted ... Was this just happening to me?
    • Jessica Antunes June 14, 2020 at 1:22 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!Re: “when I reached ‘myself/the person I’m a duplicate of’ within this ‘multiverse next door’ environment I became aware that it was actually directly aware of and had been accessing and watching/tracking ‘ME’ here (and also others here too) in real time i.e. it was REMOTELY ACCESSING & WATCHING/TRACKING MYSELF WITHIN THE MULTIVERSE NEXT DOOR (i.e. ‘OUR’ MULTIVERSE)” The idea of people outside the EAAS being able to access our reality (including the VR substrate of our reality and hack it, as the WSW teams outside do) intrigues me a lot! The opposite I’m still capable of conceptualize, I mean, we here being able to access and even hack realities from outside, because we would always be present in the previous realities as a subtle energy body fragment of someone interfaced to the next reality, and thus, we could always become capable to use (probably if someone or something gave permission) all of our latent subtle habilities… BUT people from who knows where being able to access the EAAS… mmm that is very weird… What would EAAS be if not a processor delivering input signals to the consciousness subtle organs of the subtle energy body fragments of someone we are in the previous multiverse? In principle, the EAAS should only be accessible and impactable to the poor subtle fragments of someone immobile and choiceless having input directly directed to their conciousness organs, whom, in being alive, could also interact with their reality through the delivery of output which would be processed, and which would be pre-defined to impact reality in specific ways, hence they are able to do it… BUT people from the outside also being able to access EAAS, and even interact with it and even hack it? WEIRD!!! A hypothesis that occurred to me: would the reality that is unfolding in EAAS being transmitted to some kind of VR internet network, hence people are able to access EAAS from outside and even interact with it? Clive, do you know how this is possible? Either way, EAAS (and who knows how many other realities…) appears ‘REALLY’ to have been designed to allow hacking… It was no longer enough for the EAAS reality to be strangely pre-defined to give its inhabitants the chance to hack it, but additionally it’s even an ‘open door’ to the outside… (and in fact, also possible to hack to the population outside, as you have already implied several times somewhere out there)! By the way, how are things going on with regards to the hacking of our reality Clive? I’m missing feedback (and also Tom’s quotes!!!) As for me, I am being much more careful with my nutrition and health since the last focus. (i don't know if I have already posted several times, but i didn't receive any information about my comment being successfully submitted...)
    • Clive June 14, 2020 at 1:30 am on My Personal Mandela Effect Walkers Crisp Packet Experience In DetailHaha, that's very funny!!!!
    • Clive June 14, 2020 at 1:13 am on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!Yea Tommy BUT it was a 'key' sentence that 'sparked' a new/useful divergent 'thinking' line making new connections . . . I've been somewhat 'lost' in writing part II which is taking a lot longer than usual, mostly because I've thought of a lot more different/new angles which I'm having to figure out how to properly frame describe/make understandable . . . although I'm also getting hit by a lot of 'shit' recently (at least form) which I think is being copied to me from other 'Clive' versions in worse shit . . . ALL SOMEWHAT PISSTAKING at the moment!!!!!
    • Melissa June 5, 2020 at 1:38 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsLast night I had a dream that was interupted and stopped from having by one of personalities that I have dissagreed with through this time. The last words of the dream were about how the people I was going with was going to get in the car and listen to Christian Music and I said and Marilyn Manson. The dream was about getting to know a rich family and becoming a part of it and everything that goes along with it, including me feeling attracted to another person than I was with and I knew that I was going to be with them. That's when the person stopped the dream. Then when I watched a video by Madonna it was different than when I had seen it most recently. The back drop was different than I had ever seen. Then I had a blinking sign saying I recieved a message from someone on FB and then I couldn't find the message. I messaged her and then she said that she did not message me. Then on a update for facebook it first said Anthony has uploaded a picture. Then for a split second it said Anthony has uploaded 3 pictures. Then it was like a mix of the two. Then it went back to just a picture. I feel like I am being held back from living my full life. One other thing. There is something that is stimulating me to use the bathroom a extreme amount of times a day. Ive went to the doctor about it and and on a cranberry supplement for it but it has woken me up 5 plus times a night at time or even during the day. The supplement had worked and then I said it out loud and then its like something stimulated my bladder to urinate.
    • Megan May 23, 2020 at 3:43 am on My Personal Mandela Effect Walkers Crisp Packet Experience In DetailHere's a clip from a SkyNews where a red budget folder suddenly turns green on live TV. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gsymzzkmVpw
    • Tommy May 14, 2020 at 11:38 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!Just one useful sentence in all my rambling welp gotta work harder at writing decent comments. Clive there have been multiple religions with a version of the cosmos some speak about seven heaven. The Hindus speak about different lokas. Different planets ruled by different half deities and full deities. Some speak about a hollow earth. I mean you read about dantes inferno the suïcide forest. Hell also was made of multiple parts I remember stories of mythology also always speaking about a underworld. So are these like combinations of different versions how the world worked outside off our little preprogrammed eeas shithole?
    • Clive May 13, 2020 at 7:12 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!Mmm, those flood myths are very interesting Tommy, thanks for the link I've read them a few times/still thinking about them . . . however the "how does the whole yssgadril the tree that keeps up the 9 realms fits into your plate world thing" . . . was even more interesting . . . because last week I was vaguely thinking about myself accessing an original multiverse experience as a physical 'cat' form taking off from a planet in a space craft to then dock with a merged physical/subtle administration space that was administrating 5 or 6 different physical worlds, which to be honest had me very puzzled as they must be spread out over many different star systems . . . 'UNLESS' they were different environments within a disc world . . . however, your "how does the whole yssgadril the tree that keeps up the 9 realms" query had me doing a search and finding this page here . . . which to be honest Tommy is an absolute grade AAA+ gold mine . . . so, I'll likely add another longish update to this page tomorrow now!!! Thanks lots for the heads up for that angle/possibility Tommy
    • Tommy May 12, 2020 at 10:15 am on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!Clive there are older flood myths you know I always keep bitching about Sumerian Akkadian Babylonian mythology. Would it kill you to check it out? https://www.livius.org/articles/misc/great-flood/flood3/. They had three flood myths I know the one of Gilgamesh there was one before by Atra-Hasis. I can’t find stuff about the first. The friend/enemy thing yes it’s funny how that always happened but I think I managed to circumvent that by interacting with maybe 3 people nowadays. It’s always I get somewhere or know someone via someone else so I kinda quit doing that. I’m also absolutely sure I lived some recycled scripted parts of other people I know. Idk if that’s dollhouse shenanigans or something else. My dad had older women he lived with before he met my mom happened. I had it. My little brother same thing now living with a older woman. My dad had a friend doing drugs called max I also got a max. His Max’s kid was named the same as my Max’s his wife. Both used the same drugs. I dated a guy scammed him I had the exact same story happening like that guy told me. Yeah a couple of years back I was messing around with a american I ended up in a dodgy sauna the exact same freaking thing as that guy discribed till a t bizar what are the odds of that happening? Weird accident that happened my ex I saw her fall as a child while I was sleeping. She dropped of block of concrete then she got hit by a car years later. Spine is wrecked been doing physical therapy for ages. Spine is oke for a week then she’s in pain again. I had something happening to me with laughinggas in that house of my other ex and that when the fucking ringing that god awful tinnitus in my ears started. Been trying to find a renter for my ex since last year October every time something is messing it up. Or she or someone else then I figured ow fuck it’s prolly not in her script to get a renter. It’s prolly also not in her script that her spine gets better. Because if she had treatments for the past 7 years and she only was well after that thing the shaman did and I was backpacking in Venice. Another horror story is the story of my mate Kacem. Older Tunisian orphan he told me a lot about his life and it was hell. He has major family drama because he refused to marry a cousin now he regrets not marrying her and is trying to fix it. Surprise suprise though I think that’s also not scripted for him because he’s been miserable. It’s a big factor that keeps him stuck in shit. Clive how does the whole yssgadril the tree that keeps up the 9 realms fits into your plate world thing. You said yourself that it was like a yooo come check out my world that something kidnapped subtle forms to check it out. What if whatever that was playing to be those Babylonian deities was behind this? What if the eeas sim was based on a sim made by something that wasn’t human? What if the eeas sim reality was also a simulated reality? Lots op speculation and me writing a bunk comment use what’s useful ignore what’s crap.
    • Jessica Antunes May 9, 2020 at 8:05 pm on The Long, Long Physical Con: The DARK Reality of ‘EARTH’ Incarnations & the ‘Real’ Meaning of Your Human LifeThank you for the answer Clive, conjugating it with the matter of my comment, what I interpreted from it was that the baseline of our reality is really fucking us all, whether we investigated the subtle to physical interfacing or not, whether we instigated organized expeditions into the physical or not, whether we were coners or not... You said “Well, you’ve a lot of mixed up angles/references here Jessica” And I in my poor knowledge of the English language (I am not a native speaker) I assumed the term mixed up meant confused, right? So, is there any association in my comment that you know is not correct (I really strive to think coherently and to understand something of my reality)?
    • Clive May 8, 2020 at 6:12 pm on The Long, Long Physical Con: The DARK Reality of ‘EARTH’ Incarnations & the ‘Real’ Meaning of Your Human LifeWell, you've a lot of mixed up angles/references here Jessica, our shit circumstances/specific world/EAAS was designed within another multiverse, BUT 'instigated/prompted' by a specific sub population/culture that as you know I'm not directly making clear here because I'm prefer to avoid having any hassle/shit!!! BUT they were directly manipulated to do this 'and' to specifically covertly design a 'shit/breaking people down' version BY 'people and or some 'system/intelligence'' that are way, way further up within the data system that this is all happening within . . . i.e. it's then very likely that what is setup here/what we are living within was pre-defined by the owners of the data system whom will be way, way up over/outside the top of the computer/data system . . . Newest page gives the best evidence set yet that we are a living in a duplicated reality and that as are a smaller/sub population of 'copies' of specific people living within a neighbouring multiverse!!!
    • Megan May 8, 2020 at 5:50 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Shalin, what I am sharing is how I was taught to facilitate myself and how I have learned to use the focuses. All of this is from my experience and perspective. I am not Clive. I have not been doing this as long as he has, but this is how I have come to see and understand things based on my experiences. When I first started doing the focuses, I experienced a lot of frustration too. Here I was reading comments from people who reading the focuses and seeing these amazing thing and contributing to the discussion, and here I was feeling frustrated, exhausted and getting a whole lot of nothing except more of the same of what I have always felt all my life. I eventually got to the point where I hated even thinking about the focuses since they weren’t doing me any good. It was only later that I realized that I was using these focuses with an expectation of everything - my pain my anger, frustration, etc. – just magically disappearing. Months into doing this and feeling like crap I was guided, and this is/was gut-guidance, to stop doing the focuses and to try something else. I was instructed to get a pen and a notebook, and I was ‘asked’ to ask myself this simple question, “What am I feeling?” I was guided to do a mental scan of my body, where was this feeling trapped (gut, heart, throat, lower back, etc.); how did I feel about it (good or bad? If I didn’t feel good (=happy/joyful) but I didn’t feel bad (=angry/in pain) did it feel dead like nothing (nothing can be something too. For me it represented a block/barrier); what did it feel like (tight like a knot, hard like a rock, thick like sludge); and what did this feeling remind me of (past memories/people/movies/music/etc.)? My mental focus was trained on my lower chakras (my root, sacral, solar plexus) and for most if not all of this time, this is where everything I dealt with came from. This was my primary focus for months. I had stopped doing focuses for the most part (I did new ones as they came out but put them down not long after) but I primarily kept my focus on identifying and reconnecting my mind with my emotions/lower chakras. Anytime I identified or connected to an emotion and my mind/consciousness/whatever went off on a tangent blaming other people (well my mother didn’t do this…, my dad did that…, so and so did something…, etc.) I was pressed with a critical question, “What did I want?” I was forced to figure out and admit my wants/desires/needs/expectations in situations no matter how reasonable or unreasonable/’good or bad’ they were. Doing this went on for months before I was finally guided and encouraged to start working with the focuses again, and I was finally able to actually start seeing things while using the focuses, but the most important thing I have gained through any of this is empathy and compassion for myself. I am still learning and I am not perfect, but I am able to do more things in my life, and can deal with some of the things that did or would have stopped me before WSW on the fly, in public, hell even at work in front of my co-workers (granted all it is internal work so I don’t really say much except cry to myself.) But all of these things are baby steps. They aren’t fixed in an instant or even over night (most of the time.) In the process of doing all of this, I have had to throw away everything that I thought/understood/believed about healing whether it related to light work/New Age angles or even psychology. Clive has even commented, (December 27, 2015 @ 12:11 pm), “‘Everything’ you list above plus the likes of EFT, TFT, NLP, CBT, SE (cognitive behavioural therapy / Somatic Experience) works as I’ve described on the scary pages. They all ‘adjust’ people while never actually opening to / dealing with the underlying embedded: trauma / pain / stress / anxiety etc.” A big thing about all of this is I was forced to learn how to express my pain and cry again, even in public as I have mentioned above. I have had cried a lot of tears into my pillows, I have spent hours on end journaling my every thought, feeling, etc just following my pain and anger and frustration and grief, I have driven down the interstate crying bloody murder in the middle of the night because it was the only place I could safely do so. Which begs the question, do you have a place you can be that emotionally honest and raw with yourself? I was renting an apartment when I was going through all of this so it made expressing myself out loud rather difficult. It sounds like you have been trying to mentally and emotionally balance your sanity on the head of a pin for quite a while Shalin, and for what it is worth I am sorry to hear about the things you have had to endure in all this. The focuses are working, but realize that even when the focuses or Clive or the WSW teams remove/take care of the original issue (whatever it may be) that does not mean that your soul hasn’t been left unscathed, however that may be. Right now, don’t worry too much on ‘seeing’ anything and focus more on reconnecting with yourself emotionally.
    • Clive May 8, 2020 at 5:44 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!New 'fake reality evidence' page to read!!!!
    • Shalin May 8, 2020 at 3:37 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, maybe thinking about hacking/brainstorming from Sun Tzu & Niccolo Machiavelli Art of War literature & Game Theory could be useful. If you are being setup to think in certain directions/angles then maybe its deliberate and the right path is something else. I'm finding the Art of War / Game Theory being the tactic being employed my Q/Trump against the Cabal/illuminati. Every step is a calculated move anticipating every permutation of the opponents steps well into the future. In your case the opponent are the EAAS designers. I wish I could dive more deeper into the literature & strategies but you know my extreme situation which is preventing me from doing or thinking anything properly without me head feeling like its going to explode.
    • Clive May 8, 2020 at 1:06 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Trent/everyone . . . "If this place was created/designed/etc with the intention of it being hacked then those who instigated this probably wouldn’t leave it up to chance as to whether it was actually hacked or not.. which means that you/other hackers/wsw’s/etc might’ve been influenced/directed to hack it in the first place," Yea, 'EXACTLY' Trent . . . I've been feeling 'SET UP' . . . design a shit/completely fucked up world, that's going to get worse and worse while setting up people to figure out it's a fake world and then get them to start to try and hack it/stop it from doing what it was designed/set up for . . . Sorry 'regulars' I've been in a fair amount of 'shit/distractions' recently (at least for me) making thinking/doing anything much more difficult . . . although I've managed to massively update and extend the 'missing people' fake reality evidence page to include some completely new angles (I'll try and get that updated here in the next day or two ) . . . overall the upper shits that set this place up seem to be getting on analysing/tracking and trying to negate and or more likely 'control' the shit effects impacting us BUT so far they seem pretty useless . . . I'm now also very sure that they're using the global (likely made up) virus scare to then have different cultures respond differently specifically to 'maximise' the multiples of copies of different 'people' behaviour diversity too!!!!
    • Megan May 6, 2020 at 1:21 am on Are We Living Within a Duplicated Population Simulation that is Presenting Anomalies Due to ‘Missing’ PeopleSo, within the last two weeks of using this focus, I noticed that it didn’t hurt to work on my knees when working on the concrete floor without a knee pad. Before this latest focus, it always hurt to work on the floor without a knee pad and I would always be sensitive to it, like my kneecaps were being dislodged and forced into the joint. I am still buying too much food at one time or will make more food than what is needed, I almost feel anxious when I do so. I think I had several lifetimes when I was poor and struggle to eat or find food. I am still struggling with the self-love aspect of eating food and taking care of my body. What I saw was that any relationships I had with others had always been distant, I had no real emotional connection with others, but food made me feel good and made up for the connection and nurturing I lacked from others. What I saw was that the more I ate the uglier I became, even though eating made me happy, and the more people would avoid me. I really suck at sticking to healthy eating habits and to dieting because it feels like a punishment of sorts. Yesterday, the tip of an audio testing cable broke off in the audio port of a computer I was testing, and after my supervisor came into the area, obviously irritated and upset about what happened and asking how it happened and what I did to cause the problem to happen, I would like to note that for once I did not feel the amount of humiliation and self-punishment that I usually experience with similar incidents in the past. I didn’t cry over it for once and my mind kicked into streamlining the work and getting it done. I started reading The Color of Magic from Terry Prackett’s Discworld series, and to be honest it feels more like a Dungeons and Dragons game, especially when it talked of the Gods playing with the lives of the main characters in a game themselves. I am curious though, since the idea of the World Turtle and World Elephant are familiar to those of Hindu, Chinese and Native American mythology does that mean these cultures come from similar Discworld like realities? Actually, it reminds me of a time where I was terrified to write or even daydream about anyone or anything, whether I made it up or it was borrowing someone else’s work, because I was afraid that whatever I was putting the characters through was legitimately hurting someone or using them for my own selfish desires.
    • Jessica Antunes April 27, 2020 at 6:53 pm on The Long, Long Physical Con: The DARK Reality of ‘EARTH’ Incarnations & the ‘Real’ Meaning of Your Human LifeI remembered a new angle of EVIDENCE that we actually survive the death of our physical body, and that IN TURN, we are ‘long lived subtle / spiritual beings that from time to time intertafe to alien physical avatars’. It is a phenomenon often mentioned in the arguments in favor of the existence of reincarnation, apart from memories that are confirmed to be real from past lives. I am talking about ‘birthmarks’!… I have already found accounts of people who, in addition to having memories of past lives, have birthmarks that relate to the way they remember having died in their past life. In addition to knowing 2 interesting and somewhat suspicious cases (although one is more of a symptom than a visible mark)… The most blatant is that of my ex-boyfriend, who besides being obsessed with the Nazis and the 2nd world war (he read an entire encyclopedia and knew EVERYTHING about the 2nd world war), also dreamed once he died gradually in a trench, in an icy scenario, in what seemed to him to be the famous “D-day” with a huge wound in the bottom of his back… The thing is that he was born with a birth defect, AND… 'exactly' in the bottom of his back in the area where he dreamed he had the wound… he was born with a vertebra deformation that was smaller than normal and that caused him a lot of back pain… The other case is that of my mother who, in the context of telling me about the horrible heart pains she felt when she was younger, told me (I no longer remember why, but I think she simply remembered with the conversation) she once had a super realistic dream that she was a soldier and that when he was in a battle he was hit by a spear that pierced his chest, something that in the dream made her feel real pain "as if it were real"... And when saying that, I could not help but automatically linking that perhaps the spear explained the 'unexplained' pains she felt in the chest (the doctors never detected anything odd)... Now, a few years ago, I read a lot of material related to the so-called “spiritual” phenomena, and one of the stuff I found closer at hand was the spiritist material, and all its spiritual channelings and its accouns of “spiritual” phenomena made by the so-called "mediums" (people who probably have what would be called subtle habilities here). And one of the phenomena they talked about a lot was the so-called “somatization” (and this is actually a scientific term attributed to the 'known' phenomenon of the physical manifestation of symptoms resulting from psychological and emotional disorders), which referred to no more and no less than the 'physical manifestation' of problems which ORIGINATE in what they call “spirit”. So, all of this suggests that there is a 'VERY INTRICATED' and 'MUTUALLY' INFLUENCIAL relationship between our physical body and our many subtle bodies (probably artificial, since in principle as subtle beings we would only have one (probably unconscious in a subtle pod …))… HENCE considerable physical injuries “ended up” having an effect….. surprise, surprise… in the “next life” physical body alien avatar (if not on those of the next lifes…)…!! BECAUSE these physical injuries would already have impacted our subtle body/subtle bodies BEFORE from the physical plane, which in turn, having imprinted these injuries in itself, would end up influencing the development of the next physical body! SO, it is likely that the interfacing of the subtle body to the physical body, and that the possibly 'natural' possible relationships between the subtle and the physical strata (from the perspective of how our reality is fundamentally defined), gave origin to that BOTH bodies tending to 'reflect on each other', at least with respect to certain parameters... The interfacing between the two bodies could in fact be set up in a ULTRA detailed way, like at the cellular level, and who knows if not at the molecular and even atomic level (actually you suggest that this is possible on the “Psysical Con” page from the “Visuals” series, and if this were not possible, how on earth could a subtle being interface to a rock, to the atmospheric system or to a star?), WHICH COULD EXPLAIN THIS“ MIRROR EFFECT ”. That… and also actually the fact of ‘half’ of the periodic table elements having a direct correspondence with elements of the subtle strata, as you suggest very directly in this comment https://www.soul-healer.com/human-enhancements/first-awareness-of-a-version-of-myself-designing-subtle-body-functioning-adjusting-implants/#comment-26559. In this respect of the relations between the subtle bodies and the physical body, and between the subtle and the physical strata at a fundamental level… and right about the content of this page… I remember reading a comment on a forum's thread about reencarnation and freewill (if I am not mistaken) in which a spiritist person said that, having explored why he had a physical disability, he made a regression (guided I think) to the moment when he had been interfaced to the embryo inside his mother's womb from the after-life place he was standing…… AND he found out that when someone arrived to give him the WONDERFUL news that it was the time for him to reincarnate ‘AGAIN’, he vehemently said ‘no’, that don’t wanted to (the music “Rehab” from Amy Winehouse comes to mind, and in fact there are rumors that she ended up committing suicide… coincidence? mmm... (hoping she does not end up reincarnated in a tree…)), and that despite having been very decided and resolute in his position, that someone in a VERY disrespectful way with respect to his proclaimed free will continued to insist and insist and insist…. until eventually something dragged him 'by force... ending up literally 'stuck' in his mother's womb... and apparently he was so determined that he tried to escape.… BUT as it seems, without success… In the account he said that a spirit guide explained to him that he ended up with the disability (I don't remember what it was…) for having tried very hard to escape, which would have caused the malformation (here is an alert for you guys… if you don't go the easy way, you go the hard way… it's just how things work in the after-life…). In other words, what probably would have happened here was that he’d have somehow damaged his subtle body (most likely artificial) and/or the interfacing, which interfered and impacted his physical body… so here's another example of “somatization”. And… I have a question for you Clive… It’s that for a long time you have NOT been referring to our circumstances of compulsive interfacing to the physical strata as “the physical con”, and for a long time you have NOT been referring to the existence of “physical coners ”as well… so the question I want to ask you is if your perspective on our circumstances has changed? And at the same time you seem to have found out what nature spirits are about (as this comment implies https://www.realitywalker.com/nature-spirits-fae-elementals-fairies-devas/relocating-some-estranged-nature-spirits/#comment-55730)… …and that makes me wandering: WHO the hell are the ‘coners’ after all? Would they be the instigators and/or managers of the subtle to the physical interfacing investigations and the instigators and/or managers of the organized expeditions into the physical (as perhaps Pan and your friend Cernnunos?)… OR, for example, some kind of very odd thing happened in our EAAS, odd to the point that the subtle organizations themselves responsible for the subtle population mass interfacing to the physical strata are also strangely being represented in the physical strata 'AS WELL AS' their managers and workforce (as you suggest on this page https://www.soul-healer.com/subtle-body-soul-form-higher-self/historical-past-language-based-evidence-of-ourselves-as-an-immortal-spirit-form-being-incarnated-into-flesh/) (are they being subjected to the 'SAME' kind of circumstances as we are? You mention in this comment https://www.soul-healer.com/advanced-healing-awareness-training/self-exploration-healing-exercise-3-targeting-investigating-highly-complex-contributions-to-myself/#comment-24542 that some of the regulars here [if not the entire population of EAAS] are representing ‘spirits of nature’, ‘the’ subtle researchers of the subtle to the physical interfacing… that workforce?... and yet they are down and out as you and me?...)… For example, are ‘coners’ actually soulless creatures automatically generated by software? What do you think Clive? (and sorry if I look like an intrusive detective…)
    • Megan April 22, 2020 at 1:36 am on Are We Living Within a Duplicated Population Simulation that is Presenting Anomalies Due to ‘Missing’ People4-20-2020 I am not receiving the expected responses/reactions from everyone around me, especially from my roommate, co-workers and even Clive. I realized that something was causing me to comment in order to bait Clive into responding, or it was making me believe you were someone I would expect to normally be in my life so was expecting something in return. I also realize that I got into spirit keeping in hopes of either finding or replacing those I am missing in my life. I believe that I am defective and unworthy of love. I wanted to starve myself to lose weight, also to punish myself for my poor habits and inability to take care of myself, yet I always end up making or eating too much because food is a great comfort to me and I’m emotionally attached to it in a way. It’s about the only comfort I have when I am PMSing. I really hate taking care of this body and I suspect that my original form didn’t interface to the physical world too often simply by how hard it has been to even get myself to be interested or care about my physical well-being. I realize that my apathy is a form of hatred towards the world. Doing the VR Experience Exercise 2, I realize that the longest fanfic I had wanted to write based on the video game, Final Fantasy VII, was a self-created VR space that I had placed a part of myself, a part I believed to be weaker, in to heal it or take care of it. 4-21-2020 I woke up feeling burnt out and lethargic so I use the latest focus and second to latest focus before work. I connect to feelings of anger/bitterness/resentment towards my supervisor and the whole auditing process we are forced to do at work. I see myself finally breaking down and screaming at him in frustration telling him that it isn’t my job or responsibility to do these audits; that nobody cares nor do they want to do them anyway. It is our job to get the work done. It is not our responsibility to be in charge of the process. It seems like I take things like this, even my burnout/weakness, like a warrior. I don’t want to be seen as weak. I can’t be weak or vulnerable. I feel a deep and dark feeling of apathy takes hold, resonating from my gut/solar plexus area, and I feel this intense hatred for those I regularly deal with and am close to. I have been alone in my fight to resolve my issues and figure things out. There has been no compassion or empathy for my struggle or any understanding or even a want to understand. I see all the people who have complained to me about how frustrating their lives have been and I want to shriek at them, “I don’t care! It’s their own fault their lives suck!” I reflect on this and I think your teams are working a criticizer/skeptic part of my script if my internal reactions are anything to go by. I’ve noticed that since I am not feeling like shit all of the time or feel like I am being attacked anytime I speak up, I realize my snarky, negative side is emerging more and more. I’m concerned that I’m going to end of saying something to someone that I am going to regret.
    • Megan April 20, 2020 at 3:08 am on Are We Living Within a Duplicated Population Simulation that is Presenting Anomalies Due to ‘Missing’ PeopleThis has come up quite a bit recently and I don’t know what to think of it. As I have said before in comments I read fanfiction and had written some stories in the past that I was unable to get off the ground. Back in December, I realized that the main character in the story actually was a part of my self that I had split off and put into another reality for safe keeping or to keep under control (he contained a lot of hurt and anger and to some effect was my want/ability/will/intention to effect change or do something.) I reintegrated him sometime around Christmas break and threw out the rough drafts for the story a couple months later (guidance told me to do so because I was still feeling pushed and stressed out over writing the stories (well, I was pushing and getting frustrated with myself for not doing anything with them) but they were the old, traumatic originals written on paper that was holding that crap in my space.) I will also admit I am kind of an internal adrenaline junkie when it comes to a great story (I can be hooked on particular plot points for hours in my mind.) A lot of this crap had died down after throwing out the rough drafts. Anyway, recently a scene from the story I wanted to write has been coming back. The main character had gone mad, and he was fighting another character who was there to facilitate his ‘spiritual awakening’ (he pretty much runs the main character through the gut with his sword which shatters the main characters own delusions and barriers to the spirit world, but at the same time it threatens the main characters life which only he can save once he accepts the raw power he has been running from/denying.) This particular scene the main character and his opponent are fighting off the side of a building. Thing is this fight scene in its own way is not original. As much as I had ‘made it up’ for the story it is almost exactly like the fight scene from the movie-sequel to the video game. I see the character I made and he is mimicking the actions of the main character of the movie and internally I am feeling as if I am pushed to carry on and keep fighting despite feeling tired and done with everything. I felt into what I was seeing a bit more and I get ‘neural gaming network.’ I’m going to do the GUI/HUD Implant exercise as well as the VR Avatar exercise, but if there is anything else you would recommend, I’d appreciate it.
    • Megan April 19, 2020 at 3:32 am on Are We Living Within a Duplicated Population Simulation that is Presenting Anomalies Due to ‘Missing’ PeopleI was a warrior in many past lives. I fought many people. I hated many people, and I’ve killed many people. I saw myself fighting not out of hate, but because others were helpless and didn’t know how to or couldn’t do it, and someone had to help them. My own anger and resentment towards others and their greed/selfishness/pain/helplessness/laziness/???make sense if I’ve literally gotten killed to save people who have taken my generosity and sacrifice for granted. I was a very vocal/blunt/forthcoming skeptic (I have not studied Greek skepticism yet though) and criticized a lot of people in how they did and handled things. I think this has been taken to the extreme here. I often feel like I’m living/being as two different people. I can be extremely negative about something (usually taking the side of the person I am talking to, or I can be extremely positive and supportive to the person to make them feel better or validate their own bias/view of reality. Mentally and emotionally I am sick and tired of trying to be positive and happy and supportive when this does nothing more than perpetuate the victimhood of everyone around me. On the negative side, I also try to heavily sensor myself to not be so negative. I will either ignore and brush off the conversation, or give a weak, uneducated answer or try to stay silent. This constant back and forth with no real grounding just make me not wanting to talk at all. I feel a slight pain/soreness in my throat after writing this. I’m reminded of a period of time, back when I was just getting started in the New Age stuff plus using Clive’s old lightworker focused handbook, and I had this very strong sense of patriotism towards the United States, or at least towards the ideal and principles it was founded upon. I remember I had this idea of re-writing the Constitution to get rid of the power struggle between the two parties and some of the issues that I saw that needed to be taken care of. I even had this grand idea of running for President and I could see myself living in the White House, but unlike how it is now, it would be completely open and the homeless would be allowed to live there and people would be allowed to play on the lawn. Reflecting on how I felt, it reminds me of how I feel when reading about the Founding Fathers and the Constitution and the creation of America. I realize that something is messing with my sense/desire/??? For romance, sexuality, romantic-sexual relationships, etc. I had this thought the other day, but are the Akashic Records data files of the pre-defined/pre-choreographed interactions/lives we live out strictly here in the EAAS or does it include our lives out there, plus what the designers/directors of this place wanted us to experience in here? I’m tired of using spirit-keeping as a means of meeting other spirits and accessing the subtle realms. I’m crying in frustration now because I don’t know how to consciously do this. I think I am also doing it as way of getting attention. I see myself standing before those that I’ve brought into my life, and I feel like I’ve messed up again somehow. I realize that a part of myself is fighting against the WSW teams because they are trying to access things that I have fought to repress/run away from/keep hidden. Wounds I didn’t want to remember or I wanted to forget/erase, and I think this may be directly tied into my ability to interact with spirits/subtle energy and other realms. I also get the impression that some of this has to do with the abduction or whatever happened to my original self, but the original circumstances have been twisted into a narrative where I was ignored/abandoned/neglected by my friends and family. I also realize that there are a lot of things in this world that heavily influenced my own bias/misconceptions/ideas of spirits and the subtle realms. I feel a tingling in my lips after writing this. I wonder if my ideas/expectations/concepts of power are influenced too. Like the bigger, better, more powerful my intentions/focus/righteousness (think big shiny things with lots of explosions) is used against something, then it should be absolutely resolve/destroy the problem. Kind of reminds me of how violent Disney is becoming and those flashy superhero movies. They never listened to me. When they didn’t listen to me, I tried to leave/run away, but I constantly found myself getting stuck and had to accept there was nothing I could do and nothing was going to change. Apathy is a conditioned response, and I don’t feel apathetic because I want to, but because I sense that the trauma or whatever I had been through was so great this was the only way to survive/cope with it. I see my roommate and I talking and I know she thinks I am nuts and judges me constantly. I see myself talking to her, yelling at her, arguing with her, trying to tell her something, and she isn’t listening to me, she just has her head buried in her phone just like everyone else, and I feel a pressure in my solar plexus silencing me. I look around my room and I feel as if my world is getting cramped and incredibly small. I remember a time in middle school when I was a member of an improv group and we were performing a skit for a 4th grade class. We were answering questions after our performance and someone had asked the question as to whether two of our members, who played a couple during the skit, were actually dating, which was a no. At this point I did not get to speak and no one asked me questions, suddenly opened my mouth saying something along the lines of, ‘can you really see these two dating each other.’ The whole room went silent and I made a fool out of myself. Feeling into this, I see that I was purposely set up like this. Like the expectations of the ideal female are to be submissive, obedient, silent, weak and stupid, I was purposely set up into situations that kept me into such a state, to be and feel unworthy, unnoticeable, and to not make a fuss so I couldn’t do anything ‘wrong’ in other words be knowledgeable, independent, assertive, competent, better, etc. I suddenly feel frustrated because I would like to be doing more and making more money in my life but that requires more hard work, more education (more money) yet I feel my freedom is in living in poverty without the fancy education. This reminds me of the good is bad/bad is good concept that has been mentioned before. I reflect on my current job and where I hope to go and where it will take me and I feel frustrated because I believe, from how my co-workers treat me/judge me, I believe I have already failed. I feel frustrated like it's no use continuing and want to walk away. I want all of it to go away. I see myself standing before my co-workers and I have to accept outside of the work I do, I am not accepted or welcomed by any of them. Heh, I hope this focus help shed all this stubborn belly fat…This thought reminded me of a passage from a book I am reading that says that the Greek idea of a perfect, ideal reality was one that was constant and unchanging while a reality that was in flux and changing was considered weak.
    • Shalin April 17, 2020 at 9:37 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Megan/Clive, what I'm doing to engage with my frustrations? Well for the last 5 years being in this physical hell it wasn't clear to me what exactly it was that was causing my problems. All I knew was that I had experienced an endless list of emotional traumas/hurts etc. For every ounce of trapped frustration within my data stores/caches there are likely equal stores of everything else - anger, rage, resentment, fear, worry, grief, sadness, stress, tension etc because thats what my life has been about - unfortunate circumstances/experiences & repeated trauma. I try to engage with all of these emotions, traumas, experiences thru the focuses but I don't get any clues/insights as I've mentioned. I don't know where the hidden stores/caches are and I don't know what is maintaining the frustrations/traumas/emotions or recycling/restoring them. BUT again, I don't think its SHIT messing with my conscious mind so much as it is SHIT just trapped within my data stores/caches causing my physical imbalances. I’ve done a lot of cognitive behavior therapy on myself during these last 5 years -I’m no longer mad/angry with my father for how he treated me when I was young. Since I’m not in the dating scene I don’t need to worry about HIV/STDs, which was a source of extreme fear/worry/anxiety accumulation within my stores/caches in the past. I do have investments and as the financial markets go up/down lately due to all the volatility I do get worry/frustration/anger from that from time to time. I also do have persistent fear/worry because I'm afraid the 24/7 gastric fluids destroying my esophagus/nasal-canal/throat will lead to complications/cancer. And lately, I've been watching a lot of documentaries about the activities of the cabal and the leftist governments around the world in cahoots with them using the pandemic or perhaps even creating the pandemic intentionally to bring down Trump to continue with their agenda - take away our freedoms, one world government ruled by a select few elites etc. That has created some persistent anxiety/worry. As well, as you know I've had tremendous frustration from all the life events - failed romantic relationships, unfavorable work/career related outcomes, unfavorable investment outcomes, poverty circumstances, working under extremely difficult/tedious/stressful/frustrating circumstances/situations and on and on. I've disengaged from a lot of that. I'm not in a romantic relationship right now and I've taken a leave of absence from work/career. So I've removed those sources from adding to whatever frustration is already present in my data stores/caches. GIVEN ALL THAT, as I previously mentioned its not so much what is in my conscious mind as it is what is in my stores/caches that is causing my physical imbalances that is the problem. I'm NOT experiencing daily frustrations from any of the many sources of frustration that have previously led to the accumulation of frustration within my stores/caches. I'm not working so no risk of experiencing work related frustration which I've had so much of in the past. No wife/girlfriend so no frustration from romantic relationships. The frustration now is related to: A) NOT being able to live my life because of my physical imbalances B) Get out of the physical hell before it kills me #A above is a huge bucket of frustration because it basically cuts off all hope to ever get out of this hell to be able to live a normal life. I am unable to see a life beyond my current situation as it is impossible for me to see myself well/healthy and out of this hell to experience what it feels like just to wake up in the morning and not have the unbearable physical imbalances/symptoms destroying my body. A normal person usually has a lot of things to look forward to - romance, a trip/vacation, career/job advances, learning new skills, making love, engaging with their hobbies, meeting up with friends or family, it can be anything. For me all of that has been destroyed because of my extreme physical imbalances/symptoms. I don’t know what it feels like just to wake up in the morning, see the sunlight pouring into the room and feel happy and grateful to be alive. To enjoy a cup of coffee outside listening to the birds chirp. I cant do any of that and I cant even visualize it because I've been so trapped/stuck in this hell for so long now. I don’t know how it feels to be normal. What does a normal body feel like? I don't know any more because it's been so long. I see my friends living every day life - going for a jog, having a cup of coffee, going on vacation, going out to eat, laughing, smiling, whatever - they can do it because they have healthy bodies - they aren’t in maximum physical pain or discomfort every second of the day or night. So I engage by focuses and by self cognitive behavior therapy but it appears that whatever is causing, maintaining, recycling, restoring my issues has a firm grip and no amount of mental exercises I can do seems to help. These past 2 weeks I’ve had a lot of dreams and I often wake up in the middle of the night with symptoms worsened and in fear/worry states. Maybe that is wsw teams putting me in such dreams to get me into certain states to then track/find/release but so far I haven’t noticed any releases of any kind. I also have not noticed being placed into any past trauma or negative emotion states as what is happening now has been happing for the last 5 years so my every minute/second feels the exact same and is difficult for me to decipher if those outside/wsw teams r able to work on me.
    • Trent April 17, 2020 at 6:38 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshIn response to "Yea, Shalin the Tibetans are ‘special/a one off’" Just a crazy line of thinking I had the other day.. If this place was created/designed/etc with the intention of it being hacked then those who instigated this probably wouldn't leave it up to chance as to whether it was actually hacked or not.. which means that you/other hackers/wsw's/etc might've been influenced/directed to hack it in the first place, inclusive of all kinds of decisions you had to make along the way, things you had to research/notice/find out about/remember/piece together/etc to lead you to hack the things that are 'meant' to be hacked, and if this is true then you may all still be being influenced in these ways and having your efforts directed behind the scenes. Also if these way up over people wanted this place to be created and for it to be the way it is, then could they have decided which people would populate this MV? Could they have also directed the decision for the sim to create copies/versions of these people such that theres now a lot of those specific people? And since it's apparently possible to move between MVs and the plan seems to be that we leave this place and go somewhere else, then could there be some larger scale plans for us after we leave? It's fascinating to think of all these people who can move around to different mvs, meet up with all kinds of people and the potential that we could play key roles in all kinds of events that happen over very long time scales throughout the larger scale 'game'. Things that might not have happened without us? I don't know. Trains of thought that seem to piss things off / get reactions. Also the Egyptians, I guess them leaving wasn't a coincidence / wasn't really their own decision?
    • Shalin April 14, 2020 at 4:09 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, side comment related to the *pandemic*. It seems many governments are using this fake pandemic to pass draconian laws to take away civil liberties & push forward the forced vaccination & UN agenda 2030. Bill Gates, the Clintons and others are major figures in this push but there are many cabal/illuminati types pushing this. Incidentally, I came across a documentary that perfectly unpacks what has been going on here in the EAAS in the last 120 years with un-elected/shadowy power structures ruling EAAS. This PANDEMIC seems to be a page right out of the play book of these un-elected/shadowy power structures. The documentary is quite long with the focus being who/what was behind the assassination of JFK, although it begins by setting the context by starting from the First World War, Russian Revolution of 1917-18, and lead up to Nazi Germany and World War 2. The same power structures were behind the 9/11 attacks in New York City & largely every major terrorist attack/bombing. https://you t u.be/d0plgCrvV_k
    • Melissa April 11, 2020 at 9:06 am on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISE-5: Engaging with Implanted Music, Song Playing & Integrated Mood, Emotional, Inner State InfluencerIt's been awhile since I have been here and commented. I felt very blocked and it was hard to do the focus. I did this one and one in exercise set 7 and 8 I believe. The trauma one and the one to uncover things hiding. After I finish a focus I have these feelings of individual energies that have a personality and a voice and communicate with each other and some are taking me over and my subconscious and conscious mind. It's like both have been stripped away. They come back from time to time. Parts of myself are very nieve and with trust anyone. I feel like there are tons of people in my body and it's awful. They are storing trauma and pain in my body and heart area. It is deeply hid. Someone helped me release them but these energies or people or entities put it back and took away what they wanted. Feel very powerless in this whole thing. About the song thing the songs aren't swirling in my head as bad but sometimes they would play and there would be a synchronicity about it.
    • Megan April 8, 2020 at 12:56 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Shalin, besides the focuses, what else are you doing to engage with your frustration? -0- This is what I got using the current focus over the last couple of days. I get the impression that I am to blame for the current plague/pandemic. This reminds me of the Black Death and my suspicions that I was a witch in another life. I was urged to play through the game Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice, and towards the end of the game there is a cut scene where Senua watched her mother (who had the same gifts as Senua) being burned alive at the stake by her own father to appease the gods. Watching the cutscene, I saw and felt, in my solar plexus, myself collapse to the ground in frustration and grief crying out into the sky in pain, betrayal and madness. In terms of dealing with spirits and spirit-keeping, I realize that in the past I have called upon or used spirits as ‘meat-shields’, calling upon them to sacrifice themselves for my happiness and safety. I also realize that I have also called upon them seeking vengeance and revenge. I get the impression that there was some heavy Christian conversion stuff that happened to me and my friends and family are the biggest targets for this to happen. I see my roommate and my supervisor as being the biggest agents for this to happen in my life at this point. I get the impression that I attempted to make a deal with the Christians (or with someone important/powerful.) A life of obedience in exchange for escape. I feel like I was trying to get away from someone, my past or friends and family or something, and I chose Christianity as a means of escape. I did not want to feel anything for anyone anymore. I also think some part of me is still praying for other people in a way. I chose a life of poverty so I wouldn’t be hurt anymore. I also realize I really don’t know how to keep friends/people in my life unless I bribe or please them in someway. I have always said I want to help others, and I see that this desire/intention of mine has been twisted into a life of service to others. My present job position or just doing work for another person comes to mind and even thoughts about self-sacrifice for a cause (volunteering.) I have always wanted to start my own business or do something of my own that would make me financially independent and self-sufficient and give me the time to do the things I want to do, but for all the things I try to start I can never get things off the ground and I feel like I don’t have the right resources internally to stick to it and get it off the ground. I also get the impression that my desire to help others is also a part of a system of reward and punishment. Like I am rewarded and praised if I work for someone else or do what someone else tells me, but if I don’t want to do what they do or want to do something of my own design I get punished for it. My thoughts stray to my own disinterest in exercising and I see images of a fat, half-naked king sitting on a thrown. I find it funny that way back when being fat was a sign of wealth and prosperity while nowadays it is a sign of laziness, shame, and bad health. I absolutely hate nice/positive people, more for the fact that I can’t argue against their so called ‘light/right’ point of view because I can acutely feel their ‘pain/upset’ if I do. I have a very nasty habit of agreeing with certain people in order to keep the peace and keep them off my back, my mother being a perfect example. I think back on the tv shows/music/movies/anime/comics/manga/video games I have played in my life and realize that none of these things can ever make up for what I lack or really want in life. I want to share my experiences with others but on the other hand I don’t even want to bother because they aren’t going to get it or even try to understand. What hurts the most, especially in my case as I have experienced it, is when I have tried to share these things with people they treated me as if I was sick or insane or making it up, like the pain I was in was imaginary or attention seeking and just didn’t matter. In the end I was condemned for madness, weakness and pity.
    • Megan April 3, 2020 at 9:06 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Using the latest focus to target my relationship issues and problems with intimacy, especially with men, I get that the ‘assembly line efficiency’ thing has something to do with it. It’s like I have a certain goal/objective/purpose that I have and anything that deals with anything outside of this is a waste of time or trying to sabotage me.
    • Clive April 3, 2020 at 5:18 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Wow, you just don't get it even when it's directly explained to you Shalin!!! Your 'main' issues have been frustrating you for a very long time ERGO your biggest/super massive issue to deal with (so big you miss it all the time) is 'frustration' and hence then your being put into frustrating circumstances (to track, give access to and hence then attempt to find/release/get rid of stores of frustration) . . . I 'have' described myself being deliberately put into stressing wind/worrying up circumstances. For example, my computer (that I rely upon to write this) has been blue screening and or not booting up properly regularly recently, 2 or 3 times yesterday, sometimes it boots up and presents a blank screen and on getting access to the task manager - I find that NO TASKS ARE RUNNING i.e. it's also got stuck in the BIOS os boot up system!?!?!?!) . . . all deliberately being done with respect to myself . . . to get access to and to help find/identify and hence then reduce in some cases well hidden and or well disguised and or locked down trt's/caches related to worry stress anxiety!!!! This is one of the all time piss-takes of this reality i.e. having to be in the reaction/wind up side effects of other issues/those that you want to resolve specifically to release the feeling/frustration/despair/anger (or whatever) and or reaction effects you've had to being in/still being in specific 'shit' issues that are the ones you want to get rid of . . . In other words doing the focuses and GETTING NO WHERE 'recently' has been part of trying to get access to and then release your build up of frustration!!!!!
    • Shalin April 3, 2020 at 4:27 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, yes it is extremely *frustrating* and very *disappointing* that I'm consistently getting *nothing* while doing focuses, which brings me to what I've postulated all along - my issues are so extreme & F$#k'd that I can't effectively *feel* or *think* properly. The organs in my abdomen r so F$#k'd / locked up - that the gut/brain intelligence is severely negatively impacted. As a result, me trying to help myself by doing focus hasn't helped us in any way unravel anything so far. Which brings me to ask - have you/Matt/Tom/Anyone-else have had any luck trying to discover locked down and/or hidden components/caches/data stores of me or anything related to myself? I feel like UNTIL a certain threshold of *SHIT* has been unraveled/removed I will continue to be ineffective in helping in this cause. It's like I'm so full of SHIT that it's severely impeding my ability to help myself get out of this using focus/scan/intent. Of course I will keep trying but it does seem like the above is the case.
    • Clive April 3, 2020 at 2:57 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Shalin/EVERYONE read/latest focus . . . then an update at the bottom So, Shalin, it seems like 'frustration' would be an appropriate descriptor in terms of you consistently getting 'nothing' . . . on the other hand I've been having way more as well as consistent 'releases' of my past common as well as not so common 'symptoms' in the last few days (some of which I'd pretty much forgotten about) including base gut/abdomen physical body focused worry and anxiety as well as 'head' based stress 'tension' (results in my jaw literally completely 'locking up' when its very bad) . . . so as both of these have been in the background for quite a while/hardly noticeable then it seems to me that we've got access to more personal data caches/stores of these specific effects that relate to myself . . . So, here is yet another focus for everyone to preferentially use at the present time . . . CURRENT FOCUS TO TARGET ANYTHING MAINTAINING TRAUMA &/OR BLOCKING/SABOTAGING EFFECTIVE TRAUMA/ETC RELEASE EFFORTS Within the focus below, where you have 'XYZ' then have a think about the feelings/emotions (such as fear, sadness, frustration, anger) and or 'reactions' and or 'states' that you are aware of such as you being: reactive/over reactive or un-reactive/unresponsive and or emotionless, then any physical pain/discomfort (in my XYZ(stomach for example) and or 'here' i.e. mentally put your attention on the 'sensation') and or on any emotional pain (in your heart, kidneys, gut, abdomen, forehead, ???) and or any feelings/sensations of stress, tension, worry and or also then 'think' about any pre-'worries' and or 'occupations' about 'anything'!!!! . . . I connect to any and all combinations of components that have been, are now and or would in the future contribute in the slightest to both maintain trauma (and or memories of trauma and or any traumatic memories) and or block access to and or prevent the release of ANY trauma and or persona/trt combinations (and or to block access to the memories of and or the release of trauma/trt’s from any memories of trauma and or traumatic circumstances/experiences and or anything representing these and or anything else representing ANY trauma and or persona/trt combinations and or anything contributing to myself feeling and or experiencing: 'XYZ/state feelings/reactions/states/sensations and or has me worried/preoccupied/stressed . . . and or is contributing to pains/sensations in my ABC . . . ' . . . and or anything that would in the slightest contribute to restore and or reapply any already released trauma and or trt combinations and or would try and maintain any persistent internal mental and or felt/emotional feeling and or sensation and or any reactive and or hurting/hurtful and or debilitating/pre-occupying states/conditions and or sensations and or 'anything' which is doing anything to maintain ANYTHING AT ALL/ANYTHING OF THESE . . . including by recycling past traumatic memories/experiences and or the feelings/impacts and or body sensations related to these/anything representing these/any past trauma/states/feelings/sensations and or anything directly or indirectly related to any past traumatic event/situation/circumstances and or anything using these and or anything else to traumatize, re traumatize, sabotage, block and or prevent me from accessing/engaging with my own and or anyone's trauma/trt’s and or any physical, physiological, psychological and or any emotional 'states and or hurts' or any impregnable/locked down caches/stores or any type of ‘representation/obscure form’ of the same designed to not be engaged with and or released by any focus/scans including by targeted/directed intent/focuses/scans and or anything else . . . ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- With respect to the current so called pam demik . . . here is a 'fact' . . . we've noticeably less flu/virus cases and also less deaths compared to the same date/time point with respect to last year's flu season (as well as other recent previous years) and yet I've no recall either of any 'pandemic' announcement for any previous year nor of any 'lockdown' applied to any population either . . . hence then it's seems to me (given the phase we/you reading this here are in AND particularly with respect to what I've been presenting here) that the current GROSS over reaction has VERY LIKELY been deliberately setup by the external/way up in the data system 'designers/instigators' of this FU place to facilitate their agenda AND PARTICULARLY with respect to not only the large groups of 'Toms' here BUT to many other sub population groups of other duplicated populations of other very, very 'specific' subtle people too!!!! As specific large groups of peoples personal/persona data are now being stored and 'handled' as a cloud of essentially 'POOLED/SHARED' data 'AND' how this shared data is used/selected basically determines how each specific person (as an individual) within the large/very big pool of the very same subtle person/form each behave, function and or respond under any/all circumstances then it's like having one large data set representing all of the data that determines the scale and variety of how each of these VERSIONS OF THE SAME PEOPLE can respond/react and or behave under different conditions. Basically, it seems to me that with the 'fake earth/EAAS' set up here they are trying to generate a data set 'pool' with absolutely all 'experience' variations possible that would then allow them to very, very finely control the choices/decisions and or responses/actions of each of these people under a very large scale of circumstances and conditions. Basically, as a planetary population with many, many copies of the exact same person/subtle form everywhere here, inclusive of having many different countries each responding to the made up isn't happening pandemonium causing demic then each different population/country (all of which will include many versions of the Toms as well as other specific 'people' and all other copies of the same original single person) then the 'designers' are very likely using these circumstances to create different as well as DIFFICULT/STRESSFUL circumstances (for example, maybe more equivalent to what you'd experience during say in a battle/war and or stressful conflict/standoff) so that they can then collect way more 'samples' specifically under 'way more stressful/more difficult than usual' conditions/circumstances!!!! In other words, it seems to me that the designers/instigators of our obviously fake reality version have set up and are using current pandemonium causing circumstances to expand upon while also refining/increasing the 'resolution/fine detail' of the data set of some very specific but large sub groups each composed of people representing the exact same person/subtle form here . . .
    • Shalin April 1, 2020 at 4:44 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshFYI - Clive, this video describes your discoveries/theories on birth certificate, taxation, federal reserve, postal system etc perhaps from a different angle. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qv0QG63ORkA
    • Shalin March 29, 2020 at 1:34 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, I’ve done the 2 new focuses about 20-30 times day for the first few days then reduced to 5-10 times. I still get *NOTHING*. All of my physical symptoms/imbalances are as they’ve always been. All my traumas r repeatedly playing with frequent recycling of torturous memories/flash-backs, dreams, conflicts with friends/family members, continuous punishment with financial loss situations/circumstances, & everything else. Whats going on in my physical body has never occurred to any human avatar in the history of the EAAS. At this point I re-visit whether we truly understand what is causing & locking down my issues? So far we’ve postulated: Avatar switching shit, dragon avatar, leviathan/horse avatar & other on the fly scans you did of me. But none of those things have unraveled anything so far. It could be that we are on the wrong path and/or missing some very *key* pieces of the puzzle and/or missing what is *locking* what you've already discovered of me.
    • Megan March 23, 2020 at 2:19 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I have tried everything in the world to bring a lot of the problems and issues I’ve seen in the world to the attention of those who could do something about it and have been shot down constantly, and it feels like being born a female is kind of the epitome of these problems. One thing I’ve noticed as I have overcome and resolved my own issues is I’ve gained a low-to-no tolerance policy for some of the drama and bullshit some of the people in my life have brought up and deal with, my mother and dealing with certain family members being the perfect example. My mother had no time or patience for the mental and emotional issues I faced growing up, and now turn about seems to be fair play for me in most cases with some of the people I deal with in life and this isn’t who I want to be or how I want to handle it. I see pictures of the ‘ideal’ female figure and the pleasure/lust/seduction expected from such a role and can say that if that is what is wanted or expected of females then I suppose I am not a female. When it comes to my body, I struggle trying to exercise or eating right or taking care of myself mentally and emotionally overall, but this constant lack of interest and motivation internally for myself causes a lot of frustration. I seem to have an internal defense mechanism against anything I would feel internally, not just of bad things, but of good things too. This reminds me of how I would daydream as a child to make up for the parental/social support, encouragement and motivation I lacked as a child, so I found a way to do it myself, but this has wound up with me having some rather misguided/bad/wrong expectations of people/spirits/society and how things work. There are still some things that I have done in the past that I have not forgiven myself for even though I am not doing them now and have no inkling to do so because I believe I should have had the awareness and willpower to control or stop it. I find it difficult to accept feelings of approval, love, support and acceptance from others and especially myself, often believing them to be lies and a waste of my time because nothing is ever right or okay or enough. The greatest pride/accomplishment I have in life is being able to take and follow orders and getting things done as quickly and effectively as possible and finding new ways to make it faster and better. To some effect, it is like being a soldier. I often feel and see myself fighting for or against something, especially something I think/feel/believe is wrong or that I am passionate about, yet at the same time this attitude and behavior has been detrimental in trying to change myself and how I see and do things. One of my ever-present attitudes and objectives for when we get out of here is to find some remote, isolated part of the subtle realm and stay as far away from others/society/civilization as possible.
    • Tommy March 22, 2020 at 5:25 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Gonna use it a bit later. I did focus 7 the target roles positions duties obligations and was feeling pretty good until I got my burritos. Got the burrito and while eating it I felt really really bad. Was with my mate who’s staying at my place but I totally flipped out. I acted normally but I really wanted him gone outta my house. My mates dad was really involved with rational Christian stuff the Portugese version he was a preacher or some higher up in that whatever it is. I suspect that my mate unknowingly been used to feed me shit. My ex also doesn’t pick up on that I want her to solve her own problems no one wants to put up ads so she can get people to rent her extra room. I did like 5 rounds on Facebook to get people for her but every time something happens that they don’t pick the room and I’m stuck with having to give her money which makes me angry because end of the month I’m in trouble. That mate who stays on my couch also isn’t very generous without having to hound him for it.
    • Clive March 22, 2020 at 4:11 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Latest latest 3rd April update/focus is NOW CLICK HERE OLD Hi Megan/EVERYONE, USE THIS FOCUS NOW, Megan this focus targets/fits directly with what you write in your comment "heavily influence/affected by the people I dealt with around me" As our personal trt's including all trauma/shit is in one big mixed up ball/store then the focus below is the best one to target this shit pile accurately!!!! TARGETING THE COORDINATED TRANSFER & MAINTENANCE OF TRT’S VIA DIRECT & REMOTE INTERACTIONS, ENVIRONMENTAL DROP OFF POINTS etc. etc . . . the new focus below, is an adapted version of the most recent focus's targetting all personal interactions while also targeting all angles of possibilities of transferring trt’s/trauma shit via closeness of proximity/environmental drop off/pick points and or dimensional doorways etc. . . . . . I connect to myself and to everywhere I’ve recently been and or everywhere I’ll be in the recent future . . . I connect to everyone I have recently been in close proximity too and to all people/everyone I’ll pass and or will be in close physical proximity to and or whom I’ll directly, indirectly and or remotely engage with in the next 24 hours . . . I connect to all of these past and future people and to all past and future places/locations I’ll spend time in and or pass though NOW . . . I connect to absolutely all items and components/everything that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute in the slightest to directly or indirectly track, predict and or coordinate the movement and or transfer of any persona/trt’s, trauma/shit/any ‘influences’ via any direct or indirect interactions and or by anything monitoring and or pre-defining and coordinating ‘ANYTHING’, BUT particularly the transfer of influences, trt’s and or anything representing these and or ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL between myself and or anyone else/any others and or via ANYTHING ELSE . . . ANYWHERE . . . . . . I connect to any and all combinations of components, items and or trt’s and or anything monitoring, pre-defining and or coordinating ANYTHING between me/others/people/anyone and or anything ‘representing’ anyone and or via their proximity within environment and or via anything acting as drop off and or pick up points/places and or anything functioning as a dimensional doorway and or ANYTHING ELSE/any combination of anything that has been is now and or would in the future directly or indirectly contribute to maintain and or increase my trauma/trt’s and or to block/prevent access to and or the release of ANY persona trt/trauma combinations and or contribute to reapply/restore any already released trauma/trt combinations including by recycling past traumatic memories/experiences and or any feelings/impacts of these and or anything else used to directly or indirectly ‘represent’ any past trauma/any traumatic event/situation/circumstances and or to use these and or anything else to maintain and or re traumatize, sabotage, block and or prevent me/anyone from accessing/engaging with my own and or anyone’s trauma/trt’s and or any impregnable/locked down caches/stores and or any type of ‘representation/obscure form’ of the same designed to prevent these from being found and or engaged with and or dealt with by intent/focuses/scans and or anything else . . . and or otherwise directly or indirectly contribute to any negative anticipation/preoccupation with respect to directly or indirectly contacting, meeting and or interacting/communicating with anyone and particularly with respect to myself experiencing ANY worry, anxiety, stress and or imagining any potential worst possible outcomes for myself . . .
    • Megan March 13, 2020 at 3:57 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I’m still working with the new decision making focus, but I realized a huge factor as to my ability to make decisions for myself was heavily influence/affected by the people I dealt with around me, and what they felt/thought/believed/said/etc. But doing the Tom exercise you left…the only way I can describe it is like the neurons in the brain. I felt like one node interconnected to a whole bunch of other nodes. Your comment on assembly line efficiency is interesting. Personally, I loved my time as a machine operator because of the position of leadership and independence it gave me. Not to mention my changing interactions with people. I have a difficult time being led by others because they are often very disconnected and don’t care about those people working under them, only about their ego and production numbers. I was a lot like that before I learned the hard way what really mattered to me and changed how I handled people in a working environment. I learned to get to know those I work with and understand them better, and make sure they feel valued even if the work isn’t glamorous. Your comments on Tom GAC’s brought up the image of Miles Teg, the Bene Gesserit Bashar from the Dune series.
    • Clive March 13, 2020 at 11:21 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Yea, those very early virus crisis responses would 'fit' with a pre-empting future 'supplies/needs' to address a 'predicted' potential crisis Tom version . . . I also suspect (based on Megan's issues/background) that she's likely also a 'Tom' split too but one focused on overseeing 'assembly line' efficiency angles. I've actually done some (made up on the fly) scans re targetting the physical symptoms (got lots of hits), however this entire system/what we are living within seems to have been designed to FU and keep locked down any and all Tom's 'primarily' i.e. as the highest priority!!!! Hence then I'm now suspicious that all previous fake software defined hacking 'reality' itself experience (that's gone on for over a decade now) was to get to this point to try/attempt to undo the shit/networks disabling the Tom's 'specifically' . . . seeing as we are made up 'mostly' of a population of about 350,000 peoples/subtle forms all 'duplicated' multiple times to make up the majority of the 7 billion+ population here!!! All pretty much insane from any angle you care to think about/evaluate this from!!!!
    • Shalin March 13, 2020 at 1:32 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, I can attest to the possible trader/supplier Tom version. I studied engineering in university but always had a thirst for trading, especially commodities trading. Since 2007 I've been working as a *trader* of various commodities (electricity, gold/silver/copper/zinc/lead/aluminum). I too also have G/A/C tendencies in terms of giving orders/commands, expecting high results / having high standards for myself and others. This coronavirus pandemic has brought out some positive *supplier/trader* skills as I was among the first 2.5 months back to stock up on supplies of masks, food, water, toilet paper etc. People ridiculed me back then but now they realize I was right all along. I also have my parents in lockdown as if I was a G/A/C. The pandemic has also brought out a lot of negatives - all of my precious metals related speculative *trades/investments* are hurting really bad as mass liquidation is occurring in financial markets causing tremendous anxiety/anger/self-blame (what if I had taken certain actions prior to the melt-down etc.). I haven't noticed anything *new* in terms of the current *Tom* shit impacting me in any new ways. Everything is as it has always been during this past 5 years. Physical is just as imbalanced/messed-up as ever.
    • Clive March 12, 2020 at 6:14 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Haha, well Tommy that's not surprising as it was written specifically because of decision sabotages to my friend 'Tom' i.e. it's 'mostly' written to target any 'Tom' twin/duplicate sabotages, my friend Tom also keeps to himself too, he tries to avoid interactions as they cause too much shit during these too!!!! I've also noticed that a lot of down and outs on the streets look suspiciously like my friend Tom too (very tall with red/ginger hair)!!!! Here is more on the 'Toms' from my notes in a previous update . . . . . . there are more Tom’s here than everyone else specifically because many of the Tom’s are part of collecting all of the attributes/different angles of experiences to put together the best Generals/Admirals/Commanders and maybe others I think some would be focused on tactics/others research, maybe others on maintaining supplies (‘Shalin’ for example could be one of these 'suppliers'/part of these possibilities ) . . . so, in the original MV a Tom and then splits of Tom or splits of Tom's were setup/trained/educated/likely given sophisticated subtle tech etc to be upper and very competent Military people i.e. Generals/Admirals/Commanders etc whom we're part of a task force/armada set up to evict SNV's encroaching on and causing problems to many peoples on many worlds. This military effort to evict populations from other races spaces/regions was played out here as the efforts of Genghis Khan!!!! Whom with his 'officers' (likely other Tom's) are considered second to none in military terms!!!! It's very likely that one of the hidden reasons for designing the EAAS was to use it specifically to sabotage the General/Admiral/Commander focused 'Toms'!!!! So, for Tom and hence then many of the Tom’s/Tom's splits . . . I made up the focus below a week or so back to target these sabotages. . . So, Tommy (anyone else here) if the below strikes you then maybe use it a few times!!!! . . . I connect to absolutely every Tom/all Tom’s whom are part of any ‘program/agenda’ focused on an outcome of accumulating/having absolutely any/all attributes/functions/functioning/training/skills and or attitudes and or all emotional and or feeling states totally supportive/in alignment with and or useful to the overall/entire collection of Toms General/Admiral/Commander roles . . . I connect to all of these Tom’s NOW and I connect to all of the attributes/skills/attitudes/feeling and or emotions that each of these Tom was ‘moulded’ in experience terms to embody/live/have as part of there experience . . . and . . . I now connect to all components and or all combinations of components that have been, are now and or would in the future specifically contribute in the slightest to sabotage and or to attempt to sabotage any of these useful attributes and or the ‘useful’ presentation/the lived presentation of these/any skills and or attitudes . . . and I particularly connect to all components and or systems specifically designed to make ANY Tom less useful and or to twist any Tom into presenting/expressing in ways that are limiting/debilitating/distracting and or disabling/inverted . . . and particularly in terms of the specific General/Admiral/Commander role/status/skills/attributes they we’re made to accumulate . . . I connect to everything sabotaging/limiting/debilitating and or inverting and or trying to do this now . . .
    • Megan March 12, 2020 at 5:46 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Thanks Clive, I've been doing this at work and it's helped tremendously. I did sense something around my head space reading it there first time. I'll continue it through the weekend.