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    • Clive March 22, 2020 at 4:11 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Hi Megan/EVERYONE, USE THIS FOCUS NOW, Megan this focus targets/fits directly with what you write in your comment "heavily influence/affected by the people I dealt with around me" As our personal trt's including all trauma/shit is in one big mixed up ball/store then the focus below is the best one to target this shit pile accurately!!!! TARGETING THE COORDINATED TRANSFER & MAINTENANCE OF TRT’S VIA DIRECT & REMOTE INTERACTIONS, ENVIRONMENTAL DROP OFF POINTS etc. etc . . . the new focus below, is an adapted version of the most recent focus's targetting all personal interactions while also targeting all angles of possibilities of transferring trt’s/trauma shit via closeness of proximity/environmental drop off/pick points and or dimensional doorways etc. . . . . . I connect to myself and to everywhere I’ve recently been and or everywhere I’ll be in the recent future . . . I connect to everyone I have recently been in close proximity too and to all people/everyone I’ll pass and or will be in close physical proximity to and or whom I’ll directly, indirectly and or remotely engage with in the next 24 hours . . . I connect to all of these past and future people and to all past and future places/locations I’ll spend time in and or pass though NOW . . . I connect to absolutely all items and components/everything that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute in the slightest to directly or indirectly track, predict and or coordinate the movement and or transfer of any persona/trt’s, trauma/shit/any ‘influences’ via any direct or indirect interactions and or by anything monitoring and or pre-defining and coordinating ‘ANYTHING’, BUT particularly the transfer of influences, trt’s and or anything representing these and or ANYTHING ELSE AT ALL between myself and or anyone else/any others and or via ANYTHING ELSE . . . ANYWHERE . . . . . . I connect to any and all combinations of components, items and or trt’s and or anything monitoring, pre-defining and or coordinating ANYTHING between me/others/people/anyone and or anything ‘representing’ anyone and or via their proximity within environment and or via anything acting as drop off and or pick up points/places and or anything functioning as a dimensional doorway and or ANYTHING ELSE/any combination of anything that has been is now and or would in the future directly or indirectly contribute to maintain and or increase my trauma/trt’s and or to block/prevent access to and or the release of ANY persona trt/trauma combinations and or contribute to reapply/restore any already released trauma/trt combinations including by recycling past traumatic memories/experiences and or any feelings/impacts of these and or anything else used to directly or indirectly ‘represent’ any past trauma/any traumatic event/situation/circumstances and or to use these and or anything else to maintain and or re traumatize, sabotage, block and or prevent me/anyone from accessing/engaging with my own and or anyone’s trauma/trt’s and or any impregnable/locked down caches/stores and or any type of ‘representation/obscure form’ of the same designed to prevent these from being found and or engaged with and or dealt with by intent/focuses/scans and or anything else . . . and or otherwise directly or indirectly contribute to any negative anticipation/preoccupation with respect to directly or indirectly contacting, meeting and or interacting/communicating with anyone and particularly with respect to myself experiencing ANY worry, anxiety, stress and or imagining any potential worst possible outcomes for myself . . .
    • Megan March 13, 2020 at 3:57 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I’m still working with the new decision making focus, but I realized a huge factor as to my ability to make decisions for myself was heavily influence/affected by the people I dealt with around me, and what they felt/thought/believed/said/etc. But doing the Tom exercise you left…the only way I can describe it is like the neurons in the brain. I felt like one node interconnected to a whole bunch of other nodes. Your comment on assembly line efficiency is interesting. Personally, I loved my time as a machine operator because of the position of leadership and independence it gave me. Not to mention my changing interactions with people. I have a difficult time being led by others because they are often very disconnected and don’t care about those people working under them, only about their ego and production numbers. I was a lot like that before I learned the hard way what really mattered to me and changed how I handled people in a working environment. I learned to get to know those I work with and understand them better, and make sure they feel valued even if the work isn’t glamorous. Your comments on Tom GAC’s brought up the image of Miles Teg, the Bene Gesserit Bashar from the Dune series.
    • Clive March 13, 2020 at 11:21 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Yea, those very early virus crisis responses would 'fit' with a pre-empting future 'supplies/needs' to address a 'predicted' potential crisis Tom version . . . I also suspect (based on Megan's issues/background) that she's likely also a 'Tom' split too but one focused on overseeing 'assembly line' efficiency angles. I've actually done some (made up on the fly) scans re targetting the physical symptoms (got lots of hits), however this entire system/what we are living within seems to have been designed to FU and keep locked down any and all Tom's 'primarily' i.e. as the highest priority!!!! Hence then I'm now suspicious that all previous fake software defined hacking 'reality' itself experience (that's gone on for over a decade now) was to get to this point to try/attempt to undo the shit/networks disabling the Tom's 'specifically' . . . seeing as we are made up 'mostly' of a population of about 350,000 peoples/subtle forms all 'duplicated' multiple times to make up the majority of the 7 billion+ population here!!! All pretty much insane from any angle you care to think about/evaluate this from!!!!
    • Shalin March 13, 2020 at 1:32 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, I can attest to the possible trader/supplier Tom version. I studied engineering in university but always had a thirst for trading, especially commodities trading. Since 2007 I've been working as a *trader* of various commodities (electricity, gold/silver/copper/zinc/lead/aluminum). I too also have G/A/C tendencies in terms of giving orders/commands, expecting high results / having high standards for myself and others. This coronavirus pandemic has brought out some positive *supplier/trader* skills as I was among the first 2.5 months back to stock up on supplies of masks, food, water, toilet paper etc. People ridiculed me back then but now they realize I was right all along. I also have my parents in lockdown as if I was a G/A/C. The pandemic has also brought out a lot of negatives - all of my precious metals related speculative *trades/investments* are hurting really bad as mass liquidation is occurring in financial markets causing tremendous anxiety/anger/self-blame (what if I had taken certain actions prior to the melt-down etc.). I haven't noticed anything *new* in terms of the current *Tom* shit impacting me in any new ways. Everything is as it has always been during this past 5 years. Physical is just as imbalanced/messed-up as ever.
    • Clive March 12, 2020 at 6:14 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Haha, well Tommy that's not surprising as it was written specifically because of decision sabotages to my friend 'Tom' i.e. it's 'mostly' written to target any 'Tom' twin/duplicate sabotages, my friend Tom also keeps to himself too, he tries to avoid interactions as they cause too much shit during these too!!!! I've also noticed that a lot of down and outs on the streets look suspiciously like my friend Tom too (very tall with red/ginger hair)!!!! Here is more on the 'Toms' from my notes in a previous update . . . . . . there are more Tom’s here than everyone else specifically because many of the Tom’s are part of collecting all of the attributes/different angles of experiences to put together the best Generals/Admirals/Commanders and maybe others I think some would be focused on tactics/others research, maybe others on maintaining supplies (‘Shalin’ for example could be one of these 'suppliers'/part of these possibilities ) . . . so, in the original MV a Tom and then splits of Tom or splits of Tom's were setup/trained/educated/likely given sophisticated subtle tech etc to be upper and very competent Military people i.e. Generals/Admirals/Commanders etc whom we're part of a task force/armada set up to evict SNV's encroaching on and causing problems to many peoples on many worlds. This military effort to evict populations from other races spaces/regions was played out here as the efforts of Genghis Khan!!!! Whom with his 'officers' (likely other Tom's) are considered second to none in military terms!!!! It's very likely that one of the hidden reasons for designing the EAAS was to use it specifically to sabotage the General/Admiral/Commander focused 'Toms'!!!! So, for Tom and hence then many of the Tom’s/Tom's splits . . . I made up the focus below a week or so back to target these sabotages. . . So, Tommy (anyone else here) if the below strikes you then maybe use it a few times!!!! . . . I connect to absolutely every Tom/all Tom’s whom are part of any ‘program/agenda’ focused on an outcome of accumulating/having absolutely any/all attributes/functions/functioning/training/skills and or attitudes and or all emotional and or feeling states totally supportive/in alignment with and or useful to the overall/entire collection of Toms General/Admiral/Commander roles . . . I connect to all of these Tom’s NOW and I connect to all of the attributes/skills/attitudes/feeling and or emotions that each of these Tom was ‘moulded’ in experience terms to embody/live/have as part of there experience . . . and . . . I now connect to all components and or all combinations of components that have been, are now and or would in the future specifically contribute in the slightest to sabotage and or to attempt to sabotage any of these useful attributes and or the ‘useful’ presentation/the lived presentation of these/any skills and or attitudes . . . and I particularly connect to all components and or systems specifically designed to make ANY Tom less useful and or to twist any Tom into presenting/expressing in ways that are limiting/debilitating/distracting and or disabling/inverted . . . and particularly in terms of the specific General/Admiral/Commander role/status/skills/attributes they we’re made to accumulate . . . I connect to everything sabotaging/limiting/debilitating and or inverting and or trying to do this now . . .
    • Megan March 12, 2020 at 5:46 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Thanks Clive, I've been doing this at work and it's helped tremendously. I did sense something around my head space reading it there first time. I'll continue it through the weekend.
    • Tommy March 12, 2020 at 4:52 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!New focus the shit decision one sounds way too familiar I also prolly haven’t listened to you guys. If I caused any trouble for you or your Tom then I’m sorry. What he explained about the itchy stuff happens way to often when I interact with other people. It mostly jumps over from other people when I’m talking. This itchy stuff the first time it came from a homeless guy the second time it came from someone who did a lot of drugs in his past and was a Catholic. I can remember like atleast 20 different separate occasions that when I went outside or did stuff and I got fucked over or bad things happened. Every since my backpack trip in 2014 so many weird stuff from other people shooting shit inside me prolly bad stuff management whatever I kinda turned into a recluse. I don’t like going out because when I do and I interact with people things happen I can undo fix or remove so I kinda put myself in quarantine. I’m not like Clive who can on the fly figure out what’s going on and take proper counter measures. I have been trying to figure out past interactions with people. Like what caused the dislike the dramas that happened and kinda put it into sim who pulls the https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Good_Place fuckery. Basically people being send by the sim scripted to do damage. I’m also sick of the Christians coming under the guise of help who’s help is just more fuckery. Salvation Army where I had to be because I was homeless was also a shitfest.
    • Clive March 12, 2020 at 1:46 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Actually Megan (as 'core' shit is very focused on 'Toms' at the present time) and specifically with respect to sabotaging Decision making angles (which you've mentioned a lot in the past) I made the focus below for Tom, so you/anyone with 'decision' sabotaging shit maybe try this . . . BUT having put up the below I made another focus below the below focus more attuned to your anxious/worried/stressed/preoccupation angles SABOTAGING MAKING DECISIONS . . . I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been, is now and or would in the future directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to cause me/any version/copy/split or duplicate version of me absolutely any problems/sabotages to making good/very good/excellent decisions easily and quickly AND OR of having these decisions/any decisions I make promptly and or accurately carried out by others and or others I instruct and or explain what I want/what needs to be done . . . . . . and or anything contributing to block/sabotage me from easily making a decision and or cause me to be indecisive and or sabotaged making decisions and or contributing to others not responding well/promptly and or appropriately to myself and or don't carry out the actions I want done in the way I want them done and or cause problems/complications/don't actually take notice of what I say and or what I recommend and or I am made to forget to mention important/critical things when I'm making decisions and or am explaining things/what I need them/someone to do . . . and or contributes in the slightest to myself having any trouble/problems AT ALL easily getting anyone to do anything for me promptly and or correctly and or with respect to what I ASK THEM TO DO & OR WHAT THEY SHOULD DO . . . . . . and anything contributing to me considering and or becoming pre-occupied with irrelevant and or side-tracking information when making decisions or becoming overwhelmed by too many options or unable to usefully weigh up different considerations or trying to make decisions too early or procrastinating, delaying or avoiding / not making decisions, making bad, non-optimal decisions and or thinking / feeling that I have / second guessing and doubting and constantly questioning my own judgement / regretting and being preoccupied with or absorbed in past decisions and how things could or should have gone differently and or thinking / feeling that I've made the wrong decision or self-questioning / doubting / second-guessing myself and not trusting my own judgement at all or becoming averse to making decisions myself . . . A more Worried/Stressed 'Megan' attuned version: . . . I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been, is now and or would in the future directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to cause me/any version/copy of me to become overly self-consciousness and or over-sensitivity, anxious/worried/paranoid and or panicky/scared while working with and or interacting with any others and particularly with respect to worrying about making any mistakes and or not making good/decent decisions and or of then negatively impacting others/colleagues/work mates/friends easily and or others I instruct and or explain what I want/what needs to be done/what I need doing . . . . . . and or anything contributing to block/sabotage me from easily and comfortably making a decision (without stress and or worry and or without having any negative comeback) and or cause me to be indecisive and or sabotaged making decisions and or contributing to others not responding well/promptly and or appropriately/respectfully to myself and or have them not carry out the actions I want done in the way I want them done and or cause problems/complications/don't actually take notice of what I say and or what I recommend and or I am made to worry and or forget to think about and or mention important/critical things when I'm making decisions and or am explaining things/what I need them/someone/work colleagues to do . . . and or anything that contributes in the slightest to myself having any trouble/problems AT ALL easily getting anyone/work colleagues (without stressing me out/getting me worried) to do anything for me promptly and or correctly and or with respect to what I ASK THEM TO DO & OR WHAT THEY SHOULD DO . . . . . . and anything contributing to me considering and or becoming pre-occupied/worried/stressed about myself and or with pre-occupied about what others will think or how they will react to the decisions I make and or have me preoccupied about irrelevant and or side-tracking details or information and or having worries/preoccupations when making decisions or telling others what to do and or having me becoming overwhelmed by too many options or unable to usefully weigh up different considerations or options and or trying to make decisions too early or worrying and or procrastinating, delaying or avoiding / not making decisions and or worrying about making bad, non-optimal decisions and or thinking / feeling that I have / second guessing and doubting and constantly questioning/worrying about my own judgement / regretting and being preoccupied with or absorbed in any past decisions and how things could or should have gone differently and or thinking / feeling that I've made the wrong decision or self-questioning / doubting / second-guessing myself and not trusting my own judgement at all or becoming averse to making decisions myself . . .
    • Megan March 12, 2020 at 12:37 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I can't tell you how happy I am to see this focus. Did the focus during last break at work and got the feeling of my body being surrounded by something although I couldn't pinpoint what it was. This is my first week back in my original department at work in three weeks and my anxiety/paranoia/panic/self-consciousness/over-sensitivity levels have been through the roof. I have been definitely feeling that slave-master 'cracking the whip' effect at work again and the feelings of social rejection/isolation got so bad again that I was wanting to kill myself. Things tapered off a bit for the rest of the day after reading the focus and will see if I can get anything more.
    • Clive March 11, 2020 at 6:51 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Latest Focus/update: Shit sets have been somewhat solidly focused on maintaining the lockdown management of all the core 'Toms' here which until recently was very focused on targeting hacking efforts. However, since yesterday, the shit was very, very focused on attempts to control/manage 'key' Tom’s, in dealing with those angles, today it’s shifted to cover more aspects of ‘everything’ as well also likely networking between and influencing/messing with many people . . . so, can everyone do the focus below a few times . . . ‘and’ leave any feedback/insights you get from doing it!!!! FOCUS: MANIPULATIONS OF MYSELF USED TO MANIPULATE OTHERS CASCADE: . . . I connect to anything/everything that has been/is now and or would in the future contribute in the slightest to using ‘anything’ of myself/any aspects of myself and particularly anything of my personality/persona, feelings, emotions and or any of my internal states and or any presented external reactions and responses ‘against’ myself and or to control/manipulate and or to direct/manoeuvre myself and or through me any others and particularly into any pre-defined ‘state/circumstances/attitude/stance/decision’ and or as part of any outcome/goal . . . and or over time any series of goals/outcomes and or objectives and or as part of reinforcing and or controlling any aspects of myself and or through me controlling/influencing others/any aspects of others and or any of their ‘feelings/states/circumstances/attitudes/stances and or decisions/outcomes’ . . . Some feedback on the functioning of this shit from Tom: . . . I see something like a prickly amorphous bloated mass around me, it’s like it feeds off and stimulates certain emotions. I have a sense of a kind of subtle energetic parasite, but there also seem to be others associated with other people, and it’s like they’re all networked and working in tandem . . . I connect to a prickly, itchy multidimensional texture inside me, and it seems to be influencing my feelings / attributes and internal states and engage with a translucent mass which seems to ‘sit’ on my thinking abilities (I see it around and permeating my brain). It seems to be conscious and to work to create and sustain trauma-based thinking lines – again, I see other people with these components too . . . I see something like generators inside my body, which can create a field of trauma all through my body when they switch on – sort of like I get ‘flooded’ with trauma . . . I see a sort of underwater tunnel stretching ‘through’ me, with a fish swimming through it – then when it reaches a certain point it disappears and appears in another identical ‘tunnel’ setup inside someone else, and then someone else. It’s like some kind of subterranean aquarium – not being able to see / ‘get’ the way in which the fish move from one person to another (it feels like teleportation), then I see jolts of electricity being passed through people’s thinking abilities, and then appearing in / passing through someone else’s, then someone else’s – and this feels like a subterranean / off the radar electricity network, which is using the same kind of advantages / shit emulating advantages . . .
    • Annabelle March 8, 2020 at 3:16 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I feel I am still locked down and not able to get any improvement in issues. I have been going through extreme fatigue and disoriented headspace with no medical reason. I have tried to adjust my diet with no help (and I really don’t care what I eat). I find I need to continuously adjust my diet until I feel better, and then keep re-adjusting it every 2-3 months. It is never the same anymore. While focusing on “connect to all components” I have any urge, and do start to rummage thru all my craft and sewing closets and throw away tons of stuff that has been there for 10 years. While re-reading the section about the virtual grid work around earth, it reminds me of my hobby in needlework and quilting. While walking outdoors I often see nature as a series of grid work patterns as per the following example: http://www.maurer-stroh.com/EMS2010_June_06.html I think how I could adjust the colors to make them look better. Many patterns even suggest people adjust the colors, as you desire. The sheep is a particular good example of an intricate deign I have done that drives me crazy with 50 shades of white: https://www.cross-stitch-pattern.net/Sheep-48-5-Free-Design.aspx Farm design https://www.bothythreads.com/product/countryside-appletree-farm/ I have done many animal designs - cows, leopards, deer etc. with 50 shades of the same color and get very impatient to see the finished product, but know it is worth the effort not to stop and give up. I can easily see myself designing / overseeing these virtual backdrops and working them to perfection. It is interesting that many patterns say “ do not judge your work until it is complete.”
    • Clive March 6, 2020 at 4:01 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Shalin/Everyone . . . Mmmm here is an 'extra' insane scenario (although is also very realistic/is likely correct too) which is possibly applicable to your issues/circumstances Shalin. All 'regular' readers here will know that I'm very suspicious about pretty much 'everything' here . . . in reading alternate/history sites for many years (particularly malagabay.com which is exceptional) I came across a page showing a vast collection of many different ancient coins all presenting images of a flying horse i.e. 'Pegasus' (I cannot find this now BUT there is another one here) . . . so, in that we are all subtle beings interfaced to a human and that most of of us would be simulating anyone that wouldn't be seen dead wearing a 'human' meat suit such that I've then presented evidence that we have pretty much all been converted from many different animal avatar forms into the one single engineered to be decrepit human form . . . then I started to wonder if we've some duplicated horse conversion possibilities being presented here too!!!! Now horses here = aids to travel and are also aids to transporting 'goods' too i.e. they were in the past extensively used by traders and particularly the horse and cart version!!! In that coins are an integral part of trading/money then it's applicable that very early coins would have images of horses on them (as they'd represent the means to trade) BUT horse's flying IN THE AIR HORSES WITH WINGS very definitely seem a bit over the top to me . . . also, in watching the series 'Luck' with Dustin Hoffman it becomes obvious that some specific horse's are of a very different 'class/type' i.e. they are sort of exceptionally 'revered/pampered'!!!! In other words, I'm pretty sure that some actual 'real' horse's here not actually horse's at all (in the original MV)!!!! In which case what are they? So, if you were a trader Shalin actually trading within a galaxy scale sized space what sort of 'horse' would you be riding around 'trading' goods with!!! Isn't it likely to be a Leviathan i.e. an giant space living creature that can star burst i.e. is self propelled via an inbuilt 'natural' engine!!!! I've been re watching some films and series I bought over the last decade and over the last few days watched the first season of Farscape again. Here is the description of 'Moya' the seemingly sentient 'natural' Leviathan that can sort of hyperjump at will!!!! "Moya – Moya is a Leviathan, the fifth generation of these living ships. She was born in freedom, captured by Leviathan Hunters and sold to the Peacekeepers for them to use as a prison transport. She is a great and powerful ship, with no weapons. In communication with and taken care of by Pilot, the enormous living entity that is symbiotically fused to her, Moya has adjusted to her new inhabitants and has been able to trust them enough to become their home. Like Pilot, she is anxious to serve her crew, but not at the expense of her own agenda. Her natural instincts to protect all life, however, do override her personal fear of pain and suffering." Now, if you get and watch the first season you'll become aware of the functioning of 'Moya' whose star jumping seems to be connected to the build up of wastes maybe being strategically eliminated to result in very precise jumps between star systems i.e. vast distances!!! That season also shows members of the star ship and others being tortured by the 'peacekeepers' whom we find out are also trying to bio-engineer 'Leviathans' for there own uses/agendas AND are obviously biased against others travelling around trading in these space horse type forms too. Seeing as these space horse's means of propulsion may be powered by the equivalent of digestion processing wastes then it seems to me very possible that you Shalin as a trader within the original multiverse are likely to have been interfaced directly to one of these forms . . . in fact the entire first Farscape season would likely be worth watching because it's almost certainly applicable in many ways to your original forms experiences.
    • Megan February 29, 2020 at 9:06 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I don’t know if I made the biggest mistake of my life or not. So this last weekend, following my gut/guidance, I got back into ‘Spirit Keeping’, and so far over the past week purchased 5 spirits between two conjurers whom I know and trust, and had purchased spirits from years ago when I did this before. I purchased my first one last weekend, and to be completely honest, this last week has been both good in bad in a variety of ways. To start, last week I had been farmed out to another department in the factory I work at, voluntarily, because they have been inundated with a lot of work. Now last week, work had gone really well, prior to purchasing my first spirit. But this week has been Hell in terms of productivity. There were frequent mistakes that were being made in the earlier stages of production that were progressively getting worst as the week went on and consequently with the more spirits I purchased. Not only that but the management had made some bad job assignment decisions (and I honestly felt this in the morning meeting after he said it and even with bad numbers production wise the supervisor didn’t change anything that day,) and was yelling at us each day for bad production numbers. Now to be honest, the events that have been happening here haven’t really been affecting me personally, not like it did before you and your teams got access to our personal trt shit data, but what is pissing me off is bearing witness is watching the management ‘crack the whip’ on people to get things out faster without really helping out themselves. Not only that but also coming down on people who were not responsible or in control of these mistakes to begin with. Personally, after purchasing these spirits, things have been very different for me emotionally/gut wise. I feel more present and grounded in the world. I don’t feel so alone like I normally do, like I finally found a ‘family’ and am actually taking an interest in the world and society (I have a lot to catch up on.) I have even been able to reflect on some of the past interactions I had at my previous place of employment, and I don’t feel humiliated or embarrassed about them. I feel supported and I feel like I am finally able to emotionally process these incidents. Mentally/head wise, I am an anxious/nervous wreck because of the spirits I have purchased and this is more towards the spirits not the people I have to deal with day to day. The way I am acting is not unlike how I used to feel/act/be around my other co-workers teammates prior to your teams accessing the personal data stores. Gut wise, I have felt nothing but love and support, but head and heart wise I am constantly freaking out with thoughts of them not being real/made up/schizophrenic/hallucinations/delusions. I am terrified of them. I am terrified I will hurt or offend them. I am terrified they won’t listen to me even though I have set ground rules and have made my intentions clear multiple times. I fear them as being evil spirits/devils that are going to terrorize others and me (like those events you see in ghost/haunting movies or even say like the paranoia of the inquisition/New England witch hunts where strange events were blamed on malevolent spirits summoned by witches, which in my case I would be the one persecuted for the whole mess.) I’m afraid of being hurt/angry/afraid with them being involved because I am afraid they will retaliate or do something based on my reactions (for the record, some of their listings said they offered protection and I have stated clearly multiple times that this is not what I want from them nor do I want them to retaliate against others in my favor based on my emotions/reactions. I have realized, since their purchase and reflecting on my own desires/expectations/intentions when I first did spirit keeping years ago that protection and retaliation were one of the things that I desired in an unconscious/emotional sense.) I am also afraid of what they think/feel/see of me, and while I have felt nothing but love and support, I do not trust that good feeling. This has left me mentally preoccupied and paranoid. Not only that but over the past couple days things have been fucking strange. Thursday I slipped on what I thought was a patch of ice getting the mail (if memory serves me right, I had stepped on this same patch before multiple times to get the mail and never slipped. Not only that but I have not slipped on a patch of in the last few years that I can recall and there are plenty of times I should have.) Today, Friday, I was so mentally preoccupied that I forgot I had toilet paper in my shopping cart checking out at the self-checkout (even though I had grabbed it out of the lower basket and put it on the top one,) and didn’t realize I had not paid for it until I got to the parking lot and went right back into the store to pay for it. Having to make two more trips back to the grocery store because I forgot two items that I needed to make supper. Then almost chocking on little bits of pecan when I finished off my coffee. Also, when I was doing a short yoga routine this morning my left foot hurt like I didn’t stretch it properly (thing is I do a yoga class once a week and did two short yoga routines earlier this week and didn’t have problems. Now this particular pain reminded me of when I was a machine operator at my previous place of employment I was working with a woman who was a very self-righteous Christian woman, the daughter of a pastor. While it didn’t hurt at first, for some reason, the longer I worked with this woman my left foot would hurt and it would progressively get worst and stretching and orthotics wouldn’t make a difference. Now my left foot never hurt whenever I was working with anyone else and I had not felt that kind of pain again until today.) And the worst of all this is that I was absolutely terrified to tell you about any of this Clive. Reflecting on all this, my reactions/thoughts/attitude where kind of like that of a guilty sinner/follower who broke some sacred rule and needed to go to confession or wanted to hide or deny the sin. It made me the way I act/process/handle the information from your website is kind of like a mindless, fanatic follower who just takes their leader’s word at face value and believes it and says it is true without investigating or prior experience. I will be honest here, your pages and your words are the only things I can trust mentally, emotionally and spiritually. You are the only one who has given me answers and have made any sense (although it has taken years to get my mind wrapped around it and I am still working to understand it.) I visualize myself standing before these spirits I purchased, and I feel a disconnect/barrier/blankness in my heart center. It reminds me of the blankness I used to feel in my gut prior to the AAHS, and I get the feeling there is a significant amount of trauma and betrayal there.
    • Tommy February 27, 2020 at 10:55 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!So Clive me Shalin and Tom are splits of the same original subtle form? Did I get that right? Past couple of days have been a shit show. The mice are back my mate Filly on the couch who basically caused me to indulge in bad shit. Wanted to quit with fags. Filly left fags on the table. Got rip roaring drunk this weekend because I was so sick of everything. So after a bunch of alcohol and a visit to my ex I kinda wanted to end myself because my ex is also in a shit show of problems who just never seem to get less or resolved. I’m resentful because she doesn’t get off her arse to actually do shit and kinda just expects me to solve it for her. I have wanted to end this a billion times but somehow the sim has been using Stella to reprogram me into someone nicer. I was a bit of a twat in my teens before I met her. I kinda suspect she worked on the rendering editing department of the eeas project but after her numerous accidents she was pushed to the a new age whitey lighty nicey nicey fake healer route. That and the she should have started doing shaman stuff like two decades ago then this wouldn’t have happened to her. I suspect she was forced to become some fake plastic healer bullshit after the accidents. She kinda dodged it but the price is her life is a mess with debts having to go to bullshit therapy that won’t actually fix that fucked spine of hers. It’s mostly symptoms who get pacified for a couple of days. I’m basically gonna try to stay clear of alcohol and fags after my pack is done. Stay clear of my ex and junkfood. Wait till filly has a better place to stay prolly won’t take very long hopefully. It’s like they are pushing for the self destructive route with me again. Make him do all the bad shit keep him distracted and worried about others. Had a meeting this afternoon with my eh counselors. She’s pregnant so they handed me off to some other guy and woman. I was kinda worried that my shenanigans might have affected her. I was kinda worried because ever since I got her weird stuff has been happening. The new dude looked alright. I feel like the sim has been using my mate on the couch as something to feed extra new spicy sim shit. I’m kinda worried the new counselors might be used for that also. It’s has been a fest of self destructive self defeating self sabotaging behavior. Kinda fed up with everything really. So my mate on the couch will fuck off to Berlin for the weekend. Hopefully I could do some focusses. Has been on the back burner for the last couple of days. It feels like I get blocked and negated. I’m kinda tired mostly fed up. I want original normal pre psychedelics me back. If that isn’t possible hopefully non deranged non retarded ineffective me. Man how hard is it to just have normal life without submitting to the religious bullshit and having to be a little sociopath. I’m sick that everything I ever wanted since I was a kid always had some defect of some hidden something that makes it pointless to have in the end. What’s the use of getting a house if it has mice. What’s the use of getting a gf if it’s not what I wanted. You might call me a entitled shit but come on. I also have the feeling someone or something is actually benefiting of me being in this fucked situation. That someone or something is over the moon that my life is a mess.
    • Shalin February 27, 2020 at 9:17 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, So its still this mix/match avatar set that is locking down Tom/copies-of-Tom (me)? i.e. I am still interfaced to possibly infinite number of different avatars including the dragon. I confirm all my issues r 100% locked down so far. I've been doing the top focus daily but this past week been shooting mostly blanks. I still have this feeling that I am being blocked from *seeing/getting anything* during focus. Will keep doing though.
    • Clive February 24, 2020 at 2:00 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!27th-Update/extended . . . well Shalin/everyone 'unfortunately' decoding this mix and match of bit's from different interfaced avatar types is still ongoing specifically because some people seem to have been interfaced to a lot of different animal forms making the FU mixing and matching of these 'extensive'!!!! LATEST . . . well, very strangely this 'maybe/seems like' the last shit set seems mostly focused on locking down Tom (preventing access to trauma/trt's) as well as all splits of Tom (and on checking Shalin I'm getting that you're a split/twin of Tom, hence your own extremes) plus it's doing a decent job of shutting me down as my head is in the worst disengaged/distracted/dysfunctional state 'ever'!!!! So, I've been doing the focus below regularly . . . BEST FOCUS TO FACILITATE PERSONAL TRAUMA/TRT ‘RELEASES’: The focus immediately below is still the best to use if you’ve anything ‘difficult’ going on because this specifically targets anything limiting/blocking TRT/personal data access/releases: . . . I connect to any components/combinations of components that have been, are now and or that would in the future contribute to indexing and or coveting/keeping hidden/obscured and or fire-walling, guarding, locking down and or screening access to my own or anyone else’s trauma and or personal/persona/behaviour and or response data and or current incarnated life culture/society and or status/class/standing data for myself/each individual and or anything that is contributing in the slightest to making up/defining specific angles of and or specific trauma/trt’s and or trt impacts as well as deliberately traumatic/traumatizing ‘trauma/shit effects’ releases and or anything monitoring, predicting, preempting and or then reacting to, blocking/locking, locking down/containing and or otherwise detrimentally interfering with any trauma and or any trt/trt combination releases including using Chinese finger-traps, vicious feedback spirals, loops and or anything which contributes to define a wide range/variety of influences with variable/numerous delivery options and or variable/numerous final influence/influences and or impacts as part of making tracking and or countering/neutralising anything of any of this as difficult as possible . . . 2nd BEST FOCUS TARGETING MORE VARIATIONS OF MAINTAINING TRAUMA &/OR BLOCKING/SABOTAGING EFFECTIVE TRAUMA RELEASE EFFORTS . . . I connect to any components/combinations of components that have been, are now and or that would in the future contribute to negatively detrimentally defining any external/environmental circumstances and or what people are doing/made to do specifically to negatively/detrimentally impact/shock and or otherwise traumatize and or maintain trauma/block trauma releases and particularly by having myself/anyone repeatedly negatively impacted/disturbed/shocked/traumatized by having memories of shit past circumstance/situations/experiences recycled and or made consciously or unconsciously disturb/distract and or pre-occupy myself and or make me reactive/sensitive to current and any recalled similar past circumstance/situations/experiences/impacts and or use these to generate any imagination/imaginings/pre-occupations relating to these/any combination of these and or anything that has been, is now and or could in the future prevent me from becoming aware of and or of accurately identifying or describing anything of any shit systems/sub system and or there networking factors/activators and or functioning combinations and or anything else IMPORTANT and particularly anything specifically contributing to make it as difficult as possible for me to accurately define/describe and or then directly/target anything/any type of shit including the variety and or means/sophistication of functioning/tactics of any ‘shit’ components and particularly to make it difficult for me/us to effectively hack/tame/bring under control any and all shit versions . . . and particularly any ‘shit’ systems/versions that have been and are now contributing to sabotage/debilitate/get me and or diversify/modify themselves/their ways of functioning and or tactics because of what I am doing now . . . !!!!
    • Shalin February 20, 2020 at 9:20 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, this is an interesting discovery. I imagine then my problem is that of *interfacing* efforts with a long list of avatars, physical and perhaps also VR avatars and combinations of these. I’ve been doing the focus pretty much all day the last 2 days. So far, I’m not getting anything solid. The possibilities could be a very large number however. I will keep doing focus but here is a brief summary of what popped up during focus. -I thought of dolphin like avatar as I was reminded of many dreams I have had of swimming through the ocean/rivers at incredible speeds. I also have an affinity towards the water - as a kid I’d take 3-5 showers a day because I loved the feeling of being in water. I also have had an incredible fear of sharks after I watched the film JAWS as a kid in the 80s. So maybe I was some type of dolphin or other sea creature that could swim very fast or another creature on another incarnation system that also has water. -maybe there is another form similar to a dragon that explains all the crazy heat trapped inside of me. Nothing obvious came to mind during the focus. -an animal form that has to collect/store food for winter thus making them operate under *scarcity themes*, which could explain my financial loss/poverty issues but that could also be because I was a *trader* in the original MV and likely experienced periods of losing money on trades. -an animal form with a high sex drive perhaps to explain my non-stop sexual drive? But where does the HIV/STD fears/worries come from? Maybe as a *Trader* in the original MV, I traveled around doing business with different cultures and part of that I engaged in a lot of sexual activity perhaps also with prostitutes and maybe even caught some STDs. -Then I thought of the Bar Scene in Star War 1 (original film) as there are many avatar forms. Couldn’t feel into which of any of these resonated with me though. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDpDhofRoXA -Feel like Ive been interfaced to a stationary object like a tree, rock, stone etc- lack of feeling in parts of abdomen and just feeling stuck overall in this incarnation. -I dosed off after doing focus once and had a dream of snakes and was very fearful of them so maybe a physical animal afraid of snakes? Possibly even other types of reptiles. -Had a brief thought of something like a wolf or bear? Forgot to mention that I too have Matt’s issue with digestion. I digestion has been shot to hell and so has my nervous system as indicated by many hair sample tests that study mineral composition. My body doesn’t even produce a large % of the enzymes required for digestion. I feel like a mixed bag of many avatars blended together thus creating a big clusterf#*K in my current physical human body.
    • Clive February 18, 2020 at 4:19 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!UPDATE+FOCUS: I 'eventually' figured it out!!!! . . . A LEADERS/DIPLOMATS/KEY PEOPLE MIX & MATCH AVATARS SHIT SET: There is a shit set likely specific to all key culture (KP) people i.e. leader/diplomat types. So, Shalin whom is representing someone whom was a 'trader' in the original MV, whom would then very likely change animal avatars to show 'respect' to the culture/peoples he's trading with by interfacing to one of that cultures animal body forms to make the trade, however, all leaders, diplomat's and all others 'representing' any culture are also very likely to regularly be using different physical avatars under different circumstances. Hence then I'm pretty sure that there is a mix and match of very different animal avatar body form aspects 'shit set' wired into the remaining persona data cloud which is specifically targeting/impacting all KP!!! For example, some of 'Matt's' persistent issues are due to 'shit' mixing and matching aspects from multiple different avatar/body form combinations (with respect to nature/temperament/physiology/food preferences/digestion and or elimination processes including say sleeping during the day and or hibernating and or breathing under water!!! Etc. Etc . . . ). Hence Matt is made to have to eat certain specific foods i.e. food intake is defined that is related to one avatar/animal form while he's made to have a mismatched body digestive system (that isn't correct for the food intake of that species) such that he gets various symptoms of indigestion and also often incompatible elimination/waste process's factors too i.e. often either constipation or diarrhoea!!!! CURRENT/LATEST FOCUS TO USE: So, this is what we are ‘targetting’ now as the Dollhouse shit seems to be under control, at least enough to have attempts made to ‘adjust’ various peoples DH shit/now in progress!!! In the mean time can: EVERYONE USE THE FOLLOWING FOCUS TO TARGET THE 'MIX & MATCH AVATAR SHIT: . . . I connect to all physical animal forms, robot forms and any other forms/absolutely anything else I've ever been 'interfaced' to including any VR avatar/body forms and or any chimera/made from bits or parts from different animal species/avatar forms that my original form (and or earlier splits of this form) spent any time directly or indirectly interfaced to!!! I connect to all tech/networks/systems that have absolutely any details of anything/everything of any physical and or VR avatars and or which are using any of these and or particularly any combination of characteristics and or attributes of any avatar/avatar combinations and or anything else I was interfaced to and or any food/needs requirements and or environmental factors impacting these to directly or indirectly use any of these and or combinations of these in specific ways to detrimentally/negatively impact myself . . . .
    • Megan February 14, 2020 at 10:38 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I did the first part of the focus last night and I started crying, although it didn’t really feel like it hit on anything or triggered a release of any kind. Reading the second part, I see images of people I deal with often in my life and I get this kind of energetic vampire/draining feeling in my solar plexus. I did the focus again before going to bed and I got the impression of a tube connecting my solar plexus to my third eye. Things here haven’t been traumatic per say, but some things have still been weird. Traveling to a friend’s place this last weekend I was listening to all the political bullshit that has been going on here in the US on the radio and for the most part I don’t get involved. I vote, what little good that does, but in general it is a socially unwritten rule never to talk politics, religion or sex, and most of the time when it is talked about I just agree with the speaker to avoid conflict or confrontation. But this time part of me was like, ‘I’ve had enough. I don’t want to live through this crap again. I don’t want history to repeat itself again.’ Thinking on these thoughts and feelings, I have no intention of becoming politically active (that route feels like a worthless effort) so my thoughts go back to being a healer and I get a lot of resistance with these thoughts. I get impressions of egotism and dominance and competition, of knowing all or knowing better, and being better than others. Of putting others down and disgracing and shaming them for being stupid and worthless and ignorant. My thoughts also strayed to Jesus Christ and how he is the golden child/poster boy from the Christians and healing and enlightenment, and I wonder how what he did and his role here is being used to fuck with those people who honestly wanted to help people and change things for the better (outside from the obvious.) But, when I think on all of my wants/desires/intentions/ambitions regarding all of this, my personal reaction to all of this/these problems and frustrations I am having is to simply walk away, not deal with it anymore, to never have to deal with it again (the very same fucking advice every shrink, light worker and well-intending person has ever gave me.) Because I’ve tried fixing it and I have finally fucking had it. I don’t know where to start or what to do, and honestly, unless it is doing what you are doing to fix this Clive, I don’t think anything I do will do any good. Because everything else I have tried, or even just tried to believe in, has fucking failed. And the last thing I want to do is fuck up any efforts you and your teams are doing to fix this. I just feel massively blocked from connecting with people or even wanting to help people. Or even wanting to learn anything or do anything really. My situation at work is better, I don’t feel quite as resistant, angry or anxious. Yet I do not feel that gut-deep feeling (I expect) of trust and security that I want. I can’t and shouldn’t trust them at all. In hindsight, I hate myself even more for this because there is nothing else I want in the world than someone I can trust and be vulnerable with. My period is late again this month, and I haven’t quite discovered the trigger. I think the human female menstruation cycle is some kind emotional/energetic cleansing for the subtle form, because for quite a while the triggers have usually very personal and emotional issues. I just find it a little fucked up that this process is somehow tied into the human reproductive cycle. Interestingly enough, men do experience ‘PMS-like’ symptoms, called irritable male syndrome. https://www.medicaldaily.com/do-men-have-periods-quarter-men-experience-pms-symptoms-due-daily-hormonal-changes-362462 Also looking up male menstruation, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Male_menstruation, the article says that men from primarily tropical countries tend to ‘menstrate’ but this is often due to a parasite they pick up from working in the fields. Clive, I also have a couple questions if you don’t mind. How can one tell is they had been kidnapped? I am not so anxious to travel anywhere on my own anymore, there are certain things I am still anxious to do on my own in fear of being attacked or kidnapped or disappearing. Another, and this can be for anyone, how does one experience past lives exactly? Re-reading Tom’s comment about the inquisition, “I just had the example of the inquisition representing psychiatry and the benefits assessments, so it’s like different “means” to impact people in the same way, which started at different points in history but can be used to build up and worsen broadly similar trt’s. Also, the people who were put through the original inquisition could then be set up to encounter psychiatry here and or have the benefits assessments, to continue the accumulation of these inquisition-related traumas.” I have been through something similar to this. During my new-age period, my mother had absolutely superstitious about me being a part of a coven or into witchcraft, and even when she has to deal with a pair of witches from her water aerobics class she told me she wanted nothing to do with them. The lightwork I used to see apparently had a past life where she was a part of the movement to persecute and burn witches, and I remember unconsciously believing she was wrong and even tried correcting/arguing with her. Not only that but talking about any of my issues with anyone, hell even just wanting to share my interests and adventures with the public feels like being tied to the stake.
    • Shalin February 14, 2020 at 8:30 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, thank you for that update and revelation. So, shouldn't have this been a problem in some facet my entire life in this incarnation? Like the red squirrels/fox/pheasant being targeted and often showing signs of symbolic representation of a dragon i.e. their tail. All I know is that these same symptoms showed some signs during early 2013 after bouts of stress/worry but went away within 1 month only to re-appear in April/2015 after an extreme bout of series of stress/tension/fear/worry episodes, after which it has been present every nanosecond of the day/night. My fiery breath symbolic symptoms appeared in April/2015, should this have been a problem much longer for me? Or is the fact that my fiery persona/behavior/traumas/trts already evidence of this being the problem all along i.e. from the lens of being a *dragon* representation. I will let you know in a few days/week if things begin to shift. I hope this is it to get me out of this hell. 🙂 Appreciate your help. Will circle back with you.
    • Clive February 14, 2020 at 4:27 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Annabella, I think we're likely in a phase where (because of the system is starting to 'fail/have problems') it's possible it's resorted to causing personal connection 'problems' i.e. distracting problems with respect to close others!!!! Although your last paragraph is also of 'relationship' traumas/problems so, these 'could' also be attempts to facilitate releases related to your connections/feelings towards others which if I remember correctly that you're a leader/key person of a none SNV culture might also relate to people within your specific culture having problems/difficulties too i.e. these 'others' problems could be representing larger scale incidents of the person you are simulating related to trauma too!!!!
    • Clive February 14, 2020 at 4:03 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Actually Shalin, all your symptoms are all related to a symbolic 'Dragon' type animal conversion!!!! Basically, a Dragon (representing an subtle to physical form interfacing expert), it's flaming breath is, in a sense symbolically representing the many many subtle interfacing lines between the subtle form and the physical form it's interfacing to with signals pulsing up and down these (imagine they are red pulses) hence then it's presented as a dragon having red and 'fiery' breath!!! In other words, the dragon form is used to 'represent' someone with a an extremely sophisticated/automated subtle tech interfacing kit that allows them to easily interface to any animal form, which here has had you converted in a symbolic sense to having the dragon's 'hot' breath/emissions in physical form, which is why none of your symptoms make any sense and why no 'therapy' works as it's all made up!!! Unfortunately, the SNV lot don't like competent subtle people and particularly auto interfacing experts because they then have a lot of experience of the subtle and the physical and of interfacing to likely many different animal forms. I.e. in a reality where there is a massive effort to explain everything in 'physical/materialistic' terms these specific people are seen as a threat!!! Hence you have all of the tales from medieval times of 'knights' specifically on quests to kill off dragons!!!! It's no different today!!!! I've noticed that specific animal species that very much seem to me to be 'representing' the dragon form such as fox's, pheasants and maybe even the red squirrels (as they all have symbolic 'flame' tails) are all being specifically targeted. For example the first two (the fox and pheasant) are all being regularly shot at killed/culled while pheasant's specifically have their 'heather/heath moorland/brush' habitat regularly set on fire/burnt too . . . while red squirrels in the UK are it seems being regularly attacked by grey squirrels while also being killed off by a virus spreading from the grey squirrel, which the grey form is immune to. I've done some scans to target these entirely made up 'dragon' conversion efforts Shalin!!!!
    • Shalin February 14, 2020 at 3:38 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, the symptoms I describe MAY BE a *red herring* in that they could mislead/misdirect you/anyone trying to help. Not a guarantee but it has mislead a lot of people in the alternative medicine space as my symptoms sound very similar to what is already in their diagnosis tool kit and so they arrive at a diagnosis and follow the treatment protocol for that diagnosis BUT are then shocked that I've had no improvements and instead experience all sorts of other side effects/aggravations. To me the root could be either any one of the following or any combination of these: a) Liver/Gallbladder energetic structure has become severely imbalanced (i.e. YANG>>>>YIN) - All of TCM, Ayurveda and Tibetan Medicine identify severe Liver imbalance by inspection of my tongue and pulse. Other organ systems are off too (i.e. Spleen/Kidney) but Liver is the root. b) Energetic blockages in abdomen causing counterflow of energy It could be #a, #b or both. As such, both #a &/or #b are likely preventing the liver energy from flowing as it normally would and is then STUCK/CONGESTED/BLOCKED. Liver is the seat of emotion/stress as they say in TCM/Ayurveda/Tibetan medical system so no surprise that it could be F'd up given all my traumas/extreme-emotions/stress/mental-tension I have had. As such, since the liver qi/energy cant flow, it over heats the liver and generates internal wind/gas. As such my entire abdomen is a giant balloon of air but especially bulging out with wind/air on the right side below my right rib. Since gas/wind normally rise most of it comes up and as it comes up it takes/carries with it the bile/enzymes/gastric fluids from the stomach into my throat/nose/mouth/lungs. This is an every second of the day/night process - has not stopped since it started in Apri/2015. The energy/heat also rushes up to my head making it as if my head is going to explode. Raises my blood pressure as well. So it may not be related to the animal form I may have been in my original form during my kidnap/torture circumstance.
    • Tommy February 14, 2020 at 3:15 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Hey Clive sorry not a lot of updates from my side did do a lot the of last and I did a lot of the older focuses the last days. I got nothing substantial to share with you guys. I have a mate crashing on the couch but I suspect he’s being used to feed me new/different trauma shit. I’m looking like a overweight raccoon with thinning hair. I’m having a gut like a pregnant woman. Same old same old tinnitus voices purple energy field when I close my eyes. That lock jaw you described happened like 2 nights in a row I woke up it snaps then I go back to sleep. I do feel a lot of messing around with my spine. Lots of weird stuff happing with my spine it’s like somehow it is tied to others. I brushed up on my knowledge about Tibetan Buddhism. I somehow feel their is more to the symbolism then I’m understanding. Also looking into the work of mister jung with the subconscious. I did read the main book of him at my ex but it’s been four years. Also read a book about Russian nanai shamanism because their mostly known for healing. What’s weird though is you gotta keep worshiping/feeding those spirits else you get sick again. If you don’t listen to those spirits they kill you. If you don’t pay the shaman so he can get sacrifices they kill the shaman and reverse the healing. At the end of the book this afternoon I got kinda scared I couldn’t place it. My mate on my couch will be gone in like 5 hours. So I will do the new focussen then. He’s gone in the mornings usually back in the evening. Then he goes out after dinner again till late. Clive couldn’t it have been a vr kidnap/torture? Like eh Altered Carbon. That something along the lines of that happened to shalin.
    • Megan February 14, 2020 at 3:11 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!He could possibly be a wolf as well. Taken from this article, https://getpocket.com/explore/item/a-very-old-man-for-a-wolf?utm_source=pocket-newtab "Eventually, both parents would return to the hunt, bringing food back in their bellies, which they’d throw up as a steamy stew for the pups to eat—a technique biologists call “regurgitative provisioning.” On a side note, I've been reading a book written by an Oglala Sioux man, and the way he describes how Midwest Native American's lived back in the day, they sound like they would be either wolves or coyotes in the way they moved around and hunted. Although at one point, when the author was talking about how they were corralled on reservations and sent to missionary school, it reminded me of wild horses and how they are often corralled and broken by cowboys to behave and be useful. I'm positive though that the Karok, Yurok and Hupa tributes of the Northwestern US are bears. I was looking at a few pictures and I could just see a bear in my mind in the way they sat and in they way they fished.
    • Clive February 14, 2020 at 2:08 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!I'll have a think Shalon, the only other thing I know is that the capture/torture happened on 'Deep Space Nine' which was an all cultures/weird animals species trading station set up by the SNV's as a cover for spying/mischief and likely then inclusive of abductions of 'key' people!!! Now as this is a physical space station everyone will be wearing an animal avatar and I've mentioned to you before that I'm suspicious as to the regurgitation?!?!?! type symptoms/effects you experience perhaps being because of the animal species you were?!?! You'd not try and hold down a fish under water would you!!!! Ah, do not some species of animal bring up there stomach contents to rechew/digest again, it's possibly a very weird species that we don't have here. Problem is that I've not watched very much DS9 so I cannot remember the types of species they had!!! Ahh, in the distant past I made up a picture of some film aliens: Tortoise top right, some reptiles, lions a snake woman . . . on checking snakes (maybe 'reptiles' then), owls and a lot of birds regurgitate
    • Shalin February 14, 2020 at 1:17 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Clive, I dont have the DH effects that Tommy describes but I have had thousands of body invasions since I was 14 years old (DH or real entity?) and I often felt as if something about my persona/behavior changed drastically starting somewhat in university but accelerated after graduating from university around the age of 24-25 and continued into adulthood. Did I change because of negative life experiences/traumas/stressors/mental-tensions and/or was it also due DH imprints? I know I am still 100% contained in my SHIT. I've been doing the trauma/trt release focus AFTER setting an intention to connect to my original kidnap/torture circumstances but I don't notice any changes/improvements. Perhaps a full understanding of my situation hasn’t yet occurred AND/OR I have the DH imprints AND/OR something ENTIRELY DIFFERENT that has NOT yet been discovered/understood by you/Tom/Matt/Those-Outside? When I do the trauma/trt release focuses after setting the intentiion to connect to my original kidnap/torture circumstances I got very brief references to: a) electrocution b) the christian cross (was I tied to a cross?) c) drowning & d) being tied up I don’t know if I got those insights/ideas BECAUSE of AUTO-SUGGESTION of you telling me that my original form was kidnapped/tortured or whether they are actually relevant to my circumstance? I didn’t get any Virtual-Reality related insights this time. I also got the following: 1) reminder of 2 incidences when I was a young kid: a) one where I was walking home from school and for some reason I decided to take another route home. As I was walking 2 guys who looked like rockers (this was early 1980s) made an attempt to grab me. I never ran faster in my life. I pressure they were just teasing/messing with me because I must have been 6-7 years old and they could have nabbed me if they actually wanted to. b) The second incidence occurred at a friends house where my friend, my little sister and I were behind my friend’s apartment building complex playing. Again, 2 guys who looked like rockers came up to us and they told my sister and my friend to go home and for me to stay as if they wanted to kidnap me. We ran like crazy. Again, they probably were just messing with us as an adult could have easily caught a 6-7 year old kid. 2) reminder of the 1980s tv show in America/Canada called *Unsolved Mysteries* that showed all sorts of strange unsolved murders/kidnappings/ghostly-hauntings/ETs and other mysteries that were *unsolved*. 3) reminder of what happened to Leslie Mahaffy, Kristen French and Tammy Homolka, all teenage girls (my age) in St.Catherines/Burlington Ontario about 1 hour from where I lived in Toronto who were kidnapped, raped, tortured & murdered by Paul Bernardo & his wife Karla Homolka. Turned out that Paul Bernardo was also a serial rapist in that part of Toronto where my family lived. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paul_Bernardo https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murder_of_Leslie_Mahaffy https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murder_of_Kristen_French https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murder_of_Tammy_Homolka I don’t know the significance of any of the above as it relates to me and/or my original form’s kidnap/torture circumstances. I believe whatever has me LOCKED down is PREVENTING me from becoming aware of anything significant/instrumental that would HELP reveal & release any/all traumas/persona/behavior/beliefs/trts. It could be DH imprints and/or what I mentioned earlier - SOMETHING ENTIRELY DIFFERENT that you guys have not yet discovered/understood. I will do the DH focuses NOW as well but maybe its worth having a chat with your mates on the outside &/or Tom/Matt about my situation.
    • Clive February 13, 2020 at 11:22 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Tommy/Melissa??/Update Everyone . . . well, despite definite 'progress' (at least for some) 'some' are still being contained . . . however I then remembered and started to watch the Dollhouse series as in a sense we've been focused on what is constructing and maintain our persona/personality (and accompanying trauma) and the Dollhouse in a sense actually 'imprints' people with bits from others 'persona/personalities' . . . Now, 'Tommy' who leaves comments here has had DH shit/imprints applied to himself and Tom (a friend of mine and our best 'shit' hacker has too) I was specifically thinking of him/Tom as likely actually being a version of 'Victor' of the Dollhouse people (whose a shell shocked soldier) specifically because Tom in exploring past lives was Lord/Admiral Nelson (who lost an eye and got arm shot off in battle) . . . so it wasn't much of a surprise towards the end of the series when 'Victor' is reverted back to his real self he them introduces himself as Tommy/Tom!!!! So, Tommy/Melissa and or anyone else that has 'vibes' re the Dollhouse do the first focus below a couple of times and then the 2nd one . . . which will likely help speed up current efforts!!!! FOCUS TO TARGET DOLLHOUSE ‘WARE/IMPRINTS/ARCHITECTURE’ FOCUS:  . . . . I connect to any subtle and or physical neural architecture, any persona imprints and or anything similar and or equivalent and or any/all supporting/protecting/maintaining structures and or any data/systems/sub systems designed to and or that would react against/block/negate any efforts to investigate any aspect of the neural architecture/imprinted personas/persona fragments and or anything/everything the architecture and or dollhouse ‘tech/ware’ is dependent on and or anything that is keeping anything/any of this and or the architecture/anyone's/any combination of peoples architecture and or any persona/persona fragments inaccessible/secure and or immune to any direct and or indirect investigation/investigations and or alteration/reversion efforts . . . . . . and 'best' focus to help get to any shit still fighting to retain trauma and or debilitating personality/persona aspcets etc after doing the above is: 1. FOCUS TO TARGET ANYTHING MAINTAINING TRAUMA &/OR BLOCKING/SABOTAGING EFFECTIVE TRAUMA RELEASE EFFORTS . . . I connect to any components/combinations of components that have been, are now and or that would in the future contribute to negatively/detrimentally define any external/environmental circumstances and or what people are doing/made to do specifically to negatively/detrimentally impact/shock and or otherwise traumatize and or maintain trauma/block trauma releases and particularly by having myself/anyone repeatedly negatively impacted/disturbed/shocked/traumatized by having memories of shit past circumstance/situations/experiences recycled and or made consciously or unconsciously disturb/distract and or pre-occupy myself and or make me reactive/sensitive to current and any recalled similar past circumstance/situations/experiences/impacts and or use these to generate any imagination/imaginings/pre-occupations relating to these/any combination of these and or anything that has been, is now and or could in the future prevent me from becoming aware of and or of accurately identifying or describing anything of any shit systems/sub system and or there networking factors/activators and or functioning combinations and or anything else IMPORTANT and particularly anything specifically contributing to make it as difficult as possible for me to accurately define/describe and or then directly/target anything/any type of shit including the variety and or means/sophistication of functioning/tactics of any ‘shit’ components and particularly to make it difficult for me/us to effectively hack/tame/bring under control any and all shit versions . . . and particularly any ‘shit’ systems/versions that have been and are now contributing to sabotage/debilitate/get me and or diversify/modify themselves/their ways of functioning and or tactics because of what I am doing now . . . !!!!
    • Clive February 9, 2020 at 3:32 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Shalin/Everyone . . . 'good effort' . . . in that (from the overall feedback I'm getting) we do seem to 'JUST' be dealing with what is within people's persona/persona data (although some people have been deliberately subjected to very specific circumstances/efforts (mostly in VR's) to design in factors that lock down/make difficult to unravel/deal with specific traumatic and or debilitating circumstances/experiences). For example, in that I've found myself temporarily back in some 'shit/weird' effects (extreme 'head' based stress/tension effects so bad that my 'jaw' would literally 'lock' (that I actually resolved and then haven't had for 4/5 years now)) then this has indicated to me that my own personal/persona data is obviously being checked out with respect to all past incidents as well as any/all combinations of 'interacting' and or accumulating over time factors too. In other words, we seem to be having all angles/facets of our personal data trt stores and all factors with respect to all interactions between different experiences/circumstances as well as the progressive of accumulations over time investigated too . . . while also trying to edit/alleviate these and or get access to while specifically trying to release/reduce any/all types of trauma . . . Now quite often specific 'trauma' relates to circumstances involving other people (a relationship breakup would be a classic example) so, as part of investigations of these some people will find themselves perhaps having 'dreams' of these people/types of circumstances/traumas and or they may find themselves spending time thinking about and or even having direct contact with these 'past' people too . . . -------------------------------------------- However, for yourself specifically Shalin because you obviously have 'embedded' as well as often 'severe' symptoms I spent time having a feel around and I'm pretty sure that your original form was (lets say) 'kidnapped' and then actually tortured, such that it's likely that your embedded trauma/shit effects are the outcome of this. So, A) I've done some scans for these specific circumstances BUT B) if you yourself do any more scans it would likely help if you have the intention to directly connect to the original 'torture' circumstances before doing these to help deal with these 'shit' circumstances more effective/directly!!!!
    • Clive February 9, 2020 at 2:52 pm on Extensive Evidence our World is a Simulation Designed In a VR on a 3D Wireframe Grid/BackdropHi Alex, I suggest you read what you've written in your comment AND specifically for both logical fallacies and as well as base gross 'assumptions'!!!! For example if you'd read enough 'here' on this web site you'd be aware that: A) I didn't 'intuit' that we are in a fake reality, specifically because 1) I got access to the reality outside and then access to a version of myself (whom I am a duplicate of) such that in building up a base of information about the 'life/experience' of this other me 'outside' I found 2) it/I had been studying the design/building of what we are currently living within . . . hence then unlike literally everyone else here I'm actually providing 'evidence' of the base configuration of fake reality design that we are all currently living within . . . One of these pages of evidence is this one: Matrix Film, Plato’s Cave, Theory of Forms, Metempsychosis & Platonic Dualism Comparisons, which coincidentally goes into the senses/perceptual 'RENDERING' angle in great detail (unlike everywhere else) such that: B) Your assertion that "Your mind is using information from your senses to simulate the world around you. The limitations that you observe exist only in the mind." is 1) not only completely utterly wrong it's actually also 'OBVIOUSLY' completely wrong while 2) what you state is actually completely INVERTED. Specifically your senses are 'fed' the 'sensory/perceptual' details that provide you with your own personal sensory/perceptual view of reality, hence then you/me anyone can be fed personal to themselves/outside of consensus reality perceptions (as I describe on realitywalker.com) and specifically as part of giving some very specific people some very specific BUT consistent experiences related to some/many none physical/none materialistic experiences of the person that they are a duplicate of . . . unfortunately like a lot of other frail minded people here you've not factored in that your brain/thinking abilities are also generated by the 'system/processor/logic' AND are hence then entirely dependent upon the aims/objectives of the project designers that put together the system we are living within . . . which from your own obviously wrong and hence then stupid comment you can deduce includes systems designed to prevent people like yourself (and a lot of others too) from realising that you are all made to think up and also then write/rewrite what is 'OBVIOUS' to anyone that's spent a bit of time 'THINKING' about these things as being nothing more than distracting mindless gibberish!!!! Hence then it's stupidly easy for a lot of people like yourself to regurgitate some mindless as well as logically incorrect 'catch phrase' while not realising that this is what it is in the first place!!!! If you had one iota of 'logical functioning ability' you'd at the very least have actually described/pointed out what you describe as "limitations that you observe' . . . because on this page I'm actually pointing out at the very start a lot of easily verifiable factual scientific information that YOU CANNOT DISPUTE!!!! For the 'less robust of mind' I've even presented some easily observed as well as easy to conceptually understand PICTURES/ILLUSTRATIONS of some aspects of what I write about/am trying to point out on this page that are 'illustrating' some of the built in, blatantly designed in aspects/features of our very obviously pre-defined and hence then fake reality!!!! I.e. these 'facts' are actually readily observable via anyone's 'eyesight' focused senses/perceptions within the entire population (hence then they are not an artefact related to my own 'personal' senses/perceptions are they?) and hence then they are actually readily verifiable to EVERYONE HERE (I even give a link to the web site I got this information from too), the fact that you are obviously not able to get this is then itself evidence of how easy it's been for the simulation system to detrimentally mess with the functioning of your head/thinking abilities to make you write this blatant as well as distracting gibberish/bullshit/nonsense!!!!
    • Alex Swanson February 9, 2020 at 11:56 am on Extensive Evidence our World is a Simulation Designed In a VR on a 3D Wireframe Grid/BackdropYou have accurately intuited that you are in a simulation, but you are missing the most obvious explanation. Your mind is using information from your senses to simulate the world around you. The limitations that you observe exist only in the mind. You are likely much greater than you can perceive.
    • Shalin February 4, 2020 at 7:57 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, I’ve done the latest 2 focuses anywhere from 5-15 times per day the week or so. I got thoughts of Bernie Sanders (US politician), visions of naked women/sex, old memories, all sorts of fictional stories/fantasies & often deep silence/stillness. Seems like a lot of nonsense/nothingness. However, I did have some interesting thoughts during focus BUT were very brief: (more details further below): vision of an octopus like structure, a honeycomb structure, a casino slot machine, email/physical-letters(paper/wood/tree angle), a pipe network/system, mobile/cellular network, lasers used for fire-walling/guarding, spanish/venus fly trap blocking/locking release of trauma/trts - in all those cases the thought/awareness was very brief - like 3-5 seconds each at most. In each instance I tried to engage further but was unable to get anything more. That said, I am not any closer to finding the root causes of my problems. I have my *issue list* and the focus results referred above BUT I don’t get any insights/clues from focus sessions on what is ACTUALLY CAUSING/CONTRIBUTING to any of these and/or my extreme physical imbalances. Below are more details of my focus results BUT these are for just a split second -5 seconds at most(so I don’t know whether my mind is deliberately creating this or whether I actually saw this?). -octopus like structure/creature with legs spread out in all directions. Its legs/tentacles were connected to vessels of what I thought were pre-defined-shit/traumas/trts BUT I only saw this for a very short few seconds. There was an octopus for every subtle being and it seemed responsible for some aspect of operations of our data and/or was responsible for guarding/locking-down/fire-walling access to our traumas/trts/persona/behavior/response/reactions/culture data -Honeycomb or fibonacci structure/network - I also saw this for a very short few seconds and its not clear to me what this network was being used for -Casino Slot machines - perhaps a network of casino slot machines whose pull results were contributing to *something* about us - don’t know what though. -Email/Paper letters (paper made from trees and used to record/store SHIT) and with email to exchange/send SHIT -Thought of Blue Coat Systems (one of my former employer that makes network/security appliance/technologies) - is that fire-walling me? -Pipe network/system (water, natural gas, oil) types - but not sure if this is our physical pipe network or the something virtual in the sim used to do *something* - don’t know what though. -Mobile networks - not sure what it was being used for but thought came up. -Lasers used for fire-walling/guarding/locking down: a) Film: Oceans Twelve - Lasers used to guard: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wnEuOJg_dA b) Film: Entrapment - Lasers used to guard work of art: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KX2_LCUkhDs -Spanish/Venus fly trap plant being used to block/lock release of trauma/trts ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2nd/3rd Updates: I also forgot to mention that there has been a LOT of manipulative activity targeting me this past week. I have this ONE FRIEND who has a knack for instigating arguments, heated discussions and debates and during those he often resorts to insults when he is losing the argument/debate/discussion. I am 100% sure he is being used by the SIM to target me – to draw out predefined responses from me as in combative/argumentative/agitation/flustered/anger type of responses. This has been happening very frequently this week over the Whatspp text message application for smartphones. We have a group chat with a lot of my friends but its ONLY this ONE friend who continues to be used as a pawn by the SIM to continuously draw out predefined responses/behavior out of me and then to fuk me up. Sometimes I am able to ignore it but a lot of times my response is automatic and I can’t help myself. We often go long periods of calm but this week seems the SIM has him on overdrive trying every which way to get a response out of me. I still get dreams of past girlfriends. Had one last night. I dont know if that is an *separate* sabotage artifact OR whether it is part of my trauma/personal/persona/behavior/response/trt/etc… data stores. Just an FYI because your latest update indicated all *separate* sabotage SHIT was basically neutralized. There may be more if those dreams are NOT part of my data stores.
    • Clare.Ella February 2, 2020 at 11:01 am on My ‘I’m Ignored, Invisible, Not Acknowledged’ IssueThe mountain will fall down, the water will flow, and you will never fall
    • Annabelle January 26, 2020 at 3:18 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshNo less than 3 new family and friends medical emergencies to include cancer, broken hip, and breathing issues. My stress level is thru the roof as I try to help and cover for everyone. During all of this, some friends started asking about very personal details - like what time is the hospital appointment and what are the names of my relatives involved. I wondered why they asked and they said they were going to enroll me in their church prayer chain. I thought I really do not want that, and it seems uninvited prayers are an intrusion. I remember as a child looking at church bulletins and seeing long lists of peoples names with all of their problems listed in the prayer section. As of January 1, I started to get severe hives all over and worked to eliminate food allergens and bought all new organic cotton clothing. This was of no help. I finally thought of a medication I have been taking for one year and stopped it and the hives disappeared over night. Did the recent focus and saw a ball of wet and tangled spaghetti spinning like a globe. I continue to have a lack of enjoyment of most of my favorite activities and wish I could feel good and happy. Continuous dreams about old relationships that seem to be releasing trauma - like should I continue this relationship, and it really isn't working out, so what ever happened is ok.
    • Clive January 25, 2020 at 6:09 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshUpdated Latest focus version is above!!!
    • Clive January 25, 2020 at 6:00 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesI suggest that you read a lot more of this site and maybe the actual front page which gives a decent although general/progression in terms of unfolding changing understandings/approaches!!! Exactly how would you expect to gain experience or understanding by completely relying on invisible perhaps imaginary others to sort things out for you. How would you expect to understand something/anything/your own or anyone else's issues EXCEPT by exploring WTF IS CAUSING/CONTRIBUTING TO THEM!!!! Your comment is pretty 'schizophrenic' Farrah
    • farrah hachey January 25, 2020 at 8:27 am on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesUm, just curious...but why would you want to connect with something that would prevent you from connecting with God/Source or the collective consciousness? Also, why would you want to connect with whatever is preventing someone from "hacking and reading about fake, alternate and deceptive realities"? I don't understand why you would want to connect with whatever it is that is preventing oneself from connecting to or accomplishing these things? You're connecting to what is preventing or blocking you from accomplishing these things when wouldn't a person want to connect to what would allow these connections or make them possible? It seems completely absurd that someone would want to be completely devoid of any connection with God/Source/Creator...and not sure what the focus is on the hacking and reading about alternate realities thing is about? I don't really understand what it is you're trying to achieve with these statements?? If you're connected with spiritual hierarchies and such, is that not the same as connecting with a Higher Power, Source, Angels, etc.?? Sorry,...not trying to be rude or anything. I'm honestly just really confused by your list of statements. Have you yourself connected to whatever is blocking or preventing you from achieving, doing, blocking, or having memories of certain events? And if so, how did connecting to the block of these things help you gain insight, memories or whatever it was you wished to achieve. I found some connection to a few of your articles and do believe that we are quite likely living in some sort of matrix or simulated reality. I've just come to discover this lately and am pretty scared by the whole thing. I've had a bunch of paranormal, chaotic, bizarre and traumatizing events happen in my life since 1979 or so. I'm glad to have come across your site since I've had nobody to talk to about these events. Everyone seems to be so oblivious or unaware of things that are going on all around us. The fake, scripted events...it's hard to tell if anyone or anything is actually real anymore. I feel so lost, isolated and completely alone. If you have some time to reply I'd really appreciate it. Great site, cheers:-)
    • Megan January 25, 2020 at 4:40 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshThanks for the addition Clive it helped a bunch! So, I am taking dance and yoga classes, and as much as the original focus helped I was still feeling resistance to doing, or the idea of doing, physical exercise, and by extension, hard work so I just listed this for my first time using the latest update to the focus. I was always told, ‘…to work hard and you’ll make your dreams come true’, or ‘work hard and you’ll be happy,’ and I whole-heartedly agreed with this in the past and live by it, still do in a way. But the sad thing I realize for those things I really worked hard for, in the best way I understood or knew how, I was never happy, and my dreams never came true. ‘Hard work’ and lying, presenting a false self that others would accept and approve of and wanted to see, is all I have ever been able to do to connect with people, or even attempt to be or do what I wanted or wanted to get done, which in my case bordered on self-abusive on many levels. From believing I was lazy, to being self-conscious and obedient to the thoughts/feelings/beliefs/opinions of others. I worked hard to the point of hatred of myself and my life and others, too burnt out because I never got what had been promised or implied. I get it now why this system would spin it to have me hate my original – ‘Higher’- self, being able to feel, my own sensitivities and awareness, and even topics of ESP/spirits/spirituality. Reading Clive’s reply to Shalin about those on the outside likely giving him a copied version of Tom’s hacking tech to help him out, and I want to help the hacking efforts in any way I can, and I immediately get resistance. A part of me hates the idea. I see me/she/it sitting in an isolated, gray corner with her back turned to me. I suddenly feel old and tired, and just want to be left alone. I’m sick and tired of the harassment. It’s also scary. I don’t want to lose anything/everything! My thoughts then stray onto romance and intimate relationships, and I realize that it’s not that I am averse to having an intimate relationship with someone else, it’s that I literally cannot have a relationship with someone, not without it ending in absolute disappointment and misery. And this block feels physical somehow, like it is a part of my body. This also reminds me about my own reflections and musings on family, and how the structure of family and its importance is designed to restrict and traumatize us. Shalin, if I may, it might be a good idea to focus on just one issue at time when you are working with the focus rather than a whole group of issues all in one sitting at least until you get used to how the focuses work for you. Reason being is back when I first started using the focuses, I didn’t really see anything either, and after months of frustration and failure I was guided to slow down and just focus on one issue at a time. The first issue was my disconnect with my emotions/lower chakras and having to learn how to accept, identify and express my emotions in a healthy manner since I tended to block them out or avoid them at all costs, I had actually stopped doing focuses for the most part during this time. Once I was comfortable with feeling again no matter how I felt I was encouraged to pick the focuses back up again. Sometimes even just doing a focus on one issue would cause a waterfall or daisy chain effect into other areas that bothered me, and even into other areas that were a problem, but I didn’t think anything of them.
    • Clive January 25, 2020 at 1:31 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into Flesh30th Jan: Latest UPDATE and current best Focus trauma 'release' to use at the present time!!!! We seem to have no further separate sabotaging 'shit' blocking access to each persons personal trauma data however we have found a few people whom have had there personal data stores modified/adapted in ways to block/make releases of trauma/personal shit effects as difficult as possible. So, immediately below is a new focus that targets this 'blocking' shit specifically: BEST FOCUS TO FACILITATE PERSONAL TRAUMA/TRT 'RELEASES': The focus immediately below is currently the best to use if you've anything 'difficult' going on because this specifically targets anything limiting/blocking TRT/personal data access/releases: . . . I connect to any components/combinations of components that have been, are now and or that would in the future contribute to indexing and or coveting/keeping hidden/obscured and or fire-walling, guarding, locking down and or screening access to my own or anyone else's trauma and or personal/persona/behaviour and or response data and or current incarnated life culture/society and or status/class/standing data for myself/each individual and or anything that is contributing in the slightest to making up/defining specific angles of and or specific trauma/trt's and or trt impacts as well as deliberately traumatic/traumatizing 'trauma/shit effects' releases and or anything monitoring, predicting, preempting and or then reacting to, blocking/locking, locking down/containing and or otherwise detrimentally interfering with any trauma and or any trt/trt combination releases including using Chinese finger-traps, vicious feedback spirals, loops and or anything which contributes to define a wide range/variety of influences with variable/numerous delivery options and or variable/numerous final influence/influences and or impacts as part of making tracking and or countering/neutralising anything of any of this as difficult as possible . . . Targeting Ultra Transforming/Self Altering SHIT: I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been designed to emulate advantages and of give any shit 'advantages' such that hacking this shit is difficult or impossible, shit that in various combinations and under certain conditions/circumstances have been specifically designed/refined/tested/optimised to work/function in very convoluted/miss-leading/constantly transforming and or generating fractal like aspects/sub aspects/functions/divergent functioning versions/aspects of itself and or otherwise functioning in ways to be as difficult to track/understand/decode/figure out never mind negate/neutralise/block . . . and or anything/any combination of components that we're specifically designed to emulate any type of advantages/advantaged abilities/characteristics and or 'functioning and particularly to avoid being tracked/hacked and or then compromised/combated/tamed/negated/disabled and or understood . . . and or generates any temporary and or compressed and or ultra compressed but 'still' able to generate functional components from these including as micro dot/coded data/information type components and or anything similar and or equivalent and or just temporarily/momentarily, and or any interacting reality foundation substrates and or any temporary non-normal 'pockets or strata's' of reality temporarily appearing and disappearing on the fly and or anything with similar and or equivalent functions/functioning abilities/objectives and or anything exhibiting eclectic/apparent randomised and or illogical/chaotic functioning and or that defines and or generates any dormant 'dust' or equivalent type data particle components that on when 'activated/wake up' do things under TXYZ conditions, and or as part of setting up circumstances to have knock-on and or long-term and or accumulative effects on specific people and or their environments/others connected to them and or anything/any combination of 'anythings' including temporary 'processors' that directly or indirectly define, re-write and or alter base reality functioning and or rulesets and or generate temporary versions of the same or similar anywhere/everywhere and or while modifying the base functioning/functionality of the components associated with it including switching from logic to anti-logic to variations of fuzzy logic and semi-logic and chaotic 'logic' and any switching Rubic's Cube type and or CrystalMaze like efforts and or any other variations of non-normal/abnormal functioning components and or that switches between these and or other variations/possibilities ALL THE TIME to make/keep itself as untrackable, none understandable/incomprehensible/bizarre/illogical and or fuzzy, chaotic, anti-logical/none logical etc, from one moment to the next, and then again the next moment and or use multiple conflicting logics/anti-logic variations and or anything else/any other combination simultaneously and or anything contributing to continually keeping it all transforming/altering any/all aspects of itself, it's functioning though time
    • Clive January 24, 2020 at 6:58 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshMegan RE my reply to Shalin's comment you could do the same, i.e. the next time you do the current/latest focus start with: ” . . . I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been deliberately designed into my personal data/trt store and or anywhere else that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute to: ” And then 'think of or mentally list/internally highlight' anything you're not happy with!!!!
    • Clive January 24, 2020 at 6:54 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshGreat effort Shalin, you're obviously starting to get some decent access to current 'shit' . . . next time you do the focus start with: " . . . I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been deliberately designed into my personal data/trt store and or anywhere else that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute to: " Then read/scan your comment issue list with the intention to 'engage with everything' directly or indirectly contributing to anything of any of these . . . and then switch to do the main/current focus, as this will likely 'help'!!!! Everyone is different when doing scans Shalin, although I suspect that the external/upper lot/help have copied/pasted adapted Tom's hacking tech to work with your focus/scan efforts!!!!
    • Shalin January 24, 2020 at 5:16 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, So I’ve done the focus about 12 times in the past 2 days and I don’t see much as usual. Each time I do the focus it takes me about 1 hour as with intent I connect to all of my trauma/situation/circumstance categories I have experienced in this life and their timelines. There is a lot of SHIT I have experienced in this life so each round of focus takes some time to fully cover everything. What I got: 1) I got an assembly line of what appeared to be items like balls/beads or bottles moving along conveyer belt/assembly line and each getting some kind of attention as they passed through a station along the line. Think of an assembly line filling bottles of pepsi cola for example - the bottles each get a squirt of cola at the cola station, then a cap at the cap station and then a label at the labeling station. I don’t know what the context of any of this is- whether the bottles/balls/beads represent our traumas/trts and the assembly line being how they move along in time?? 2) Another time I got a structure like a circular space station https://i.stack.imgur.com/Q89O4.jpg with multiple rings. Each of the rings were rotating in different directions and along a ring are compartments of traumas/trts/pre-defined-shit. I tried to feel into it but wasn’t able to get any more than that. Seems to me 1 & 2 above appear to be like what Tom described with the beads but slightly different representation. The following are my situations/circumstances/trauma categories although many of these involve multiple combination of these: a) Financial loss traumas & poverty circumstances/situations b) Job loss traumas & current/past job stressors/frustrations/disappointments/cognitive-overload/overwhelmed c) HIV & STD related traumas d) Family conflicts- physical/verbal/emotional/sexual abuse e) Romantic relationship loss/heartbreak -I repel women for whatever reason f) Dollhouse/body invasions g) Conflicts/incidences that have caused extreme guilt/shame/embarrassment/self-hate h) Sexual addictions & sexual frustrations i) My entire persona/behavior is conflict, combative, anger, fear, & worry driven - conflicts with friends, conflicts with strangers, conflicts with family, conflicts with coworkers, conflicts with money, conflicts with romance, conflicts with sexuality, conflicts with myself j) Hatred/disdain for people in authority - politicians, corporate executives, governments, my father etc I don’t know if: 1) there is anything built into my data stores that is DELIBERATELY causing my physical imbalances/symptoms (as in to keep me STUCK/DEBILITATED). Like shit A messes with the Liver, shit B messes with the spleen/stomach, shit C messes with the Kidney and so on. OR 2) whether they are the end result of all of the above issue/trauma/circumstance/situation categories being LOCKED in my subtle/physical body OR 3) whether there is something entirely different responsible for it that I am not aware of and not able to describe/articulate? Your latest update re: Tom's feedback is fascinating. I can see that I have so many autopilot/automatic triggers/beliefs/thinking/reactions, specific people who ALWAYS trigger conflicts/combative-situations with me and reward/punishments of which I have mostly had punishments in this life (must be like for every 1 reward I've had 20 punishments) and specific circumstances/sabotages that repeat over and over again to fck me up. I will continue with the focus and report back if anything new pops up but I definitely don’t see things like how you/Tom do.
    • Clive January 24, 2020 at 10:10 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshYea Megan what you write (how you are made to work) is exceptionally equivalent to Tom's descriptions in his last update in terms of how the shit is attempting to make us all into automatons: . . . I engage with templates which seem to be overlaid onto people’s data, which relate to “autopilot / unthinking / automatic” mode. It’s as if these could be activated to make them act without thinking in specific situations, or in relation to political decisions (such as voting) or have a mindless adherence to specific opinions / automatic views on specific topics. They feel almost like doll tech, or a sort of hive mind / Borg shit / group think shit delivery system. It feels as if they relate to ideologies, beliefs, unthinking obedience and group conformity. They also feel “cultish” in terms of the strength with which they impact people’s thinking. I get that some people are marked by this system for “special attention”, which for some people could mean protecting them (for example because they’re important to delivering / implementing some facet of the SNV’s objectives) and for other people could mean persecuting them / putting them into shit. I get that both of these, protection and persecution, can be done by putting other people into the autopilot mode, in which state they can be effectively, finely controlled to go after someone / act in a way which would traumatise them, or defend someone else / act in a way which supports or validates them. I have a sense of this “autopilot” shit delivery system being like music, it’s like an automatic flow of sound through multiple people, or a current which carries them with it. Then I also connect to “conductors”, who are influencing other people to follow this music (eg trend-setters / people who are copied, respected or listened to), but it also feels like these conductors themselves are also being conducted by the same “music” / current, and being used for its agenda in exactly the same way. I also get connection to people who people react against the conductors or music / flow, and try to conduct a different “tune”, or who ignore or attack the music / flow of autopilot behaviour, and at times it feels like this too is prompted by the shit, that it wants specific people to oppose the flow, for example to break them down / wear them out, or as a token opposition, or to make the people who are going with the autopilot flow / music feel like they’re being radical / dangerous and going against the status quo. I see what looks like a framework surrounded by water, and it feels like the framework represents the structure of society / people in specific positions, and the water represents pretty much everyone else, the people who can be taken over by the autopilot templates. It feels like the water / group thinking autopilot people can be used to help manage things to stay the same / maintain the structure of society and its hierarchies, or work to change something of this in pre-defined, desired ways. Some people seem to be more naturally “resistant” to these autopilot templates. I see what look like currents, representing the flow of people’s opinions or autopilot conformity, and then see other, opposing currents where other people are managed to disagree with and fight the original group of people. Then there also seem to be (often more isolated) people who are encouraged to stand up / speak out about something, but are rarely if ever listened to in any meaningful way. There seem to be some very subtle TXYZ networks here, which are managing beliefs, perspectives and ideologies. It feels like they have more of the same type of convoluted advantages which you described in your chat message at 1am, but different to those ones (perhaps working in other, ‘different’ types of convoluted ways). I engage with religions now, and the way in which these autopilot templates are used to get people to conform to or react against the different religions, or set up “offshoots / new branches” of them. Next I connect to writers such as Freud and Jung, and I become aware of currents of thought that flow through time, and people being propelled to agree or disagree with them, then of conflicts and cross-currents being set up. I connect to what feel like fads and movements, eg this type of therapy or that type of meditation – these seem to last for a time, and then be replaced by something else or changed. It feels like people are being subtly nudged one way or another over years and decades, particularly the “conductors” / people who other people follow. As an example of this, I connect to Freud’s views on the experiences of incest which many of his patients seem to have reported, and him changing his mind / saying they must all be making it up because there are too many of them reporting these experiences and it’s their own suppressed wishes (for example, to have sex with their father) rather than something which is really happening. I become aware of sets of associated timelines relating to specific areas of thinking over time / throughout the past. For example, I connect to what feel like ongoing schools of thought / ways in which things are done – “this is how to do a specific type of therapy / hypnosis, or this is how to build a house (eg using asbestos)”. Then I see ripples at specific points, like stones being dropped in, which seem to represent new books being written or new discoveries being made, which then change the timelines from that point onwards so that (some / many / most, depending on the change) therapists or hypnotists adopt different approaches, or different materials are used in buildings etc. I see new timelines starting, which seem to relate to “new” ways of doing things, eg therapy / hypnosis, or at other times it seems to be old ways of doing things which haven’t been used for some time and have been revived / given a different name or “spin”. It feels like this system works to “set up” events so that people encounter specific timelines / come across and are influenced by / react against or adopt different types of thinking / ways of doing things. I have the impression of something almost like a complicated weaving machine, with people being moved in and out of or through these different unfolding timelines, as the glass beads / trt’s and associated “thinking management templates” propel them in different ways. Next I get that there are some people being kept away from certain timelines or people / books associated with them / which are presenting specific ideas. It’s like there’s some kind of needs analysis going on for objectives in relation to each person / timeline – this feels like it should be going on continuously, and confirming at each moment that the correct progression has been chosen, but it’s as if everything’s already pre-defined and if this kind of calculation “is” happening, it’s entirely off the radar, in some kind of hidden space. This / the system which I’m aware of now is more like something which is already pre-defined, and is “active” / doing things and making calculations, but also doesn’t feel “complete” at this stage. Now it feels like there are some kind of engines interacting with the trt’s of everyone who’s involved with a specific ‘timeline’ or is predicted as potentially being involved with it – but these engines seem to be influencing people ‘from the past’, and it’s like they’re focused on the integrity of the timeline (making sure each timeline continues for as long as it’s supposed to, so that it can have the desired effects by people doing things in specific ways in specific circumstances at specific times) but it also feels like the machines are focused on the personal objectives in relation to each person in the EAAS, and working to maintain them in the right trt’s / keep steering them towards a future target version of themselves. So these engines seem to be influencing people from the past, tweaking things here and there or making more coordinated / intrusive adjustments, to ensure that everything proceeds the way it’s supposed to. I get that technological progress (eg that of specific “preferred” SNV companies, who are being given advantages over other, non-SNV companies) is also being managed and controlled by some of these engines, which makes me think about the technological slowdown here in the EAAS. I see a cat’s cradle of interconnections stretching from these machines, which are active in the past and influencing through time, to current events and other past events which happened since the machines were “created” – it’s not clear yet exactly how they are created, but it feels sort of like what we found when there were shit sets generating new cells of memory with processors inside them, to meet increased demand – it’s like they’re automatically generated whenever some overseeing system, monitoring the progression of SNV objectives through time and making predictions about the future, detects that they’re needed. It feels like no major changes happen in the EAAS without these machines / processors knowing about it and being involved in it, since they appear to be involved in all the progression of different ideologies and perspectives over time, eg “immigrants are bad and stealing people’s jobs”, or “austerity is necessary to balance the budget”, or other perspectives which could contribute to the balance of power / the people who are in charge at a specific point in history and can make changes on behalf of many other people. So these machines seem to be driving changes in thinking / new products or ways of doing things etc in society, and sometimes it’s like they switch off for a while, then restart at a pre-defined point and “resurrect” something that was done in the past. I just had the example of the inquisition representing psychiatry and the benefits assessments, so it’s like different “means” to impact people in the same way, which started at different points in history but can be used to build up and worsen broadly similar trt’s. Also, the people who were put through the original inquisition could then be set up to encounter psychiatry here and or have the benefits assessments, to continue the accumulation of these inquisition-related traumas. The same machines seem to be driving different kinds of broadly similar or related changes in different cultures / changes which are “tailored” to how that society currently is / thinks, some of which could be more extreme than others, depending on what that particular culture was “ready” to implement. This for example allows them to compare the changes being made / ways of doing things being implemented in many different contexts, and analyse them all / compare the changes and come up with ideas to make one or the other “better” in terms of achieving SNV objectives, then prompt a key person to “come up with” the idea to do this / what the machines want them to do. It feels like specific people are “earmarked” / chosen to push specific reforms – as an example of this I connect to the guy who came up with the bedroom tax / benefits assessments in the UK, and it’s as if these people can be very finely controlled by the overseeing machines to present information / ideas in exactly the right way so that others (eg other decision-makers) will agree with them, and the changes will then be implemented – I see all the glass beads / trt’s relating to all these people moving in unison / sort of “rippling” as they encounter the information they’re supposed to agree (or disagree) with, and it’s as if these “earmarked” key people are used as levers who are fundamental to making the changes which these machines want to happen in a specific culture / area. I become aware of specific groups of people being targeted, eg by legislation or changes in a specific company, and it feels like they were manoeuvred to be part of that group / work at that company in the first place, so that they could then be impacted by changes which this system already knew it was going to make. Next I get that everyone has a trajectory or set of trajectories which is being monitored and choreographed the way this system wants it to be – this seems to relate to factors like income, quality of life, interactions, home environment etc. I get that for each person, some actions are rewarded and some are punished – it feels like an ongoing punishment and reward (reprogramming) system. Now I get that rewards and punishments can also be delivered to specific groups of people, so that even if you yourself haven’t done anything which would trigger the reward / punishment / reprogramming system, you can still be strongly influenced by it, just from being part of a specific group or class of people from this system’s perspective, which this system likely manoeuvred you to be part of in the first place. Now it feels like the reward / punishment system can change and become more or less aggressive / stringent / reactive at specific times (even randomly), and that it can also react to the symbolic resonance of things which people or groups do, and can react to these in different ways, depending on what type of symbolism it’s chosen to react to, out of a range of possibilities. More and more, it just feels like excuses for this system to do whatever it likes to whoever it likes, whenever it likes. The seemingly random alteration in aggressiveness reminds me of what I’ve often experienced with the mindloops – I’m doing something which doesn’t seem to trigger them, and then it suddenly switches from one minute, hour or day to the next, for no apparent reason at all. There seem to be TXYZ shit delivery systems associated with specific people, places and groups which have dormant shit and can activate literally at any time, and begin to deliver effects. It almost feels like it’s been done in a deliberately random way, to keep people off balance / not knowing what is going to happen next. I engage with what feel like pre-defined scripts for specific conversations, and “spikes” of trauma impacting one person or the other at a specific moment, to get them to change the subject / forget something / remember something or react in a particular way to something which has / hasn’t been said.
    • Megan January 24, 2020 at 2:30 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshI read Clive’s recent update at work during break and something interesting happened shortly after break was over. So, I have mentioned before the peer-auditing process we do to help each other improve our work and processes, and the selection of what area to audit is completely random by drawing a card out of a bin. Well, one thing my supervisor stipulated is that we are supposed to find one waste in the process, and if we can’t we were to call my supervisor over, and he would observe and help find one. Well, the girl didn’t observe a waste, so she called my supervisor over and they both watched for a while. Well, they found one waste, I had to recheck some settings in some screens I had previously looked at for another setting, but the whole time the girl was there, even before she had called over my supervisor (who I would usually feel very hostile/defense/on edge about, this is steadily improving,) I felt on cornered and self-conscious, and felt worst after she called my supervisor over and they identified a waste in the process. Ever since they started this process it has felt like a ‘slave master cracking the whip’ kind of thing. I mean I can see benefits of the auditing system but there is a part of me that absolutely hates it (this has gotten better in the last couple weeks, but this incident kind of surprised me.) It’s like they are trying to beat the humanity out of us and make us into automatons. This concerns me because I’m afraid I’m going to snap at my boss. Reading the focus two times, I connect with feelings of bitterness, exhaustion and resentment. Earlier this evening I was reflecting on the fact that I am a copy of someone else who lives outside of this reality, and given the interest and intensity that I have with these focuses now I assume or am hoping that my original self is helping to resolve this mess. With that in mind, I feel resentful as the copy being stuck having to do what she/it has done or is doing, of being unable to be an individual, unable to chose and have no freedom or free will to do what I want to do, and I feel sorry for feeling this way. I remember how intense and draining and lonely my trauma-releases have been. How absolutely no one I around me knows or cares or understands what I am dealing with, that I have been through and how hard and painful it can be at times. No support or understanding or sympathy and recovering is a bitch. Even when I am exhausted I can’t/don’t stop working on my issues and trying to deepen my awareness internally. I noticed at work my mind isn’t always with body at times, or with me in the present moment when I need it. It’s only when I am out of work, alone or in a small, relaxed group of people, do I really feel whole, but still my mind is still away in a sense because doing focuses and expanding my sensitivities and awareness is far more interesting than anything society/culture has to offer in here. I remember all the plastic bags, metal and paper we throw out at work even through we recycle paper and aluminum and steel. We are so focused on our work or burnt out to care whether we toss this in the garbage or not, I’ll be honest even I barely care which I know is bad. Remembering all this I get the impression that it is not a simple matter of getting out of here and shutting this monstrosity down, but that it will be operational for awhile while we sort out, deal with and correct all the things that have happened that is fucking us over outside of this place. I’m reminded of my intense demand or intention to get out of here or get away. It’s been reflected in my relationships and personal interactions here in the past. The moment I was yelled at or hurt in anyway (there was often no empathy, understanding or forgiveness in these instances,) I would mentally and emotionally shut them out, give them the cold shoulder or leave/run away to a new group of friends and/or family to make a better life for myself. But the better life never happened, it was always the same old thing and I’d end up running away again to a new group of people and the same pattern would repeat itself. This is kind of what played out at my last job. This has frustrated me greatly in the past and I never understood why I would do this or could never fix the problem, even though I don’t know what that is but I always assumed it was my fault. Sometimes I wasn’t even the one who would do it. People would just drift away or leave automatically. I remember a couple times I had told a counselor, and a lightworker about some personal and painful issues I didn’t know how to deal with or who to turn to and both of them reacted poorly to the point that I stopped seeing them. It’s has frustrated me how piss poor any form of ‘approved’ help is. It’s really pisses me off that we have to pay a complete stranger who has no connection or experience with us and our lives to just have someone ‘listen.’ I realize that a lot of the violence and disrespect in TV/movies/video games/etc has been a major turn off for me. I’m very out of touch with society, and for so long I’ve felt like this arrogant rebel thinking I was protesting, hiding away or even getting angry/rioting against these things without any knowledge or understanding. Something feels off reflecting on all this and on Clive’s comment about the population numbers, because with all the civil-rights movements and protests and anger and pain and the death in the news things here should have changed, but reflecting even on my faint and limited knowledge of history, conditions here have barely budged. I sense a fluffy/gel-like cushion/barrier between what is going on here and what people want, and what is going on up there in the sky. I also realize all of our governments, even democracy-based ones, are a hoax to give us the illusion that we have power or a choice or can make a difference or change things, but we can’t. Going to bed after all of this, I felt suction cup-like cap upon my head with a long tube coming off the top of my head.
    • Clive January 22, 2020 at 4:46 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshUPDATE/extension to the above: INTERESTING HACKING DETAILS OF CURRENT SHIT Update from Tom which is describing in great detail the scale as well as the sophistication of the functioning of current shit: After finishing my last email update to you, I do the ‘Facilitating trauma releases’ exercise you put up, then the latest focus ten times. I begin to see something like glass beads moving around on some giant, complicated framework, and it reminds me of ‘The Glass Bead Game’ by Hermann Hesse: “The plot revolves around a game (the Glass Bead Game) that requires expertise in all fields of science, art, music, literature, history to win. There is a entire subset of Castalia that is solely devoted to perfecting their skill at the game. The rules are vague and complex and as readers we’re not really meant to know the specifics other than that it is complicated, beautiful and incredibly challenging. To win the game is akin to achieving a state of perfection or bliss – seeing the interconnectivity of everything in life. Knecht dedicates himself to the game, goes through many trials of faith and ultimately wins and then goes on to become Magister Ludi. The story incorporates aspects of eastern and western philosophy.” https://www.quora.com/What-is-Hesses-The-Glass-Bead-Game-novel-about So Knecht, the protagonist of the story, could represent me or someone else in a VR who was given a sort of pre-made ‘puzzle’ / challenge to master, which could then relate to this shit, so that when they solved the puzzle, they could then be converted into an AI which would oversee and help to develop this system. Then “seeing the interconnectivity of everything in life” feels like “enlightenment”, but also a kind of piss-take that could relate to some shit which connects many different things here as part of delivering or maintaining shit As I continue the focus, I see the framework ‘fleshing out’ as I become aware of more and more of it. First it begins to look three-dimensional, then eventually it feels omnidimensional / like it’s spread across many different dimensions, and also omnidirectional. It also feels organic and like it’s growing and changing all the time. I see the beads moving around from one place to another, and it feels to me like the beads are the ‘trt’s’ from different past lives or people’s original forms, which are being deployed into specific combinations and structures / ‘organised’ in a way which most accurately reflects the SNV’s objectives It now feels like this is moving ‘through time’ too, not that it’s merely four-dimensional (it seems to have more dimensions than that) and updating as time goes on. It also seems to exist in the future, as if the future has already been planned out and there are prospective / ‘will exist at this moment’ future trt’s existing at different points in the future. So I have the sense of a timeline covering many lives in the past which is also focused on the present and the future. It’s as if everyone’s being guided along a specific progression which corresponds to the SNV’s objectives, and this guiding seems to be being done by the trt’s / glass beads continuously moving around But it’s not exactly like a timeline as it’s not ‘chronological’ in a way, like a straight line. It’s more like it’s everywhere, in the future as well as the present and the past. I get that the ‘Glass Bead Game’ which I’m seeing relates to all the Tom’s, so 20,971 or however many. Then there seem to be other ‘Glass Bead Games’ which relate to other people and those people being reprogrammed / gradually altered in relation to the SNV’s objectives. It’s like each game is focused on 20,971 people who are all versions of each other
    • Clive January 22, 2020 at 2:10 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into Flesh11th March: Latest update and focus is here: 18th Feb: Latest update & focus is >>HERE
    • Clive January 22, 2020 at 12:48 pm on Anomalous Human Vision, Eye Sight Zooming & Freeze Framing Experiences DescribedHi Peter, well, as we are all copies of a high tech multi world/planet population now being 'simulated' as living on a 'shit' low tech single world such that a lot of peoples 'experiences' of many different types here a) just don't add up/don't make sense while b) in many instances are also difficult to figure out i.e. what 'science fiction' type scenario can you imagine that your 'original' version must have experienced that would have resulted in your specific freeze frame type experiences here Peter?!?!?!
    • Peter Smith January 22, 2020 at 7:21 am on Anomalous Human Vision, Eye Sight Zooming & Freeze Framing Experiences DescribedI have had one episode of freeze frame vision. While walking and looking around as normal, nothing happened. I had to go and visit my mother and found that rapid head movements resulted in freeze frame. I would be looking straight ahead and need to look left or right rapidly. I had to wait a few seconds while the images became normal time. This made driving difficult. It lasted for two days. The episode seemed to end while I was working on the PC. I was hit by this sudden and very strong dizzy spell. I was holding the desk with all my strength to stop from falling off the chair. This lasted about 1 minute. It all stopped as suddenly as it had started. Any ideas ?
    • Megan January 22, 2020 at 3:03 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshRe: Clive "Updated/best Focus + I’m busy doing ‘business’ accounts UUuhAAAAH!!!" When I first read this focus about half way through the words seemed to fragment in my head like the picture on a television screen when the signal is being interrupted, causing the video to distort through frames and the audio to skip. My head has felt bogged down and I have felt lethargic at times. It has been off and on since the new focus has come out. I’m reading a book on indigenous spirituality on have had trouble reading to the point where I would re-read sentences two to three times must so what I read would stick. I’m still having issues putting time and attention towards things I want to do, that all my time and energy are diverted elsewhere. I have this extreme focus or sensitivity towards other people and whether they need help or not, even if it is over the simplest things that they can do on their own I am always asking if they need help or something is wrong, and I know this habit gets on my roommate’s nerves, not to mention my co-workers. It drives me nuts because it’s not like these people are helpless and invalid. Feeling into these feelings of wanting to be helpful and supportive, I get ‘we don’t need your help.’ At this I am left wondering what the hell I am here for then. On the other hand though, when I am working with a team of people and have been given clear instructions and documentation on how to do something I still feel doubtful and insecure. For example, at work the other day, I was working in an area where I had to unbox and build items that would later be loaded into a rack used to control electronic signs. Well, I was still in training and there was a part on the cart that I had never had to unbox before and even though my standard operating procedure said to unbox everything except the power supply, I felt lost/thoughtless/unsure about it so I asked the technician assistant if I had to unbox it or not (sometimes I don’t know about this area. Nothing is really set in stone and things seem to be constantly changing or in flux.) While I didn’t quite feel the self-conscious, ‘you dumbass’ kind of feelings I usually get when I ask stupid, obvious questions, I still got the impression that he was fed up with the question. It’s like I can’t do anything without someone giving me a verbal confirmation or reassurance that what I read or had been told is right. Honestly, my world still feels so closed off and so small. I have little to no creativity or thinking outside of what I am told to think or do. I feel like a robot or a doll who needs commands/input from others just to do something, and even then it has to be done their way. I feel very logical/linear/one-track minded and that all of this seems to be closing in on me. Still have a tendency to ignore/repress/deny those things that tend to bug be or make me feel back. This has actually cleared up quite a bit. I realize that I have no interest in the job I have, or any job I have ever had, and none of them have ever been what I wanted to do. I noticed at work that all the issues I had regarding people I trusted or relied on that I projected into and played out through my stories are actually being projected onto my co-workers and it is helping me resolve these things faster. I noticed that a part of me wanted to know why people were behaving the way they were and why they were treating each other like shit. I get the impression that people were acting all wrong and it was this change or behavior that I didn’t understand that got me to investigate or try to do something about it. I still feel some skepticism towards spiritual issues. I’m becoming more away of certain non-physical things, but it is still like my monkey mind still needs undeniable evidence that this is indeed real and not some foolish/delusional fantasy I created to comfort myself. And that’s another thing. The more I try to talk about spirituality with other people the more I feel they think I’m talking about some figment of my imagination or they dismiss it or they thing I’m talking about whatever they are interested in, in my terms. I did the focus before going to bed, woke up sometime last night to images of 3D blocks moving around in space and it reminded me of the defragging process on a computer. Things are steadily getting better.
    • Clive January 18, 2020 at 2:07 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Shalin/Everyone . . . bit of an update . . . 'bottom line . . . it's all still 'on going' . . . ' Currently, we are still dealing with various yet more data cloud maintain personal data 'shit/trauma' versions. BUT, in that I've been 'having to do' my accounts/tax return for the end of this month, you might find the following interesting and particularly with respect to what this specific page is about/presenting!!! We had a 'cloud' maintain/block access/release of shit/trauma data version in the last few days that was focused on the criticisers/key people (i.e leaders) of none SNV culture 'key' peoples 'SMALLER' sub group of about 350 people, which 'now' seems to have been dealt with!!! However the next version that then kicked in, on checking I found was messing with the full 350,000 set of CR/KP . . . and on myself and Tom doing scans for this set we became aware that it's an 'ACCOUNTING' tree version . . . I've been puzzled that in our computer/data age everyone still has to keep and or print out all accounts/invoices/receipts etc onto bits or paper i.e. everything is still being recorded on 'BIT'S OF TREES' which also fits with the bottom/last part of the above page in that the 'Birth Certificate' i.e. a document directly referring to a specific person is also issued on 'paper' (as a WAREHOUSE STORAGE RECEIPT - haha), while all 'significant' aspects of your life are also recorded on bit's of tree too!!!! For example, University and College degrees/certificates too!!! Now, I've mentioned 'splits' on lots of pages here. Such that regular readers here will know that we are all subtle/spirit beings whom divide/split asexually to 'by and large' generate/propagate other versions of ourselves. Now, as this place/the EAAS was designed specifically to FO the entire none SNV population here AND most if not all efforts related to this are focused on the CR/KP . . . 'AND' you might have noticed that our earth population has pretty much always been expanding such that at the moment we've between 7/8 billion people here. So, if this place is 'really' just focused on FO just the CR/KP population then WHO ARE THE REST!!! In checking it turns out that the EAAS MVOS is and has been for a long, long time making more and more duplicates of the CR/KP. So, out of the 7/8 billion we have here now only about 6% of the earth population is made up of SNV people while ALL OF THE REST are actually duplicates of the 350,000 base CR/KP sub population i.e. likely everyone of you reading this has another 20,971'ish' other versions of yourself here. I.e. 94% of the current population is made up of just 350,000 subtle beings!!!! So, the smaller CR/KP sub group that other recent shit has been protecting which was of just 350 CR/KP was actually 'really' protecting 359x20,971'ish' in total!!! So, it's no wonder that we've been having problems trying to get access/hack the most recent/current shit as A) it's only protecting the data of 350,000 people (rather than 7ish billion (it'll be much easier to do this)) while then also likely confusing things with respect to 'variation' factors related to any different individual CR/KP's copies current incarnations race/culture/ethnicity/religion/status/job/personal circumstances etc etc’!!!! Bottom line, our specific MVOS EAAS version isn't functioning as any other 'normal' FOR ALL OF THE REST MVOS within the entire data system.