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    • Clive March 3, 2021 at 1:13 am on How Anomalous Is Our Sun & Solar System Compared To Most Others?I'm not sure how to respond to the above Tommy, I found more evidence re designed reality BUT as the designed earth, moon and sun which I'd already written about somewhere here (there are 600 'pages' average length likely 6+ pages of A4 on this specific website) fit's with the extra that I found then I deliberately put it all together as a collection of evidence down the same lines. So you've half the page with new stuff, but half I'd already written about is from elsewhere all now on one page?!?! This page on the other hand, at least 80+% of it I've not written about anywhere as it's completely new, although I've added in some I've mentioned else where because it's A) directly related to and fits in with the new stuff on this page and B) I've also written things into this page specifically to frame/set the scene/provide some context for the next one too!??!?! . . . and . . . amazingly, I manage to actually write some pages despite that our deranged reality seems to actually NOT WANT ANYTHING WRITTEN AT ALL!!!! FYI on my own private 'work' site (where I write pages that appear here), some people with access to that are no longer able to leave comments/feedback at all, these are people that are registered users of the site too (a few even have top clearance as administrators), so, until about 2 weeks ago we had no problems at all there, since then 'reality' has been gradually shrinking/sabotaging all my sites and my and others ability to write and post pages/comments things here and on my other sites too!!!! Basically, with respect to the barrage of fake realty sabotage efforts impacting my other sites, you're actually pretty lucky you can leave a comment here Tommy!!!
    • Tommy March 3, 2021 at 12:08 am on How Anomalous Is Our Sun & Solar System Compared To Most Others?Clive I know it’s hard for you to write but it feels like you repeat a lot you already stated. The page before this had stuff you were writing about in 2017 the distance things. The explanation of people leaving you gave somewhere else maybe one or two updates before. Yeah the whole part about our solar system was decent but if I compare the last pages with your 2017 2018 stuff it feels of lesser quality I know you explained you get fucked with to prevent writing so I don’t wanna be mean or maybe something is translating the pages not like how you wrote it. Maybe target what’s preventing you to write like you did in 2017 am I the only one who’s noticing a weird decline in basically everything in my life? On the outside it looks a tad better but if I have to live 30 more years like this I will pick up smoking and drinking and drugs again to get it over with a bit sooner. Did some of the old focusses most feelings of shame inadequacy I wanna hide away. Got rid of the Ukrainian but he’s stalling how hard can it be to pick up your shite and move on. I have been doing enough charity I have been giving enough hospitality and he’s taking a piss by blatantly taking up so much space. if I didn’t knew any better I’d almost say it’s like I had a Tom procedure to chase me out my own place. Like ow let’s see how much useless old electronic shit we can cram in my tiny apartment and my storage. While feeding me unhealthy food and indulging my worst habits making me very dependent. While giving me a fuckton of bad emotions that fueled my drinking habits and smoking even more. I decided to once again stop smoking drinking start eating healthier move my butt to get into shape but it feels impossible. Also I was looking for another focus and couldn’t manage to find it. I remember you wrote something about Asians who were dropped on a ice planet and it was something about entranced enthralled be made in to unaware automated puppet. I’m being a whiny twat but eh list of focusses to kick my arse in gear. Plenty of other questions but won’t bother you with that better to feed it into the focusses and find out myself. Maybe also a list of the focusses I have to look for I almost thought the sim made some old pages of you disappear so check that also.
    • Clive March 2, 2021 at 3:14 pm on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceHaha, yea, a woman wanting to be blind and when blinding herself whom then feels 'free', makes sense to me as in certain circumstances I would close my eyes when 'sensing' in alternate ways as 'visual sight' (at times) is a serious distraction. Also, different animal forms have different numbers of eye's (some actually have many, many eyes not just 2) 'plus' some animals also have more than one type of eye/eyes too (maybe to sense different types of light and or under different conditions), so if you do a search for images of "people with multiple pupils or irises" and also 'people with irises of different colours' you'll find quite a lot of these.
    • Xin Ying Han March 2, 2021 at 8:20 am on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceI never thought of that angle before! I remember there was a big fiasco with a woman that blinded herself on purpose too! Maybe she interfaced herself to creatures that relied on other senses instead of sight. https://www.mirror.co.uk/news/real-life-stories/i-blinded-myself-drain-cleaner-7568340
    • Clive February 26, 2021 at 2:06 pm on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceCould very well be Xin, although the opposite is even more noticeable i.e. we have people here that react so strongly to having too many limbs that some elect to have an arm or leg or both or all of them amputated i.e. these are people that are simulating someone that was interfaced to a snail, slug and or snake type species, i.e. a species type that didn't have two arms or two legs in the first place.
    • Xin Ying Han February 26, 2021 at 6:10 am on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceI was wondering whether anomalies such as those of us that interfaced with creatures that had multiple arms and legs are translated into skin conditions like cysts and lipomas. Been watching some videos by Dr pimple popper and the patients that she attend to usually have growths on their body which kind of remind me of an arm or a leg that had been amputated off.There was even a lady that had a cyst on her head that hardened to resemble a horn.
    • Clive February 19, 2021 at 1:53 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationHi Anne, I've moved your comment to the page that at least attempted to give some context to our current 'experiment' circumstances, I've noticed that despite that I made an effort to indirectly give the current 'pandemic phase' some realistic deranged 'experiment' context, pretty much everyone then leaves comments on any other page/anywhere whilst seemingly ignoring this one!!! In other words the 'experiment' we are all living within doesn't like this page one bit!!! I'd advise that everyone read the page above again and start to try and get their heads around this page as it, at least attempts to provide some realistic 'pandemic' context. Oracle Girl has amazingly managed to give absolutely no background context to our real selves and or our original circumstances?!?! I.e. that we here are all subtle spirit/soul being forms i.e. WE ARE NOT PHYSICAL, although we are also each a copy of someone else supposedly living out a duplicated life that represents someone else somewhere else. I'm a copy of a subtle being that (relatively speaking) spent virtually no time as a physical form. In other words I lived most of the time as a subtle being in the subtle environment, while also interacting with other subtle beings within the subtle environment too. However, most in the original population were interfaced to some hermaphrodite animal form (i.e. a physical animal form that was both male and female in gender terms) to have a physical life experience, this is why I wrote a page here giving the evidence of our population originally being interfaced to physical hermaphrodite forms i.e. a physical form that has both male and female gender characteristics/organs. I pointed out that if we are all simulating someone that had both male and female characteristics (because they were hermaphrodite) then this means that all females AND males had an equal chance of simulating someone that became pregnant. I.e. if we were all originally 'REALLY' a hermaphrodite population then this means that a fair percentage of males here would end up presenting symptoms of being pregnant. I then presented the science research evidence that showed that even scientists have noticed that males in our population (depending on the country) present some symptoms (if I remember correctly) between about 25% and 70% of the male population of being pregnant!!! So, a subtle population that (on the whole) spent most of their time as a subtle being, whilst then also at times occasionally choosing to interface to some two gendered hermaphrodite animal form to have a physical life/culture experience. Contrast this to here!!! We have no choice, in fact the majority of people here are so 'physicalised' that they'd likely think that what I'm writing here is crazy/mad. That's the whole point of this place is to convince everyone they are nothing more than this physical male or female human form, i.e. to have everyone/as many people as possible unaware of themselves as a free living subtle being. So, oracle girl is describing the 'new age' version, which is that because within the original environment there were disasters that caused entire populations to be FO (I'm pretty sure (I kid you not) there was some 'Zombie' conversions), so the EAAS was setup to use us here as 'real' people templates to update the zombified and or other FU population's back to how they were before they were zombified/FU. Except this was just a cover story for something much darker i.e. (to me) it's designed to FO everyone here and to use the worst FU/compliant versions of people here to update us here and then the original population to the most FU/compliant i.e. e n s l a v e d versions of 'us'!!!
    • Clive February 19, 2021 at 1:03 pm on Healing Sessions & Absent Healing Requests/ServiceHi Han, just today I realised that I'd not had any e-mails at all for 3/4/5 days. So, on checking I've had e-mails just magically disappeared for at least a few days usually they'd be stuck in some sub folder on my server area BUT this time they've just disappeared!!! On checking my e-mail server setup and leaving a test comment and also sending an e-mail to all accounts from one account I seem to be getting e-mails now!!! Anyway I've just e-mailed you what you should have got a while ago!!!
    • Han Xin Ying February 18, 2021 at 7:59 pm on Healing Sessions & Absent Healing Requests/ServiceHi clive! I sent an email requesting to sign up for the service 3 days ago. Hope you are feeling better now!
    • Anne Collins February 15, 2021 at 7:37 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances Speculation2nd attempt: Hi Clive, (I’m re-writing this to be more vague in certain references). It’s been a long time since I’ve done some focus – my partner has just joined in the remote WSW team and I have been re-reading Set 9. A lot has been updated. So I’m struck by how the targets focuses cover how events since March have lead to different ways of living/interacting. I’m now terrified / panicked of the controlling scenarios and I’m young enough to have some time before been invited to have something introduced to me which is likely not healthy. This fear of not wanting to comply, then the consequences of being outside society / or worse put somewhere. So all this is likely to happen, but my psyche is struggling, and then there is the feeling of being clueless as to what to do, and in fact been managed to not pay attention, and then freak out when I do pay attention. So I see I’m being scripted to be triggered by the fear of all this as terror – it’s an attack. And I’m also seeing the pattern of just how difficult it is to figure out how to ‘save oneself’. Reading the intents has calmed me down a bit. I’m hoping the wsw are still looking at different ways people are are triggered. It feels like I’m can only manage calm enough to do day to day things and not ‘figure-out’ some kind of plan (today that feels so abstract that it can’t be grasped). I also wanted to check something with you: Oracle Girl ‘a Jaqueline Fay Hobbs. I’ve been listening/reading to her stuff trying to figure out if she might actually be someone from the future who is trying to help with transmitting pure love healing. I watched a live stream of her explaining ‘the end of the death space’ I wondered if she’d realised that she realised heaven shouldn’t be there along with karma. And yes that was the case, but then I had to check back with the logic that any aspect of this virtual reality shouldn’t be here. Oracle Girl’s explanation was that the ‘neg high frequency beings’ are leaving but that anyone who decides to have that ‘thing’ will be more enmeshed to those neg beings. Then as that death space and neg beings are leaving, it will also pull those with affected out of this existence and into another reality. Effectively a lot of people dying, but that those who are purifying and don’t have the ‘thing’ can hold on and stay here on earth as it rises in frequency. There are other parallel stories of this planet being able to rise out of these challenges. You can see why I might have hoped we had a positive scenario. Something else to ‘test against’ the living in a simulated world logic: Oracle girl explained that those left on this planet would not have to go through reincarnation but remain in the body and then embody the multi-dimensional self. I was expecting mention of the soul/subtle body being free to return to source. I just didn’t like the feel that unwitting people being affected (doh, aren’t we all already, and this is like a mirror for what this represents). I could see questions being asked in the chat section, some grumbles because this ‘scenario’ seems unfair. Even though this world was mentioned as a matrix reality it seems to be one overlaid with a foreign ‘non-source’ energy that trying to take over. Although this lady is very bright and has lots of perception – can her version of events really be actually happening. There’s no mention that all of this is a simulation and virtually almost everything is stage-ands we are props to experiments. At least it’s thrown me back into reading your stuff. I was able to read some sections pretty well but had to read out loud some things. I did get a better nights sleep. I found a comment of yours from October – I’m trying to get my head round being duplicates of duplicates and this is even more complex than some of the things you commented on in 2017.
    • Nina February 14, 2021 at 10:47 am on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceWhile reading this page, I thought of different cultures having stories of dragons, bears, or wolves stealing or eating the sun or moon.  That or the sun and the moon were quarreling: https://www.timeanddate.com/eclipse/solar-eclipse-myths.html In such stories, the earth residents make noise to scare away these creatures or make them spit out the sun or moon.  The noise makes me think of the population using defenses / war machines / artillery etc to drive away invaders / invasive foreign spacecraft / space probes from other worlds (i.e. colonizers) I feel my head is being messed up as I type.  I'm sure it's not just because I have adult ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder).  
    • Han Xin Ying February 14, 2021 at 7:41 am on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceWow! First post of 2021! Hope the sim is not messing with you as much now clive! This post kinda unlocked a vague memory of mine where i woke up from a dream and felt raw fear like none of this is real something must have happened in the dream cause the sim seemed to have erased it from my memory
    • Stijn February 10, 2021 at 8:19 pm on Deducible Logistic Problems/Anomalies of Interfacing 7+ Billion Individuals to a 2nd ‘Matrix’ Reality Defined ‘Fake’ BodyIt reminds me of a 3D designer looking at the object he's modeling while displaying the polygons. E.g. https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-n18TsnYW8jE/VxWRE5CQGII/AAAAAAAAD3E/cXV9-A_qw7w-ZGqyDd86LCW8SM_Fxt3-wCKgB/s640/BMW_Concept_D_Cava_Polygon_model.jpg
    • Anne Collins February 9, 2021 at 9:00 pm on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceThank you for this article - It is very entertaining. I said to my partner the other day - isn't it interesting that once 'arabic numbers' had been designed, Pythagoras could discover 'the square of the hypotenuse is equal to the sum of the square of the other 2 sides' For some people that is 'sowhat', but I could appreciate Pythagoras being stunned by it. There was something the Egyptians and then Greeks knew about the curvature of the earth and putting the maths. The planets/asteroids/moons may have specific orbits that follow something similar to original orbit. Uranus is on it's side. Not to mention all the meteorite showers and apparently a planet that blew up...
    • Soulwarrior February 9, 2021 at 8:49 pm on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceThank you 🙂 Been reading EVERYTHING on this website 24/7 for days straight. And will continue doing so until I understand everything 100%. After I have read and understood EVERYHING, I will do the excersises. Nice to see even more material coming up. The more, the better.
    • Clive February 9, 2021 at 5:56 pm on Deducible Logistic Problems/Anomalies of Interfacing 7+ Billion Individuals to a 2nd ‘Matrix’ Reality Defined ‘Fake’ BodySakib, it could be that you're a copy of someone that spent time visually accessing/viewing data i.e. in your case laid out on a grid pattern!!!! Anything that your original form did regularly in 'senses/sensing' terms that's different to what we do, can do or are doing here can result in bizarre/weird sensory, including 'visual' artefacts !!!
    • Clive February 9, 2021 at 5:11 pm on Extensive Intelligently Designed Earth, Moon & Solar System EvidenceNew page up . . . I just noticed that 'wordpress' in making updates and the designers of the theme I'm using are also doing the same, which is likely why the above post (and all my older 'posts') are now all squeezed into a way smaller page width. I've no idea at the moment why this should be happening. BUT it's typical of current circumstances as it might takes weeks or worse months to sort this out (I've already had to do this for other 'theme' problems I've had recently, which actually did take weeks to figure out and correct)!!! For past regulars, please note, I'm still being messed with re 'writing', my head functioning (despite recently being better) has very definitely been degraded and more noticeably when I'm trying to write new pages. It's 'exceptionally annoying!!!! Now, having said that I've another page in pretty decent shape. So, if I've not put up another page in say a month, then could someone leave a comment to remind me I've one almost done!!!
    • Tommy February 2, 2021 at 2:28 am on Many Interplanetary Cultures ALL Now Trading on 1 Single Planet AnomaliesI didn’t leave any comments because I didn’t really see the point since no new focus and you didn’t write any new things I know your stuck in release crap also. Things have been more of the same it’s basically a do over of my mate sleeping on my couch only now instead of my mate filly I have some Ukrainian/Russian named Andrii. I adopted him kinda a couple of months ago. I was trying to be saint Tommy the savior of the lost and the damned I learned my lesson no more helping junkies anyway andrey tagged along with the junkie. I would take the junkie in but he stole my videogames so I kicked him out. Andrii didn’t have place to stay so I let him crash on my couch. Original plan was he would stay until he had enough money to go to his ex in Peru. That was like maybe a month or so it turned into two months which turned into three and now we are going into month four. Like me familiar with psychedelics mostly mushrooms and ayahuasca wants to travel to Peru to become curandero. His ex is also some weird shaman type kind of thing. As day job she’s a doctor specialized in virology So far so good is electrical engineer. He basically picks up shit from the trash and fixes it while doing mostly illegal work in construction. He doesn’t have a working permit and it’s a fucking pain in the ass to get one. First time he didn’t have enough money to travel and we had another lockdown. I was miffed but said fine he actually had enough money but then he was too late again because stricter rules since covid. Now Peru has a travel ban till 14 February but looks like it will be even longer. I have been angry a lot and drinking a lot. It was weird when you wrote something about this clock business he was fucking around with clocks. He tries to be nice and helpful but something is making me be angry with him but I can’t place my finger on it. My ex has been crying a lot on the phone because her debts are so bad she’s considering suicide it stresses me out a lot. I also don’t have a lot of finances so I can’t support her she helped me in the past she keeps falling back on that to guilt me into helping her. I tried to get her spare room rented out since October 2018 it’s impossible to find someone who takes it. I have more of the same issues I already told you about in my older comments. Weird body blocks weird stuff with my spine weird pain in head ears throat chest. The hallucinations the beeping the voices Etc etc etc. Lots of anger lots of things go missing my atm card I just got a new one. I made another friend who also isn’t a friend he reminded me of my old friends but he’s not that nice. It feels like I put a lot in other people and not really see anything back for it. The other friend is a self proclaimed witch it’s weird everything I need somehow ends up with him. I still have mice in my apartment I wanted a cat and somehow this witchy guy ends up with a cat. I have been screaming to the heavens for a new woman and he gets another one who is Brazilian. Reminded me of you. First evening I met him i was looking for a bike and ofc that kid picked up a bike out of nowhere It can’t really properly do focusses because whenever I do that sim hijacks Andrii to shut it down. Witchy kid mostly triggers feelings of envy jealousy as in this would have been me if all this fuckery didn’t happen. Also why tf does he get everything I have been wanting for quit some time effortlessly Andrii triggers feelings of disgust it triggers some weird superiority complex which is weird he knows a lot about technical stuff which I don’t know anything about. He’s a shivaite but he also doesn’t know his myths you know I know my myths and I’m like eh? somehow I feel he’s beneath me he reminds me of all my ex girlfriends I shouldn’t have dated in the first place. I’m also sick of him turning my house into a fucking graveyard of old electrical appliances . It’s like I’m living with some old Soviet dwarf who hoards more shit like a dragon. I swear If you look at my storage you think fucking Smaug hit the rummage sale. I dated a lot of people just for what they could do for me I know bad but I was young and lazy. Speaking about lazy and procrastinating it feels like I can’t do fucking anything. It’s a pain to get out of bed cooking exercising and cleaning my place also has been a massive fucking undertaking since I have so much shit I don’t use or wanna use of wanted to have in the first place. I’m not really the hoarding type nor the materialistic type feels for me that it’s just shit to give me a nice environmental cluster fuck of extra spicy sim shite. My house had the bare necessities I fucking chucked my own microwave in the storage because I don’t use it. Dude builds a whole fucking micro wave oven. Idk releasing stuff has been pretty much in the background just a lot of random anger and more rehashed crap from my teens. The jealousy the anger frustration depression me just wanting to be teen asshole me because I wouldn’t have had any of these problems if I just was a lying stealing conning cunt like I used to be. I feel like somehow I’m so toxic and destructive I shouldn’t even interact with people irl. I can’t whine about you not writing stuff because your mouse and sim massively fucks you with that. I know your swamped with other stuff but maybe send one of you invisible mates to saunter over to me and scope out what in the flying fuck happened and how to remedy sort solve idk suggestions for this new bullshit I’m dealing with. I somehow feel you mates are missing something or didn’t check something properly or didn’t told me something idk something feels massively off and I can’t put my finger on it. Is my Soviet dwarf some dollhouse twat? Is that witch kid Some cunt who takes gets my shite that I put a lot of effort in? Why tf can’t I do anything anymore it’s like your focus six turn into shadow version of yourself is in full gear Ow well enough selfish ranting hope the rest of you aren’t going mental. WTf happened to everyone else no one has been commenting!!!
    • Sakib January 30, 2021 at 10:48 pm on Deducible Logistic Problems/Anomalies of Interfacing 7+ Billion Individuals to a 2nd ‘Matrix’ Reality Defined ‘Fake’ BodyA really weird experience I've had a few times is seeing a grid pattern in my third eye overlaid on whatever I'm looking at with my physical eyes. Maybe this explains DMT visions?
    • Han Xin Ying January 27, 2021 at 6:27 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsAfter doing the exercise, I felt my dreams becoming more vivid and essentially feeling more real than when I am going about my waking life. From what i can gather, it seems that my dreams are actually symbolic of the memories of my original self. Other than that it seems that the sim is also using my dreams to replay different scenarios to generate the same trauma which from what I can tell is : abandonment and betrayal by my loved ones, isolation and loneliness. I even have deja vu of some of my dreams like ‘oh I been in this exact same scenario before’. There also seems to be people in my dream which I have not interacted with in my life that appear in my dreams as well. I feel like i have known them for forever but am unable to find out their names and why they were significant in my life. I also find that in my dreams bits of my house would be melded into the structures I visit in my dreams which is kind of funny as it reminds me of games reusing certain builds in game to cut cost. It also seems to me that I have been given military training as most of my dreams involve missions and a lot of running. I would have repeated dreams of exiting my house from the second floor and jumping from roof to roof to escape from something eg monsters, zombies. Recently I dreamt of myself zooming out of the dream and viewing my dreamscape as a flat disc with grids kind of like a 2D picture of the earth with the latitude and longitude lines on it. I have no idea why my dreams are so vivid as when I talk to people about their dreams it seems they dont get teleported to many locations like i do or have such great detail of their experiences like me. The interesting thing is I get memory wiped after my dreams where i find the details of my dream just slip away after a while my feelings are also more intense too unlike my waking life which feels more toned down.
    • Han Xin Ying January 27, 2021 at 5:53 pm on Emulating a Hunter/Gatherer Exceptionally Varied Early Human Lifestyle & Evolution Supporting Diet!!!Wow thanks for the recipe guide! You should start a series like ‘cooking simulator‘ hahaha! I recently watched a documentary called ‘Chef’s Table ‘ on netflix there was an episode and it was about a Restaurant called Blue Hill and the owner talked about how the nutrients in wheat and corn is essentially destroyed by through processing to increase the shelf life which was shocking to me. As a Food Tech student I these problems are very impt to me. The part about your diet consisting of mostly veggies and even probiotics like cheese reminds me of a book i read last year ‘Cultured: how traditional food feed our microbiome’ which presented a very interesting perspective. The book talked about how intrinsic the bacteria in our gut is with relation to our health and gave an interesting perspective on the over-sanitisation of our world. This is definitely one of the easier posts on your site to read!
    • Han Xin Ying January 19, 2021 at 1:08 pm on Many Interplanetary Cultures ALL Now Trading on 1 Single Planet AnomaliesI kind of had an anomalous experience today when doing an experiment. We set some powder to dry in an air convection oven to calculate the moisture content. There was an increase in the mass of the powder in the crucible which shouldnt happen as the water is supposed to evaporate out.
    • Xin Ying January 18, 2021 at 9:01 am on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationThe part about cats intrigues me since it does explain why there are many cats in neighbourhood areas and it kind of reminds me of a scene in Harry Potter where wizards/ witches use animal forms for intel gathering. Since I live in south east asia there are folktales of cats being able to see spirits and ghosts and even protect their owners from them which I feel may relate to the admin duties you speak of. I was wondering whether cat avatars in the sim were able to talk too as I have read that cats are able to produce a wide range of vocalisations and watched videos where they were able to vocalise words.
    • Xin Ying January 8, 2021 at 6:23 am on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationThats amazing! I cant believe the original versions of us could live such amazing lives! The part about the 30 planets was intriguing because even in ‘No Man’s Sky’ each galaxy consisted about 3-6 planets even though it was a simulation. Most planets would have a typical climate with a radioactive environment with a few being goldilocks planets, ice planets and planets covered in water. It makes me sad that us here are prevented from experiencing that. And the part about you living a life as a cat was so cute! I have a soft spot for cats actually. In my own life people have remarked about how much i act like a cat and when i would show affection to them I realise that I would give them scratches and pets like some crazy cat lady or even rub my face against theirs like a cat.
    • Megan January 6, 2021 at 2:33 am on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationThanks to your examples I’ve been able to figure out that I am simulating a wolf, specifically an omega wolf. I am very hairy to the point I don’t see the point in shaving unless I can remove it with laser surgery. I have also had children question whether I was a girl once they saw my legs. I also have very long and shaggy hair. I prefer eating a fork which is like digging at the ground looking for food or tearing at food with sharp teeth. My canine teeth have been severely worn down due to stress-grinding when I sleep. I remember as a kid being so proud of how long and sharp they were to the point I thought I was a vampire. In video games, I am attracted to characters that represent wolves themselves. Cloud Strife from Final Fantasy VII (he rides a motorcycle named Fenrir and even has a wolf head earring and emblem on a shoulder guard.) Link from the Legend of Zelda series, he is deeply connected to the forests and even transforms into a wolf in the game Twilight Princess. I have an acute sense of hearing and smell. My mother’s dog also looks at me funny. I have often caught him just standing in the middle of the living room just staring at me even when I call him to sit on my lap. My mother has also remarked that he acts strangely around me. I prefer to live in single room/efficiency apartments which is kind of like living in a den. I also prefer to sleep in a nest of pillows and blankets, and usually I am sleeping on my side or my stomach. It is too uncomfortable to sleep on my back. I am attracted to the sound of the violin which sounds like a wolf howling. I believe the Lakota/Nakota/Dakota Indian tribes are simulating packs of wolves. If you listen to Indians singing they even sound like wolves howling. Their ancestors used dogs as pack animals, and putting them on reservations is kind of like putting them in a cage or pound. I also used to ride motorcycle (now I just have a bicycle.) Cars and motorcycles that bunch together on the interstate are known as wolf packs. Motorcycles even sound like wolves growling (or even horses with their thundering hooves.) Evidence I am simulating an omega wolf. Quotes taken from https://www.livingwithwolves.org/portfolio/the-omega/. Omega wolves are at the bottom of the totem pole. “One or many of the wolves will assert themselves over the omega, who flips over onto his back, whimpering in surrender.” I am a bit of a doormat and have always allowed others to walk all over me. People tend to take their stress out and frustrations out on me as well that left me feeling like shit internally (and it was always my gut/solar plexus that hurt. Even in arguments I would quickly surrender to the will of the other person involved. “The alpha pair would never allow the omega male and female to mate, therefore the omegas are not pair-bonded to each other like the alphas.” As much as I want a relationship with another I have always had an aversion to them, or the pairing would feel wrong. I also feel like there was something wrong with me, and that I wasn’t worthy or didn’t deserve it. “He kept his tail tucked, his shoulders hunched and his head lowered as he moved about with uncertainty.” I have hunched shoulders and in the past, would often walk with the head down. In fact, I used to believe doing this would keep me out of trouble or get people to leave me alone. “Over the years that I observed him, Lakota would often approach me and timidly lick my face. During these occasions, I would run my hand down his back through his fur coat. Sadly, his skin was riddled with small bumps and scabs where the other wolves had nipped him, and there were small scars on his muzzle where the fur would not grow back. In dominance displays, a dominant wolf will frequently grab the muzzle of the submissive wolf, as a mother might do to discipline her pups. Lakota’s face bore the marks from such encounters. As I would sit with him, he would begin to relax a little, beginning to trust that I wasn’t going to hurt him. Then, he would take his paw, gently place it on my shoulder, and gaze at me with his sweet, wise, amber eyes. We would sit that way for quite a while. From that moment, I was captivated by him and would forever hold a special place for him in my heart.” It is hard for me to trust others and to let people in. I am still crave socialization despite wanting to be alone. “He must suffer terrible abuse at the hands of the king and court, but he is undeniably loved. Like a jester, the omega is often the one to instigate play and act the fool... Sadly, there were times when Lakota’s playful attitude would backfire. The attention he would draw to himself could sometimes result in a full-on mobbing. As he’d run, we could see him realize that the pursuit was not a game this time. It was painful to watch his hopeful expectations dissolve, fear spring into his eyes, and his entire posture change. Quickly he’d flip over onto his back and yelp in submission while each mid-ranking member of the pack got his digs in.” I like making people happy and I like when they are happy in return, so much to the point that I often make stupid, inappropriate remarks in order to get a laugh or to fit in, and when it all fails I feel awful and embarrassed and afraid to try again. “This was easier with Lakota because he often stood on the fringe, howling, but trying to keep a low profile. With the eight-foot boom microphone in front of me, I’d slowly and quietly approach him in a crawl, careful not to disturb his singing.” I feel more at peace and able to express myself freely when I am alone. When others are around I am quick to shut up and behave. I also have problems with expressing myself or sharing myself with or around others. I will also go along with what they like and agree with what they believe in so long as I have an ‘in’ with the other. Also, actress Tanya Roberts was reported to have died a short time before she actually died, here are two news articles: https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/tanya-roberts-dies-after-early-inaccurate-death-report-153550010.html and https://www.newsbreak.com/news/2138922869821/tanya-roberts-is-dead-at-65-following-premature-death-announcement?s=oldSite&ss=a99
    • Xin Ying January 5, 2021 at 2:22 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsI did exercises 1-3 for the first time today. Overall felt great reluctance to do focus, hard to breath. After finishing I felt a pain in my chest area. Exercise 1b)- Saw a flash of 1010 sequences like the matrix when reading it. Prickling sensation on left side of head preventing me from accessing the information I want to access ( feel like more information would come out if I redo the exercise again). Release in chest area and numbing of a small middle area of my arm. Additionally I felt like ‘energy’ in my body move from the top down like waves. Images of numbers trickling down my neck. When reading ‘sabotage my exploration of myself’ I felt the left side of the back of my head prickle. Exercise 2- heaviness in heart. Felt a grip on my head when I read ‘religious representations’. Trying to focus on reading and taking in the meaning of the words causes a grip in my heart. Exercise 3- Felt a grip on my heart. Started to feel sleepy. My heart felt closed when reading part on ‘intimacy’ which relates to my current life now where I am not able to give my heart to people. Overall I feel I need to do this again because the sim is making it hard to access any information I want to access even when reading sections twice. Thank you for this exercise!
    • Clive January 3, 2021 at 3:36 am on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationHi Xin, strangely I've written this below in the last week or so which is of me accessing the experiences of the person I'm a copy of living in a galaxy scale environment and flying around in my own personal space ship!!!! This original space/multiverse is also a software defined reality too i.e. it's another simulation, likely also pretending that it's real too!!!! My Own Investigations of My Own Past Also, Had Myself Gaining Access To Other Worlds & Planets Because of having a bad piss-taking stammer and speech block, which had myself making a concerted effort to orientate to and become more and more aware of my internal states and inner sensations in attempts to identify everything within my past (i.e. the originating circumstances and situations) that had contributed to my current issues and states had myself at time gaining spontaneous access (at least initially) to what seemed to me to be past life circumstances and incidents that I'd expect of earlier earth historical phases and circumstances. However, in then spending consistent time accessing as many of my past life incidents as possible over a span of time that likely went on for many months a fair proportion of these seemed anomalous to me for various reasons, which I'll try and explain now . . . As a starter, there seemed to be rather a lot of these, as in literally many 100's and possible 1000's of these although as I was only getting scenes of specific defining and or traumatizing incidents/circumstance it is also very possible that at least some of these incidents happened multiple times within some past incarnation'. So. it seemed to me that some traumatizing circumstances definitely repeated both within separate lives as well as within the same life at times too. For example I can remember accessing repeated instances/scenes of my wife/life partner leaving where we lived (maybe to go shopping or visit a friend) BUT she never returns, she just disappears, coincidentally, in this life I've had relationships finish in very bizarre ways too. However, in repeatedly accessing various past life incidents over many, many months (possibly stretching into years) they eventually started to peter out while also then (in some cases) becoming decidedly weird specifically because I then found myself accessing to some specific environments, inclusive of circumstances and incidents relating to at least 4 or 5 very, very different planetary environments. For example, from a surface environment point of view one appeared to be an airless rocky moon, another presented an exceptionally disjointed/weird Salvador Dali type environment inclusive of some of the weird bone looking items presented in his paintings while another presented a stark, seemingly rock only surfaced planet (it didn't seem to have any significant vegetation) although I ended up at a water pool, at which point I found myself entering the pool, swimming underwater which had me gaining access to a large underground cave with a pool/small lake type habitat. However, the 4th world that I become aware of was of a more normal earth like suburban housing type town/community place except I seemed to be trapped within a specific house by 2 small seemingly deranged flying drone robot type minders, which I seemed to have to figure out how to disable before I could leave. In that the above were generally (both individually as well as in an overall sense) EXCEPTIONALLY weird, whilst in some cases, being a combination of scary as well as somewhat disjointed/odd, I eventually realised (very likely months after having this experience) that because technological developments within our earth planet version have been massively slowed down compared to the original environment, then these specific places, circumstances and experiences I very strongly suspected were actually part of some sort of virtual reality personal security training program mixed in with a variety of experiences of different worlds/planets environments and habitats. Over time, this explanation makes the most sense to me because I seemed to be put into some very, very different physical planet/world environments as well as in some cases, some very difficult circumstances, lets say (sort of) under 'controlled conditions', implying that this was likely part of having myself accumulating experiences and or useful knowledge of different worlds/planet environments while also being put into some very different specific experiences and circumstances (including being put through some sort of house arrest scenario) likely as part of some training program intent on preparing helping myself to deal with different circumstances whilst familiarising myself with some different worlds environments too!!!! Also, the above are the 'experiences' I engaged with relatively early on the timeline of the person I am supposedly a copy of here, however, later I got spontaneous access to other environments (when I lived in Brazil for a few years for example) that were all directly, visually 'overlaid' onto the current landscape/environment/place (most close to Alto Paraiso West of Brasilia). Basically when I visited certain places I would at times find myself presented with two entirely different environmental views of that area. I'd have the 'earth, visible to everyone' view whilst at the same time I'd also have a very different landscape presented, often inclusive of (sometimes very space age) buildings and or monuments, some presented as you'd expect as part of the surface view/landscape whilst some seemingly permanent structures were actually permanently hovering 'in the sky', somewhat directly implying that anti gravity technologies were common within the original environment. However, in at times occasionally returning to and re-accessing these experiences, specifically in attempts to extend my understanding of the original experiences and particularly because they were exceptionally different/odd too, such that I eventually found myself engaging with a specific time when I was leaving my residence in a remote nature countryside area (where I found myself interfaced to and living as a cat (with my cat partner)), so I tagged along while my cat form walked from our residence through a small small mixed forest area and into a clearing beyond this. Within this clearing there was a small space craft (which I entered), I then (watch myself) performing all of the necessary 'operations' within the cockpit necessary for take off', and I then watch myself pilot this craft until it reaches what seems to me to be a fairly obvious physical space station type structure. I then dock my craft to this station, after which I'm then aware of tracking myself exiting from the craft, then walking down an automated docking system structure corridor, after which I then enter a side corridor and then eventually find myself coming to and entering a side room. Within this side room I walk right up to the far wall, I turn around, then (as the physical cat form) I lean up against the wall, at which point I find myself EXITING/LEAVING THE UPRIGHT CAT BODY FORM as my real ENERGETIC SUBTLE FORM SELF, which (in not being physical) then passes straight through the outer physical wall, after which I find myself entering what I can only describe as a large subtle building/complex, in then wandering around this complex, I became aware that it was the subtle reality administration building that was overseeing and managing members of their subtle population being incarnated to have a physical life experience, however, in over weeks and month coming back and re-engaging with this place to become aware of more details of this place, including that they seemed to offer about 30 different planetary habitats for their population to have a variety of physical life experiences. In my mid to late 20's early 30's (about 5/6 years before I became aware of the above) I noticed that pretty much all cats had a very strange reaction to myself, when they first encountered me. Basically, most times I'd encounter a cat, it would 'visibly' do a 'double take' when seeing me, they'd see me and they'd often then stop walking, their head would pull back and they'd often have an expression of puzzlement (equivalent to 'no way/this can't be right' sort of reaction), they'd then watch me intently for a while and then they'd ALWAYS come over and be unbelievably friendly. If this was at a friend's house they'd end up on my chest and 'plodging' with their feet to get comfortable, they'd then spend time lying there very contentedly purring away!!! So, after likely 2 or 3 years of the above cat reactions, during the first few weeks of meeting the woman I'd later marry, while out shopping together and each of us returning from our own shopping commitments to meet up again (after about 20 minutes or so) we both automatically greeted each other by rubbing our faces together and 'MEOWING'!!! WTF!!! Is exactly what we thought too!!!! It didn't make any sense whatsoever!!!! However, it was just a few months later that I spent time trying to understand and particularly to become aware of the origins of these weird cat behaviours that I found myself (as I describe above) on the nature/natural world as an cat form living with the other cat form and then having the above cat flying a space craft experience!!!! Now, because I was intrigued by my experiences of being part of this physical life experience administration space whilst also being puzzled about the '30' habitable planets (doesn't this seem to be to many for a single solar system?), then I'd occasionally spend time re-accessing my experiences connected to the subtle reality administration building in attempts to become more aware of what I actually did there. I eventually became aware that I was a physical life experience 'counsellor' whose job it was to support people and or groups of people and particularly in circumstances which involved 'conflicts'. So, while spending time accessing my original forms experiences in this administration space I became aware of phases where I worked with two tribes as incarnated groups of people as a sort of 'conflict counsellor'. I basically worked with them to try and help them resolve differences or problems that had arisen between these two different incarnated populations. At the time I was accessing these experiences I'd have been about 35 years old. Now (I've a pretty good memory) so, in becoming aware of and accessing these times/experiences as a sort of 'conflict counsellor' I eventually remembered that when I'd just finished my university degree (age about 21) and was trying to find a job, and was looking in the local papers jobs section and saw a job opening for a 'conflict counsellor' (you have to be aware that at this point in my life I have a very bad speech stammer/stutter), so I'm seriously unable to understand when reading this ad how I feel absolutely utterly sure that I'd be a very good conflict counsellor!!!! I seriously couldn't understand my response to this advert, it made no sense in anyway. So, between the time of reading that advert and actually having the above 'subtle incarnation administration worker' experience I worked as a supporting medical research scientist for a few years, after which I was employed as the manager of a university central resources technical facility for about a decade. However, in that I decided I had to get rid of the stammer about 6 months after starting the university job, which had me figuring out and developing approaches/strategies to resolve the stammer myself, such that after about 5 years I turned the stammer/speech block around from a 95% failure rate to the opposite and another 4 years to pretty much eradicate it completely. At which point I then left the university and set myself up as a healer, therapist, practitioner, which had myself talking to and facilitating people pretty much ALL THE TIME!!! In this respect, by my mid 30's I actually became a full time therapist/counsellor, (spending all of my time talking to and listening to clients) something I'd not have imagined would have been possible when I read the 'conflict counsellor' advert. ------------ I suspect that the administration building overseeing what seemed to be 30 planets, are likely not planets but are different planetary environments/habitats presented on a flat disc world!!!! Hence we have people here believing the world is flat - that's because these people DID live on a flat disc world!!!!
    • Clive January 3, 2021 at 2:54 am on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationI'm not aware of anyone else that's been specifically put through their past major 'shit/traumatic' experiences (in reverse order) that happened over give or take their first 3 decades while taking over 5/6 months to go through the replay of this. Personally I suspect that it's just the 'Clive' versions (those writing about fake software reality while trying to track and figure everything out on a planet wide scale), basically likely only a dozen or so people/Clives (likely all in different languages so we aren't known/won't come across each other). I'm aware of one person that seems to be in or have been put into 'stress/anxiety' things recently (last month or 2), but I'm not sure of the context, except, that it's perhaps some side experiment or effort to try and figure out something regarding how to access or release the 'Clives' stress tension 'data'. Also, despite that I'm releasing stress/tension/anxiety I've actually not particularly been feeling tense or stressed i.e. I haven't had strong physical body effects of these as I have had in the past. For example I've had 'head' stress/tension so bad in the past that my jaw completely locks/sticks, such that it isn't possible for me to open my 'jaw/mouth' (I've then had to very strongly massage/dig into the side of face muscles to get it freed/released). It's regularly been this bad in the past at least during some phases BUT definitely not that bad, say in the last half a decade.
    • Megan January 2, 2021 at 11:26 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationSo, thinking about your latest update, are only a select few of us set up to experience our past trauma-dramas or is everyone here in the sim being simulated through their past issues?
    • Clive January 2, 2021 at 5:46 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationUPDATE!!! Yea, well, that's because I've been having concerted replays of all of my past trauma issues i.e. 'PAST SHIT/IMPACTS' being 're-presented to myself' in reverse order (over the last 6+ months), it's almost been like going back in time starting from when I was about 30 all the way back until the trauma and pain of wearing teeth braces, such that I've felt semi tortured, as far as I can tell by 'phantom' tooth pains due to the teeth braces I wore for a while over 5 decades ago now!?!?!?! However, what was worse was a very severe trauma as a toddler, which was so bad that I ended up completely disengaged from my parents//didn't want anything to do with them. Basically, my father had suffered a bad multi fractured skull accident just before I was born (my parents had a very bad road accident) which had my dad auto reacting in a startled/aggressive/out of control way to the slightest sound, i.e. sounds which included a toddler making noises and trying to talk and or otherwise just doing normal toddler things, like maybe throwing stuff, or bashing things together etc. etc.. So, that's how I got my stammer and speech block before even getting to school, then I was of course bullied (from what I can recall) at junior and senior school . . . likely because I was an easy target with the stammer, however, when I got my first job I decided (after about 6 months) that I 'HAD' to get rid of the stammer/speech block. So, I spent time figuring out how to do this (on my own) such that I managed to turn it around from a 95% failure rate to the opposite over about 5/6 years, although it wasn't until my very late 20's that through virtually daily self healing/self exploration (of issue origins) efforts I eventually managed to get access to the unbelievable massive scale of severe trauma that was preventing me from breathing 'normally' (from the abdomen) . . . i.e. I ended up doing the impossible (as apparently speech therapists cannot), I got rid of a stammer and speech block and all of the trauma contributing to myself having this!!! So, I just got through a replay of pretty much all of the above trauma angles but then I had another, which has had me revisiting past shit/trauma BUT, now starting from age 30 and on . . which fortunately wasn't anywhere near as bad as the first 30 years worth!!! So, very recently this past trauma/shit replay has started to settle down, although occasionally there is yet 'another' annoying blip, like I spent about an hour and a half in (YET MORE) concerted stress/tension shit releases (teeth chattering) yesterday . . . that's the longest so far!!!! So, stress, tension, anxiety seem to have been my main underlying debilitations, built up via extreme toddler trauma, as well as early childhood bullying and also early job/work related 'traumatic' circumstances!!! Oh, yea and generally (last 6 months), I've been massively blocked from pretty much writing 'anything' too, likely because this is a very, very, very good way of STRESSING ME & KEEPING ME IN STRESS/ANXIETY/TENSION etc i.e. being made to be pretty much completely blocked from writing has been a piss-taking way to have me get access to and to release yet more/any remaining stress/tension/anxiety etc shit . . . however, I have started and have been trying to get finished about 3 mostly quite different (to the usual) pages . . . unfortunately . . . they are all still 'in progress'!!!
    • Clive January 2, 2021 at 4:55 pm on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISES-1+2: Accessing Eyesight/Vision Enhancement, GUI, Heads Up Displays, Controls & OptionsI'd not thought about any need to disconnect or close after doing this at all Michael as the exercise is about attempting to connect to hidden aspects of yourself (the person you are a copy of) in ways to try and help you to became more directly aware of these. MMmmm, after having a think you might find it useful to read this page here as it describes some consistent but bizarre experiences that had me 'suspicious' about why or how I had some consistent background automated route diversions. Also, while working as a supporting research scientist I had 'this' very bizarre experience of (the person I'm a copy of) working on designing a subtle implant. Basically, I became aware that our population is a duplicate of another, and that we are all then living out the life of someone else and in trying to gain more understanding at least of some obvious bizarreness's I'd noticed relating to myself I developed ways (that at least for myself) helped me to get more direct access to these hidden facets of ourselves.
    • Michael January 2, 2021 at 3:28 pm on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISES-1+2: Accessing Eyesight/Vision Enhancement, GUI, Heads Up Displays, Controls & OptionsHi, i did it second time yesterday, yet nothing really noticeable. Some subtle energetic effects around head and third eye area, yet nothing spectacular. Is this to be done only one time, or should it be repeated? Also, i wonder if there is any need to "close this"? And/or to disconnect from all those scripts, people etc. that we are connecting to with those commands?
    • Megan December 31, 2020 at 3:22 am on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISES-1+2: Accessing Eyesight/Vision Enhancement, GUI, Heads Up Displays, Controls & OptionsRereading the first paragraph of Human Implant Exercise 1, I get a lot of internal resistance. I know I have to relax and go inward, but this wants to go forward not back. I also feel afraid of something. Like I'm not suppose to be doing this, I'm reminded of those times I would blank out and stare off into space when I was younger and my mom would catch me and yell at me for it, calling me hopeless. I look at Christmas ornaments across the room and I feel something word going on with my eyes but no zoom in or zoom out or anything special with my eyes. "My internal visual space" - This is a bad thing. It's the realm of my daydreaming and my daydreaming was bad. My imagination/ creativity was bad because the things I would think about or imagine were not real.
    • Melissa December 27, 2020 at 10:44 pm on How Others Can Steal a ‘Souls’ Attributes, Qualities or AbilitiesI think I have discussed this before but today I had some entities come to my body and tell soul pieces to go home and be with them. Then they automatically left my body and went where home is. There was some pieces that were hiding in my body and they told the entity that was calling them home to let them stay there. I felt something pressing into my enegetic body and messing everything up. It also seems like my whole soul as to parts that make the body function properly have been removed. Like I cant breathe right or swallow properly. There is a block in my heart. Something came and fixed something today that helped my breathing but the entities came and messed it up and put things in my chest and pushed my lungs in. I also cant sleep properly because I am missing all this along with my original soul pieces.
    • Megan December 25, 2020 at 4:49 am on The Periodic Table Anomalous Personal Expectations Phenomena ExampleGiving it some thought, and I've determined diamonds are suspicious. While I don't think carbon is a subtle element, diamonds are made of 100% carbon. Their atomic is octohedal/ cubic, with, "each carbon atom is linked to four equidistant neighbors, creating a close-knit, dense, strongly bonded structure - the source of its unsurpassed hardness and many other properties." (Pg 122 of Rock and Gem by Ronald Louis Bonewitz.) Its cleavage is a perfect octohedral and and will scratch streak plate. I would say this is a physical substance that was subtly engineered. Their name derives from Greek adamas, meaning 'I take' or 'I subdue.' Kings and Emperors are known to have diamonds in their crowns jewelry and armor. They are also popular in jewelry (even just the tiny chips,) and are particularly popular as engagement rings and wedding rings. They are used as gifts between loved ones, especially on anniversaries (there is even a diamond anniversary.) Greeks and Romans thought they were the tears of the gods. They were thought to promote strength and bravery in battle so even kings would wear them in their armor. They were even thought to have heading properties.
    • Xin Ying December 21, 2020 at 5:47 pm on One Strange Rock: Anomalous Earth Phenomenon Actually Investigated & Discussed ‘NOT’ Avoided/Ignored!!!!Sometimes I wake up and find myself thinking ‘where am I’ and ‘who am I’ like a feeling of temporary amnesia and then I would feel myself being pulled back into our ‘reality’ with myself downloading information which feels almost like a wave of information flow through me. Really had no other explanation for why I felt this way until I came across this site. I also came across this item called a tesla plate and apparently according to the website, there are accounts from people claiming their tesla plates dematerialises after some time which i found interesting ( or maybe they just lost it hahhahhah). https://www.naturesalternatives.com/pdf/purpleplates/HealthConsciousness.pdf Here is a link for reference in case you are interested. Thank you for what you do!
    • Xin Ying December 21, 2020 at 5:08 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationThis kind of reminds me of a game I played called ‘No Mans Sky’ the protagonist was an explorer that travelled between different planets and galaxies and in the main storyline the character finds out that they themselves are actually in a simulation and everything they encountered was a simulated environment.
    • Megan December 20, 2020 at 4:27 am on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-3 – Targeting & Investigating ‘Highly’ Complex ‘Facets’ of MyselfExercise 9 Reading through the exercise I get that my assembly line tech has been heavily managing/traumatizing me. An example would be I love to daydream and create stories that I want to write and share with others. Problem is there have been multiple issues to doing this. One, it's like I don't really know how to write a story even when I do. I can sit down and write out the adventure in my head, a rough outline atleast, but from the rough outline something forces me to satisfy something or someone, like I should be writing and publishing the finished product, not a bunch of rough drafts and wasting time not getting something done, which has made writing and imagining and creating a miserable, living Hell and I get no joy out of it. My mother was this way actually. She's an old nurse, and if something isn't done in a timely manner to her satisfaction there is Hell to pay, so to speak. This assembly line tech also forces me to think, act, behave or do things down certain lines that does not leave me room to explore or think/see things differently or from another point of view. An example would be the audit process at work. I can't watch the work and understand what they are doing unless I'm doing the work myself or have a basic outline of what's expected (and some of these people have more experience than me so I feel bad watching people who have it figured it out for themselves.)
    • Jessica Antunes December 19, 2020 at 6:14 pm on Some Way, Way Off the Edge Hanging Around C19 & Fake ‘Reality’ Version Circumstances SpeculationHi Clive, it's been 8 months since you gave us the last update about what has been going on with respect to our issues and the work of the WSW teams…. So I wanted to ask you if the WSW teams are still alive… Are they still ON? How is the process of solving our issues going?
    • XY December 15, 2020 at 1:26 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Hi clive! I came upon your site when i asked to know the truth about our reality. I have been steadily reading through the articles you have posted on this site and would like to thank you for what you are doing and would try my best to help in your research through the exercises in the future. Cheers!
    • Megan December 4, 2020 at 4:04 am on Mandela Effect Anomalous Memory Examples, Introduction & DiscussionHere's an article I found today listing ten examples of the Mandela Effect. https://getpocket.com/explore/item/10-examples-of-the-mandela-effect?utm_source=pocket-newtab First paragraph: I have not seen Star Wars in a long time, but even I remember Darth Vader saying, "Luke, I am your father." 1. The Monopoly Man’s Monocle: I have only played Monopoly a handful of times but I remember him having a monocle (image I get is over his left eye,) but I think I may be confusing him for Mr. Peanut who has a monocle over his right eye. 2. Jiffy Peanut Butter: Even I am guilty of calling it Jiffy. 4. The Fruit of the Loom Label: Curved up to the left if I remember right. 10. Kazaam, not Shazam: I watched the movie when I was a kid. Just recently I remembered the scene when Shaq was singing on stage saying, "I am Shazam!"
    • Megan December 2, 2020 at 2:50 am on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-4 – Target what Defines & Contains MySelf & MyLIFEFrom Jessica’s comment: “What happens to me is like a kind of PTSD attacks at some level… which either make me automatically adopt avoidance strategies of potential problems (very frequent, this manifests itself in the adoption of an expression that I feel will not make waves regarding to the specific person or people whom I am dealing with, something very frequent)… or which simply make me be in an altered reactive mode which I feel I cannot avoid unless I run away or abstract myself from the scenery in some way (I have a lot of altered reactive modes)…” This is very much how I act/react to social situations at work (for the most part) but for most anyone I deal with. I am so afraid of making them angry that I try to block them out or keep them away, by keeping to myself or giving them the cold shoulder or passive aggressively pushing them away. My reaction is weird, I feel like I’m stuffing cotton in my solar plexus or I’m trying to block out my lower chakras (or anything from my solar plexus down.) I’m hyper paranoid about what they think or feel about me, even in private or to others behind my back. They even mock and put down other people behind their back while I am in the room and picking up on this has made me on edge. The paranoia is taxing and I really don’t know why I give a shit. But they don’t have a I am still having flashbacks of incidents between me and my supervisor that made me realize that I still have trauma triggers that are controlling me to do things even when I am scared or don’t want to do them, I feel terrified to ask for help or complain, or to even say no to things that I don’t want to do or be involved in. I feel more pushed to hurry up and get the job done, than to focus on my work and care about what I am doing and how I am doing it. What I don’t understand is why am I so terrified of anyone being angry at me, and why am I so terrified of criticizing others or standing up for myself? I am even harsh in this aspect too. I am very blunt and I can’t think of a gentler way of pointing out someone’s mistakes or flaws. Reply to Clive’s reply: “. . . bottom line anyone connected with a 'military and or as part of some 'official' other planetary cultures interactions' are likely to have a directive to 'be careful/keep to themselves' . . . which 'might' have applied to yourself i.e. you might have been say a quartermaster, supplies (food rations, weapons, ammunition)/stores logistics person . . .” That certainly makes sense. Your comment reminds me that growing up (up until middle school here in the States) I would never smile for any of my class photos. My mother would say I looked as sober as a judge. There have even been times, one I can remember back in middle school (and surprisingly enough not even the teacher called me out on it,) and at my previous job where I got sick and tired of them acting childish or messing up (and it could be a little thing,) and I just snapped and the way one co-worker described it was like I was treating them like a little kid. Reflecting on this statement at work, I got the impression that my military implants/experiences/expectations/??? Were being blended with the things I would experience/expect with friends, family, co-workers and even strangers. I would even say this is my fall back when dealing with others when I think about it…And I guess I don’t see people or spirits as people I can rely on in my moments of need, but I also realized just now that even with friends and family, I am used to being used (and I in turn used them too.) I am still struggling with thoughts that subtle beings, subtle energy, and other realities are made up or a fantasy, even when what I focus on or my experiences suggest otherwise. My ‘witch’ experiences are definitely coming out. I purchased a set of witch’s bells and even bought a tarot deck (it is the only deck that I like and the only one I will use.) I want to be self-sufficient and start my own business and make my own money without. I want to be an energy healer or a life coach or something that helps people, but I having difficulty focusing on it, or prioritizing my time or what needs to get done. But I am even terrified of this to because I feel something say that I must be positive and light and loving and ‘new agey’ (I guess) and that I must know and have all the right answers at the drop of a hat and that I can’t get it wrong. On the flip side, I know people who have flat out told me that they don’t want to know what is wrong with them, and I feel like I am being stopped from investigating further because it is like even they have barriers against me from looking and investigating further or even how to investigate at all. Part of me even blames them for their defects/problems/negativity because they aren’t willing to put in the time and the work and effort needed to make it better. And part of me is even upset that not even they wanted to know or care about what was wrong with me. I also don’t want to be treated like a villain. I have started posting a Tarot card a day on my Facebook page with a brief description of what I think the card means, and I get visions of a couple of my Facebook friends putting me down for what I am doing. I don’t expect my friends or family to be supportive or to care, and it is like a chip on my shoulder, I carry on because I shouldn’t care and it is the right thing to do. I had another weird experience at work the other day. I thought back to the time I connected to some kind of people productivity/interaction manager at work, and I connected with this huge jellyfish like structure (it was like something out of Star Wars) that overshadowed the entire campus of my place of employment, and the impression I got that it was in control of the timing and construction of the place I work at. Everything from the people that would get involved, to where it was going to be built and when and how big and even how it operates. Even thinking back to my job as a machine operator at my last place of employment, I never really had an issue running the machine compared to most of the other operators, and I saw the machine as a simulation component of some kind, and how the operator interacted with the simulation component ultimately determined how their workday was going to do. I also realized at work that I am having issues troubleshooting or even reading or following written standard operating procedures. If I am having issues, I tend to call for help right away instead of investigating further or following things through. And even when I am working, I tend to follow this kind of ‘cookie- cutter’ operation or functioning even if things are different and I need to change. I am not adapting or changing to my circumstances or situations at all. I just realized the only thing I really know how to do is putting myself down or even putting others down. I absolutely hate myself because I remember my reactions and how I acted and what I say in certain situations (I have terrible flashbacks you could say) around people, and the thing I try to stop is myself from doing it again. There is something about me that doesn’t want to budge or to change. I also feel very competitive against my other co-workers but in a negative way. It’s more like who is better at this or does more of that than working together as a team (and I suspect I’m not the only one who deals with this.)
    • Clive November 21, 2020 at 12:41 pm on Many Interplanetary Cultures ALL Now Trading on 1 Single Planet AnomaliesLikely only me, haha, I don't have a watch and I don't use i.e. I don't carry a smart type phone, it stays in a drawer switched off, basically, I only use a mobile (a very, very old Nokia) when I travel which is rare now and I only bought a 2nd hand smart phone out of curiosity/to have a play with it. But, my digital clock which had an auto wireless radio update ability decided to do weird things, such that on actually checking it, I found that it was presenting the wrong time, and that pressing the radio receiver auto time reset button just didn't seem to work either. However, I then remembered that I'd ordered 2 clocks about a month or so previously BUT they'd never arrived, although around the autumn 'reset the clocks time' the landlord turned up and we found that some mail person had been stuffing small mail packets behind a wall panel in the shared house foyer area (which no one had noticed). So, I then found I'd two clocks, although I'd also (in not getting these) ordered another wireless radio time update version, so, while setting up the new ones and double checking the old one before throwing it out, I found that it had also started to work properly again i.e. the radio wireless update facility started to work again too. In also getting on the internet to double check the UK/Britain time I then found that my computer time had also been out by an hour (I'd never noticed), although it 'really' doesn't make any difference as I don't take much notice of 'time' anyway, (I also don't have either a TV nor a radio either). Bottom line, I was exceptionally well 'wound up' re time/clocks for a good few weeks and I've 4 clocks now.
    • Clive November 18, 2020 at 3:34 pm on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-4 – Target what Defines & Contains MySelf & MyLIFE. . . haha, I've been watching various series of star trek recently as this represents all of the 'alien' i.e. animal species and also the many worlds, many aliens interacting . . . I noticed that the recent 2 or 3 episodes (Star Trek Enterprise (on Netflix) season 3 episodes 20/21/22/23 had a noticeable focus on alien >
    • Clive November 18, 2020 at 3:17 pm on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-4 – Target what Defines & Contains MySelf & MyLIFEWell, Jessica . . . eeeeHHHH, "the fact that people, when have behaviours which you refer “are not of themselves”, actually have triggers activated that ARE indeed ‘of themselves’, makes that, sometimes, behaving like other people, does ‘not’ represent nor can represent any anomaly, since such characteristics or behaviours would be expected by someone with sufficient self-awareness" Sorry, but the above doesn't make the slightest sense to me, although I know of someone that seemed to have had multiple versions of herself put into a reprogramming VR as part of sabotaging all her interactions with all others here . . . so it's possible you/she are splits . . . or you've been subjected to a different 'managed interactions' VR scenario, as I said recently the shit system we are in seems to be primarily designed to try and find ways to remotely influence/manipulate people/individuals/anyone . . . hence then those that put this together likely had a high priority with respect to the entire design to have people not notice their odd, out of context and or directly or indirectly manipulated interactions . . . having you reply with this bizarre argument suggests this is active . . . i.e. 'No, I'm choosing to interact in ways that are NOT OF MYSELF' . . . i.e. in ways that misrepresent 'YOU/YOUR 'CORE' SELF' seems like yet another possible management angle to make people sure/certain/convinced that they have chosen their odd out of context/interactions/modes of behaviour . . . rather than have them become suspicious about these and hence then the base nature of reality itself!!!!
    • Megan November 8, 2020 at 8:11 pm on Many Interplanetary Cultures ALL Now Trading on 1 Single Planet AnomaliesHas anyone been experiencing issues with their clocks or telling time or knowing what time in it I would say within the last week or 24 hours? So, I don't know how it works internationally, but we had daylight savings time last week on November 1st and had to roll our clocks back. Well, so far as I can tell, my phone had adjusted to daylight savings time as it is expected to being connected to a phone network, and I had been going to work at the same time and starting work (hell, all of my co-workers did) at the same time (though I will admit reading the analog clocks at work felt a little weird because not all of them had been adjusted.) So today(11/6/2020), I wake up to the sound of my roommate leaving the house at roughly the same times she always does to go to church. Well, I decide to go out for breakfast at my favorite restaurant between 10:40am and 11:00am (according to my phone) which at that time they are scheduled to be open and serving. Well, the door was unlocked and I walked and and was told that they were not open yet and don't start serving until ten. Well I pull out my phone, which read 10:51am, and showed it to the waitress, who in turn grabbed her phone and showed me 9:51am. Now, so far as I can tell and remember, my phone had not had a system update this week (I have the screen brightness and blue light filter set on very low settings, and usually when my phone has to update (like a system update) it has to restart and these display settings are reset back to their original settings until I sign into my phone and it reapply the settings I have chosen. Well, I manually shut down my phone and powered it back on, and sure enough the time adjusted to an hour later than it had been (9:57am) at that time.
    • Megan October 30, 2020 at 8:27 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & Patterns3) I connect to a time I was talking to my cousin and her husband about wanting to be a healer, and her husband replied, “So you don’t want to make a lot of money.” I hate my fucking family. I want nothing to do with them and consider myself lucky to have any sort of affection or tolerance for some or any of them at all. They have all been hypocrites and have never been loving and supportive at all, just like the rest of humanity. I remember the Christmas party a couple years back when I was talking with a very drunk, older gentleman who was a member of the band and who I thought I had a very respectful friendship with suddenly asked me, “How hard do you cum?” and he asked this multiple times, and I said, “what are you talking about?” I had been reading Dante’s Divine Comedy at the time after you mentioned it on your website and I thought we were talking about that, but I wasn’t going to get into an in depth discussion about Hell at a Christmas party. Realizing that we weren’t even on the same topic (and me wondering how the hell he got on the topic he did,) he got up and left suddenly, without apologizing, and I remember my internal reactions from that night, how I was suddenly ‘naïve’ to what he was asking, how I felt myself internally either shutting down or repressing what I really felt, and fell back into what I call ‘forgiving, good girl mode.’ I rage at the fucking memory demanding, ‘why the fuck didn’t you slap him!’ Why the fuck are women forced to repress or dismiss or deny how they really feel or want to do in order to maintain the desirable state of being innocent, forgiving, sweet, loving and compliant? A part of me honestly does not want to forgive and forget this shit. Part of me honestly doesn’t know how to handle it. I remember all the daydreaming I have done in the past, my intentions of creating something nice and wonderful that would heal everyone and make them happy and make everything better, and I hate myself because it was a fucking lie and a waste of time. It was all fake. I don’t trust myself or my skills/abilities/sensitivities/intentions/etc after realizing that the game Final Fantasy VII was a therapy device and I had lost a part of myself into the game and all the stories/daydreams I had surrounding it. It held a lot of frustration and anger, and it took a while to process and reintegrate (and I suspect I am still doing that process now.) It’s almost been a year since I started spirit-keeping again, and already I don’t trust any of them again. I consider sending them back and washing my hands of the matter, but I’m getting a ‘no’ from the gut area. The phrase, ‘betrayal is hard to get over,’ pops into my mind. I will also say when you called your pages ‘The Scary Pages ™’ you weren’t kidding. Because of them, I don’t trust anyone or anything around me anymore, and I question and doubt anything and everything others believe in and offer. Why should I when the AAHS and your exercises are proof that anything and everything I ever tried is worthless, and I don’t understand how people can still be duped into trusting the same shit (I know it’s management and a lot of other crap but it honestly wants to make me scream.) 5) Christians and Christianity come to mind, and I see over a span of time how arrogant and cruel and violent they have become, and then all of a sudden I see a group of people who are well-meaning, compassionate and innocent, and who look at each other wondering what happened and why they were like that. I hate Christians, even through I am friends with a few of them, and I can’t forgive them for what they have don’t or for their absolute ignorance to their past and their history and what they have done. I hold this against my roommate. I think of my boss who is a proud, vocal Christian and all the crap I have had to deal with through him, and I suddenly get an image of myself yelling at a Divine being/Group of people. I am hurt, I am angry, they have wronged me greatly and I want something done. I want justice, and suddenly the image changes and I see myself prostrate on the ground, humiliated and begging for forgiveness, as this group/divine being stands over and punishes/criticizes me. I remember the last ‘lightworker’ I dealt with. How she pretty much abandoned me, and after ignoring my emails how I emotionally and verbally abused myself for my stupidity into believing she was any better or any different from anyone and everyone else, or for even wanting to get better or to change, and that I would always be a bad person and always wrong and responsible for all the wrong and bad things in my life and in other peoples’ lives. I hate how the good people are still given praise for their so called good work when they obviously fail at offering any help or do anything good for those they criticize and need their help the most. Why is it, for me, everyone’s answer is always to walk away, to run away, to ignore it, or to let it go? This seems to be a running theme in my life, even my stories, and I suspect it is how others are manipulated to treat me, and how I am to treat them in return. So I see myself welcoming a new spirit into my life, but instead of being warm and welcoming I am automatically suspicious and distrustful, and cast a barrier against them to keep them out and away from me so they can’t touch or influence me. I do this automatically out of habit apparently because spirits and other people are able to influence/manipulate/touch me without me seeing it or being aware of it before it is too late. This reminds me of the relationship my mother had with my father, and how she still loved him even after discovering he cheated on her. It also reminds me of narcissism and co-dependency which I have always been afraid of and have never let my guard down against. Sorry about the length. This has been a long and difficult week.
    • Megan October 22, 2020 at 11:44 pm on Newsworthy Events Involving Delayed Advanced Technologies will be written about BEFORE THEY HAPPENNetworking from Tommy’s comment, I got back into playing Call of Duty (I felt encouraged to do so) and am having a lot a fun with it. The concerning thing for me is on October 2, I was laying on the couch not quite napping and not quite meditating when I saw myself playing in Call of Duty in my head and at one point felt (in my gut) a piece of myself break off and hop into the game. I have also noticed within the last week that I am not keeping track of time very well. I am usually running about a day or two behind or ahead of when I am at. For example, I archive all my comments and I wanted to date the file as 10-24-2020.
    • Megan October 10, 2020 at 4:32 am on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-4 – Target what Defines & Contains MySelf & MyLIFERE: Clive “Missing People Manipulating Networks” I have definitely noticed certain things around my roommate and my co-workers. With my roommate, I feel like we should definitely be a lot closer and intimate emotionally and that we should have similar interests and sharing experiences together. I had a moment of attraction for her at one point that didn’t make any sense to me since she isn’t my type despite being attracted to women. With my co-workers it is where it is the worst, and for my personally they are often weird when it comes to what I feel internally. I feel like they are people I should be friends with and that we should know each other better, and that our interactions should be different. In the beginning, I’ve made the same stupid and inappropriate remarks with them as I had on here. Emotionally and mentally, I was always unbalanced. I was anxious, uncertain and terrified. Always questioning my thoughts, feelings and what was wanted/need/expected of me. Now I feel more balanced mentally and emotionally, but I feel like I am pretty much ignored and pushed into a corner, and that if I am pretty much an afterthought when I am asked for something unless I fuck up. A couple weeks ago I was thinking on this, and the idea that crossed my mind is that I am made to behave that way to make create a bad image/feeling/reputation to them and have them push me away or dismiss me. There is something trying to maintain my social isolation/rejection and my co-workers are its puppets. For example, I have a co-worker who I still feel afraid to ask questions or disturb because they come off with a bit of an attitude. I can feel the trigger or whatever it is, and they are aware of how they come off because they have apologized to me twice about it. I made a joke that we have been working together for over a year and you’d think I would have been used to their attitude by now, but that I was still working on the issue. Even at the Lindsey Stirling concert I was expecting a happy reunion or an acknowledgement of familiarity. These contradictory reactions that I have received from people versus what I want/expect from other people have left me feeling conflicted and traumatized with myself growing up as a child. I came to believe that I was the wrong one, the sick one and that these feelings were wrong and selfish. All this shit left me feeling bitter and distrustful to others and to love, and a part of me has given up and lost interest in living and dealing with people. I also realize that my daydreams/fantasies were used/created to sooth or deal with this trauma, and I’ve been working on opening up and releasing this shit for the past few weeks. It feels ridiculous because how do you tell people On another note the week of September 28 was interesting. I started watching a paranormal investigation show called “The Dead Files,” a show where a physical medium and a retired New York City investigator perform separate investigations on places with reported paranormal activity then come together at the end of the show along with their clients to discuss what was found. They did a show in a place about an hour from where I was raised that was known for its prostitution. The medium, upon investigating the basement, got visions of women who were abused and imprisoned in the basement, sex slaves is what the medium called them. At this point I felt very aware and self-conscious of myself and my body. I felt discussed, undesirable, and ashamed. I am overweight and I eat a lot, and I feel like this eating habit of mine is a replacement for love and affection because my mother/family didn’t know how to love me and I don’t get any affection/attention from others. I also felt disgusted with myself because I wasn’t beautiful or desirable physically, I don’t match the ideal that society idolizes. It was actually this show that gave me the idea that I am a physical empath myself because when I pick up things from others I feel it physically in my body and unfortunately I don’t have the best reactions when this happens do to bad information/experiences. At the end of the show, the medium recommended the owners of the place to spray every surface of the place with holy water or salt water and remembering some of your articles I became infuriated. That wasn’t going to get rid of the problem, it was just going to cover it up, and my mind went off on some tangent of going there are properly dealing with the issue, but the problem is I don’t know how to deal with it and my mind went off on some tangent of accepting personal responsibility in processing it. I saw myself taking this energy into my being and processing it because I don’t know another way to do it yet. I was also listening to the Jane Eyre on audiobook and was wondering if it wasn’t a script or something for how I was to be seen/treated as a human female. When Jane first meets Mr. Brocklehurst, the director of a charity school for girls Jane is being sent to, within their first conversation Jane is accused of being a liar and a sinner, and even I saw/felt my own Mr. Brocklehurst standing over me, accusing me of being a liar and a sinner and my throat felt tight and painful. Jane’s relationship with Mr. Rochester (note he was about 20 years her senior,) especially his plot to marry her because he is in a miserable marriage where his wife had already gone mad, is similar to how a lot of significantly older men who are old enough to be my grandfather have treated in selfish and inappropriate ways. Like they want/expect me to give fulfillment, to please them in many ways, and to make them happy. Then there is Jane’s relationship with clergyman St. John Rivers, who she finds out is a distant relation and calls him her brother, the way he orders her about, and she is forced to obey and follow his every command despite hating how he treats her and feeling resentment for it is how I often feel and act around people when I would rather disobey and be disrespectful, to tell them to do it themselves.
    • Jessica Antunes October 9, 2020 at 10:14 pm on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-4 – Target what Defines & Contains MySelf & MyLIFEPerhaps the fact that people, when have behaviors which you refer “are not of themselves”, actually have triggers activated that ARE indeed ‘of themselves’, makes that, sometimes, behaving like other people, does ‘not’ represent nor can represent any anomaly, since such characteristics or behaviors would be expected by someone with sufficient self-awareness ... I say this because I ‘have always noticed’ that I behave differently to what I am in other instances, when I am with certain people in particular or groups of people (which has always been far from sounding weird to me…), and precisely because I am aware that what sustains these changes are my own fears and self-protection mechanisms (actually, trauma triggers)….. in other words, everything is always felt with VERY COHERENCE in terms of how I know that my psychology works. What happens to me is like a kind of PTSD attacks at some level… which either make me automatically adopt avoidance strategies of potential problems (very frequent, this manifests itself in the adoption of an expression that I feel will not make waves regarding to the specific person or people whom I am dealing with, something very frequent)… or which simply make me be in an altered reactive mode which I feel I cannot avoid unless I run away or abstract myself from the scenery in some way (I have a lot of altered reactive modes)… And in fact it’s interesting to note how much nuances of my mode, expression and behavior can change depending on the person I deal with… It it as if each person had a specific unique code that, when interacting with me, activates automatically a network of ‘personalized’ behavioral processes in myself… it really would be hard not to notice such a thing, when my whole life was interacting with everyone in a 'unique' mode of myself all the time (the point is that the Jessica that I am when I’m not interacting with anyone has always been different regarding to the Jessicas who interact with people, who are also all different from each other (despite having some aspects in common))…… The point is that I have never noticed ANYTHING abrupt and incoherent ... and, thinking about it, the truth is that maybe things are 'not' supposed to be felt that way ... even because that would be the best strategy for people not to be able to noticing anything strange to begin with ...