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    • Clive January 25, 2020 at 6:09 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshUpdated Latest focus version is above!!!
    • Clive January 25, 2020 at 6:00 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesI suggest that you read a lot more of this site and maybe the actual front page which gives a decent although general/progression in terms of unfolding changing understandings/approaches!!! Exactly how would you expect to gain experience or understanding by completely relying on invisible perhaps imaginary others to sort things out for you. How would you expect to understand something/anything/your own or anyone else's issues EXCEPT by exploring WTF IS CAUSING/CONTRIBUTING TO THEM!!!! Your comment is pretty 'schizophrenic' Farrah
    • farrah hachey January 25, 2020 at 8:27 am on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-8 : Targeting ALL Scripted ‘Debilitating/Unwanted/Limiting/Containing’ ExperiencesUm, just curious...but why would you want to connect with something that would prevent you from connecting with God/Source or the collective consciousness? Also, why would you want to connect with whatever is preventing someone from "hacking and reading about fake, alternate and deceptive realities"? I don't understand why you would want to connect with whatever it is that is preventing oneself from connecting to or accomplishing these things? You're connecting to what is preventing or blocking you from accomplishing these things when wouldn't a person want to connect to what would allow these connections or make them possible? It seems completely absurd that someone would want to be completely devoid of any connection with God/Source/Creator...and not sure what the focus is on the hacking and reading about alternate realities thing is about? I don't really understand what it is you're trying to achieve with these statements?? If you're connected with spiritual hierarchies and such, is that not the same as connecting with a Higher Power, Source, Angels, etc.?? Sorry,...not trying to be rude or anything. I'm honestly just really confused by your list of statements. Have you yourself connected to whatever is blocking or preventing you from achieving, doing, blocking, or having memories of certain events? And if so, how did connecting to the block of these things help you gain insight, memories or whatever it was you wished to achieve. I found some connection to a few of your articles and do believe that we are quite likely living in some sort of matrix or simulated reality. I've just come to discover this lately and am pretty scared by the whole thing. I've had a bunch of paranormal, chaotic, bizarre and traumatizing events happen in my life since 1979 or so. I'm glad to have come across your site since I've had nobody to talk to about these events. Everyone seems to be so oblivious or unaware of things that are going on all around us. The fake, scripted events...it's hard to tell if anyone or anything is actually real anymore. I feel so lost, isolated and completely alone. If you have some time to reply I'd really appreciate it. Great site, cheers:-)
    • Clive January 25, 2020 at 1:31 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into Flesh25th Jan: LATEST Focus version to target very sophisticated 'advantaged' shit // worth doing occasionally as this targets extra sophisticated difficult to hack shit!!!! Targeting Ultra Transforming/Self Altering SHIT: I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been designed to emulate advantages and of give any shit 'advantages' such that hacking this shit is difficult or impossible, shit that in various combinations and under certain conditions/circumstances have been specifically designed/refined/tested/optimised to work/function in very convoluted/miss-leading/constantly transforming and or generating fractal like aspects/sub aspects/functions/divergent functioning versions/aspects of itself and or otherwise functioning in ways to be as difficult to track/understand/decode/figure out never mind negate/neutralise/block . . . and or anything/any combination of components that we're specifically designed to emulate any type of advantages/advantaged abilities/characteristics and or 'functioning and particularly to avoid being tracked/hacked and or then compromised/combated/tamed/negated/disabled and or understood . . . and or generates any temporary and or compressed and or ultra compressed but 'still' able to generate functional components from these including as micro dot/coded data/information type components and or anything similar and or equivalent and or just temporarily/momentarily, and or any interacting reality foundation substrates and or any temporary non-normal 'pockets or strata's' of reality temporarily appearing and disappearing on the fly and or anything with similar and or equivalent functions/functioning abilities/objectives and or anything exhibiting eclectic/apparent randomised and or illogical/chaotic functioning and or that defines and or generates any dormant 'dust' or equivalent type data particle components that on when 'activated/wake up' do things under TXYZ conditions, and or as part of setting up circumstances to have knock-on and or long-term and or accumulative effects on specific people and or their environments/others connected to them and or anything/any combination of 'anythings' including temporary 'processors' that directly or indirectly define, re-write and or alter base reality functioning and or rulesets and or generate temporary versions of the same or similar anywhere/everywhere and or while modifying the base functioning/functionality of the components associated with it including switching from logic to anti-logic to variations of fuzzy logic and semi-logic and chaotic 'logic' and any switching Rubic's Cube type and or CrystalMaze like efforts and or any other variations of non-normal/abnormal functioning components and or that switches between these and or other variations/possibilities ALL THE TIME to make/keep itself as untrackable, none understandable/incomprehensible/bizarre/illogical and or fuzzy, chaotic, anti-logical/none logical etc, from one moment to the next, and then again the next moment and or use multiple conflicting logics/anti-logic variations and or anything else/any other combination simultaneously and or anything contributing to continually keeping it all transforming/altering any/all aspects of itself, it's functioning though time
    • Clive January 24, 2020 at 6:58 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshMegan RE my reply to Shalin's comment you could do the same, i.e. the next time you do the current/latest focus start with: ” . . . I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been deliberately designed into my personal data/trt store and or anywhere else that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute to: ” And then 'think of or mentally list/internally highlight' anything you're not happy with!!!!
    • Clive January 24, 2020 at 6:54 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshGreat effort Shalin, you're obviously starting to get some decent access to current 'shit' . . . next time you do the focus start with: " . . . I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been deliberately designed into my personal data/trt store and or anywhere else that has been, is now and or would in the future contribute to: " Then read/scan your comment issue list with the intention to 'engage with everything' directly or indirectly contributing to anything of any of these . . . and then switch to do the main/current focus, as this will likely 'help'!!!! Everyone is different when doing scans Shalin, although I suspect that the external/upper lot/help have copied/pasted adapted Tom's hacking tech to work with your focus/scan efforts!!!!
    • Shalin January 24, 2020 at 5:16 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, So I’ve done the focus about 12 times in the past 2 days and I don’t see much as usual. Each time I do the focus it takes me about 1 hour as with intent I connect to all of my trauma/situation/circumstance categories I have experienced in this life and their timelines. There is a lot of SHIT I have experienced in this life so each round of focus takes some time to fully cover everything. What I got: 1) I got an assembly line of what appeared to be items like balls/beads or bottles moving along conveyer belt/assembly line and each getting some kind of attention as they passed through a station along the line. Think of an assembly line filling bottles of pepsi cola for example - the bottles each get a squirt of cola at the cola station, then a cap at the cap station and then a label at the labeling station. I don’t know what the context of any of this is- whether the bottles/balls/beads represent our traumas/trts and the assembly line being how they move along in time?? 2) Another time I got a structure like a circular space station https://i.stack.imgur.com/Q89O4.jpg with multiple rings. Each of the rings were rotating in different directions and along a ring are compartments of traumas/trts/pre-defined-shit. I tried to feel into it but wasn’t able to get any more than that. Seems to me 1 & 2 above appear to be like what Tom described with the beads but slightly different representation. The following are my situations/circumstances/trauma categories although many of these involve multiple combination of these: a) Financial loss traumas & poverty circumstances/situations b) Job loss traumas & current/past job stressors/frustrations/disappointments/cognitive-overload/overwhelmed c) HIV & STD related traumas d) Family conflicts- physical/verbal/emotional/sexual abuse e) Romantic relationship loss/heartbreak -I repel women for whatever reason f) Dollhouse/body invasions g) Conflicts/incidences that have caused extreme guilt/shame/embarrassment/self-hate h) Sexual addictions & sexual frustrations i) My entire persona/behavior is conflict, combative, anger, fear, & worry driven - conflicts with friends, conflicts with strangers, conflicts with family, conflicts with coworkers, conflicts with money, conflicts with romance, conflicts with sexuality, conflicts with myself j) Hatred/disdain for people in authority - politicians, corporate executives, governments, my father etc I don’t know if: 1) there is anything built into my data stores that is DELIBERATELY causing my physical imbalances/symptoms (as in to keep me STUCK/DEBILITATED). Like shit A messes with the Liver, shit B messes with the spleen/stomach, shit C messes with the Kidney and so on. OR 2) whether they are the end result of all of the above issue/trauma/circumstance/situation categories being LOCKED in my subtle/physical body OR 3) whether there is something entirely different responsible for it that I am not aware of and not able to describe/articulate? Your latest update re: Tom's feedback is fascinating. I can see that I have so many autopilot/automatic triggers/beliefs/thinking/reactions, specific people who ALWAYS trigger conflicts/combative-situations with me and reward/punishments of which I have mostly had punishments in this life (must be like for every 1 reward I've had 20 punishments) and specific circumstances/sabotages that repeat over and over again to fck me up. I will continue with the focus and report back if anything new pops up but I definitely don’t see things like how you/Tom do.
    • Clive January 24, 2020 at 10:10 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshYea Megan what you write (how you are made to work) is exceptionally equivalent to Tom's descriptions in his last update in terms of how the shit is attempting to make us all into automatons: . . . I engage with templates which seem to be overlaid onto people’s data, which relate to “autopilot / unthinking / automatic” mode. It’s as if these could be activated to make them act without thinking in specific situations, or in relation to political decisions (such as voting) or have a mindless adherence to specific opinions / automatic views on specific topics. They feel almost like doll tech, or a sort of hive mind / Borg shit / group think shit delivery system. It feels as if they relate to ideologies, beliefs, unthinking obedience and group conformity. They also feel “cultish” in terms of the strength with which they impact people’s thinking. I get that some people are marked by this system for “special attention”, which for some people could mean protecting them (for example because they’re important to delivering / implementing some facet of the SNV’s objectives) and for other people could mean persecuting them / putting them into shit. I get that both of these, protection and persecution, can be done by putting other people into the autopilot mode, in which state they can be effectively, finely controlled to go after someone / act in a way which would traumatise them, or defend someone else / act in a way which supports or validates them. I have a sense of this “autopilot” shit delivery system being like music, it’s like an automatic flow of sound through multiple people, or a current which carries them with it. Then I also connect to “conductors”, who are influencing other people to follow this music (eg trend-setters / people who are copied, respected or listened to), but it also feels like these conductors themselves are also being conducted by the same “music” / current, and being used for its agenda in exactly the same way. I also get connection to people who people react against the conductors or music / flow, and try to conduct a different “tune”, or who ignore or attack the music / flow of autopilot behaviour, and at times it feels like this too is prompted by the shit, that it wants specific people to oppose the flow, for example to break them down / wear them out, or as a token opposition, or to make the people who are going with the autopilot flow / music feel like they’re being radical / dangerous and going against the status quo. I see what looks like a framework surrounded by water, and it feels like the framework represents the structure of society / people in specific positions, and the water represents pretty much everyone else, the people who can be taken over by the autopilot templates. It feels like the water / group thinking autopilot people can be used to help manage things to stay the same / maintain the structure of society and its hierarchies, or work to change something of this in pre-defined, desired ways. Some people seem to be more naturally “resistant” to these autopilot templates. I see what look like currents, representing the flow of people’s opinions or autopilot conformity, and then see other, opposing currents where other people are managed to disagree with and fight the original group of people. Then there also seem to be (often more isolated) people who are encouraged to stand up / speak out about something, but are rarely if ever listened to in any meaningful way. There seem to be some very subtle TXYZ networks here, which are managing beliefs, perspectives and ideologies. It feels like they have more of the same type of convoluted advantages which you described in your chat message at 1am, but different to those ones (perhaps working in other, ‘different’ types of convoluted ways). I engage with religions now, and the way in which these autopilot templates are used to get people to conform to or react against the different religions, or set up “offshoots / new branches” of them. Next I connect to writers such as Freud and Jung, and I become aware of currents of thought that flow through time, and people being propelled to agree or disagree with them, then of conflicts and cross-currents being set up. I connect to what feel like fads and movements, eg this type of therapy or that type of meditation – these seem to last for a time, and then be replaced by something else or changed. It feels like people are being subtly nudged one way or another over years and decades, particularly the “conductors” / people who other people follow. As an example of this, I connect to Freud’s views on the experiences of incest which many of his patients seem to have reported, and him changing his mind / saying they must all be making it up because there are too many of them reporting these experiences and it’s their own suppressed wishes (for example, to have sex with their father) rather than something which is really happening. I become aware of sets of associated timelines relating to specific areas of thinking over time / throughout the past. For example, I connect to what feel like ongoing schools of thought / ways in which things are done – “this is how to do a specific type of therapy / hypnosis, or this is how to build a house (eg using asbestos)”. Then I see ripples at specific points, like stones being dropped in, which seem to represent new books being written or new discoveries being made, which then change the timelines from that point onwards so that (some / many / most, depending on the change) therapists or hypnotists adopt different approaches, or different materials are used in buildings etc. I see new timelines starting, which seem to relate to “new” ways of doing things, eg therapy / hypnosis, or at other times it seems to be old ways of doing things which haven’t been used for some time and have been revived / given a different name or “spin”. It feels like this system works to “set up” events so that people encounter specific timelines / come across and are influenced by / react against or adopt different types of thinking / ways of doing things. I have the impression of something almost like a complicated weaving machine, with people being moved in and out of or through these different unfolding timelines, as the glass beads / trt’s and associated “thinking management templates” propel them in different ways. Next I get that there are some people being kept away from certain timelines or people / books associated with them / which are presenting specific ideas. It’s like there’s some kind of needs analysis going on for objectives in relation to each person / timeline – this feels like it should be going on continuously, and confirming at each moment that the correct progression has been chosen, but it’s as if everything’s already pre-defined and if this kind of calculation “is” happening, it’s entirely off the radar, in some kind of hidden space. This / the system which I’m aware of now is more like something which is already pre-defined, and is “active” / doing things and making calculations, but also doesn’t feel “complete” at this stage. Now it feels like there are some kind of engines interacting with the trt’s of everyone who’s involved with a specific ‘timeline’ or is predicted as potentially being involved with it – but these engines seem to be influencing people ‘from the past’, and it’s like they’re focused on the integrity of the timeline (making sure each timeline continues for as long as it’s supposed to, so that it can have the desired effects by people doing things in specific ways in specific circumstances at specific times) but it also feels like the machines are focused on the personal objectives in relation to each person in the EAAS, and working to maintain them in the right trt’s / keep steering them towards a future target version of themselves. So these engines seem to be influencing people from the past, tweaking things here and there or making more coordinated / intrusive adjustments, to ensure that everything proceeds the way it’s supposed to. I get that technological progress (eg that of specific “preferred” SNV companies, who are being given advantages over other, non-SNV companies) is also being managed and controlled by some of these engines, which makes me think about the technological slowdown here in the EAAS. I see a cat’s cradle of interconnections stretching from these machines, which are active in the past and influencing through time, to current events and other past events which happened since the machines were “created” – it’s not clear yet exactly how they are created, but it feels sort of like what we found when there were shit sets generating new cells of memory with processors inside them, to meet increased demand – it’s like they’re automatically generated whenever some overseeing system, monitoring the progression of SNV objectives through time and making predictions about the future, detects that they’re needed. It feels like no major changes happen in the EAAS without these machines / processors knowing about it and being involved in it, since they appear to be involved in all the progression of different ideologies and perspectives over time, eg “immigrants are bad and stealing people’s jobs”, or “austerity is necessary to balance the budget”, or other perspectives which could contribute to the balance of power / the people who are in charge at a specific point in history and can make changes on behalf of many other people. So these machines seem to be driving changes in thinking / new products or ways of doing things etc in society, and sometimes it’s like they switch off for a while, then restart at a pre-defined point and “resurrect” something that was done in the past. I just had the example of the inquisition representing psychiatry and the benefits assessments, so it’s like different “means” to impact people in the same way, which started at different points in history but can be used to build up and worsen broadly similar trt’s. Also, the people who were put through the original inquisition could then be set up to encounter psychiatry here and or have the benefits assessments, to continue the accumulation of these inquisition-related traumas. The same machines seem to be driving different kinds of broadly similar or related changes in different cultures / changes which are “tailored” to how that society currently is / thinks, some of which could be more extreme than others, depending on what that particular culture was “ready” to implement. This for example allows them to compare the changes being made / ways of doing things being implemented in many different contexts, and analyse them all / compare the changes and come up with ideas to make one or the other “better” in terms of achieving SNV objectives, then prompt a key person to “come up with” the idea to do this / what the machines want them to do. It feels like specific people are “earmarked” / chosen to push specific reforms – as an example of this I connect to the guy who came up with the bedroom tax / benefits assessments in the UK, and it’s as if these people can be very finely controlled by the overseeing machines to present information / ideas in exactly the right way so that others (eg other decision-makers) will agree with them, and the changes will then be implemented – I see all the glass beads / trt’s relating to all these people moving in unison / sort of “rippling” as they encounter the information they’re supposed to agree (or disagree) with, and it’s as if these “earmarked” key people are used as levers who are fundamental to making the changes which these machines want to happen in a specific culture / area. I become aware of specific groups of people being targeted, eg by legislation or changes in a specific company, and it feels like they were manoeuvred to be part of that group / work at that company in the first place, so that they could then be impacted by changes which this system already knew it was going to make. Next I get that everyone has a trajectory or set of trajectories which is being monitored and choreographed the way this system wants it to be – this seems to relate to factors like income, quality of life, interactions, home environment etc. I get that for each person, some actions are rewarded and some are punished – it feels like an ongoing punishment and reward (reprogramming) system. Now I get that rewards and punishments can also be delivered to specific groups of people, so that even if you yourself haven’t done anything which would trigger the reward / punishment / reprogramming system, you can still be strongly influenced by it, just from being part of a specific group or class of people from this system’s perspective, which this system likely manoeuvred you to be part of in the first place. Now it feels like the reward / punishment system can change and become more or less aggressive / stringent / reactive at specific times (even randomly), and that it can also react to the symbolic resonance of things which people or groups do, and can react to these in different ways, depending on what type of symbolism it’s chosen to react to, out of a range of possibilities. More and more, it just feels like excuses for this system to do whatever it likes to whoever it likes, whenever it likes. The seemingly random alteration in aggressiveness reminds me of what I’ve often experienced with the mindloops – I’m doing something which doesn’t seem to trigger them, and then it suddenly switches from one minute, hour or day to the next, for no apparent reason at all. There seem to be TXYZ shit delivery systems associated with specific people, places and groups which have dormant shit and can activate literally at any time, and begin to deliver effects. It almost feels like it’s been done in a deliberately random way, to keep people off balance / not knowing what is going to happen next. I engage with what feel like pre-defined scripts for specific conversations, and “spikes” of trauma impacting one person or the other at a specific moment, to get them to change the subject / forget something / remember something or react in a particular way to something which has / hasn’t been said.
    • Megan January 24, 2020 at 2:30 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshI read Clive’s recent update at work during break and something interesting happened shortly after break was over. So, I have mentioned before the peer-auditing process we do to help each other improve our work and processes, and the selection of what area to audit is completely random by drawing a card out of a bin. Well, one thing my supervisor stipulated is that we are supposed to find one waste in the process, and if we can’t we were to call my supervisor over, and he would observe and help find one. Well, the girl didn’t observe a waste, so she called my supervisor over and they both watched for a while. Well, they found one waste, I had to recheck some settings in some screens I had previously looked at for another setting, but the whole time the girl was there, even before she had called over my supervisor (who I would usually feel very hostile/defense/on edge about, this is steadily improving,) I felt on cornered and self-conscious, and felt worst after she called my supervisor over and they identified a waste in the process. Ever since they started this process it has felt like a ‘slave master cracking the whip’ kind of thing. I mean I can see benefits of the auditing system but there is a part of me that absolutely hates it (this has gotten better in the last couple weeks, but this incident kind of surprised me.) It’s like they are trying to beat the humanity out of us and make us into automatons. This concerns me because I’m afraid I’m going to snap at my boss. Reading the focus two times, I connect with feelings of bitterness, exhaustion and resentment. Earlier this evening I was reflecting on the fact that I am a copy of someone else who lives outside of this reality, and given the interest and intensity that I have with these focuses now I assume or am hoping that my original self is helping to resolve this mess. With that in mind, I feel resentful as the copy being stuck having to do what she/it has done or is doing, of being unable to be an individual, unable to chose and have no freedom or free will to do what I want to do, and I feel sorry for feeling this way. I remember how intense and draining and lonely my trauma-releases have been. How absolutely no one I around me knows or cares or understands what I am dealing with, that I have been through and how hard and painful it can be at times. No support or understanding or sympathy and recovering is a bitch. Even when I am exhausted I can’t/don’t stop working on my issues and trying to deepen my awareness internally. I noticed at work my mind isn’t always with body at times, or with me in the present moment when I need it. It’s only when I am out of work, alone or in a small, relaxed group of people, do I really feel whole, but still my mind is still away in a sense because doing focuses and expanding my sensitivities and awareness is far more interesting than anything society/culture has to offer in here. I remember all the plastic bags, metal and paper we throw out at work even through we recycle paper and aluminum and steel. We are so focused on our work or burnt out to care whether we toss this in the garbage or not, I’ll be honest even I barely care which I know is bad. Remembering all this I get the impression that it is not a simple matter of getting out of here and shutting this monstrosity down, but that it will be operational for awhile while we sort out, deal with and correct all the things that have happened that is fucking us over outside of this place. I’m reminded of my intense demand or intention to get out of here or get away. It’s been reflected in my relationships and personal interactions here in the past. The moment I was yelled at or hurt in anyway (there was often no empathy, understanding or forgiveness in these instances,) I would mentally and emotionally shut them out, give them the cold shoulder or leave/run away to a new group of friends and/or family to make a better life for myself. But the better life never happened, it was always the same old thing and I’d end up running away again to a new group of people and the same pattern would repeat itself. This is kind of what played out at my last job. This has frustrated me greatly in the past and I never understood why I would do this or could never fix the problem, even though I don’t know what that is but I always assumed it was my fault. Sometimes I wasn’t even the one who would do it. People would just drift away or leave automatically. I remember a couple times I had told a counselor, and a lightworker about some personal and painful issues I didn’t know how to deal with or who to turn to and both of them reacted poorly to the point that I stopped seeing them. It’s has frustrated me how piss poor any form of ‘approved’ help is. It’s really pisses me off that we have to pay a complete stranger who has no connection or experience with us and our lives to just have someone ‘listen.’ I realize that a lot of the violence and disrespect in TV/movies/video games/etc has been a major turn off for me. I’m very out of touch with society, and for so long I’ve felt like this arrogant rebel thinking I was protesting, hiding away or even getting angry/rioting against these things without any knowledge or understanding. Something feels off reflecting on all this and on Clive’s comment about the population numbers, because with all the civil-rights movements and protests and anger and pain and the death in the news things here should have changed, but reflecting even on my faint and limited knowledge of history, conditions here have barely budged. I sense a fluffy/gel-like cushion/barrier between what is going on here and what people want, and what is going on up there in the sky. I also realize all of our governments, even democracy-based ones, are a hoax to give us the illusion that we have power or a choice or can make a difference or change things, but we can’t. Going to bed after all of this, I felt suction cup-like cap upon my head with a long tube coming off the top of my head.
    • Clive January 22, 2020 at 4:46 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshUPDATE/extension to the above: INTERESTING HACKING DETAILS OF CURRENT SHIT Update from Tom which is describing in great detail the scale as well as the sophistication of the functioning of current shit: After finishing my last email update to you, I do the ‘Facilitating trauma releases’ exercise you put up, then the latest focus ten times. I begin to see something like glass beads moving around on some giant, complicated framework, and it reminds me of ‘The Glass Bead Game’ by Hermann Hesse: “The plot revolves around a game (the Glass Bead Game) that requires expertise in all fields of science, art, music, literature, history to win. There is a entire subset of Castalia that is solely devoted to perfecting their skill at the game. The rules are vague and complex and as readers we’re not really meant to know the specifics other than that it is complicated, beautiful and incredibly challenging. To win the game is akin to achieving a state of perfection or bliss – seeing the interconnectivity of everything in life. Knecht dedicates himself to the game, goes through many trials of faith and ultimately wins and then goes on to become Magister Ludi. The story incorporates aspects of eastern and western philosophy.” https://www.quora.com/What-is-Hesses-The-Glass-Bead-Game-novel-about So Knecht, the protagonist of the story, could represent me or someone else in a VR who was given a sort of pre-made ‘puzzle’ / challenge to master, which could then relate to this shit, so that when they solved the puzzle, they could then be converted into an AI which would oversee and help to develop this system. Then “seeing the interconnectivity of everything in life” feels like “enlightenment”, but also a kind of piss-take that could relate to some shit which connects many different things here as part of delivering or maintaining shit As I continue the focus, I see the framework ‘fleshing out’ as I become aware of more and more of it. First it begins to look three-dimensional, then eventually it feels omnidimensional / like it’s spread across many different dimensions, and also omnidirectional. It also feels organic and like it’s growing and changing all the time. I see the beads moving around from one place to another, and it feels to me like the beads are the ‘trt’s’ from different past lives or people’s original forms, which are being deployed into specific combinations and structures / ‘organised’ in a way which most accurately reflects the SNV’s objectives It now feels like this is moving ‘through time’ too, not that it’s merely four-dimensional (it seems to have more dimensions than that) and updating as time goes on. It also seems to exist in the future, as if the future has already been planned out and there are prospective / ‘will exist at this moment’ future trt’s existing at different points in the future. So I have the sense of a timeline covering many lives in the past which is also focused on the present and the future. It’s as if everyone’s being guided along a specific progression which corresponds to the SNV’s objectives, and this guiding seems to be being done by the trt’s / glass beads continuously moving around But it’s not exactly like a timeline as it’s not ‘chronological’ in a way, like a straight line. It’s more like it’s everywhere, in the future as well as the present and the past. I get that the ‘Glass Bead Game’ which I’m seeing relates to all the Tom’s, so 20,971 or however many. Then there seem to be other ‘Glass Bead Games’ which relate to other people and those people being reprogrammed / gradually altered in relation to the SNV’s objectives. It’s like each game is focused on 20,971 people who are all versions of each other
    • Clive January 22, 2020 at 2:10 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshLATEST:Shalin/everyone . . . Tom, seemingly for the first time ever is beginning to get access to his base trauma/shit (and hence then his trauma/trt stores) and is even having some releases related to these . . . So, can 'everyone/all regulars' here think about any/all your past traumatic/debilitating/difficult life circumstances/situations and then have the intention to ‘connect’ to these specific circumstances/times/events AND to then have the intention to connect to what these specific circumstances ‘here’ actually represented within the original MV . . . ‘AND’ then connect to any/all similar/equivalent circumstances/situations which you’ve lived/experienced within any past life/here . . . . . . and then use the latest focus below to target these specific times/incidents/events/circumstances!!!! NEW FOCUS VERSION 25th Jan: Targeting Ultra Transforming/Self Altering SHIT: I connect to absolutely anything/everything that has been designed to emulate advantages and of give any shit 'advantages' such that hacking this shit is difficult or impossible, shit that in various combinations and under certain conditions/circumstances have been specifically designed/refined/tested/optimised to work/function in very convoluted/miss-leading/constantly transforming and or generating fractal like aspects/sub aspects/functions/divergent functioning versions/aspects of itself and or otherwise functioning in ways to be as difficult to track/understand/decode/figure out never mind negate/neutralise/block . . . and or anything/any combination of components that we're specifically designed to emulate any type of advantages/advantaged abilities/characteristics and or 'functioning and particularly to avoid being tracked/hacked and or then compromised/combated/tamed/negated/disabled and or understood . . . and or generates any temporary and or compressed and or ultra compressed but 'still' able to generate functional components from these including as micro dot/coded data/information type components and or anything similar and or equivalent and or just temporarily/momentarily, and or any interacting reality foundation substrates and or any temporary non-normal 'pockets or strata's' of reality temporarily appearing and disappearing on the fly and or anything with similar and or equivalent functions/functioning abilities/objectives and or anything exhibiting eclectic/apparent randomised and or illogical/chaotic functioning and or that defines and or generates any dormant 'dust' or equivalent type data particle components that on when 'activated/wake up' do things under TXYZ conditions, and or as part of setting up circumstances to have knock-on and or long-term and or accumulative effects on specific people and or their environments/others connected to them and or anything/any combination of 'anythings' including temporary 'processors' that directly or indirectly define, re-write and or alter base reality functioning and or rulesets and or generate temporary versions of the same or similar anywhere/everywhere and or while modifying the base functioning/functionality of the components associated with it including switching from logic to anti-logic to variations of fuzzy logic and semi-logic and chaotic 'logic' and any switching Rubic's Cube type and or CrystalMaze like efforts and or any other variations of non-normal/abnormal functioning components and or that switches between these and or other variations/possibilities ALL THE TIME to make/keep itself as untrackable, none understandable/incomprehensible/bizarre/illogical and or fuzzy, chaotic, anti-logical/none logical etc, from one moment to the next, and then again the next moment and or use multiple conflicting logics/anti-logic variations and or anything else/any other combination simultaneously and or anything contributing to continually keeping it all transforming/altering any/all aspects of itself, it's functioning though time OLD VERSION. . . I connect to anything and or any components/combinations of components that have been, are now and or that would in the future contribute to indexing and or coveting/keeping hidden/obscured and or fire-walling, guarding, locking down and or screening access to my own or anyone else's trauma and or personal/persona/behaviour and or response data and or current incarnated life culture/society and or status/class/standing data for myself/each individual and or anything that is involved in contributing in the slightest to making up/defining specific angles of and or specific trauma/trt's and or trt impacts as well as deliberately traumatic/traumatizing 'releases' of any past traumas and or anything defining anything specifically to detrimentally mess with/degrade/make unhealthy/debilitate and or make traumatic anything of anyone's subtle self and or their avatar/current physical body and or any life experience/experiences and or how they I/others/anyone 'react' to and or are impacted in the moment and or made consciously or unconsciously pre-occupied and or reactive to any current and or past circumstance/situations/experiences/impacts/memories and or any imagination/imaginings relating to ANYTHING and or any combination of these and or anything that has been, is now and or could in the future prevent me from becoming aware of and or of accurately identifying anything/any component and or sub network/system and or network/system combinations (even temporary ones) and or anything representing these and or anything else and particularly anything made difficult to define/describe and or then difficult to accurately target!!!!
    • Clive January 22, 2020 at 12:48 pm on Anomalous Human Vision, Eye Sight Zooming & Freeze Framing Experiences DescribedHi Peter, well, as we are all copies of a high tech multi world/planet population now being 'simulated' as living on a 'shit' low tech single world such that a lot of peoples 'experiences' of many different types here a) just don't add up/don't make sense while b) in many instances are also difficult to figure out i.e. what 'science fiction' type scenario can you imagine that your 'original' version must have experienced that would have resulted in your specific freeze frame type experiences here Peter?!?!?!
    • Peter Smith January 22, 2020 at 7:21 am on Anomalous Human Vision, Eye Sight Zooming & Freeze Framing Experiences DescribedI have had one episode of freeze frame vision. While walking and looking around as normal, nothing happened. I had to go and visit my mother and found that rapid head movements resulted in freeze frame. I would be looking straight ahead and need to look left or right rapidly. I had to wait a few seconds while the images became normal time. This made driving difficult. It lasted for two days. The episode seemed to end while I was working on the PC. I was hit by this sudden and very strong dizzy spell. I was holding the desk with all my strength to stop from falling off the chair. This lasted about 1 minute. It all stopped as suddenly as it had started. Any ideas ?
    • Megan January 22, 2020 at 3:03 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshRe: Clive "Updated/best Focus + I’m busy doing ‘business’ accounts UUuhAAAAH!!!" When I first read this focus about half way through the words seemed to fragment in my head like the picture on a television screen when the signal is being interrupted, causing the video to distort through frames and the audio to skip. My head has felt bogged down and I have felt lethargic at times. It has been off and on since the new focus has come out. I’m reading a book on indigenous spirituality on have had trouble reading to the point where I would re-read sentences two to three times must so what I read would stick. I’m still having issues putting time and attention towards things I want to do, that all my time and energy are diverted elsewhere. I have this extreme focus or sensitivity towards other people and whether they need help or not, even if it is over the simplest things that they can do on their own I am always asking if they need help or something is wrong, and I know this habit gets on my roommate’s nerves, not to mention my co-workers. It drives me nuts because it’s not like these people are helpless and invalid. Feeling into these feelings of wanting to be helpful and supportive, I get ‘we don’t need your help.’ At this I am left wondering what the hell I am here for then. On the other hand though, when I am working with a team of people and have been given clear instructions and documentation on how to do something I still feel doubtful and insecure. For example, at work the other day, I was working in an area where I had to unbox and build items that would later be loaded into a rack used to control electronic signs. Well, I was still in training and there was a part on the cart that I had never had to unbox before and even though my standard operating procedure said to unbox everything except the power supply, I felt lost/thoughtless/unsure about it so I asked the technician assistant if I had to unbox it or not (sometimes I don’t know about this area. Nothing is really set in stone and things seem to be constantly changing or in flux.) While I didn’t quite feel the self-conscious, ‘you dumbass’ kind of feelings I usually get when I ask stupid, obvious questions, I still got the impression that he was fed up with the question. It’s like I can’t do anything without someone giving me a verbal confirmation or reassurance that what I read or had been told is right. Honestly, my world still feels so closed off and so small. I have little to no creativity or thinking outside of what I am told to think or do. I feel like a robot or a doll who needs commands/input from others just to do something, and even then it has to be done their way. I feel very logical/linear/one-track minded and that all of this seems to be closing in on me. Still have a tendency to ignore/repress/deny those things that tend to bug be or make me feel back. This has actually cleared up quite a bit. I realize that I have no interest in the job I have, or any job I have ever had, and none of them have ever been what I wanted to do. I noticed at work that all the issues I had regarding people I trusted or relied on that I projected into and played out through my stories are actually being projected onto my co-workers and it is helping me resolve these things faster. I noticed that a part of me wanted to know why people were behaving the way they were and why they were treating each other like shit. I get the impression that people were acting all wrong and it was this change or behavior that I didn’t understand that got me to investigate or try to do something about it. I still feel some skepticism towards spiritual issues. I’m becoming more away of certain non-physical things, but it is still like my monkey mind still needs undeniable evidence that this is indeed real and not some foolish/delusional fantasy I created to comfort myself. And that’s another thing. The more I try to talk about spirituality with other people the more I feel they think I’m talking about some figment of my imagination or they dismiss it or they thing I’m talking about whatever they are interested in, in my terms. I did the focus before going to bed, woke up sometime last night to images of 3D blocks moving around in space and it reminded me of the defragging process on a computer. Things are steadily getting better.
    • Clive January 18, 2020 at 2:07 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Shalin/Everyone . . . bit of an update . . . 'bottom line . . . it's all still 'on going' . . . ' Currently, we are still dealing with various yet more data cloud maintain personal data 'shit/trauma' versions. BUT, in that I've been 'having to do' my accounts/tax return for the end of this month, you might find the following interesting and particularly with respect to what this specific page is about/presenting!!! We had a 'cloud' maintain/block access/release of shit/trauma data version in the last few days that was focused on the criticisers/key people (i.e leaders) of none SNV culture 'key' peoples 'SMALLER' sub group of about 350 people, which 'now' seems to have been dealt with!!! However the next version that then kicked in, on checking I found was messing with the full 350,000 set of CR/KP . . . and on myself and Tom doing scans for this set we became aware that it's an 'ACCOUNTING' tree version . . . I've been puzzled that in our computer/data age everyone still has to keep and or print out all accounts/invoices/receipts etc onto bits or paper i.e. everything is still being recorded on 'BIT'S OF TREES' which also fits with the bottom/last part of the above page in that the 'Birth Certificate' i.e. a document directly referring to a specific person is also issued on 'paper' (as a WAREHOUSE STORAGE RECEIPT - haha), while all 'significant' aspects of your life are also recorded on bit's of tree too!!!! For example, University and College degrees/certificates too!!! Now, I've mentioned 'splits' on lots of pages here. Such that regular readers here will know that we are all subtle/spirit beings whom divide/split asexually to 'by and large' generate/propagate other versions of ourselves. Now, as this place/the EAAS was designed specifically to FO the entire none SNV population here AND most if not all efforts related to this are focused on the CR/KP . . . 'AND' you might have noticed that our earth population has pretty much always been expanding such that at the moment we've between 7/8 billion people here. So, if this place is 'really' just focused on FO just the CR/KP population then WHO ARE THE REST!!! In checking it turns out that the EAAS MVOS is and has been for a long, long time making more and more duplicates of the CR/KP. So, out of the 7/8 billion we have here now only about 6% of the earth population is made up of SNV people while ALL OF THE REST are actually duplicates of the 350,000 base CR/KP sub population i.e. likely everyone of you reading this has another 20,971'ish' other versions of yourself here. I.e. 94% of the current population is made up of just 350,000 subtle beings!!!! So, the smaller CR/KP sub group that other recent shit has been protecting which was of just 350 CR/KP was actually 'really' protecting 359x20,971'ish' in total!!! So, it's no wonder that we've been having problems trying to get access/hack the most recent/current shit as A) it's only protecting the data of 350,000 people (rather than 7ish billion (it'll be much easier to do this)) while then also likely confusing things with respect to 'variation' factors related to any different individual CR/KP's copies current incarnations race/culture/ethnicity/religion/status/job/personal circumstances etc etc’!!!! Bottom line, our specific MVOS EAAS version isn't functioning as any other 'normal' FOR ALL OF THE REST MVOS within the entire data system.
    • Shalin January 17, 2020 at 7:30 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, so I tried the focus 10-12 times during the past 2 days. After each time I read the focus I just lay there in bed with my eyes closed with no lights on in complete darkness and stillness. After not seeing/getting anything I re-read focus and repeat several times. After about 7 times doing the focus I got something about CCTV cameras in the ceiling corners of rooms (or what could be outside buildings) with electric/lightening strikes being used to inject shit into/maintain people. I don’t know where the CCTV cameras area though as in my parents house we have 3 cameras around the house but none of them are plugged in and none are placed in the ceiling corners (or on the outside) that I got after the focus. I also got something related to *lighting* - as if lighting systems was being used to inject/transmit/maintain shit in people. I tried to *feel* into it more but I can’t *feel* into it as you, Tom & Matt seem to be able to do but that doesn’t surprise me since I feel that I am LOCKED down… and can barely feel any positive emotion and feel like my entire abdomen is cutoff/empty/feelingless so that is invariably playing a major role in my not getting anything with focuses. I don't know if any of what I got is useful to you guys though. It doesn’t help that I have energy rising to my head raising my systolic blood pressure making my head feel like its going to explode, which makes it nearly impossible for me to focus/concentrate on anything. :’( During the last 5 years that I’ve been trapped in this physical symptom/imbalance hell I’ve wondered what happed that in April/2015 over night my symptoms/imbalances began in a binary event. Was it truly binary in that just at that time our MVOS was hacked by who knows what and for whatever reason I was selected to be one of those people to be fcked with OR was the April/2015 trigger just the end result of 38 years of accumulation of every trauma/negative-emotion/negative-experience that has been LOCKED in my subtle body since the day I was interfaced to this physical avatar?? My sense is it is the 2nd of the two possibilities given my crazy history and non-stop ferocious sexual appetite since a child. I will continue with this focus.
    • Clive January 16, 2020 at 7:24 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Shalin, 'YEA' there is a stressing/wearing emphasis re current/remaining shit . . . try new focus!!!!
    • Clive January 16, 2020 at 7:18 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshUpdated/best Focus + I'm busy doing 'business' accounts UUuhAAAAH!!! Current 'best' focus in use as part of the 'STILL' continuing investigations of our personal data stores 'shit' is this one: PERSONAL NEGATIVE/STRESSING IMPACTS ON MYSELF & MY LIFE CIRCUMSTANCES ” . . . I connect to absolutely anything/any combination or types of ‘shit’ that has in the past, is now and or would in future directly or indirectly contribute to coveting/protecting/maintaining personal data and or any trauma/pre defined behaviours/responses as well as of maintaining and or working to make worse specific internal to myself states/effects and or any difficult/complicated/stressing/stressful/wearing day in day out general ‘life/living’ circumstances and or particularly problems involving manipulating myself and or any others whom will either be in close proximity to myself and or I’ll directly interact with and particularly to discuss and or resolve my own personal and or living circumstances problems/difficulties/complications with ‘ANYONE’ and or anything circumstances setup in dreams and or otherwise designed to impact my subconscious . . . and or ‘anything’ that is by any means directly or indirectly contributing to maintain any internal or external ‘shit’ states/circumstances and or my personal data cloud/persona/shit data stores and or anything/any combinations of anything/anything’s that has or have been deliberately designed to work in ways that are different/difficult to become aware of and or access/track/figure out/understand and or anything that is using and or directly or indirectly collaborating with anything that is separate from anyone’s data/the data cloud and or which is covertly and or via any convoluted coding, signalling, messaging system is working to maintain myself/others/anything that I’ll likely pass close to and or directly interact with ‘sometime’ as part of efforts to maintain my own and or others shit/shit states and or prevent myself and or any others/anyone else from being able to easily access and or release trt’s/trauma and or any anything contributing to ANY of my limiting, stressing and or traumatizing life circumstances and or interactions with any others . . . “
    • Shalin January 14, 2020 at 2:20 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, it still feels as if sabotage efforts are continuing for me. During the past few days I've had: a) dream of x-girlfriend from back in 2001 (I was so fck'd up after the breakup) and it involved the same theme as if she wants to spend time with me as if to *re-kindle* what a romance. b) dream of income tax related conflicts/traumas Ive had in the past with the Canada Revenue Agency As well, since my imbalances are so severe that the smallest warming food/spice/herb can exacerbate my symptoms I've had an exacerbated situation this week and so I had to make a trip to the Chinese herbal store to purchase various herbs so I could calm the aggravation back to its baseline. So I was about to purchase the same herbs I always do BUT this time the herbalist convinced me to add in *Xi Yang Shen* (American Ginseng) because it is cold/cooling and nourishes the yin. I was surprised that there was a *Ginseng* that had a cooling effect as *Ren Shen* (Chinese Ginseng) & Siberian Ginseng are rather warming in nature and have a very strong Qi tonifiying property. I checked online and sure enough it said *Xi Yang Shen* was cold/cooling and yin nourishing. So I purchased some of *Xi Yang Shen* and added some to my formula (about 4% of formula) yesterday afternoon. Boy did I pay the price of that as it AGGRAVATED my symptoms even more. I read up further on *Xi Yang Shen* and it turns out that despite being cold/cool it still has a very strong Qi tonifying property and strenghtens the Chong Mai and Du Mai channels, which are channels whose energy flows UP AND I already have a problem with energy flowing UP from other channels (CV Channel). I also think by strengthening Chong Mai channel the LIVER/GB are also strengthened which is VERY BAD for my situation. So anyhow, it seems to me sabotage efforts continue for me OR that these sabotages are built into my personal data stores... just an FYI.
    • Olivia January 12, 2020 at 10:17 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Clive, so I’ve done the focus 4 more times. After the initial information re my last comment, tuning in was almost impossible this time. I could see, hear, feel, sense, know there was something coming...& then it was as if I was enveloped in a thick dense cloud which blocked out clear sight/sound/senses etc into what was going on. MASSIVE throbbing headache, eyes aching too. Had to stop. Dreams have been bizarre and in relation to my information being guarded / protected but I can’t remember them well, but I’m “busy” at night. I do not sleep without sleep aids/meds. Extreme irritability & feeling overwhelmed. I can feel all sorts of things going on to waste my time, exhaust me, keep me wired & ultra busy. I find this is often the case after I do any hacking. I feel compelled to do things / OTT planning for an upcoming trip/staying up late looking on the iPad - when id rather be meditating or reading...It’s also why I don’t do focuses as often as I’d like. Did another on 10/1/19 eve. I was suspended in a tight triangle box. I was on my own inside this tight insulated triangular “box”. It was surrounded by some sort of “sound proofing / dense foam”, & suspended by a strong thread; something above me, me in the middle and “earth or something similar” below. All these streams of white light carrying information were coming into this triangle box/me. Then I fell into this weird dream disturbed sleep I mention above: it felt as if I was a “fly on the wall” I guess, or “viewing in” (?) on “something” I shouldn’t be seeing. I’m on my January detox still and attended a hot yoga class yesterday to help me sweat. I definitely wasn’t connected to by body after 45 mins in. Very surreal. I came home & I then really started noticing/feeling weird shit going on in the “background” of my own thoughts. It’s as if I have a “hard drive” on standby mode with shit happening (updates/“virus checks”/push feeds (like when emails come into your inbox, they’re “pushed”. So you can opt for auto push or manual. This “stuff” is auto “pushing”). It’s as if I actually have a disc and disc drive in, and at the back of, my brain/skull that has separate thoughts/reactions to what I feel are my own thoughts/beliefs/feelings. I can hear lots of talking/whispering in code / language that doesn’t make sense or that I just can’t make out. It’s constant, very quiet & very fast. Later on I had a lie down / tune in whilst in my hammock - I like this because I feel like I’m “flying”. I was back in the triangle box, but now able to move about a bit. Then floating, swaying, rotating like a paraglider does coming down a mountain top. Then I was at the “bottom” (this “earth type” space), (but also still in this suspended triangle). When I moved my “consciousness” to where I was at the “bottom”, there were so many hands on me, so many people trying to touch me, stroke my hair, touch my arms, face. Old hands, young hands, female, male hands. It was horrible, I couldn’t get away, the crowd was so dense. Couldn’t see faces. I “came back” ‘up’ to the triangle & tried to remove this disc from my head. I felt nauseous trying to do this. Then very afraid. I could see a hole in my head (this was “presented” to me as a “consequence” if I removed it) and felt afraid that I would loose a lot of “ability/knowledge” or even perhaps “a part of myself”. I kept trying anyway, but it was jammed in. I could feel it in my subtle head. Had pain in my physical head where it was “sticking out” of my subtle head. I have wanted to post this twice, but then felt afraid / anxious to do that. Generally fear and anxiety are not natural state characteristics. So I’m going to post it anyway. Really weird experience! Hope it’s not a bunch of time wasting shit. X
    • sha January 11, 2020 at 7:30 am on Emulating a Hunter/Gatherer Exceptionally Varied Early Human Lifestyle & Evolution Supporting Diet!!!Hi Jack, i didn't have the difficulties with customs & the delivery delays that come with that, as i live in the UK. When holding the pot of multi-vits. i get a sense of 'good quality' from them ..... and as my daughter pointed out, they turn your pee 'bright yellow'. Unfortunately for myself, i find the capsules rather large & have difficulties swallowing them even with food. i did try emptying the capsules into water & drinking it that way, but found the taste too unpleasant. Once we have finished these minerals, i think i will go back to consuming the: Morningstar Minerals, Energy Boost 70, Fulvic Minerals, 32 fl oz .....as i found this product easy to use & 'health-giving' & as it's in liquid form it suits me better.
    • Clive January 7, 2020 at 6:48 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasHi Megan, it feels as if you are corralled/contained via influences passed or channelled via your co-workers that are part of this work 'line/flow' . . . also in checking I'm pretty sure that you are someone that 'criticised' the SNV lot, such that it then seems possible that the criticism was maybe about 'controlling/corralling' their people/the population and or maybe specifically females and or the type of working conditions they were subjected to!!! I don't know specifically BUT, it's something along these lines!!!!
    • Clive January 7, 2020 at 6:23 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Olivia, Mmmm, well from the above it's likely (it 'feels' like this too) that your original form was a leader and that this pact/promise type of thing directly involved while also tying you/making you beholden to a group and or community of people . . . hence then as a type of spell and or subtle network facilitated binding 'pact/promise' to SPECIFIC people it would then span these peoples personal/persona data stores too . . . I'm not surprised it's taken getting rid of all of the covering/distracting shit before this could be picked apart/properly tracked and understood before this!!! Hopefully it can be understood enough to be tamed/fully dealt with now!!!! RE site java script errors, you likely have a browser web page addon/popup blocker/disable ad type 'thing' that is also specifically disabling javascript . . . check these types of browser addon's and disable for this site!!!!
    • Olivia January 7, 2020 at 5:49 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Clive, thanks for the post & updated focus. Apart from still being exhausted, I’ve had a better month - not talking about much to anyone seems to keep sabotages slightly at bay. I tried the 2nd focus (updated one) three times yesterday. Difficult to do through the headaches and dizziness (am also doing my annual jan detox even though I don’t eat badly I’m general or drink much (compared to everyone else I know). Had to lie down immediately after eating lunch. I only managed to see vaguely through the fog, the first paragraph up to ‘guardian’. Initially there were a lot of feelings of tightness in my stomach, and lots of claws /witch hands, some sort of blood pact made on my abdomen (but my abdomen seemed to represent a “general to all people pact” rather than just mine. Then there seemed to be some sort of ethereal sticky web, but made of a flexible bubble type material that can shrink or expand. Each flat bubble seems to contain information. A bit like bubble wrap I guess, with each bubble containing information that is intended to make things difficult in some way. Like triggers I suppose now that I think about it a bit more. This web/flat bubble wrap is also invisible and ultra fine & 3D flat (can’t explain it any other way, perhaps like tiny SD cards?) It can feel like it’s tightly wrapped like “vacuum packed” but then when I notice that it’s “stuck around me tightly”, it moves away further back from me. It also moves quickly and dynamically in unpredictable ways. Very bizarre. Hardly slept last night, even with a sleeping tablet. Struggled to fall asleep then woken up 4 hours later. Could not get a handle on the thoughts/still my mind. It seems to be doing its “own thing” in the background. So either extreme exhaustion, sleeping for far too long, or not enough & then zero energy/patience. A lot still linked to my menstrual cycle too. Will try this focus again tomorrow. PS: I get this message almost every time I post a reply Javascript support must be enabled to leave comments. Error: Comment submitted too quickly. Error: The form had expired. Please reload the page and try again. When I click on links to comments, I’m always taken to the top of the page and have to scroll through everything to find it (though usually the most recent comments are on the bottom anyway), but if there are a number of new comments, I don’t get to them without starting at the beginning of the page (so takes a lot of time/feels like time wasting or diversion tactics - sometimes stops me from reading properly or up to date because I get too tired). PPS: I get A LOT of orbs in my photos. Very often. I’ve researched it briefly myself, but never come across the pages you’ve linked in, so thanks for those. I just got the sense they were subtle forms, so googled something to that effect. Thanks again for your hard work. If it’s difficult for us, I can imagine the shit you must get! Hahaha.
    • Clive January 7, 2020 at 12:23 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Shalin/Everyone, yes it's taking ages and AGES to get this 'personal data' focused shit dealt with!!!! FYI/INTEREST: I recently found someone pointing out anomalies relating to the subtle form as enthusiastically as myself from certain angles. He's obviously simulating a subtle form photographer as he's gazillions of subtle 'ORB' photographs on one of his web sites called ORBPRO. However, as he's then figured out that these relate to the subtle form (rather than the physical human/avatar/remote vehicle form) then he's compiled page after page of science anomalies related to the human animal avatar forms head/thinking abilities as well as memory storage and functioning too which is called HeadTruth.
    • Lisa January 7, 2020 at 11:06 am on An Exercise to Help you Engage With & to Learn to Communicate with Spirit BeingsAn Exercise to Help you Engage With & to Learn to Communicate with Spirit Beings. I tried this exercise and was very slightly moved forwards and very slightly moved backwards. Other than that I didnt feel anything.
    • Shalin January 6, 2020 at 4:18 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive - So I've done the new scan/focus about 8 times today. As usual, I'm not getting much. I know you guys are using some sort of AI to monitor us as we do focuses so not sure if any of it was helpful. I don't really think I got anything but various random thoughts popped in/out of mind. But nothing that I could pinpoint. I will keep trying though.
    • Clive January 5, 2020 at 6:12 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshNEW FOCUS/SCAN . . . Well we 'seem' to have got rid of the last FU/sabotaging/maintaining 'SHIT' set which means that we've now access to personal data stores!!! However, it seems as if we have manipulative 'shit' that actually been designed into the personal data within the personal data stores themselves to make accessing and more so releasing personal trauma/trt's i.e. personal shit more difficult than usual . . . so, can everyone use the scan/focus below, which will help us get a handle on these sabotages!!!! LATE AFTERNOON SCAN/FOCUS Try this new/different focus/scan version: ” . . . I connect to anything that is coveting/keeping hidden/hiding and or preventing normal access to release my trt’s/trauma and or persona/behaviours/attitudes and or that is acting as a gate keeper or ‘guardian’, to any aspect of myself and or anyone else/any others preventing myself from openly accessing persona data and any other/all aspects of the data that is defining myself, my persona and or any of my responses/reactions/attitudes and or behaviours and or anything that has details of and or is actively using absolutely any base MVOS system defects/vulnerabilities specifically in ways to give itself ‘advantages/super powers/super functioning abilities’ and or is otherwise limiting, controlling and or moderating my/our/anyone awareness of, understanding of and or is otherwise blocking full access to absolutely any facet of myself/me/my persona data and or is in the slightest contributing to blocking/making difficult the release of any of my persona data including any trt’s and or trt/trauma and or anything else of myself and or any combinations of these and particularly anything that has been/is now and or could in the future be used to control any of my internal and or subliminal and or external behaviours/reactions/actions/responses and or that could initiate any type of trigger and or anything that could or would directly or indirectly contribute to manipulate/manage/make myself/me/us/anyone automatically react and or respond/behave in certain very specific ways, and or under very specific conditions and particularly as part of achieving very specific immediate and or short or long terms outcomes/goals and particularly with respect to controlling, conditioning and or modifying the overt and or subliminal responses and or behaviours of myself and or others and particularly anyone reading/working with this/the above . . . “
    • Megan January 5, 2020 at 7:17 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshRe: Clive "Hi Megan/Everyone . . . I’m in obvious symptoms related to issue explorations which for myself are" 1-4-2020 That makes sense and explains a lot. Whenever I am at work, I always feel like I’m on a weird form of autopilot. I feel like I have blinders of some sort on my attention/awareness/intellect, kind of a ‘I don’t give a fuck anymore, just do the work, get it done, go home and leave me alone.’ I do the actions but I notice myself making a lot of, ‘commonsense, I should know better than to do this errors,’ and I feel ashamed, and silently judged/mocked/criticized by those who are watching or are around me. My head feels like it is full of cotton or static and like it is floating/swimming in thick sludge or soup. Thing is, I never experience this when I am working independently or am in charge of the process, but here at my ‘new’ job I am not either of these, and when I am at work I feel this ‘stay away from me, go away, leave me alone’ program/feeling looping in the background. I know part of this is because I have nothing in common with the others I work with but I’ve always kind of been that way. Stuck in certain ways, obsessed with certain things, never really branching out or trying new things. This has changed significantly over the years and I keep pushing and challenging myself to branch out, but sometimes I wonder/feel if I’m not doing it in the right way. Also, there has been some things that have been happening for a while that I can’t explain. The first is whenever I am writing something I have a habit to insert wrong letters when writing out words at random. For example, I went to a yoga class today and writing out a check for a punch card, I put ‘Youga Class’ in the memo field instead of yoga. I am not dyslexic and at first I thought it was I was because sometimes I happen to think faster than I write and will start writing the word I am thinking of at that moment instead of the word I intended to write. Second, I notice that I am not keeping track of conversations or getting lost confused about the topic the other person is discussing. For example, after yoga class today I stopped at a coffee shop on the same block where I also happened to meet up with one of the students from the class who was a minister who deals with grief, loss, death, sickness, etc. We were talking about the problems he was having with his neck from a car accident as a child and how he received acupuncture to treat it. He then went on to talk about all the negativity he receives from people and I thought he was talking about receiving negativity from people because he did acupuncture, not because he dealt with peoples’ negativity on a regular basis and it caused hypertension in his neck. Even when writing all of this I get this ‘who gives a fuck’ feeling that doesn’t see this as a problem or even wants to fix it.
    • Megan January 4, 2020 at 8:17 pm on Self Healing, Self Exploration EXERCISE SET-9 : Targeting the Timing, Order & Sequencing of Scripted Experiences/Events/TraumasSo I read the 'Super' targets 'Everything' on the evening of 1/3/2020. So here is a bit of background into what I saw. I work in a rather small room that faces north to south with a garage door on the south end with two doors on the east and west sides, one set on the north side, one set on the south side. The flow line of how we make and build our products starts at the south end, travels along the west wall to the north and then back down the east wall where it exits out the south garage door, a 'U' turn you could say. My station is at the very north end of the room at the turn of the U, and on 1/3/2020, I was working in that station on my own that day and to be honest, it all felt a little weird. Doing the 'Super' focus, on top of the newest focus Clive provided, I saw my workstation as some kind of dark, isolated corner, and I saw myself as kind of stuck or huddled there, scared and uncertain, looking out at my supervisor and the rest of my co-workers in the other stations of the room who were positioned there as gate keepers trying to keep me from getting out.
    • Stijn January 4, 2020 at 3:32 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HerePossible evidence of some people here simulating someone that was a physical animal form that had a tail (maybe even someone interfaced to a dragon)!!!! Man with 5.5-inch horn growing on his back: https://arstechnica.com/science/2020/01/5-5-inch-dragon-horn-grew-out-of-mans-back-from-unaddressed-skin-cancer/ Also, it looks like it felt natural to the guy or at least it didn’t disturb him, cause: 1) he did not go see a doctor to treat it until it reached 5.5 inches. 2) “Also unusual, his lymph nodes weren’t swollen—a common, nonspecific sign that the body is fighting off an infection or disease, such as skin cancer.” –> this means his body didn’t see it as anything unusual or a threat.
    • Shalin January 4, 2020 at 2:44 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, thanks for the update & Tom's feedback. Much appreciated. So I take it when you say *gut/abdominal* area it also includes the liver/gallbladder and all organs of the abdomen. The main problem appears to be with whatever locked feelings are contributing to the blockages/congestion in the liver/gallbladder - at least it appears that way to me... but there could be more involved like a complex web of locks from all the feelings/emotional traumas I've experienced. My heart seems to be involved in some way as well and likely related to the locks imposed on it from all the heart-ache/break I've experienced. I also have tremendous kidney/adrenal pain/heat (right side), pelvic tenderness/pain/congestion & significant deterioration in breathing/lungs but that could be because of the domino effect from all the other blocks/imbalances (liver/gallbladder I suspect) but could be due to its own set of locks from grief/sadness related traumas/feelings (I've had so many). Its all one big cluster-f$k in my body. I notice from time to time that *random* some combination of Chinese herbs tend to move my liver/gallbladder qi/energy to give me a tiny bit of relief in breathing but it is very brief and never lasts - it usually reverts within hours or over night.
    • Annabelle January 4, 2020 at 2:40 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshI have always been very close to trees and feel I need to take care of them. The trees in my yard are doing better than most trees in the city, and I have had arborists ask me what am I doing that they are so healthy? During my habitat restoration work, I felt bad for trees that were infested with carpenter ants, and did what I could to help get rid of the ants. I also recall being on tours in parks, etc. where the guides suggested we try to see the faces in the trees. I see many people and companies cutting down trees now and wonder what is going on. Some say the trees are dying but others say people just think the trees are in the way. I also like to look for very old trees – 100-200 years old – and have a tremendous respect for them (unfortunately with the reset - most of them are gone or intentionally cut down to hide history). In other areas I am bombarded with constant immediate bizarre emergencies, house issues, medical, family issues and car issues. Four family members are extremely ill al of a sudden with no explanation for their decline in health. I often said I don't let much bother me, but I feel I have met my match. I volunteer at a charity and help a very senior little old lady. She is eternally picky, negative and criticizes everything I do, and it rewinds in my head all day and drives me crazy. I have worked with her for one year and finally told myself I need to reject all of her attempts to psychologically manipulate me.
    • Clive January 3, 2020 at 1:06 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Shalin/Everyone spleen/stomach i.e. 'abdomen/gut' areas represent 'feelings' hence then you've had your subtle feelings/states locked down/making it difficult for you to 'be in touch with yourself'!!!! lso, some of the recent shit sets were directly related to the myths of different cultures, here's part of a hacking update from Tom (we've got rid of these now) . . . ” . . . I do the focus ten more times and feel connections to something which is sticky, like long strands of mucus, and become aware of floating nets which seem to fade in and out of reality. Then I have vague, confusing impressions of something with scales “birthing” something / an orifice / various other weird things and then a sort of scaly winged creature on a throne. Next I see distributed jewels, and then it’s like a net appears, which the jewels are part of, and it feels like Indra’s net (Hindu god). I see beams of light appearing / being shone from random points in space, then see a white light, like a sun, with what look like remote controls floating outside it, which seem to be able to produce the light. I engage with a giant ball of dung rolling through space, which seems to be getting larger as it rolls, and then see dung beetles pushing it – it feels like this represents ‘shit’ / collecting more shit as time goes on, maybe by putting people in trauma and then collecting those trt’s and adding them to the other pre-existing ones. It feels like I’m on drugs / some kind of acid trip or dreaming, when I ‘see’ things at the moment. I see carpet around the edge of my HUD, crackling with static electricity, and sometimes bolts of this shoot into space and do something. It feels like there’s something behind / under the carpet which is doing this. Next I see many weird geometric shapes forming. These seem to be made of numbers. A short time later, I continue doing the focus and see what feels like a meteorite. Hacking is very weird this morning. I have no clue about anything I’ve connected to and it feels like I’m on drugs / just seeing random images . . . then later . . . . . . i do the focus 5 times. see many copies of me arranged around me in a self-adjusting mandala formation. being used to pass shit into me. lightning storm going on between all the different copies of me / exchanging information, passing in influences in fractionated ways. then i see them fold back into me like a concertina, then fold out from me again temporarily, are used to apply some shit and then fold back into me again / like each time, they only exist momentarily / for a split second . . . “ In that we seem to have maybe an Egyptian scarab Beetle (which is associated with a specific Egyptian God) as well as a Hindu God mentioned and then later we have Mandala’s i.e. likely Buddhist, then I do some scans for shit that was converted into tech/systems forms of these of any other migrated to another MV’s ‘advanced’ cultures and or of people from these ‘migrated’ cultures that they copied and pasted to have them ‘design’ shit using there own cultures approaches . . . which gets hits!!!!
    • Clive January 3, 2020 at 12:56 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshHi Megan/Everyone . . . I'm in obvious symptoms related to issue explorations which for myself are particularly focused on embedded background stress/trauma type release efforts. Basically we seem to be 'cracking' at least some peoples 'locked down/maintained' shit/trauma states, which I'm pretty sure is what is going on with you Megan based on your descriptions in this and your previous comment . . . I'm pretty sure that we have no more independent 'maintain' shit states versions/backup stores, but we do seem to have shit trying to block/present/make it difficult to access the final personal/persona data store which is what defines/holds detrimental 'states, behaviours, attitudes and responses'!!!!
    • Clive January 2, 2020 at 5:39 pm on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISES-1+2: Accessing Eyesight/Vision Enhancement, GUI, Heads Up Displays, Controls & OptionsHi Sal/everyone . . . in literally just thinking about logging into soul-healer.com to reply to your comment, my computer blue screened (2nd time in 24 hours after a month or so of not having any problems) . . . current 'shit' version/versions are both desperate and ultra sophisticated . . . in that I'm also having weird problems re realitywalker.com . . . in that clicking on any 'category/topic' doesn't take you to a list of those pages but to the site home page!?!?!?! In other words, it's presenting an exceptionally weird FU/Error/windup/distractions . . . so, I'm not that surprised at the starkly blatant/direct put off's that you're experiencing just trying to read pages here!!! I actually think that the current EAAS 'morphing' shit version may actually be piggybacking onto/using internet/cable and wireless to maintain access to everyone!!!
    • sal January 2, 2020 at 5:08 pm on Human Implants Exploration EXERCISES-1+2: Accessing Eyesight/Vision Enhancement, GUI, Heads Up Displays, Controls & OptionsI would like to remark on something I am reading through all these pages on this website with great interest. I will do these exercises at a later time. but something odd is happening reading through some pages I start to get these bad headaches I close my eyes and the first time i heard a whisper. dont read this. to which I responded fuck you and the headache went away. then later on was reading other articles I got a headache again closed my eyes and heard you shouldn't be reading this. stop reading this. opened my eyes then my headache went away again. very interesting to be sure. when trying to leave this comment first my phone died. then u had page errors as well the second time.
    • Shalin January 1, 2020 at 3:43 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshClive, so I've been doing the focus a few times today despite feeling blocked. After doing my latest session, I had this impression that my severe imbalance(s) may be because of the extreme fear/worry/fright/anxiety trauma episodes I've repeatedly had in my adult life i.e. related to HIV/STDs, losing money, fears of rejections in romantic relationships etc. In the 5 element Chinese Medicine imbalance cycle - the Liver & Spleen/Stomach have a feedback relationship whereby the Wood element (Liver/GallBladder) controls the Earth element (Spleen/Stomach). Here is a chart: http://www.cmaconweb.org/articles/2018/1/3/images/ChinMedCult_2018_1_3_127_249577_f8.jpg I got this impression that all my fear/worry traumas have substantially weakened my Earth Element (Spleen/Stomach) to such an extent that the normal amount of Wood energy that is spent on controlling the Earth Element no longer needs to be spent on the Spleen/Stomach because they are weak. The end result being then there is excess energy stuck/congested /blocked in the Wood element (Liver/Gallbladder). So I'm thinking that those fear traumas are being maintained such that the Earth element (sp/st) remain in the weakened state thus perpetually congesting/blocking the Wood element (Liver/Gallbladder). I know I'm usually blocked from seeing anything with the focuses but that is the impression I got. I know its nothing to do with the crazy brute force shit but just relaying over what I got.
    • Megan December 31, 2019 at 3:12 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshNotes from the old focus from this morning. 'I think I'm becoming shrewder in a way. I feel a pressure in my heart center and I got the impression that I tried to lock my heart away not out of pain/heartbreak/betrayal, but for some other reason. Energetic deficiency? Am I not taking in a critical energy that is leading me to eat more/different things to make up for it?' Trying this new focus throughout the day I don't necessarily get anything, but I get the impression that what is being targeted is ultra, super fine. I pulled something in my lower back shoveling snow today, and while it hurts, I think it did more 'good' because it felt like something emotionally/energetically broke lose, and while I was laying on the floor with an ice pack on my back I felt into the pain for a bit and 'saw' someone 'working' on my lower back. I've been kind of sensitive for the rest of the day since then, but sitting here just kind of feeling that I can kind of feel my own mental resistance towards it kind of a 'stand your ground or die trying' thing. This makes me realize that I never really give or gave a lot of things that I have tried or done in life a chance, that I have been more results or outcomes oriented than anything. Thinking on this the thought comes up, 'I wanted to help, and I wanted what I could do to help. But I couldn't do what I wanted and help the way I wanted to. I had to do it their way or not at all.'
    • Clive December 30, 2019 at 4:51 pm on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshUPDATED FOCUS VERSION: It's using system vulnerabilities (brute forcing etc) to be able to do impossible things/function in impossible ways . . . ” . . . anything acting as a gate keeper or ‘guardian’, and or has details of and or is actively using absolutely any base MVOS system defects/vulnerabilities specifically in ways to give itself 'advantages/super powers/super functioning abilities' and or is otherwise limiting, controlling and or moderating awareness of, understanding of and or is otherwise blocking full access to absolutely any facet of ITSELF/IT'S FUNCTIONING and or is contributing to keeping hidden/obscured it's selection/choice of and or means of deployment of any trt’s and or trt combinations and particularly any representing any type and or combinations of trauma, fears, stress, tension, insecurity and or anxiety or absolutely any ‘behaviour, reaction/action and or automatic response and or trigger’ and or absolutely anything else that has already been and or could or would be used to manipulate/make myself/me/us/anyone automatically react and or respond/behave in certain very specific ways, under very specific conditions and particularly as part of achieving very specific immediate and or short or long terms outcomes/goals and particularly with respect to controlling, conditioning and or modifying the overt and or subliminal responses and or behaviours of myself and or others and particularly anyone reading/working with this/the above . . . “ ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Part of a hacking update from Tom giving you some idea of how sophisticated the current shit version actually is . . . " . . . I do the focus five more times and there's nothing at first . . . then very gradually, it begins to feel as if the structure of reality is somehow 'crystalline' . . . then I engage with what feels like a crystal maze which seems to exist only for a hundredth or a thousandth of a second, and then disappear again, and this crystal maze seems to be made OUT of specific people, so that each person is sort of representing or part of a specific local network of tunnels, which then leads into other tunnels. It feels as if it could be their 'trt's / pre-defined persona behaviours / interactions' which together, make up this maze. Ahhh, in writing that it feels 'clearer' somehow, I was wondering how a person can be / represent tunnels in a maze, but a pre-defined behaviour takes someone from one place to another, and a pre-defined interaction takes two or more people from one place to another, and since it's all PRE-DEFINED, then it's like a defined 'tunnel' taking one or more people from A to B or C to Z. So it feels as if people's trauma and pre-defined persona behaviours and interactions are stored as part of this crystal maze, which also feels as if it could be advantaged / it definitely seems to be off the radar most of the time, and it's like it then appears again temporarily / does what it needs to / adjusts people, and then disappears again. As I continue with the recursive focuses, it feels like there are other variations of this ultra-secure, locked down "safe" component behind the scenes, which are keeping other macros / components off the radar. Now it feels like there are many more of them - I see these "safes" all over the place on my HUD [Tom has an internal 'Heads Up Display' that's used to present 'VERY' relevant details/important information (in a 'visual/understandable/real time' context) from a 'hacking/hackers' perspective]. But it feels like they're not macros now, but SUB-FUNCTIONS of other, more dominant macros, like something added in to modify or adjust the functioning of specific macros under specific TXYZ conditions. This could fit with what I felt in relation to the "safe" component, that it's working to keep the macro / macro sub-function as hidden as possible, and that the macro / macro sub-function could also be temporary. Again this feels like there could be something in the actual macro code - either that, or there definitely seems to be a lot of macro shit behind the scenes in the EAAS. As I feel in more, I begin to experience these macro sub-functions in a more "interconnected" way, and now it feels like they're all part of a wider network of macro code, or it feels like when these macro sub-functions are in the "safes", they're not strictly "part of the macro code", but dormant, potential parts of it / things which could adjust it at some point in the future, and manoeuvre its functioning towards SNV objectives. I begin to experience these (often hidden / dormant) macro sub-functions as integrated STRATEGICALLY into the wider macro code, then as a distributed, fractionated and ultra-compressed and locked down network . . . it's like a piggybacking network which has been designed with a deep understanding of how the overall macro code works, and how to compromise it / alter it in imperceptible ways with the least amount of adjustments / alterations. So this part "deep understanding of how the macro code works" makes me think about designs and VR testing of this shit, and that maybe they would have had to set up temporary MV's or 'similar' to test out how to adjust the macro code the way they wanted . . . "
    • Megan December 30, 2019 at 7:24 am on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & Patterns12-29-19 Reading the focus a couple times this morning I didn't get anything. Reading the focus again tonight I get flashbacks of a conversation I had with my mother this morning. My brother's birthday is tomorrow and she was asking why I had not sent my brother a card a week ago or so, and I felt something trigger that has honestly been bugging me all day (in retrospect, I wonder if the event wasn't triggered because of the exercises I did the night before and this morning.) Reflecting more on this triggered feeling I get, 'Someone relied on me. That is what hurt the most, and I didn't want to let them down.' All my life she has always done this passive-aggressive, indirect way of asking me for things that honestly make me out into a bad, thoughtless, insensitive person. I caught hell for not guessing and doing what she was 'asking' when I was younger and I would become this simpering, terrified, pathetic thing trying desperately to appease her angry God and the thing is it never worked. I never got any reconciliation (and yeah, I'll admit, there was a time that she wanted to resolve things and make it better, but I was too pissed off and resentful to her and the role of 'spouse/mother' I had to play in the fucking household to an adult child. I also remember that I was reading a lot of things about child abuse that made the abusers into heartless monsters, not only that but I was seeing a counselor who always pushed for me to get away from her and wouldn't encourage any form of communication or reconciliation either. Now, I try and make this dismissive, offhanded, 'oh-busy-and-forgetful,' lie to make her stop asking questions and stop pressing me when deep down I would really like to give her a piece of my mind (a lot of internal, bottled up rage from childhood type thing.) The thing is I know a lot of her behavior stems from her childhood where she suffered from some severe emotional/mental abuse/neglect (she was the middle of three children. Her older brother was loved and adored, and her little sister was a spoiled brat...I may have even mentioned this in comments previously.) When I was younger and would wind up in an emotionally vulnerable situations, instead of being that empathetic parent I often read about in child psychology books, she would dump her baggage on me as a form of 'empathizing,' and I see now the sim used these moments to wound me by passing her trauma onto me. But being the child I was and wanting to make it all better and fix it, I would give her things or try to make up for these things she lacked in life. Funny thing is, as I got older and still had those moments where things are feeling shitty but you still need ‘a mom’ to make it better, she would ignore it and dismiss it, or say I had too much baggage. Honestly, of all the things she ever complained about me for, I have never once asked her why she was never the adult. Why didn't she say no? Why didn't she stop me? For some reason I always felt like the one in the wrong in all of this because I could never make it right. I see what I could only describe as puppet strings tied between me and her, and everyone I have ever felt any sort of pain/lack/need/trauma from and I get, ‘I don’t want other peoples’ pain to keep jerking me around like a puppet.’ I can see now none of this was something we are at fault for, but it still makes dealing with it is kind of frustrating. Next my thoughts drift back to my fanfiction and from an external/other people perspective I feel scorn and rejection for some reason, and as much as I want to press on and keep going, part of me wants to wait until all of this is over and ‘outside’ of this Hell to do these things because then I will be able to determine for myself from a clear, un-fucked perspective whether these are things I really made for myself or whether they are things the sim ‘created’ to mess with me. In a way, it isn’t about the stories at all, it’s about the fact I can create them. Kind of like how JK Rowling came up with Harry Potter after seeing a boy on a train (or at least I think that was what the article read) I can see/hear/experience something and create a story I fall in love with. I also realize that I have been eating out and snacking more for the energy. These focuses can sometimes knock me out to the point I just want to melt into whatever I’m laying on, but the pick me ups help me bounce back faster.
    • Megan December 29, 2019 at 6:00 am on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsClive, I just want to say the best presents I ever get for Christmas are when you post a new page or focus, so thank you. First read through I get nothing. Second read through I get flashbacks of staying up late to read this Self-Exploration exercise and just how exhausted and drained I felt immediately afterwards and still feel even now. Thinking on my continuing exhaustion throughout the day today, I'm wondering if it isn't some kind of management thing to keep me disengaged and distracted. By the end I see all the things I want to see and want and do in this life, and can't help crying because I've tried, but have never been able to really get started much less stick with it or even finish. I put up the fight and energy to push through and get the work done, but I have nothing to show for it but disappointment in myself and broken beginnings. I now wonder if I will still be able to do these things once all this is over and whether they will still even matter. Taking a breather before round three I get an image of me standing up to my supervisor (who for the record is a Christian,) but rather boldly and loudly. I no longer feel cowed or intimidated anymore, and on an even deeper level, it's like I don't need money or status or worldly things to define me or support me anymore. Any more readings don't result in anything, so I will try again tomorrow. But on an note, my roommate returned from being away with family this last week, and those feelings of wanting to join her family or being a part of a family came back and I realized that they, for the most part, were coming from her, but they aren't her feelings. I know Clive has mentioned management efforts between individuals and groups before, but this feels a lot like the whole 'join my culture/civilization thing.'
    • Shalin December 29, 2019 at 4:40 am on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsClive, I've tried a few times but get nothing - but that is not surprising considering I've always got nothing in all your focuses. In the past there were 1 or 2 focuses where I thought I got something but now that I think more about it I think it was more that I *wanted to get something* than actually getting anything. I even tried focuses to target any security/lock-down apparatus but that also shoots blanks. The sim is locking me down completely, security and all.
    • Clive December 29, 2019 at 1:39 am on Historical Past Language Based Evidence of Ourselves as an Immortal Soul Form Incarnated into FleshEverything is very, VERY mixed up here in insane ways Jessica, as the EAAS is about re-programming everyone, then we all also have versions of ourselves interfaced to pets too, hence then most pets seem more responsive and or intelligent than they actually 'really' are (or 'should' be).
    • Anne December 28, 2019 at 9:53 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsWow, Tommy is talking about dust, I'm reading 'His Dark Materials' as it feels like it echoes the false god stuff /controlling reality stuff. There is a description of going to the place of the dead which is like a refugee camp and people have been fooled that this is what the afterlife is. To me this place of the dead sounds like here. So I think you're saying the MV that created this simulation is so weird that it might be inconceivable to other MV's there's even life down here! Then also I felt like our souls are deliberately being destroyed cut off (like the child-/deamon cutting machine use to ensure 'dust' / original sin doesn't collect around the children). Losing consciousness by trapping it 'here in the simulation' seems to be like the same thing - trying to make us into zombies and reverbing back onto our subtle selves causing rebellion/trouble to the establishment (Magisterium). I'm not very good at directly seeing stuff but wanted to mention the Dark Materials Books as it draws on mythology gods etc.
    • Clive December 28, 2019 at 5:37 pm on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsHi Megan/All regulars read & use the focus below . . . We've been dealing with the very same 'ball/cloud of shape shifting shit' for about a month now, i.e. it 'seems as if' we've maybe actually got to the last of the last version of shit BUT unfortunately it's exceptionally sophisticated/complicated compared to any/all previous shit versions . . . so, if anyone wants to 'help' harass/worry this specific shit version then use the focus/scan below . . . any 'impressions' you get while using this leave a comment below too . . . !!! ” . . . anything acting as a gate keeper or ‘guardian’, and or is otherwise limiting, controlling and or moderating awareness of, understanding of and or full access to absolutely any facet of ITSELF and or anything contributing to keeping hidden/obscured it's selection/choice of and or means of deployment of any trt’s and or trt combinations and particularly any representing any type and or combinations of trauma, fears, stress, tension, insecurity and or anxiety or absolutely any ‘behaviour, reaction/action and or automatic response and or trigger’ and or absolutely anything else that has already been and or could or would be used to manipulate/make myself/me/us/anyone automatically react and or respond/behave in certain very specific ways, under very specific conditions and particularly as part of achieving very specific immediate and or short or long terms outcomes/goals and particularly with respect to controlling, conditioning and or modifying the overt and or subliminal responses and or behaviours of myself and or others and particularly anyone reading/working with this/the above . . . “ ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Below is some feedback from Tom, using different versions of the above . . . "I become aware of what feels like clouds of dust being blown around in the background, and again it feels difficult to 'trace' where these come from, but they seem to be being generated as part of passing data around / temporary systems of networks to keep everything updated on what this shit 'system' is doing . . . (it seems like we could start to give this shit a run for its money now / get it worried) . . . I have the impression of many 'layers' one behind the other and all working in different ways so far . . . I do recursive focuses and connect to what feels like an organic processor in a distributed 'physiology', then do the focus five more times . . . behind this, I become aware of what feels like a mass of chaos, non-normal components interacting in random, bizarre and extremely unpredictable ways across a mish-mash of convoluted and ever-changing dimensions, it feels like a Rubik's cube and also like an Eschar maze . . . it feels as if this shit is getting weirder and weirder the more I hack it / the more layers which get exposed, like this is now closer to its 'real' functioning (ie, entirely 'non-normal' MV functioning) and the other layers were more just like smoke-screens / cannon fodder to try and keep this more fundamental shit hidden / obscured . . . I do the focus five more times and become aware of what feels like an omnidirectional hyper dimensional consciousness, it feels like quicksilver and seems to be running at an extremely high 'rate' / frequency"
    • Megan December 28, 2019 at 11:57 am on Self Exploration / Investigation EXERCISE SET-7 – Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & PatternsThings have been weird here lately, and I've been encouraged to do this focus. To put something in perspective, to help facilitate myself I have learned to 'talk to myself' through writing. So if it seems like I am talking directly to someone, I'm usually talking to myself, addressed as 'You' in this case. I am sorry if my own responses to myself are a distraction, and hope this makes sense. I see images of a significant other I only really see in my fantasies who means the world to me deep down. ‘Someone was in charge of protecting You. You trusted them, and the sim used that bond/connection/thoughts/feelings/memories to fuck you up. Your grief ruined my life!’ I’ve been trying to be a ‘human,’ but I don’t think I am. I guess for everything that I did or was, for everything that I could do, I learned to scorn or condemn it. I was forced to ignore or dismiss it -anything- You acknowledge/knew/loved/could do/??? I am all You have to really rely upon now? I saw and felt the expectations/wants/longing/desires I had of significant others. The Prince Charming/Knight in Shining armor types who would rescue me and protect me and be by my side forever (Happily Ever After,) and I feel like I can’t apologize enough for my greed and ignorance and selfishness. Really, what is so noble and heroic and romantic about saving someone from their own crap at the cost of your own happiness and freedom? I remember taking a walk a few days ago through a residential district where the walking/bike trail snaked through the backyards, and I stopped at a particular junction underneath a pine tree because the area felt different from the other places I had been and I thought, ‘there is something here.’ I didn’t stay long though because the temperature was dropping and I didn’t want to attract attention, but I want to go back and investigate. Panic and anxiety and self-doubt/reproach set in. ‘I need to do research. I’m not good enough. I don’t know enough. What if it is my loneliness/wishful thinking? What if I’m wrong? I’m not good enough or worthy enough to know.’ These thoughts and feelings spiral down into my own damaging sense of self-worth where I’ve tried to be good enough and valuable enough and worthy enough in human society, but for everything I have done or tried doing or have wanted to do, and I’m left with a vision of me curled up into a ball in a dark corner trying to keep the world and others away from me. I’m reflecting upon how much have eaten out in the last week and I feel a light, demanding/needy tug between my heart and solar plexus. ‘You get something You need from eating out so much, don’t You?’ I am reminded of my Lindsey Stirling experience and how my feelings of familiarity and desperation and loneliness scared me because they reminded me of those obsessive stalker types who believe there was something between them and the stars they followed when there never really was anything there to begin with. Taking a breather before I start on the last focus, I realize that for a part of myself, all it wants is a little pampering and nurturing for all the ‘hard work’ it’s done. Of being the fighter it has been against the world. Of trying to be strong/independent/isolated/cut off/from my mother/parents/family/friends so I would no longer need or want them in any way shape or form or no longer be a burden. I realize the me here has been acting as a ‘peacekeeper’ and ‘diplomat’ between my real thoughts and feelings, and the people I have had to deal with all my life who have either fed me ‘positive happy thoughts’ bullshit or flat out told me to ‘let it go, grow up and move on.’ Part of feels/believes in treating people fairly with a level head, like adults who want to resolve their problems rather than fortify their own issues, but honestly being open-minded and compassionate in my experiences has never worked. And I’m quite frankly tired of handling people with kid gloves, but I fear the emotional/energetic backlash of their pain and anger more than anything else. I am reminded of my roommate and why I originally agreed to move in with her. The immediate thought and intention that comes to mind (and note she and her family are all Christians, while I am not) that I was trying to find/belong/fit in with a ‘family,’ which (since I have know this family in a way since I was a kid) I hoped it would work out the way I wanted. I now realize the real intention is to find all the things that make me subservient/submissive/brainwashed/vulnerable to their will/beliefs/wants/needs/whatever in order to be a part of their group and to be accepted and fit in. Reflecting on this I realize I’m more afraid of being alone and lonely, but I have never felt lonelier than when trying to fit in. I remember all the fanfiction, porn and romance novels I used to read and watch because they were safe. They kept me safe and sane and my fantasies allowed me to be with whoever I wanted (no strangers, usually fantasy characters who matched my criteria and I was familiar with) without feeling overwhelmed or consumed or hurt. I am reminded of a story I thought of where the main character, and his ancestors, had the gift of calling The Storm through dancing and music. He told the tale of how his mother, who had taught him, had become arrogant of the gift after she first learned and tried to call the storm back too soon. For the rest of the season it did not rain. Now her family and the others knew what she did, were not angry. They were sympathetic and understanding, and others had done the same thing before and had learned the same lesson, but the girl was beside herself and found a way to make things right. But for me, there was only punishment. I see myself laying down on the floor on my side with tears running down my face, physically numb and motionless, but emotionally crippled with grief, pain and anguish on the inside.
    • Megan December 28, 2019 at 5:16 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!From the book “The Spirit World” by the editors of Time-Life books. Copyright 1992 Page 14: “For some tribes, the powers that control the universe and all its beings take the form of deities. In other cultures, the powers have no defined shape or form but are simply mystic energies.” Page 53-54: “In the beginning, Indian legend affirms, animals and humans spoke the same language. The animals took care of the humans, bringing them fruit, vegetables, and water to drink. During the winter, when the food was scarce, they even sacrificed their own flesh so that the humans would survive until spring brought new life to the land. Using their innate ability to predict changes in nature, they would inform the humans of coming storms or seasonal shifts in the weather so that the necessary preparations could be made. In time, however, people began to enslave the animals and abuse them…The humans also set animal against animal…Worst still, humans robbed the animals, snatching their winter stores of food. Eventually, the animals tired of the mistreatment and punished the ungrateful humans by going off to live by themselves and refusing to speak the same language. People were left to fend for themselves. “Despite the rift that developed between animals and humans, the bond between the two groups remained strong in the context of legend and lore – so strong, in fact, that Native American languages do not even have words to distinguish the concepts human and animal. Early in the 20th century, when an outside asked the Achumawi people of California what their word was for animal, he was told they did not have one. When pressed, they could only offer a phrase meaning “the beings that are world-over, all-living,” a description encompassing humans as well as animals- and even rocks, which the Achumawi also believed were alive. The Achumawi did have a term for people of European descent, however, a word signifying tramps. From the perspective of the Achumawi, the Europeans seemed to be divorced from the natural world and its creatures and thus appeared homeless.” Page 68 “So close was the bond between humans and animals that many Native American legends told of creatures who formed clans of their own in hidden camps or villages, where they returned to live after they died of natural causes or were killed. Within these villages, the animals removed their fur and feathers and looked and acted like humans. ‘The greatest peril of life lies in the fact that human food consists entirely of souls,’ explained an Iglulik hunter of the Far North in the 1920s. ‘All the creatures that we have to kill and eat, all those that we have to strike down and destroy to make clothes for ourselves, have souls, souls that do not perish with the body’.” A lot of Indian creation myths involve water. Is water symbolic of something found in the subtle, like the various energies there itself that the subtle body relied upon for nourishment, or something else?
    • Megan December 27, 2019 at 8:19 am on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!So then are the myths and legends of the ancient gods we know of here in the EAAS all a part of the agenda to make these beings look bad? Is the fact that they are labeled ‘Gods’ (I tried to find it, but I believe that Rose left a comment stating that there were no Gods,) just another one of those FU efforts of the subtle leaders and those who followed and relied on them kind of like the Game of Thrones thing you mentioned in a previous comment? I’ve done some research of the ancient deities of Ancient Greek and Roman in the past, and like Tommy has pointed out, most of them were self-absorbed, jealous pricks. The legends of Medusa and Arachne from Ovid's Metamorphoses come to mind.
    • Clive December 26, 2019 at 4:49 pm on Subtle Cultures Earth Research & Ancient Gods Helping/Supporting the First Incarnated Settlers/Pioneers!!!Ahhh, OK, Tommy I'd not worry about it in fact I'm surprised there hasn't been more comms 'sabotages' recently (given the competence of current shit!!!!). The main problem is that the EAAS is an 'everyone 'significant' is now living on a single' world i.e. they are all now on 'EARTH/one world'. Where as, the original incarnated physical population is in another MV (the one that originated this/our FU EAAS one) which had the entire populations of all races/cultures spread out throughout 4/5 galaxies space/distance populating many, many different planets/physical colonies . . . so, the Egyptians got so pissed off with shenanigans/shit from other cultures that they packed up and moved to a new multiverse (they figured out how to generate one) 'and' they also managed to figure out how to copy/paste there main habited world to the new MV too. So, in physical single planet terms now representing many planets populations all being presented on a single world then in a sense 'symbolically' each 'worlds' population on Earth could be thought of as being represented by an island . . . hence the Atlantis legend here of an island sinking i.e. 'disappearing' . . . which is representing the Egyptian's moving there central 'home' world via some intermultiverse scale of some removals/transportation 'magic' effort!!! So, I've two problems when writing one is trying to figure out WTF was actually going on within the original MV while also then trying to figure out how to 'frame/shrink' anything going on within the original entire MV that's now all being badly mangled because it's being presented on the surface of our single world here!!!! . . . 'AND' . . . from the above, in a sense I'm trying to figure out what is SPECIFIC TO HERE, i.e. what was/is being DONE HERE within our EAAS that wasn't done in the original MV, specifically because it's part of the agenda of 'here'!!! So, based on the last few weeks thinking/figuring out efforts I'm pretty sure that 'humans' weren't used specifically by the Roman's in the original MV, they were used by some other cultures, 'and' the 'bio-engineering' to split the dual sexed human into male and female just happened here . . . as part of making things as difficult as possible for as many people as possible here!!!! In other words, they likely used the human form here because other 'TOP' cultures used the human form (maybe even just for their leaders) to then split it into male and female FOR EVERYONE HERE to make life here as difficult as possible for these leaders/everyone else all being forced/all finding themselves all using a human body when in most cases this wasn't the physical body animal form they originally used AND even if they did use it, it's now been engineered to only have half the features i.e. it's only either male or female here . . . rather than both . . . it's a way of causing as many problems as possible for the greatest number of people 'HERE'!!!!