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    • Clive June 16, 2019 at 4:54 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHi Anne, actually I've read of some recent research that indicates that the Australian Aborigines have gene's highly suggestive of them originating from Africa (which academics cannot understand at all), also there is evidence that many of the native American tribes come from completely different parts of the world (I've seen research indicating that the language and or characteristics of their tribal culture/modes of dress and or 'appearance' suggest that one is 'Irish' another 'Russian' and another 'Japanese' . . . now if you factor in that all of these tribes are hunter/gather's/living off the land and have rituals that are highly suggesting of 'subtle' as well as of them having 'high awareness' of ghosts/spirits i.e. also highly suggestive of high awareness of the subtle then I'm of the mind that these are very competent as well as entirely 'subtle' communities whom have been deliberately COPIED AND PASTED/BEAMED DOWN to very specific physical places/locations where they will be then treated deplorably (by migrants/immigrants to their lands) . . . PLUS as the 'gypsies' are by and large treated in the same way I think they are also exactly the same copied and pasted peoples as the native Americans BUT this time they are converted into 'gypsies' i.e. I think that the specific people (as subtle beings) of various gypsy tribes/communities are 'exactly' the same people/subtle people as a particular Native American tribe or the Australian Aborigines!!!! I KID YOU NOT!!!
    • Clive June 16, 2019 at 3:08 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these Here8. ANOMALOUS SIGHTINGS OF ‘CITIES’ AS WELL AS ‘SHIPS & BOATS’, ALL SPOTTED ‘IN THE SKY’ read from 2 paragraphs above this title on the page!!!
    • Clive June 16, 2019 at 2:26 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereAs the 'city in the sky' comment 'fits' with this page I've added a new section covering these specific 'anomalies': 8. ANOMALOUS SIGHTINGS OF 'CITIES' AS WELL AS 'SHIPS & BOATS', ALL SPOTTED 'IN THE SKY'
    • Anne June 16, 2019 at 1:12 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHi, In mentioning Russia/Africa, I was reminded of when I was in Australia and what a very difference continent it is - flora and fauna developed in an isolated way. Also the Aborigines never built any structures and their lifestyle/culture is so different to the western civilization, there's not a chance they would be interested in integrating in a western style society.
    • Clive June 16, 2019 at 11:32 am on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHi Olivia (this is re the (by flying I mean being in the air in any format. Swinging, microlight, aeroplane, paragliding, zip wire.)) I remembered that you mentioned your 'African' connections, 'Africa' (and Russia) are both very odd in that they 'generally' don't seem to have any obvious ancient 'monuments' (Russia has one or two) . . . 'now' ancient monuments, such as the Avebury stone circle 'complex' and or the pyramids, seem to 'represent' subtle research and tech specifically associated with interfacing people to the physical (so the whole 'Avebury' complex, all of the stone circles, barrows, standing stones are all representing subtle technology efforts) i.e. contrary to popular scientific belief, they weren't built by ancient 'man' as they are of subtle structures that DIDN'T PHYSICALLY EXIST. Basically the entire 'African' race specifically didn't incarnate their people into the physical 'EVER' so, all of their culture their communities always lived in the subtle i.e. in 'THE SKY' . . . strangely I've noticed that occasionally you have reports of sightings of entire 'CITIES IN THE SKY', and, (I'm sure in the past there have been a 'few of these' in African (although I've seen one spotted in China too)) one of these sightings is written about here. So, if you've an entire 'subtle' culture/population living together as a large community 'somewhere' then they'll all be used to having a specific 'place' IN THE SKY that represents their living/community place/space 'AND' those that then spent time 'outside' of the city space would then always see (or in subtle terms they'd 'sense/feel/be aware of') their entire 'city/community' space as always being IN THE SKY/AT A DISTANCE . . . Details of the Chinese city in the sky sighting can be read about here, and on doing more searches there are also bizarre sightings of various types of flying ships and boats . . . which could of course represent sightings of different types of subtle 'transportation/craft' . . . a page describing some of these is here!!! In posting the last link then this reminded me of a film I watched about a year ago, which was of a wooden flying 'ship' being used to travel through 'space'!!!! I'll try and remember which one and give details of it!!! More on cities in the sky here!!!
    • Clive June 14, 2019 at 4:39 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHas anyone had any 'surreal' type experiences related to memories of yesterday in the last 24 hours or so? I've very clear memories of browsing specific topics/book marking specific sites for maybe 2 hours yesterday BUT I've none of these sites bookmarked and my browser history has no record of these . . . in that we 'seemed' to be dealing with EAAS core processor/last shit sets (Remember the Umbrella Academy series has an extinction ending), so, it's possible that a nuclear (cough cough) or other 'extinction' event was initiated i.e. to force the end point/update (I'd thought of this possibility ages ago) . . . in which case it would take a while for those outside to sort it out and then restore us back or at least restore us as much as possible/as well as they are able . . . the only other person I've had feedback on this noticed that his computer updated yesterday and then updated again today i.e. it seemed to have updated itself twice within less than 24hours . . . which also isn't normal!!!!
    • Shalin June 14, 2019 at 12:56 am on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereThe other angle you may want to add (if you haven't already investigated this) is qigong and the Daoist/Taoist literature that speak of supernatural capabilities once someone has acquired sufficient qi and mastered the use of that qi - powers like levitating, teleporting, walking through walls, moving objects without touching them, moving clouds, longevity in terms of lifespan and good health. Although, I suspect that these capabilities aren't really real and instead are some sort of tech implant. Not like any of the above will help people get out of the *SHIT* they are in but just an fyi. However, what I mention below may be useful.... Also the concept of *JING* or *ESSENCE* in TCM - the literature states that every physical human body is born with a *fixed* amount of pre-natal JING/ESSENCE and this energy is stored in the Kidneys and is basically the LIFE Force that sustains life. There is another concept called post-natal JING/ESSENCE, which you can cultivate after birth through herbs, food, energy practices like qigong/taichi and lifestyle. The JING/ESSENCE concept is important in the TCM understanding of *HEALTH/AILMENTS* in the physical as deficiency of JING/ESSENCE leads to all sorts of health issues. Also, one can deplete JING/ESSENCE through emotions such as fear/worry, drugs (may be relevant for Tommy and others), pharmaceuticals, excessive sexual activity, over-work, working night shifts etc. When all jing is depleted the physical body dies. Now ALL this could just be a *tech implant* and/or *software code* that defines how much JING/ESSENCE you have when you are born and how much you are using/depleting/cultivating - but thought this angle might be interesting to explore. Here is a video I believe taken in the 80s of John Chan who is an Indonesian Qigong master. https://www.yo-utube.com/watch?v=TdYM0vNufwc It shows some what appear to be supernatural capabilities - i.e. where he moves a sword without touching it, catching a bullet, igniting a light bulb with his fingers etc. The TCM practitioner who treated me who is a qigong master also spoke of various psychic abilities to be able to attract certain things in your life, read minds, hear people talking who are hundreds of meters away, remote-viewing and so on. The Qigong master community could also be a VR set impacting a community of people such that only those with those VR sets can develop those energetic capabilities....
    • Clive June 14, 2019 at 12:32 am on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHi Pyotr, I'm very sure there is time travel in the original MV 'but' I'm also pretty sure that this isn't a 'natural' subtle body ability it's more 'time travel tech' based (so, 'some' people here will likely have some bizarre fudged experiences that represent time travel because the person they are simulating had these experiences). Having said that I've experiences of various 'time portals and being able to view into the past' I've an example here: Belsay Hall Time Warp – A dimensional window into the past . . . I forgot about the accessing past lives in healing sessions!!! Here is an interesting one: The Egyptian Goddess & Great Pyramid Past Life Healing Session For pre-cognition yea I'm pretty sure that at least some subtle beings have this (I'm not absolutely sure it's 'natural' though), I've had this very consistently for some specific experiences (I've always known (no matter how bizarre or unlikely/never mind impossible it would be) whom I'd have a relationship with in the future) I could also 'absolutely' predict my car breaking down (even to the precise time 'and' the parts I'd need and 'where') . . . Teleportation, I added that to my 'to do' list for this page a week or so back, as I'd completely forgotten about these possibilities, then in updating my realitywalker.com site I was reminded of two very bizarre teleporting experiences I wrote about there: 1. Unicorn’s a Dragon and other Nature Spirits move home 2. Creating & Relocating Abused Miss-Treated Nature Spirits Through a Dimensional Portal So, as all 'nature spirits' represent subtle beings with specific 'skills/experience' then those two examples are of myself teleporting A GROUP OF SUBTLE BEINGS . . . the 'thing' that REALLY GOT ME about these experiences was that doing this was 'Natural/Automatic' I didn't think about it, I just though, yea I'll just teleport them // and then did it - haha // no big 'HooHA/WOW' just like it was perfectly normal!!! Ah, I'm also pretty sure that ALL SUBTLE BEINGS can teleport themselves a decent distance too, that's on top of flying around probably quite fast in any direction as needed . . . so it is VERY LIKELY that ‘some’ people will likely have some bizarre fudged teleporting experiences here because the person/subtle being/form they are simulating had these experiences. I found 2 personal Teleportation Experiences here So, here we are stuck on a flat surface, no natural/automatic hovering around or flying abilities permitted and NO TELEPORTING ALLOWED ANYWHERE, EITHER . . . except to and from New Zealand!!!!
    • Olivia June 13, 2019 at 7:53 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these Here@Tommy - re I don’t know what’s real or fake: you’ve just reminded me that almost every night begin I fall asleep, I see scenes of people/places/people doing things/going places - as if I’m seeing parts of other people’s lives. I don’t know them. And it’s odd. Almost like memories. And I notice this happening at the time, but then always forget in the morning/as soon as I fall asleep. It “feels” as if I must have been there, or seen it from a distance, or even, STILL seeing it from a distance. I also get these sort of data stream type things - like an aura I guess, but it’s just in the air. And I have had loads of weird invisible to other people stuff go on, including having what I suspect are AI's talking shit to me and using emoticons to communicate. I stopped that shit soon after as I thought - that’s f*cked up. Why would anything communicate like that!? But was only after I discovered Clive’s site that I realised it was sim shit. I suspected for a while that things were not as they appeared. Clive - with regard to this 360x360x360 - I’m aware of that. I can feel see sense hear from behind, left, right, in front, behind and I can have different body sensations when I feel in those positions. I often feel like I’m floating too. I love driving really fast (find I’m super focused), sprinting (running), flying, and the sound of aeroplanes (by flying I mean being in the air in any format. Swinging, microlight, aeroplane, paragliding, zip wire. Don’t like to be upside down though. And I love being high up in buildings/mountains). I used to have the most incredible eye sight. I could literally read platform signs on the tube that were at the end of the line (& I was at the start) so the whole platform’s distance. Suddenly one day, that stopped. I can see other things, birds, trees etc in the distance, but not letters. I often feel like I’m elevated when I meditate. (Though bloody have not had the chance to tune in and see what’s going on. Really getting a lot of interference). I also see loads of symbols when I close my eyes. Eye of Horus, upside triangle, circle in a triangle, loads I can’t remember now. It’s not easy being like this.
    • Clive June 13, 2019 at 4:59 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereOlivia (yea it's VERY BAD/STILL 'SHIT' . . . ) & Tommy . . . strangely both of your awareness of the future comments we're perfectly timed, as the next 'wired' into the EAAS versions I was trying to become aware of were of about 50 betrayers/KP whom after being wired into various very sophisticated VR's (to give the person you are simulating the necessary experiences, including having access to peoples 'already pre-defined future' data (because we are each living out someone else's already lived/pre-defined life)) . . . then these 'as data/experiences' we're wired into the EAAS as part of yet another effort to maintain everyone in 'shit' . . . we've dealt with that set now 'BUT' . . . we're now dealing with an inverted 'end of times' Umbrella Academy series version . . . which also has a young time travelling/knows the future guy (who doesn't age) who becomes aware of the 'apocalypse' and does everything to try and stop it (hence it's an inverted version of these efforts that's been wired into here)!!!!
    • Clive June 13, 2019 at 4:47 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsWe have a much greater variety of 'odd' things happening here 'L' at least compared to most other sites . . . at no extra 'charge' either - hahaha!!!!
    • Clive June 13, 2019 at 4:45 pm on Subtle Body Skillwire Implant Technologies Facilitating Enhanced Awareness & Auto Problem Solving. . . which would be 'perfect' if you wanted to use us as 'templates' to update/change the versions of ourselves in the original population into weird FU 'humans'!!!!!
    • Pyotr Olensk June 12, 2019 at 7:37 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereClive, if anyone manages to read it and manages to think of yet more examples then try and leave a comment giving me details!!! A few other examples are people’s expectations of time travel. We expect to /wish to be able to go back in time. Photographs and videos seem to be our only acceptable vehicle to fulfill this expectation, but possibly others have unique-to-them experiences to simulate these experiences for them. A possible corollary to time travel (or could be a separate aspect) could be precognition, like Tommy’s experience described above. You have written of the Dune books, and Paul Atreides had significant precognition abilities. Also the expectation of teleportation /instant relocation. There are some examples of this, but usually found in anomalous experiences. I recall a YouTube video that included videos of a dog that mysteriously appears near the interstate and another of a person who is crossing the street in the path of a speeding car but suddenly finds himself instantly on the side of the road out of harms way. These videos could be fiction but the expectation itself of “teleportation” is a real emotion, as any person stuck in traffic and wishing to instantly be at the destination (and feeling that this is a normal, albeit generally deemed “absurd”, expectation *) can attest. A poor yet “approved” substitute is possibly the use of technological communications like video conferencing. * the “absurd” inner assessment of the emotions about the expectation of teleportation could be an applied aversion to thinking more deeply about the expectation itself. The above experiences could also have vr translations as you have described, further obscuring what’s going on.
    • Olivia June 12, 2019 at 2:48 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHi Clive, haven’t had the chance to read much, or do many exercises (thanks for the latest BTW) - been a F*^CK*NG HELL 8 months (Oct to May). I can see/sense/hear/smell/feel/know loads of shit other people can’t. I can hear plugs that keep mosquitoes away. I can “hear/see” other people’s thoughts even if I’m not facing them. I can see, hear, feel forms/people (family passed other people etc). I know what other people are thinking (often my husband will tell me to get out of his head). I can sense things and see them happening (example: father in law went into hospital for a suspected cancer of the kidney - I knew it was benign, they cut it out anyway. He also had bowel cancer. I could see the operating theatre; knew the surgery was going to be around 12 hours rather than 5; saw a third surgeon enter the theatre to assist; saw his “soul” half out of his body. It was overwhelming. Text my friend to tell her everything I was seeing. Husband called me later to tell me all the things I had seen, including the extra surgeon. Showed him my message. He started shaking. A week later, confirmation of benign kidney. Also can hear “beings” talk to me like they’re standing next to me. Grandfather for example told me my grandmother was going to pass away and that I needed to get to SA as soon as I was able. Knew from October she was dying. Missed her passing by a week. My mom called me frantically to tell me she had an aortic aneurysm in her stomach and she could go in days or years. I knew I wouldn’t make it. She died the day after I called her. She came to me the morning of her death, still in her nighty. I asked my uncle what she was wearing. I have had to learn to tune out a lot of things because I would often get info that really wasn’t my place to know. I got images of my sisters womb and knew she was pregnant before she did. I text my mom to say I’d seen this. 2 days later my sister told me she was pregnant. Also knew my best friend was pregnant with a son before she did. This suddenly started 4 years ago. Was very overwhelming and I thought I was going mental. These are just some of the examples. I became a recluse for a year as the noise/chattering/feelings/info was incessant. Felt as if I was a radio picking up every signal but couldn’t process it as quickly as I was getting it. I found your site a year later. And I’m so grateful I did. Thank you. Hope this helps/answers your question. X
    • Tommy June 12, 2019 at 4:05 am on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereI don’t know what’s real or what’s fake because it translates as psychotic symptoms for me. I mean I see a black dog run. I saw a pig a couple of days ago. I do notice that it’s hard to filter out what’s real what’s fake I told you about that purple pink field in what weird visuals happen it’s mostly indescribable weirdness mostly faces and sometimes it’s scenes of cartoons like the Simpsons or something else. sometimes I see some of the stuff I see in that weird purple field irl later. So bunch of weeks ago I was minding my own business and before I went to sleep I saw a lobster. I had to go to the park and there was a festival and on the banner of the festival was a lobster. Same as the voices in my head. 99% is bullshit but I hear conversations that are still gonna happen. Or I hear conversations that other people are having I’m still going to meet. First time I had something like precognitive dreams was pre drugs when I was 8 or 9 and I was able to see what was going to happen in Italy when I was on holiday there a couple of years later when I was 15/16. I also had plenty of deja vu's. Or things that happened in dreams actually happen later irl after confirming its with the people I dreamed about. Same as with the purple field stuff It mostly happens when I close my eyes and just before I fall asleep I see something. And bam a couple of months later it happens
    • Clive June 12, 2019 at 1:44 am on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereWell, they perhaps aren't as competent as they think they are if he cannot figure this out himself i.e. that his understandings of communications with perhaps specific 'others' are obviously being deliberately sabotaged/depreciated keeping himself locked within a contained/limited and perhaps 'incorrect' view point!!!!
    • Pyotr Olensk June 12, 2019 at 1:14 am on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereInteresting evaluation of the situation. .. likely arrives in their heads in an unconverted state and is hence then not understandable [to them] He once stated my words were “static”, referring to what didn't align with his cohesive narrative, and especially to what was at direct odds with it. The reaction was initially surprising to me but then I realized the word choice seemed representative of something likely jamming his ability to perceive and understand me. Re remote viewing - this seems like a primary experience for him incl regarding his perceptions of me but he’s obviously viewing something/someplace else.
    • Clive June 11, 2019 at 6:07 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereThere is yet another consistent as well as normal 'subtle form' experience which is translated here as REMOTE VIEWING . . . people whom can see or 'sense' get coherent information/details of things that 'coincidentally' are outside/way beyond the range of human sight/hearing/smell etc . . . does anyone have any experiences of this?
    • Clive June 11, 2019 at 3:26 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsSorry Jessica, it's been 'generally' very bad for weeks (I and others have had impossible computer problems regularly) and to a certain extent I started to write these specific pages because these are core/accurate with respect to ourselves as subtle beings AND as 'EVERYTHING' related to the subtle, our subtle form it's functioning/circumstances as well as accurate details of it's living environment are all EXCEPTIONALLY as well as ABSOLUTELY outlawed/NOT ALLOWED HERE . . . then it's forcing remaining shit into the foreground/making it much more obvious as it takes action to suppress/react against these pages . . .
    • Clive June 11, 2019 at 2:10 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereMMmmmm, (this is for Tommy & Pyotr) from recent comments here and from an accumulation of experiences over many years I've had to conclude that it's extremely difficult to separate out the 'subtle originated/specific experiences' the 360x360x360 awareness/sensing abilities from the EAAS/sims efforts to maintain very specific groups 'collective thoughts/ideas/perspectives and understandings' . . . for example I pointed out on pages here (now likely a decade+ old) explaining that the new age people are in a group/collective fantasy . . . 'HOWEVER' for them/that group it's obviously a very coherent i.e. VERY, VERY, VERY REAL i.e. 'none fantasy' to 'THEMSELVES', which is also obviously EXTREMELY IMPRESSED ON THEMSELVES because they all keep doing the same things while everything here marches on getting worse and worse ('generally' including the own and their clients health issues etc getting worse and worse too) . . . the same goes for the vast majority 99.999% whom are into the 'Matrix/Glitches in the Matrix' possibilities they too are all put into some sort of 'group' 'collective consciousness/coherent symbolic 'thinking/discussion' space" within which they are made to write in some sort of what can only be described as 'symbolic code' i.e. the 'gibberish' they write is 'obviously' presented and or decoded IN THEIR 'PERSONAL' HEADS ONLY to actually mean something to themselves as a group (when in my terms it's all incoherent gibberish/mindless nonsense) i.e. they are made to 'feel/believe/are convinced' is very 'real/true/correct' despite that the words/sentences/paragraphs they write are 'obviously' irrational/illogical/mindless nonsense!!! So, Pyotr the same thing seems to be happening/being done to this guy you mention, he and likely some specific others close to him are all in their own little symbolic/ideas/perspectives 'fantasy' within which everything all 'input' is assessed for 'coherence' with respect to their own internal 'symbolic' conversion 'engine' to get translated in and out into something that from anyone outside of their personal to themselves symbolic 'translation matrix' it just won't make any sense, such that 'they/this specific group' to those outside of this group what they say just won't make any sense . . . AND/ALSO from their perspective as you are outside of this 'conversion/translation MATRIX' what you say/state isn't converted (no matter how rational/correct) and so to them, what you say/state likely arrives in their heads in an unconverted state and is hence then not understandable/doesn't 'fit' with their own internal to themselves only 'FANTASY REALM' perspectives/world view!!!
    • Shalin June 11, 2019 at 1:40 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!Interesting comment by Rose -- I can attest to the *kundalini* shit as for the past 4 years I've had uncontrollable energy rushing to the head like my heads going to explode. Chinese medicine says its liver yang rising and its fucking up my mental state. I can barely do anything and constantly feel on edge/agitated/irritated and get all sorts of nutty crazy thoughts (violent) - I can totally see how people do crazy things when they are in this state as the agitation is at a maximum. You just cant sit still and settle down. I cant watch action films or even high paced sports like hockey, basketball as the stimulation is too much for my nervous system to handle.
    • Clive June 11, 2019 at 1:25 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!I check out/read articles on this site for these angles every so often Rose: MADinAmerica, it's always got some interesting none 'main stream' perspectives/articles!!!
    • Rose June 11, 2019 at 12:16 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!This is from WHO's website, about the ICD - it sounds like taken from an EAAS Department 'Manifesto': "ICD-11: Classifying disease to map the way we live and die. Coding disease and death. There are few truer snapshots of a country’s wellbeing than its health statistics. While broad economic indicators such as Gross Domestic Product may skew impressions of individual prosperity, data on disease and death reveal how a population is truly faring. The International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems (ICD) is the bedrock for health statistics. It maps the human condition from birth to death: any injury or disease we encounter in life − and anything we might die of − is coded. Not only that, the ICD also captures factors influencing health, or external causes of mortality and morbidity, providing a holistic look at every aspect of life that can affect health. These health statistics form the basis for almost every decision made in health care today − understanding what people get sick from, and what eventually kills them, is at the core of mapping disease trends and epidemics, deciding how to programme health services, allocate health care spending, and invest in R&D. ICD codes can have enormous financial importance, since they are used to determine where best to invest increasingly scant resources. In countries such as the USA, meanwhile, ICD codes are the foundation of health insurance billing, and thus critically tied up with health care finances. Crucially, in a world of 7.4 billion people speaking nearly 7000 languages, the ICD provides a common vocabulary for recording, reporting and monitoring health problems. Fifty years ago, it would be unlikely that a disease such as schizophrenia would be diagnosed similarly in Japan, Kenya and Brazil. Now, however, if a doctor in another country cannot read a person’s medical records, they will know what the ICD code means. Without the ICD’s ability to provide standardized, consistent data, each country or region would have its own classifications that would most likely only be relevant where it is used. Standardization is the key that unlocks global health data analysis." You can see a few examples of the 'codings' on the page: Gender Incongruence Code HA47 Gaming disorder Code 6C51 Post-Traumatic Stress disorder Code 6B40 https://www.who.int/health-topics/international-classification-of-diseases
    • Rose June 11, 2019 at 12:06 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!Since 1965 WHO have published a register of all known physical and mental diseases and illnesses, The International Classification of Diseases, ICD. The current version describes 380(!) different types of 'mental illness'! It describes which symptoms and which behaviour belongs to which disorder, and is used for diagnosing internationally. The next part of the psychiatry programme I wrote about in a comment above were equally terrible. One had as theme the, to the psychiatrists and the National Health Department, well known side effect and risk that young people can get suicidal from SSRI antidepressants ('happy pills'), when they start taking them. And they showed a 17 years old young man, who had never been suicidal until his doctor gave him those SSRI - to help him sleep better at night(!) - who had then suddenly committed suicide 2 weeks later, leaving a letter to his parent about how the pills were making him feel totally weird and wrong. And his parents desperate attempt to get someone to take responsibility for that and acknowledge that it happens. One psychiatry professor said: "The diagnose is completely dependent on establishing contact and talk with the patient", talking as if they actually do that. Which they absolutely don't do. They only 'interact' through a standard set of 'questions' about whether you hear voices, see 'signs', believe you have superpowers, feel that you know what other people thing and feel etc etc, and never ask you about what you yourself feel is going on or how you are doing (other than meaning "how is the medicine working"). The critical psychiatrists talked about that we have a psychiatric system that won't allow/where it is impossible to ever be declared cured. Technically seen it is also not possible to demand that anything gets changed in your journal, since it is seen as a "historical document" (and saved in the national archives!). So if you once got a diagnosis it will have consequences for the rest of your life, regardless of whether the diagnosis was correct or not (something that I and many others have experienced in various far out ways, first hand). In spring 2019 the parliament here turned down a proposition that psychiatric patients in the future can be declared 'cured' if they haven't had any symptoms and and been without medicinal treatment in a long period. And they talked about if you get a physical disease, you won't get the treatment you need (I have known people who had that happen, in one instance it was near fatal). And how you will get discriminated in many different ways. (There are for example several (Western) countries you can't get visa for if you answer the application questions honestly, USA and Australia among others). According to the statistics the number of psychiatric patients have tripled in Denmark in the last 20 years and every third(!) Dane will now come in contact with the psychiatric system and get a diagnosis (at least one) in their lifetime. (Earlier they used to say it was 20%, which is already scarily many). While Denmark has at the same time for several years in a row been determined "the happiest country in the world", judged by some absurd parameters (which I suspect are mostly economic and work hours related), absurd because at least 10% of the population here are on antidepressants. @Tommy - it's really great you managed to avoid the psychiatry, Tommy! I unfortunately didn't have a choice. I was 'forced' hospitalised, because I had suicidal thoughts. Something that was never once discussed in the multitudes of inquisition like 'interrogations' I went through with a large number of doctors. But it is a 'stamp' that has followed me ever since. I had 'kundalini run amok' after a large dosis of yoga, meditation, rebirthing and bad therapy, and was in some quite extreme 'transpersonal' states, but not 'psychotic' in the normal use of the word. A large percentage of the people in the psychiatric hospitals obviously (if you know about it) have 'kundalini' shit. Something that is definitely not described in the ICD register, or acknowledged by the psychiatrists. Even though they must have encountered the same 'symptoms' loads of times, and then just chosen to ignore that fact and force people into their rigid set of 'diagnoses'.
    • Pyotr June 9, 2019 at 10:54 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereClive, re: Pyotr, it might help/be useful to give me 1 or 2 ‘real’ examples of this with respect to your own experiences (as these may be very specific to you/a small population sub set)!!!! There’s lots of examples when interacting with new age people since they always get me wrong, like they see whatever they want to see (or what their experience dictates, perhaps) when they try to “perceive” me via what they’d call energy or subtle senses. But the most extreme example is someone I met about five years ago, who claims extreme competence, that he has access to billions of multiverses, and that his subtle sensory competence is so great he can sense who someone “is” just by reading something they write. He and the people who follow his narrative are observably deeply involved in a very complex narrative and when I began either sharing my own experiences that were at odds with how he believed things to be and what he stated was “actively really happening in real time”, or even when I questioned outright the holes in his explanations of “how things are”, things began to become extremely aggressive in my life. The level of energetic torture skyrocketed, my life pretty much ground to a halt with everything going haywire. He waged an aggressive smear campaign against me amongst the people who follow his narrative, telling them terrible things that he perceived me to be “here”, plus his perceptions of the terrible person he states my life is based on, and it seemed it was to discredit me thoroughly, disparage my character and make sure everyone would forever shun me and not ever interact with me. At the time I had noticed how wrong his perceptions were of me, but had no substantive “real world” evidence that subtle perceptions are not reliable. However, on accident, in the midst of this shitfest of aggressive effects on all fronts of my life, I discovered proof. To quell conflict with close others in my own life who also did not want me to interact with this man, one day I created a new email with a new name to use for a comment post on his blog. Pretty stupidly basic but it led to uncovering real and shocking evidence that something very odd was going on, despite the proclamations of this man that his narrative was completely reliable to describe the totality of everyone’s experiences and his own role as the most competent center of it. It started with the bizarre anomaly that he DID NOT recognize it was me when he “perceived” me using his “subtle senses”. Over the years he has slowly began to share his and his followers’ perceptions of me (as this different name), perceptions that were very different from how he’d described me previously. Basically he (and the other “extremely competent” people in his group) “perceived” me as a completely separate person from who he originally perceived me to be when using his “subtle senses” (which was also wrong), just because I used a new name. It’s obvious this “new person” he perceived me to be, plays a key role in his elaborate narrative so “something” arranged for him to get this new character in his perceptions via such a stupidly obvious and simplistic manner. The story gets even weirder and more aggressive towards me/my life from there, along with a growing body of evidence, like if I tell him using direct terms about something relating to the “subtle” that is affecting himself versus using the third person to refer to him in the situation, his interpretation and reactions and the accompanying “story” he uses to explain it, are wildly different, despite that I’m revealing the same thing. I have learned I have to use third person descriptions, otherwise myself/my life gets attacked in even more aggressive ways than when I speak of it directly.
    • Tommy June 8, 2019 at 9:43 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereHmmmm the knowing what’s going on with other happened a lot with me but for me it translates on knowing what they dreamed. When I was like 9 or ten I woke up panicked because something happened to Stella she was my 20 year older ex but that was before I knew or met her irl. She dropped from some concrete blocks. The people I met in college and I hung out a lot with i asked them about their dreams and I could fill in parts of the dream. When a girl I hung out with in middle school did lsd for the first time she freaked out bad trip I had the same I saw it happen tried to calm her down. My friends on shrooms were talking to a painting I was sleeping but I was talking with them through the painting. I confirmed that later with them. My Afghan friend was doing shrooms with her cousin and that guy made a portrait of me while I wasn’t there. When I was sleeping I dreamed about my little brother he was drunk as hell he tied a flag around his neck and was being a idiot he went inside a house and stole a bunch of weed. We talked about it a couple of days later. When my friends dropped the lsd I left in their fridge I was there with them in Haarlem while I was in Amsterdam. During my second lsd trip I was walking near the house of a future gf I hadn’t met. I was like ow lol that’s anna and just carried on with my stuff. This what you wrote actually makes a lot of sense of all the weird things that happened. Somehow when I take drugs I get glimpses of the future that can be visuals that can be sensations or some translation of their energy. The reason I stopped doing drugs is because I went really psychotic like having sensations of other people inside my bodies the voices and a lot of yeah I call it possession shenanigans because it feels like I sometimes am stuck inside others peoples bodies. The floating has been translated in me always living high i never had a room on the ground floor. With my parents I had a attic the last place in the bijlmer was also on the 3 floor my house I have now is on the 4th floor. I hope this helps
    • Jessica Antunes June 8, 2019 at 6:54 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsReality should not reaaally like this pages … since wednesday (when I committed to read these pages) that only shit have happened to me, like… every single day! Wednesday – I almost sneaked twice while I was driving because a rear tire was much more empty than the rest... Thursday – find I actually had the tire stuck because it was totally empty in the morning… Friday – the person who lives with me lost the keys of my car… Saturday – I lost my wallet with my 2 pens and all my documents in there (and I have not found it yet)… Today – had a ridiculous dream that pertinently was trying to frighten me about things related to the subtle… And this not to mention that the first time I committed to read the pages I had the idea of going first to do something else that would take me maybe many days … however, contrary to what reality would probably like, I changed my mind and left what I had to do for second place, let's see... (Ahh and when I was about to post, my computer hung up out of the blue… more… when I was opening the page where I have my comment saved, I had to wait because… the office was updating........)
    • Clive June 8, 2019 at 5:51 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereVery Bizarre NEW section added to this page: 8. ANOMALOUS AS WELL AS CONSISTENT EXAMPLES OF SPECIFIC PEOPLE/HUMANS HERE BEING REPRESENTED AS IF THEY ARE A ‘PLANT’ AS A TREE!!!!
    • Clive June 8, 2019 at 5:41 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsBasically, Kyra they've been far too difficult to write about as they are 1) too 'revealing' of the KEEP SUBTLE EXPERIENCES HIDDEN EFFORTS programm, so there is massive EAAS SHIT efforts expended to put you off/make it as difficult as possible to write about these . . . while 2) also making you worried about writing in great detail of weird shit/experiences that relates to yourself too!!!!
    • Clive June 8, 2019 at 5:35 pm on Invisible Subtle Body Skillwire Implants/Systems Facilitated Experience Examples IntroductionSounds to me as if you've a most time/distance maximum efficiency 'assessing' implant Annebelle!!!! It's the only thing that makes sense!!!!
    • Clive June 8, 2019 at 5:31 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereEVERYONE in that our fake realities 'shit' efforts has disabled 'replying' to individuals then if you want to reply to someone's comment then write your comment in the comment box at the bottom with the 'NAME' (i.e. Clive) of the comment author it's a reply to while also starting the reply by copying and pasting the first say 5/6 words of the start of comment too (so I can easily find it (for example to reply to this one you would use "EVERYONE in that our fake realities")) before then writing your reply to it!!!!
    • Clive June 8, 2019 at 5:20 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HerePyotr, it might help/be useful to give me 1 or 2 'real' examples of this with respect to your own experiences (as these may be very specific to you/a small population sub set)!!!!
    • Flynn June 7, 2019 at 8:16 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!Whoa haha this one’s wild too. It’s like the movie with that mate Jeff Goldblum, The Fly, where the scientist gets merged with a fly but doesn’t know it. But more like you’re a spider-dude (but not Spider-Man). I see you like you’re a tiny head that’s surrounded in a ceramic bubble and a cone around your neck like a dog’s cone after a trip to the vet, and behind you you’re connected to a spider’s butt of a big storehouse of data. There’s tiny robot spiders surrounding you making decisions about what people experience, weaving it and they send it out from the butt that’s connected to your head, down spider web threads to mess with peoples lives. The cone ahahah man that’s what we call a cone of shame when the dog comes home with one, and he can’t lick himself when it’s on. I guess it would keep you from seeing the data coming out your spiders butt ahaha. Sorry man looks like that sucks
    • Pyotr Olensk June 7, 2019 at 1:36 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereAn extension of #2 is that some people absolutely believe they can perceive others using their “alternate senses”/subtle senses, but they experience the reverse of their expectations. Instead of well coordinated experiences between people, as #2 suggests, their “subtle senses / perceptions” of others are wrong, unverifiable and inconsistent, often perceiving others in a manner that, while consistent with the “perceiver’s” own cohesive narrative, is inconsistent with the other’s experiences. This suggests the number of environments is well beyond two environments, as you allude to at the end of the article. The expectation itself, much like the expectation to fly, seems to drive people in certain behavioral ways, blinding them from seeing what “is”. — I feel like my attempts to shed light on these anomalies and areas of confirmation bias have resulted in severe retaliations against me, where my observations and critiques of others experiences, and the inconsistencies that their expectations and experiences present, resulted in harsh payback against me.
    • Shalin June 7, 2019 at 1:01 am on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!2 rounds of new focus - I can't seem to access my *shit* stores/caches. What I do see when I close my eyes is: -the 1980's Nintendo video game Legend of Zelda - particularly the secrets/hidden stuff in the game and how you access them (here is an example where you burn down a tree to reveal a secret stairway for instance https://youtu.be/Cz11rQ0q2vY?t=250) -I also see fragments of what appear to be shapes of *data* with different colours like in the 1980s Nintendo video game Tetrus (https://youtu.be/Wod_jo-7NKI?t=563). The unfragmented/decoded form is put together by connecting/fitting together *like* colours of the shapes or something of that nature. -Another 1980s Nintendo video game *Simon's Quest* came to mind as well as it too had loads of hidden/secrets. I also sense some kind of RAM table and scripts running on something like a linux server that decrypt/untar/unzip files and run scripts after which they delete the files (while the encrypted/tar'd/zipped forms remain to be decrypted/untar'd/unzipped again in the next interval of execution). I personally run python scripts for my *work* but don't know if that is at all connected. As well, my colleague at work is designing all sorts of data structures to assist me in my work (which I'm currently taking a break from) so I thought of all the data he is loading up in RAM to support our data mining activities but can't see how that is in anyway connected. Or is it... That all said, I can't seem to identify where whatever I see is located. At the current time I am unable to identify the location of my data stores and unable to decipher how the maintaining stuff is operating. Just a brief feedback for you. Will continue to play with focus and circle back if/once I see something more meaningful.
    • Clive June 6, 2019 at 4:02 pm on Details of our Subtle/Spirit Form, the Subtle Environment & the Various/Many Anomalous Experiences Substituting for these HereWorst page to write so far and got worse and worse to read/edit the more examples of anomalous experiences representing missing subtle form and subtle environment experiences I managed to figure out and add to it . . . worth reading . . . if anyone manages to read it and manages to think of yet more examples then try and leave a comment giving me details!!!
    • Clive June 4, 2019 at 6:33 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!All regulars/read use this focus . . . Shalin that's a very good description of some of that shit sets strategies/efforts to 'avoid' being pinned down/being found and or dealt with!!!! FINDING ALL VARIATIONS OF PERSONAL DATA/SHIT STORES: We've been making an effort recently to focus on finding all personal data stores as if we find and then edit these we can then at times reduce the shit effects impacting people, at least for a while, sometimes a long while before some over checking tech/system kicks in and realises the shit effects/trauma data set currently in use isn't complete . . . so, 'EVERYONE' use the latest focus below (do once or twice then leave for a few days before doing it again): " . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely all data stores and or caches and or as or in any fragmented/fractionated/dispersed/encoded and or any non-data and or non-cache forms that are directly or indirectly storing and or indirectly/obliquely and or in deliberately confusingly ways 'referencing' any/ALL types of mind/spirit/subtle/emotional/feelings/mental/physical body impacting and or any life aspect impacting/degrading and or shit maintaining circumstances and or trauma/shit effects/health symptoms/ailments and or psychological/behavioural problems and or shit 'life circumstances' and or shit/debilitating decision outcomes and or all delivery and or conversion parameters and particularly to allow people/anyone to be directly or indirectly impacted in many different/alternate internal and or external ways and or via any/many different circumstances/situations/types of impacts and particularly as part of achieving the same 'trauma/debilitating/maintaining and or increasing' effect/outcome and or particularly any negative physical body and or internal aspect impacting and or external relationship and or life circumstances/situation impacting' and or any other negative/debilitating outcome/outcomes AT ALL and or as part of any long term strategy/efforts/combinations of effects/efforts . . . and I connect to absolutely all designers, absolutely all designing VR’s and absolutely all testing VR’s ‘ANYWHERE’ that we’re specifically focused on and or where part of any efforts to keep any all personal data absolutely completely hidden and impossible to find and or identify/decode and or get access to . . . “" Shit 'maintaining' versions over the last few weeks have all been in a super ultra compressed form that are then decompressed/unpacked within some 'system' memory space. . . so, we've been chasing down designers and initial designs efforts as well as VR testing and 'integrating/playing nicely' with other shit versions spaces/places . . . so there appears to be 'nothing' left BUT that's because it's relying on having remaining shit sets hidden in these super/ultra compressed forms that once unpacked/decompressed in memory these disperse and 'do their thing' while also then trying very hard not to be hacked!!!!
    • Megan June 3, 2019 at 4:35 am on Self Exploration / Healing EXERCISE-4 – Target what Defines & Contains MySelf & MyLIFE1) I’m feeling sensations in my head (third eye area,) heart (heavy,) and solar plexus. The realization finally dawned on me that I’m being stopped from being creative, joyful, expressive or honest in any way, shape or form because the sim doesn’t want me making or doing anything that might actually help others or undo what they have done. I just see and feel myself simply surrender to the focus, and I start crying. I have tried to be strong on my own for so long. Strength as I have come to know it is just how much and how well you can repress/fight your own feelings to move on and get through life day by day. 2) Physical sensations are picking up especially in my heart and solar plexus region and now the middle of my back. Being hard on myself is how I was taught/programmed to correct myself. I am my own worst critic in every situation where I fail, embarrass myself or frustrate/hurt/anger others. And it has never worked, it only further isolated me from others. I realize if I’m going to protect and support those around me, I’m going to have to get more aggressive with the focuses (more heaviness in the solar plexus.) I realize I have to forgive myself, especially this sensitive, inner, emotional self who has tried so hard to fix things and make things right but I have never really appreciated or understood before her compassion and optimism in others which often left me frustrated because she never gave up (despite all the trauma I’ve been through.) Reading the last two paragraphs, I am urged to take a break once I finish the focus and I just break down into this ugly crying mess. I have never really had a break since I started this journey. I feel bad for taking breaks because it means works not being done and things are being solved. I don’t want to seen as lazy or weak.
    • Clive June 1, 2019 at 2:49 pm on What Defines ‘ME’, HEALING EXERCISE-2 – A New, More ‘Passive’ Approach to Identifying ‘EVERYTHING’ Contributing to ‘YOU’Mmmm, well Deke it could be that as subtle beings you and your son are 'twins' and as such the sim could use this as a piss taking excuse to direct it to your son/twin in ways to cause problems!!!
    • Clive June 1, 2019 at 2:47 pm on Negative Issue Identifying HEALING EXERCISE-1: To Identify Everything that Defines or Contributes to my Issues & Moment by Moment ExperiencesYea, Dake that might be better for 'inner sensing' people as I at least at times 'do the focus' sort of in the background while 'feeling into' what responds/how it responds!!!!
    • L June 1, 2019 at 2:15 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsI have been reading your website for quite some time. Today, when I clicked on the link to your site, I ended up with this page: "Our system thinks you might be a robot! We're really sorry about this, but it's getting harder and harder to tell the difference between humans and bots these days. Please complete the captcha below to prove you're a human and proceed to the page you're trying to reach." I entered the captcha and managed to access this site normally. I opened another Soul-Healer tab to check if I will get the same "robot challenge" screen and didn't get any. Very weird experience indeed. I'm aware this may not be the right page to post this. I just don't know where else I can write about this. Sorry for your trouble and thanks for writing the articles.
    • Shalin May 29, 2019 at 10:08 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!When I do the *insane* state focus I get some weird sense - something to do with a helicopter kind of vehicle that is emitting *shit* or executing *subroutines* using a random number generator - perhaps its a random number generator that is being used to select which subroutines get executed/run and that determines what shit is being emitted into me/others. Its hard to describe as that vehicle like structure also goes in and out of existence if this makes any sense. There is a concept in Chinese Medicine of *wild qi* and usually occurs with a separation of yin and yang - which occurs when one becomes extremely deficient in either the yin or the yang of any organ system. Then the qi begins to behave wildly causing insane mental/emtional states and this in turn is also associated with various physical disease patterns (MS, Parkinson's etc). Somehow I am getting that this state is actually some how related to this insanely behaving *shit*. I will keep trying this focus to see if I can describe it better of it things become more clearer. I'm sorry that this wasn't any clearer. I’m also getting what seems to be a pin ball game of sorts – where metal balls whose movements are influenced by what they touch/hit, which also then triggers different subroutines based on what they are touching/hitting/activating – which is kind of consistent with the random number generator concept I reported earlier. Also get some kind of game like the Plinko game in Price is right – where the chips move about randomly in the pegs and based on where they land different subroutines are being triggered. Here is a youtube of the Plinko game: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOCQf-IGZNU Now I could be being *mislead/misguided* by what I am seeing when I close my eyes but this is the kind of thing I am sensing. Will keep playing with it and report back if I see something entirely different than the sort of random generator type of thing I am sensing.
    • dake May 29, 2019 at 8:02 pm on What Defines ‘ME’, HEALING EXERCISE-2 – A New, More ‘Passive’ Approach to Identifying ‘EVERYTHING’ Contributing to ‘YOU’Don't know if this is exercise related but I was doing exercise 3 ,4 - parts of exercise 5, and my 4 year old son got extreme pain in the legs. I don't know exactly when the pain come, because we were apart from each other, but according to mom’s description when it occurred it can originated with exercise 3 or 4. When they came home I just started with exercise 5 and it got really bad, so bad that I stopped. The pain went away but I promised Sim to continue tomorrow, because I don't want Sim to get away with this.
    • dake May 29, 2019 at 8:33 am on Negative Issue Identifying HEALING EXERCISE-1: To Identify Everything that Defines or Contributes to my Issues & Moment by Moment ExperiencesDo the exercises also work if I record my voice while reading the exercise and then focus while I listening at the recorded exercise?
    • Megan May 29, 2019 at 2:20 am on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!I read the ‘Millennium’ series a while back, and two things caught my interest. One was Lisbeth’s relationship to her twin sister, Camilla. How Camilla was the golden child, being smart and perfect while Lisbeth was pretty much a disgrace. My mother often compared me to other classmates of mine who were going to go onto college and get into successful careers and make a lot of money. And it seemed no matter what I did, I could never compete and never keep up. Another is just how relatable Lisbeth Salander was as a character in how the doctors and government officials called her crazy and tried to subvert and disgrace her. I have gone to great lengths to repress myself emotionally to stop people from putting me down or to keep them from calling me crazy, even to the point of isolating myself from society (for the most part) since it caused more pain than good to deal with people. Yet, even after finishing the series (I only read the first three books) I still felt like something was missing. A few months later I was watching a walkthrough of the videogame Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice, where the main character suffers from psychosis, and I could really relate to a lot of the stuff Senua had to deal with mentally and emotionally (granted I don’t physically hallucinate or hear voices like she does in the game. They are more like thoughts and impressions. I call them ghosts.) While watching this the thought hit me, ‘It wasn’t enough to call me crazy. They actually made me crazy.’ While this was eye opening, the question of how popped into my mind, and even in thinking of Clive’s pages and what they revealed, it didn’t feel quite right. It wasn’t until watching the Hannibal episode ‘Buffet Froid’ (season1, episode 10) when Hannibal convinced the neurologist to ignore Will’s condition for the sake of science did it finally hit me, ‘It’s not that they made me crazy. They knew something was wrong and used it against me.’ By the time the episode was over I was left feeling that the field of psychology is nothing more than a sham.
    • Shalin May 28, 2019 at 11:45 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!Tommy, I think the dollhouse shenanigans have also fucked me too given my experiences of what seemed like invisible beings speaking to me at various points in my life making me think I was crazy. As well as sensations as if something was trying to enter my body while I was asleep. I even had an experience as a 3 year old where I walked into my moms room and there was this *thing* covered in a bed sheet standing there and it spoke to me. Combine that with drug shenanigans (in my case pharmaceuticals) i.e. antidepressants, antipsyhotics, the acne drug ACCUTANE (ISOTRETINOIN) and alcohol use - sometimes while I was on those medications have royally messed me up. Have had lots of blackouts after drinking when I was in my 20s and I always wondered in fear what misdeeds I may have done in my intoxicated state as there were a few (extreme rage). But that was only part of the problem - I get that I must have been working on the sim without any leisure (all work and no play) as I've done the same as a work-a-holic combined with shenanigans that gave me an extremely high sex drive from childhood (depleted a lot of kidney *jing* as they say in Chinese medicine) but also had shenanigans that made people, especially women ignore me / stay away from me (although certain family/friends also ignored me and eventually disengaged from me altogether). Even had manipulations that caused extreme boats of fears (sexual traumas) repeatedly despite knowing cognitively that there was nothing to fear but it was uncontrollable. Still have loads of anger festering especially targeted towards authority figures like politicians/governments/religious-figure/western-medicine-docs/my-dad and what not. I recently ripped up pictures of buddhist/hindu deities my mom had up in our house (ganesh, shiva, krishna, buddha and various others) and cursed them in a fit of rage as I was tired of all the hell symptoms despite the healing pujas (which I now know is bullshit) my family paid temples in India to do for us a few years ago- hopefully the deities or the AI's don’t retaliate - haha.
    • Kyra May 28, 2019 at 5:35 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsThat’s so interesting you realized the experience of someone designing/redesigning you and your “implants/filters” was delivered as an “internal to yourself ‘only’ virtual reality type presentation/overlay”. Is that an auto generated vr presentation overlay created for you “on the fly” to experience here, or did someone custom design it for you before the beginning? It’s obviously very specific and special so regardless it would have needed extreme care to create the vr experience for you properly. Sorry I know you probably have already figured these questions out and don’t want to be bothered answering them, it’s just very interesting and I’ve never seen you describe in detail certain angles of how your very detailed experience was actually designed to be so complex and involved, with perfect progression and coordination, and who designed them. That person(s) would have to have already known everything about you and what you were scheduled to experience and how, in order to design it all, wouldn’t they, based on your descriptions on this site of how this reality was designed. Thanks for this interesting article.
    • Clive May 28, 2019 at 2:42 pm on First Awareness of a ‘Version of Myself’ Designing Subtle Body Functioning Adjusting ImplantsAs these new pages cover many different angles of the subtle reality and subtle body form details as well as of aspect of the subtle bodies functioning ALL of which is absolutely 'outlawed/not allowed here' then it's taking a very long time to write/read/re-read/re-write these in efforts to pull out more and more detail . . . these are the hardest pages I've actually written . . .
    • Annabelle May 26, 2019 at 2:20 am on Invisible Subtle Body Skillwire Implants/Systems Facilitated Experience Examples IntroductionThanks for the fascinating new series Clive. I cannot even imagine taking a detour while I am going about driving or working on my day’s business. Before I even get out of bed I have the entire day’s route mapped out in my head. It is always a loop from my house, with the shortest possible time and distance. I rarely add anything into my schedule unless I pre-calculate the time needed and feel I can bend time / re-render frames to accommodate the additional tasks. Every once in a while I get tempted to go off path and am very frustrated by the amount of wasted time going off on wild goose chases that never amounted to anything. I mentioned that all heck broke lose in February, but now I see those changes evolving , and most are for the best for all individuals involved - whether in relationships or financial issues. Whatever was going to happen was perhaps not in their best interest?
    • Tommy May 24, 2019 at 9:53 pm on Modern Medicine, Quality of Research & Health Care Approaches, Practices & Recommendations & the Observable ‘Insane’ Outcomes!!!Lol I think the new focus wouldn’t do much for people who didn’t take drugs in the past. Else you would be sitting on a goldmine hahaha. My mom bought me shoes with borg on it last September I should have known. So eh dollhouse shenanigans borg shenanigans and drug shenanigans wauw no wonder I’m always so angry. That explains a lot. Lemme know if you need anything more. Please Clive though let your invisible mates give me a heads up when I’m going into another temper tantrum state. There is so much anger and frustration that’s not fun tbh. I have something new some weird ear spasm stuff on the right. If I have some communication tech can you guys switch it off. I’m sick of the jabbering voices.